Disaster for the country

"It was written that he felt guilty for not being able to repay his mother's upbringing, and said that he had to die. Oh, and said some nonsense. Anyway, a heartless person like me feels sad when he looks at it. Probably confessing himself He was born at an untimely time, was murdered by others, and lost his name to Sun Shan. He has no face to face his father, fellow villagers, and even more face to his old mother, hoping that his mother can live a good life. Oh, yes, he seems to have jumped into the river to death."

Li Shanzan couldn't help being shocked: "Did you jump into the river? Suicide?"

"Yes, drowning ghost."

Li Shanzhi suddenly remembered that he fell into the water involuntarily that day, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he became. If he hadn't had the courage of ordinary people, he might really feel that he had met Feng Yucheng.

"Yes, he fell into the water and died. He also mentioned that he was unwilling to die and would definitely come back to take revenge." Feng Ye's words made people panic, but he still said it plainly. No wonder, after all, he is the director of the Yeke family, and the Yeke family has been a nocturnal organization from the beginning.

Xin Luoyi pressed Li Shanzhi's hand, and said firmly: "If he dares to come back to Shanzhi, I will make him die."

Feng Ye asked: "Why did you let him lose his name?"

"I didn't, and even I didn't know there was a problem with this imperial examination until now."

"No, why did he come back to look for you?" Feng Ye was a little puzzled.

"Maybe he doesn't know who caused him to lose his name? So he only found the five people who presided over the imperial examination. No matter what, I did commit the crime of negligence." Li Shanjian was very calm, as if he accepted this innocent disaster with peace of mind. Never blame others, no matter what you encounter, you will deal with it calmly, and it is the same this time.

"Then, if you calculate it this way, all this can be explained. He has lost his name and couldn't find the person responsible. He came back to find the five of you? But there is an injustice and a debtor? He shouldn't have found the wrong person." Feng Ye said : "How much hatred does he have to implicate innocent people?"

"Ten years in the cold window, three years of preparation for the exam, just to get a title on the gold list, but in the end it was nothing, anyone would hate it." Li Shanzhi sighed, in fact, there are many children of this kind of poor family who are like this. Thousands of people, sheltering the poor and poor people in the world, are all happy. Although fame and fortune make people intoxicated, the darkness of the world makes people feel disheartened.

Feng Ye nodded, and then said to Xin Luoyi: "Look at how smart Xiaoyan is, and follow him well in the future."

Feng Ye actually wanted Xin Luoyi to ask Li Shanzang to borrow money to pay off his gambling debts, but he was too embarrassed to ask in front of Li Shanzan.After eating the chicken legs, he wiped his chest. When he wiped something, he reached out and took out a piece of paper, then slapped his forehead: "It's over, I forgot to return the suicide note. This is disrespectful to the dead."

Li Shanjian took it and glanced at it. What was written on it was relatively consistent with what they deduced. This is not just a suicide note, but a blatant accusation...

The story begins at that time in Chunwei.

In the spring of the 15th year of Jianyuan, the sun was shining brightly, illuminating the whole earth, but no matter how bright the sun was, it could not illuminate the dark corners. Although the wind was light and the water was warm, the children who entered the examination room still walked into the examination room with gloomy faces. Feng Yucheng was one of the 8000 people. First, more than 8000 people selected the top three, plus 8000 tributes, and 20 people selected 58 people. Those who participated in the scientific examination ranged from [-] to [-]. Who has not gone through layers of screening to reach today's position? The children have no way to go, so they have to walk step by step in a down-to-earth manner.

Feng Yuben was not from a poor family, and his family was just a poor family. Although it was down and down, it still had the arrogance and pride of a nobleman.In order to revive his family, his mother worked hard on him since then, and forbade him to do anything except study.

As a farmer, he doesn't know what farming is.As a dutiful son, his mother arranged all his basic necessities, food, housing, and transportation. As a man, he had no choice but to rely on his mother for everything. He was useless except for studying, so he didn't dare to cross the threshold when he was at the age of first love, and he still saw women at the age of twelve or eighteen. He would blush, except that the book of sages and sages was still a book of sages and sages, and the whole person was full of pedantry when he opened his mouth. Even so, he still wanted to pass the imperial examination, to be a good official, and to ask for orders for the people was his indelible ideal.

So his only hope of survival is the imperial examination. If he fails the imperial examination, he will have to wait another three years. His mother is old and doesn't have the energy to work hard for him, so he can only pass the exam. Only if he passes the exam. All ambitions and ideals can be realized.

At the moment when he left the examination room, he was really relaxed, because he thought he could pass the top three, but the day the ranking was released was really unexpected. Not so big, he finally left the stage in defeat.

His life was so gray, without any color, even his death was gray.He was just a pedantic scholar who was looked down upon by others while he was alive. After his death, he became a joke of the folks in the village when they were farming after dinner. His whole life was a joke.

On the way back to his hometown, he passed a ruined temple, which was in disrepair. During the thunder and lightning, he saw the mottled stone statue was gloomy. middle.

He hid in the temple. The frail scholar had never seen the big world. He was so frightened that his legs limp and shivered while holding a wooden stick, but a beam fell and hit his head. blood flow.

That night, the rain was too heavy, the wind was too strong, and the ruined temple was too scary, and this scholar was timid, and he was so scared that he went back overnight and became seriously ill.

Later, his fathers and villagers expressed their disdain when they saw him, and his mother-in-law sighed every day. Those high-ranking officials who learned that he was going to Beijing to rush for the exam gave gifts to express their congratulations. For a while, in those few days, he did have thoughts of suicide, but he was just a frail scholar who didn't even have the courage to commit suicide.

He didn't know why he lost his reputation, but although he was a scholar, he was not pedantic. He still had some confidence in his knowledge, at least he knew that he had a little ink in his chest.He felt that there was something strange about this matter, so he reported it to the county magistrate, who would dare to offend such a small official as the county magistrate?

He pointed at Feng Yucheng's nose and cursed: "You don't even look at what you are, dare to question the authenticity of this imperial examination, do you know who is presiding over this imperial examination? Su Sheng is also something you can slander? The prince of Jiuxue Wang is also someone you can say, Lord Wei, Lord Shi is also what you can say?"

After losing his temper, the county magistrate felt that Feng Yucheng had real talent, after all, he was also the number one talent in the county, and he felt uncomfortable after failing the ranking, so he persuaded: "Go back and prepare for the examination in three years' time. Let’s take the test, with your ability, you will definitely be able to pass the ranking. You can’t afford to offend these five people. Don’t try to hit a stone with an egg. You will not be the only one who will be unlucky..."

But Feng Yucheng is a pedantic scholar after all, and he has never seen the darkness of the officialdom, so he cursed the county magistrate for flattering and flattering as the people's parents.

The county magistrate was originally an official bought by his family relationship, and he was indeed a piece of wood with little writing. It was difficult, so he ordered people to give Feng Yucheng twenty boards and throw him out of the mansion.

After all, Feng Yucheng was a frail scholar, how could he bear such a heavy beating, the twenty big boards almost cost him half his life, and after returning home to recuperate for a period of time, he became even more seriously ill due to depression.

He was not reconciled, and wanted to go to Beijing to sue, so he bid farewell to his mother and left. This may be the most assertive thing he did in his life. Passing by the ruined temple where he lived that night, this time he saw clearly Now, the sun was shining on the statue of the judge, and he suddenly understood something, where is there justice in this world?The real fairness is between life and death. If you can't take revenge in life, then you can only take revenge after you die... After all, people can't fight ghosts.

He kowtowed three times, the blood was dripping from the knock, and the blood flowed all over his face. He tightly held the clothes on his chest, so hard that his hands were trembling. A man with one drop of tears, a man who bleeds but doesn't shed tears, just burst into tears like that, he couldn't make a sound, and he coughed up a big mouthful of blood while crying. choose.

He knelt in front of the Buddha statue, questioning the god Buddha full of hatred, and screamed at the sky full of anger.

"I am willing to swear on my life, and pray to the gods to avenge me. After my death, I would rather turn into a lonely ghost than kill my enemy. My revenge will be avenged, and I am willing to return to the underworld to be driven by you. "

After speaking, he cried even more sadly.A person who could not take revenge in life, but hopes to turn into a ghost to find the enemy again after death, how much hatred is this.

He doesn't want to die yet. He is only 28 years old. He has too many regrets in his life. He has not repaid his mother's kindness in nurturing and nurturing him. He has not left a descendant for the Feng family. He has never even touched a woman's hand. The one who accompanied him was the book of sages, and the one who destroyed him was also the book of sages...

Even so, he had to die, he didn't die, he was looked down upon by others while alive, he was a literati, a noble literati, he had his own pitiful and pathetic self-esteem, in fact, it was better to be dead than to be alive, at least he didn't have to live So painful.

In the end, he wrote this suicide note to his mother, because he didn't know why he lost his name. He wrote this suicide note with anger. This suicide note has been read and written all his life. The most beautiful words are also the longest words he wrote.

When he came to the underworld in the future, he must ask these five people why he was clearly the number one scholar but his name fell behind...

After finishing writing, he smiled strangely, that smile was not his, but he didn't realize that even if he smiled, it was with tears...

He is really not reconciled...

Why……

On the night when he returned home, he fell into the water and died. Before he died, he left a suicide note full of accusations.

Holding his suicide note, his mother almost went blind from crying. She really regretted that she should not have pushed her son so hard. She just hoped that his son would rehabilitate his family and honor his ancestors, but she didn't expect to kill her son later.

The most miserable thing in the world is undoubtedly when a white-haired person gives a black-haired person...

In the world, there is no fairer thing than life and death. Perhaps this scholar is really full of hatred and has nowhere to vent, so he thought of the ghost after death.

Li Shanzan looked at the suicide note and remained silent for a long time.

He cast a pale look at Xin Luoyi: "Tell me, are there really ghosts in this world?"

Xin Luoyi smiled and said: "It's all people's hearts, where did ghosts come from, I don't believe in ghosts, I don't believe in gods, I only believe in myself and Shan Zhi, if there are ghosts, then I will pay for your life, in the future you will go to hell, I will Just go to hell, if you die, I will put you on the bottom of the coffin."

Feng Ye disdains: "Tch, you two little brats, you will live and die at any age, if this Feng Yucheng is really a ghost, I will cut him off and give you a kick."

After speaking, he jumped out of the window and left.

Xin Luoyi glanced at Li Shanzhi lightly, and grabbed Li Shanzhi, after reading the suicide note, Li Shanzhi didn't struggle as if she had been drained of strength, and she didn't treat him like before.

After a long time, he said, "I'm going to pay a visit to Su Sheng."

"Okay, Shan Zan can do whatever he wants, in front of me, Shan Zan can do whatever he wants, and I will bear everything for you."

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