don't come near me anymore

After ten years of love, it ended without a problem. Maybe he was close to happiness, but a heart that was wounded was riddled with holes, how could he pretend to be warm.

—— Zhi Gu Xingzhi

He doesn't remember whether he was nine or ten years old that year. He climbed the tallest poplar tree in the community just to see the clean child through the glass window that was not cleaned by the previous resident.

At that time, Gu Xingzhi didn't know what liking was. He just felt that the child was left behind by his parents and quietly wiped his tears, which softened his heart.

He held a fruit candy tightly, but until he was 31 years old, he still didn't tell the child: "I'll give you the candy, don't cry, okay?"

The feeling of falling just before breaking the bone made him panic for a moment, and the overwhelming pain couldn't cover up his concern for this child, as if possessed by a demon, he hoped that the child would be well.

Also this time, he disobeyed Gu Ran's words and always approached that child quietly.

That child's name is Ye Qiao.

At the age of 11, he started to practice calligraphy. Every stroke of a leaf character seems to be written from the bottom of his heart.

At the age of 12, he was promoted to the first grade of junior high school, and the child was in the fourth grade. For the first time, Gu Xingzhi showed a strong desire to protect this child. Perhaps he had been bullied before. He always liked that this child should not be beaten like his six-year-old self. .

It's just that the child is not clingy, even with Gu Xingzhi's help, he just took out a piece of white rabbit toffee from the bag and stuffed it silently into his hand.

Gu Xi craved that candy for a long time, but until the candy melted in his drawer, Gu Xi couldn't touch even a little bit of sugar coating.

Gu Xingzhi's junior high school was late after school, but he was willing to give up his lunch time in the afternoon and sprinted to the elementary school across a basketball court just to see if anyone bullied him in Ye Qiao's class.

About two years later, when Gu Xingzhi graduated from junior high school and Ye Qiao was in the second year of junior high school, he bought a classmate book for the first time, but quietly squatted at the door of Gu Xingzhi's class for a long time, until the farewell song in the classroom was sung. Only then did the child put a plain classmate record into Gu Xingzhi's hands.

Gu Xingzhi was stunned for a long time. At this time, Xia Xin from a community bumped into Gu Xingzhi's shoulder and said angrily: "I haven't bought these for the high school entrance examination. Did your little brother buy them for you to write?" ?”

Gu Xingzhi accepted it with a smile, and Ye Qiao disappeared in a flash.

After returning home, Gu Xingzhi thought about it for a long time. It took him 10 minutes to do the math finale of the senior high school entrance examination. However, he wrote this piece of paper that seemed gaudy to him for an hour. The information on his draft, holding his face and smiling, said: "Brother, are you a puppy crush?"

"What do children know about puppy love? Have you done your homework?"

Gu Xi made a grimace, turned and left.

Gu Xingzhi gave up the admission notice of key high schools and finally chose to go directly to the school's main high school. Gu Ran didn't interfere with him, but said meaningfully: "You have to know that every choice you make will determine the rest of your life, not only Not only you, but your friends and relatives may also be affected."

Gu Xingzhi said that he knew all about it.

The first year of high school was not difficult for him, and Ye Qiao was next door to Gu Xi when she was studying in junior high school, so Gu Xingzhi had more reasons to approach Ye Qiao.

At this time, his influence on this child is not only that of the child who quietly wiped tears in the early years, all his compassion was gone, but years of care and protection have become a kind of unreasonable possession, as if it was a rose planted in the heart, no matter how No one can move.

At that time, he didn't understand that liking is a two-way giving of understanding and tolerance. He only felt that the kindness to others was a loan of emotion, and it must be doubled in the future.

In the next year, Ye Qiao gradually began to rely on this friend who would protect him, teach him his homework and take him to run from a child who didn't have any flirtations with him. However, the sister he swore to protect for the rest of his life was no longer the cute child holding candy.

She finally learned to hate, and the first person she hated was Gu Xingzhi.

Gu Xingzhi died without knowing why Gu Xi's temperament suddenly changed in his sophomore year of high school.

Perhaps he was destined to be alone.

Gu Xingzhi thought to himself.

It was probably at this time that Gu Xingzhi met a child named Ye Lan, who was so withdrawn and indifferent, Gu Xingzhi didn't care about this person, it was just a passing cloud in his life.

It was the clerk of the flower shop that Ye Lan often went to. I heard that the child was a relative of the boss. He always looked at Ye Qiao with subtle eyes. Gu Xingzhi didn't like this kind of atmosphere.

So he learned to be careful, for example, when the clerk was chatting with Ye Qiao, he always brought up the matter of study, and used the tea table of the flower shop to teach Ye Qiao difficult problems that he didn't know.

The clerk often wears a mask and seems to be in poor health, but the person named Ye Lan always looks at him with more subtle eyes than the clerk.

Gu Xingzhi found it strange but didn't say much.

It wasn't until he graduated from high school that he knew he had to leave. Fortunately, the local university was not bad, and he passed the exam easily enough. On the night when the results came out, he was very drunk and pretended to be crazy. But it became: "Study hard!"

Gu Gu Xi poured a basin of water on the balcony, and Gu Xingzhi was drenched from head to toe, but also sober.

He suddenly told Ye Qiao firmly: "Let's be together."

Hearing this, Ye Qiao bit his hand with staring eyes and ran away.

He felt that Ye Qiao might have thought that he was a psychopath at the bottom of his heart.

After graduating from the college entrance examination, he started part-time tutoring in college. At this time, he was still kind-hearted. He would always participate in some charity activities every month. When he saw poor people, he would donate the living expenses of the day. He felt that his life was fulfilling enough. If not For that man named Ye Jin, he would feel that he was already happy enough.

That year Ye Qiao finally mustered up the courage to openly come out in the midst of sobbing and cursing. Half of the six people in the dormitory knew his identity and said they didn't care, but they avoided his time in the dormitory when they took a shower.

The other two moved out, saying that it was arranged by the family, but in fact Gu Xingzhi seemed to have a mirror in his heart.

Whether there are kind people in this world has nothing to do with him, he just wants to live frankly.

He has been working as an intern at Ye's since he was 19 years old. However, when he was 20 years old, he discovered the quality problem of Ye's products. After some inquiries, he found out that Ye Jin, the son of Ye's family, secretly changed the raw materials and the quality of the products was not up to standard.

It was very strange, he clearly wanted to report, but Father Ye found out about his relationship with Ye Qiao on the eve of his report. Father Ye told him clearly that Ye Qiao could like men but Gu Xingzhi was not worthy of him.

Not worthy...

Half of the faith in my heart was broken, but it was still understandable.

It's just that Ye Jin took him to a so-called "good place" to vent his discomfort that night.

In casinos, some people get rich overnight, but more often they go bankrupt in an instant.

He didn't even know what he had done to owe 20, which was already a sky-high price at that time.

Coincidentally, Father Ye paid back the money on his behalf in the end, and he will never forget Father Ye's contemptuous gaze that day when Ye Jin looked at him and told him that everything was just a warning to meddle in his own business.

Gu Xingzhi remembered those two words - unworthy.

He can no longer step out of this step of emotion. After many years of fear and inferiority, he gets involved in the dead spot of emotion. His kindness is completely wiped out, and he also begins to embrace the world with malice and sting others with malice.

Chapter 128 Gu Xingzhi's Extra Story: Ten Years of Love (3) [Love Chapter] Part II/Attachment of Ye Qiao's mental journey.

Happiness is a luxury for Gu Xingzhi, but fortunately, he met someone who can make him miss his whole life.

That year, Ye Qiao mustered up the courage to say enough love stories in this life, the eyes of others were like a knife that could stab him, every word of rumor was born on his inferiority complex and fear.

Only Ye Qiao, only Ye Qiao's gentle smile that concealed surprises made him feel warm.

Ye Qiao's father's refusal was almost expected, but fortunately Ye Qiao's father allowed him to enter the company as an intern. He believed in his ability, and he thought that it would be a matter of time before he was accepted.

Until that day when he stood at the entrance of the technical department and saw Ye Jin whispering with the manager, until he found out that Ye Jin had become the biggest moth in the company with shoddy goods.

Reporting was his subconscious behavior, and the price was Ye Jin's almost crazy revenge.

He was lured by Ye Jin into gambling and almost lost all his money, and then sold the company's land to a competitor in a commercial scam. Desperate and helpless, Ye Jin told him that Father Ye had been watching him.

On the night before New Year's Eve, he stood on the rooftop and watched the indifferent fireworks in the city. He thought about it for a long time, until Ye Qiao handed over the scarf he knitted by himself. His only friend Xia Xin told him He, Ye Qiao, was nicknamed "sissy" by his classmates because of weaving this, so he made up his mind to look at the business card Ye Jin sent.

"Is loan sharking dangerous?"

He asked, in fact, the bottom of his heart is very clear.

Instead, Ye Jin changed his previous attitude, looked at him arrogantly and said, "Will you go or not?"

He always seems to be making wrong choices on this road of life.

The family life in that year was extremely deserted, Gu Xi had already broken up with him, he didn't know where Gu's mother went with Gu Xi, the only thing that was certain was that the glutinous rice balls in the pot were boiled for too long, the filling was exposed, and it was very unpalatable.

He looked at the messy things in the pot and suddenly made up his mind.

He ran away with Ye Qiao, if you say it differently, it is called elopement, on the night of elopement Ye Qiao said that he wanted to see the sea, Gu Xingzhi was worried about being chased by others, so he hid all the way and never took Ye Qiao to heart.

They are still children, the world is either black or white, Gu Xingzhi sees the future ruined, Ye Qiao sees it as an exciting adventure, no one can live in the present and see a future that will never be seen again Gorgeous fireworks.

"All right, I know what you're worried about, don't worry, even if my dad catches me back and breaks my legs, I still like you, I'll go with you if I get back."

He really took Gu Xingzhi into his eyes and took it to heart. A man who lost his soul also brought the vicissitudes of wandering in his eyes. He thought that Gu Xingzhi was good no matter what.

"I'll give you a home."

Gu Xingzhi also said, he rubbed Ye Qiao's childish face.

The two looked side by side at the beginning of the city's lights, all kinds of colors mixed in it, cold and lonely, as if they had only each other after being abandoned by the whole world.

However, many years later, when Ye Qiao looked at the lights of the city at night, he could only think of the family reunion when he was young. His parents surrounded him and served hot dumplings. At that time, he looked at Gu Xingzhi who was drunk at night shook his head...

No one would have thought that one day a young man named Gu Xingzhi would become a hot elite in the business world, let alone that his Qiaoshan company would develop at an astonishing speed until it was later renamed Gu's Enterprise.

At that time, he thought that he could return to his hometown, and Ye's was just the most inconspicuous small business right now.

However, when he saw Ye Qiao when he returned home, he could think of the humiliation that happened several years ago.

He had lost too many things, so he gradually lost the ability to enjoy happiness in the suffering, or maybe many things were wrong from the beginning.

In this world, there is no child who secretly holds his mother's eyebrow knife, and no one is willing to climb a tree to see the new beautiful child. Ye Qiao later asked Gu Xingzhi if he would turn over for himself now. I crossed the wall of his house just to tell Ye Qiao that he got a scholarship from the school.

"That's wrong, Xiaoye."

Gu Xingzhi said.

Incorrect?

Of course it was wrong, when he cleaned up his attempt and the past, he was no longer the senior who liked Ye Qiao, the one who overcame the wall was just an uninvited guest, a thief.

"Ok."

Ye Qiao was obviously not satisfied with these answers, Gu Xingzhi looked at the rice he cooked again, the lunch box was placed in the most conspicuous place, he was a little surprised, then grabbed Ye Qiao tightly and asked where the lunch box came from.

"I bought that, why are you so nervous?"

Gu Xingzhi let go of his hand for a moment, then remembered Ye Qiao's work.

"Resign, that job is not suitable for you."

What he meant was very clear to Ye Qiao. Ye Qiao rubbed his sore wrist, but didn't speak. Gu Xingzhi often hinted that he quit his job, but he usually had a reason, but today he didn't. All gone.

After getting along for many years, he has already figured out Gu Xingzhi's mind clearly, but the most chilling thing is that there is only one reason for Gu Xingzhi's request.

He doesn't trust Ye Qiao.

"It's fine, I won't quit, don't stop playing."

"It's not that I can't afford you."

"I don't need you to support me either!"

"..."

That was probably his first real hands-on.

Afterwards, he apologized and made up for everything, but from the moment he started, a thorn appeared in Ye Qiao's heart, it didn't hurt or itch, and he even forgot about the thorn, but once the two had a rift, the thorn began to bite .

From then on, Gu Xingzhi didn't feel why he couldn't control himself, but until the moment of Shi Ran, he dared to face the reason. He was never a good person, and all the sweet words were illusions.

People sometimes use some disguise to deceive others in order to get what he wants, but in fact, the illusion is the illusion. He has low self-esteem and pitifulness, so he firmly believes that Ye Qiao's love is not so deep.

This feeling is stolen, once Ye Qiao proposes to leave, he has no ability to keep this person.

Then his tricks came out one after another, monitoring, tracking and positioning, he still didn't understand that his distrust and hurt were the real reasons for the separation between the two.

"Gu Xingzhi, what did I say when you were poor and working overtime every day for entertainment?"

Ye Qiao finally couldn't help but confide in his heart, Gu Xingzhi was silent for a moment, he looked at the tears in Ye Qiao's eyes, Ye Qiao is not a person who loves to cry, he finally cried today, but it was because of him.

"Even in the days when we couldn't even afford to eat, I still firmly believed that we could go all the way. At that time, I never thought that you would have the glory you have today. I like you, so I support whatever you do, but you Are you unwilling to give me even the most basic trust?"

It was also at this moment that Gu Xingzhi's sense of crisis became stronger.

His guilt and comfort never cured the symptoms but not the root cause, so after repeated vicious circles, Ye Qiao could no longer speak the truth.

This city is not as beautiful as the article said at night. It is very cold at night and the lights are bright and unpopular. Occasionally a drunk or two pass by, sometimes suddenly throw up next to him, and some malicious people look at him After a while, he hurried away again.

Ye Qiao sat on a bench by the river, looking at the traffic in the distance, and he just wanted to go home after being away from home for many years.

It's not Gu Xingzhi's house.

"I don't want to see the sea anymore."

One day when Ye Qiao was having dinner, he suddenly said this, but Gu Xingzhi didn't understand what he meant, he had something to do and was in a hurry, so Ye Qiao went to the beach alone after packing up the dishes.

And when he hugged Ye Qiao for the last time, Gu Xingzhi suddenly understood what Ye Qiao meant at the moment of the explosion.

("Okay, I want to go to the sea with you."

Many years ago, the boy's eyebrows and eyes were still immature.

"it is good."

He said)

In the middle of the night, he was lying in the ward and vaguely heard footsteps. The man's hands were very cold. Gu Xingzhi couldn't see his appearance clearly, but he heard the other party sigh and tell him: "I know you have a hard life, but you should always Remember, there are only a few people who hurt you, and the world never owes you anything."

It's time for him to relax.