Disaster for the country

When Feng Ye saw Li Shanzhang like this, he felt a little unworthy for Xin Luoyi, because Li Shanzan really seemed like a heartless person, so indifferent, if ordinary people knew that others gave up so much for him, they would definitely be grateful Yes, but Li Shanzhi didn't, he still looked indifferent, deceiving Frost and Snow's indifference, unmoved.

"Because, to get something, you have to give up something. If Xin Luoyi chooses the throne, he has to give up on you...just like..." Feng Ye seemed to be saying something, but he couldn't say anything when the words came to his lips down.

Feng Ye is a little envious of Li Shanzang at this time. If Xin Huai was willing to do for him one-tenth of what Xin Luoyi did for Li Shanzan, he would forgive him, but no, Xin Huai chose from the beginning to the end. The throne has never been shaken. Now that I think about it, the encounter in the tea garden was really a joke, an irony.

Li Shanjian heard that Feng Ye hadn't finished speaking, and looked at him indifferently, waiting for him to say the next sentence.

"Because this road is too rough, as much as you get, you have to give up as much as possible. The little immortal said that he can't afford to gamble, and he doesn't want to lose you, so he can only stay away from court battles. Also, you can't be too greedy, a person is too greedy." A person who has nothing to lose usually ends up with nothing. He doesn't want to have nothing, so he can only give up everything... So, you are the last person to suspect that he approached you for the throne..."

Feng Ye is indifferent, he is too serious, so serious that Li Shanzhi doubts whether this is the mean-speaking, cute old urchin Feng Ye, he really has a feeling that too much happened to Feng Ye There are too many things he doesn't know.

After a moment of silence, Li Shanzhang looked at the dimly lit palace, and the night was as cold as water: "There (the palace) is indeed very dirty, and many people's dreams are buried there, but there are too many people yearning for it. Hate it there?"

Feng Ye looked at it, laughed heartily, laughed so coldly that he was about to shed tears, he stood on the tower and pointed at the palace, with contempt, arrogance, helplessness, cold He said to Li Shanjian coldly: "It's not hate, but... hate, the person I hate the most in my life lives in that palace, so, Li Shanjian, you are much luckier than me , luck makes people jealous. There are not many people in this world who can give up everything for you, especially, such a young person. If I can go back to the beginning, I would rather die before I am 15 years old, because I met you when I was 15 years old. That person...if we didn't meet each other back then, we wouldn't owe each other now..."

Li Shanzhang listened calmly, he is the best listener at the moment, he is still cold, such a listener is the best listener, because no matter right or wrong, he doesn't bother to say a word, no If he expresses more emotions, he will not show mercy. Feng Ye is not an ordinary person, and the last thing he needs is mercy.

Feng Ye also knew that Li Shanzan was exquisite, and he also knew what Li Shanzan found, he smiled: "Actually, it's nothing, after so many years, 19 years have passed, all the hatred should fade away, but I am naturally narrow-minded, and I will never forgive you in my lifetime." Feng Ye seemed to emphasize it once again, gritted his teeth again and said: "Never."

"Does it feel good to hate someone?"

"It's not a question of whether I feel good or not, but that I don't want him to feel good. After living for so many years, I don't want to see his face, but I have to see it. Have you heard a sentence that hurts one thousand enemies and hurts oneself?" Eight hundred, and I am such a person, so sometimes I envy you too much? Back then, it was in that direction..." Feng Ye pointed to the tea garden near the imperial city.

"That's right there. There is a very beautiful camellia garden. My favorite is camellia. I heard that the camellia there is very beautiful. I went to see it. I was 15 years old that day, and I met a very handsome son-in-law there. When I was young and ignorant, I molested him. That day in the tea garden, he made me hoarse from crying. Later, he told me that even if I lose the world in the future, I will never lose Feng Ye alone. He It was only a month before and after I said this, with ten miles of red makeup, he took his wife, and the whole world was celebrating for him, and I stood outside the city wall of that palace, drenched in the rain for a whole day, and there were singing and dancing in the palace, The shadows outside the palace became sad, I went home sick for three months, and for three months, he never came to see me, and later, my father was wronged and imprisoned, I begged him, even if I was humiliated, it didn't matter, but He watched me kowtow with blood on my face and showed contempt, and later, my mother died of illness, and I was left alone in my family, alone..."

"Maybe he has a reason?"

"Oh, suffering, what a lofty name, the wife is married, the concubine is asleep, the son is born, the country is sitting, and the people are kneeling... What a great hardship, even if there is a hardship, I will never forgive it When I was sick and needed care, when I was most desperate and helpless, the person I could trust and rely on pushed me away with his own hands, and the person who should have been with me in the world to face everything showed the world The most contemptuous look. Even if you have difficulties, so what? In this world, there must be one person who is worthy of you being an enemy of the whole world for him... He strangled the very happy me with his own hands and dragged me into this hell. A person is very unhappy in hell, so I am very narrow-minded, I am not happy, and I will not make him happy. So, I adopted his fifth son, for no reason, because he thinks his fifth son is unknown Man, if he doesn't like it, I like it...I have to fight against him..."

At this moment, Feng Ye showed that kind of child's smile, which is the most frightening thing, telling the sad past so plainly, and showing a little contempt, Li Shanzhi really doesn't understand Feng Ye and the emperor However, he said it so plainly, and he could feel that Feng Ye's thin body was like the last fallen leaf amidst the cold wind in winter.

"So...whether he avenged me for killing my father, allowed me to do anything wrong, or planted my favorite camellias in the Royal Garden, I will never forgive him..."

After saying this, Feng Ye showed a child-like smile, that kind of smile is hard to figure out.

Li Shanjian seemed to understand why the emperor never blamed Feng Ye for his favor and trust in the imperial hall, why a manor was vacated in the imperial garden and filled with camellias, and why Feng Ye respected him in the glazed pool he built. Just laugh it off, why Feng Ye dared to go to the early court, never followed the rules and did wrong things, and the Ministry of Rites did not dare to punish him, there were too many, so many that Li Shanzhi even wondered if that high-ranking emperor was as ruthless as Feng Ye said righteous……

"Da Que · Zhaodi Biography" once recorded: Que Zhaodi Xinhuai, when he was young, met a fairy in white in the tea garden. He had a nightmare and went back to the palace to miss him. During the season, the drunk lying flowers refused to return, and one court lady wore white camellias on her head every day. Emperor Zhao loved it very much when he saw it, and favored him that night.