i really don't like you

It was already late at night when Jiang Yuebai woke up again, and he slept soundly and deeply. From the afternoon until now, he stared blankly at the dark sky outside the window. He came out and smiled at him, "Are you awake? Then go sit at the dining table and wait for sister, the soup will be ready in no time."

Jiang Yuebai's stewed soup has been Jiang Yuebai's favorite food since he was a child. He has a big appetite, and his mood has improved a lot. His stomach is round after drinking, and he is very satisfied when he falls on the chair.

After tidying up his things, Jiang Yueyue took off his apron and sat next to him, asking softly, "Bai Bai, do you understand?"

Jiang Yuebai was confused: "What do you want to understand?"

"Song Yi, there are many other things."

"But it's just Song Yi, I think, I don't have the energy to take care of other things." Jiang Yuebai laughed at herself, put her head on the cold dining table,

Ask: "Sister, tell me, why does Song Yi like me?"

Jiang Yue said with a smile: "He has liked you since high school. I didn't know when you and him became friends. How could I know this?"

It's just a matter of love, where does it need a reason?

"It's pointless to dwell on this now." She said: "The important thing is your response, in vain, what are you going to do now?"

"I..." Jiang Yuebai sighed slightly: "I wish I could go back in time now, I promise not to go to the hotel to find him, at least now we are still good friends who have been dating for more than ten years, instead of the embarrassing situation we are in now."

"But it's already like this now." Jiang Yueyue asked seriously, "Do you like Song Yi?"

"What?" Jiang Yuebai jumped up from the sofa: "Sister, what are you talking about?"

"Don't worry." Jiang Yuebai was self-evident, and only guided him kindly: "Let me ask, do you like Song Yi?"

Jiang Yuebai's face flushed red, not from anger, but from embarrassment after being exposed: "Why do you ask that?"

"Because you have no choice, there are only two roads before you."

"sister.."

"Either accept Song Yi, or lose Song Yi from now on, there is no third way."

"Why can't you go back and be friends?" Jiang Yuebai said anxiously.

"No, for nothing."

Jiang Yuebai became more and more emotional: "Why not?"

It's not that he doesn't know the reason, it's just that he doesn't want to think about it, he doesn't want to think about it.

Jiang Yueyue lowered her voice and said, "This is too unfair to Song Yi, he has been by your side for 10 years—"

"Who said that?" Thinking of Lu Qi, Jiang Yuebai felt sour again: "Except for me, I think his emotional life is very rich."

"Baibai" Jiang Yueyue patted him on the head: "He has guarded you for 10 years, but he has no obligation to delay you for another ten years."

"What do you mean?" The sour mood quickly turned into panic because of Jiang Yueyue's words.

Jiang Yueyue was a bystander, and said calmly: "Song Yi has liked you for ten years, but you didn't notice it, not only you, but me too, if Song Yi hadn't taken the initiative to hint at me, I wouldn't have this idea.

The specific reasons are unknown, but I can be sure that he has deliberately maintained a balance with you over the years.That night in the hotel, or earlier, when you suspected that he liked the same sex, with Song Yi's ability, it was enough to put things in another way, and you wouldn't notice.But he didn't, and guess why? "

Guess... what can he guess?The authorities are fascinated, unwilling to guess, and unable to guess.

"His confession in this way shows that Song Yi wants to take the initiative to break the current deadlock and balance, and if there is no break, there will be no stand."

"So you have no other choice, in vain."

Under this pressure, Jiang Yuebai became angry again, angry at Lu Qi, and even more angry at Song Yi: "Then why did he do this? Isn't it good to maintain the past? Why is he doing everything? He said, I just Can passively follow Song Yi's steps, when to be friends and when not to be friends."

Jiang Yueyue sighed: "You think Song Yi is the one who took the initiative? In vain, he just gave you the initiative in this matter by doing this. Maybe Song Yi has already figured it out."

The sadness in her eyes hurt Jiang Yuebai, and he finally remembered in a trance that Jiang Yuebai was also the one who had been in love for many years but couldn't ask for it.

"Sister, I'm sorry. Knowing that you love Song...I still came to you."

Jiang Yueyue said: "I am sad because I am in the same situation as Song Yi. I have liked someone for many years, should I advance or retreat, when to advance and when to retreat, these things have troubled me for many years, and I believe Song Yi is the same."

"I can't think of anything now..." Jiang Yueyue thought for a while, then looked at her: "Sister, are you trying to persuade me to accept Song Yi? You can't bear to see him sad?"

The moment he said this sentence, he already regretted it. He intuitively felt that this sentence hurt Song Yi and Jiang Yueyue at the same time.

Jiang Yueyue looked at him in amazement, and then calmed down for a while: "I just hope that you can see your heart as soon as possible and make the choice you should make. It's late, go to bed first, and we'll talk about it tomorrow if you have anything to do."

"Sister..." Jiang Yuebai had a severe headache, and couldn't bear to see Jiang Yuebai's sad eyes, but all this was caused by him,

He can't control his thoughts, words, actions, and behavior.

Song Yi has completely messed up his life, just as Jiang Yueyue said, if there is no destruction, there is no establishment, you can either take a step forward or take a step back, there is no compromise.

But what is his sincerity?

What kind of emotion does he have towards Song Yi?

He only knew that he had always cherished this hard-won friend so much for no reason, and even mentioned him shoulder to shoulder with Jiang Yueyue, but he was just a friend, so why did he cherish it so much?

Song Yi, Song Yi.

He recited the name silently in his heart, and as he recited it, his heart suddenly began to feel sore, small bubbles spread in his body, and Jiang Yuebai was caught off guard by the overflowing emotions at that moment.

He thought of Song Yi's kiss again. Even though the fiery emotion had passed for so long, it was still enough to make Jiang Yuebai tremble slightly. At that time, he was afraid, panic about the unknown situation, and even the desire brought out by being hooked. , but only without repulsion and disgust.

Jiang Yuebai suddenly thought of this, and tapped the sofa next to him.

Yes, why is there no disgust at all?

After Song Yi did that to him and said that.

All he has is anger, confusion, and shock, but is this the most important thing a man should do after being kissed by another man?

Early the next morning, Jiang Yuebai woke up in the morning light and saw Jiang Yuebai who was curled up on the sofa and sleeping peacefully. His heart softened. heard a sound:

"Sister, you have to go."

"Yeah. It's time for me to go to work." Jiang Yue said

"Hmm..." Jiang Yuebai stretched lazily on the sofa, and asked, "Can I ask you that question again?"

"You said."

"Do I like Song Yi?"

"..."

"Sister, do you also think I like Song Yi?"

Jiang Yueyue chuckled lightly, her eyes complicated: "Baibai, in today's society, no older sister would advise her younger brother to accept a man unless you want to. I just want you to be with the one you love, whether it's a man or a man. female."

"Hmm..." Jiang Yuebai smiled lightly, buried her face in the quilt, rolled over comfortably and continued to sleep: "Go to work, be careful on the road."

"What do you want for dinner? My sister will make it for you when she comes back."

Jiang Yuebai muttered, "No, I'm going to go back to the old house later and pick up some things."

Jiang Yueyue was slightly startled, closed the door, and strode away.

On the way back to the old house, Jiang Yuebai nestled in the co-driver's seat, sipping water and asking, "Didn't my father be disturbed by my going back to the old house?"

Ouyang said: "Don't worry, young master."

"Ah."

"What do you want to go back, master?"

"I don't know, I'm going back to City A anyway, so let's go back and have a look."

"Young master's room layout is still the same as back then, no one has touched it." Ouyang added.

Jiang Yuebai sighed quietly: "Ouyang, have you been by my side all these years?"

Ouyang nodded, Jiang Yuebai suddenly looked at him, a little excited: "Then, have you, have you found Song Yi - forget it."

He sat back and said in a low voice, "My sister is right, it's useless to worry about this now."

Ouyang didn't make a sound, just drove the car silently. After a while, the car drove into the familiar alley, and when he arrived at the gate of the old house, he got out of the car, thought for a while, then went back and said to Ouyang: "Go back first, I will also I don't know when I can leave."

"I'll wait for the young master near here." Ouyang was so selfless that no one could persuade him, and Jiang Yuebai didn't force him, and entered the old house by himself.

Jiang Yuebai has been living in this house since he was born, until he was in his early 20s. The place that was once crowded with people has now become an empty house without its owner

Jiang Ying'an and Jiang Yuebai seldom come back throughout the year, Jiang Yueyue is restricted for life, and the whole family dies and disperses. Only the old housekeeper and servants who were left behind at that time are still working diligently to protect the owner. with the house.

Seeing him come back, I am happy to come out to greet him,

Jiang Yuebai quickly helped him up: "Uncle Zhang, Aunt Zhang, I haven't had time to say hello to you when I came back last time."

With tears in the corners of Zhang's eyes, Aunt Zhang said: "It's fine if you come back, it's fine if you come back."

Uncle Zhang said: "Sit first, sit first. Mr. Ouyang told us last night that you are coming back. Uncle Zhang specially made a table of your favorite dishes today. Master, go upstairs to rest first."

After finishing the long-awaited greetings, Jiang Yuebai stepped up to the second floor where he had been standing for a long time step by step, feeling complicated.

Since the imprisonment was lifted, he has never returned here.

The bedroom he lived in, Jiang Yueyue's room, and even the place where Shen Ruwei and Jiang Ying'an used to live, seemed to make his heart beat faster every time he got closer, and finally came to that bedroom, which was his parents' bedroom.

Jiang Yuebai hesitated again and again, but finally opened the door. He didn't turn on the light, and the room was dark. Jiang Yuebai looked at the room that had been dusty for a long time. It was strange that all the complicated thoughts before he came in disappeared. He thought His hatred and resentment did not appear, he just walked in slowly, stroking the dressing table that Shen Ruwei had used, the pillows she slept on, the curtains she had drawn, and the rocking chair she had stayed on.

It turns out that time will really dilute a lot, although it is not as far away as the vicissitudes of life, but he did not expect that when he was away from Shiran, he just opened the door to take a look at the distance. It seems that it is so close, but it has also passed through many years. entanglement.