don't come near me anymore

It rained in the afternoon, and the smell of new grass and soil always reminded Ye Qiao of the coldness of the mortuary that day.

He has never had such a day of fear, and perhaps he has not had such a day of happiness for a long time.

Gu Ran didn't say much after seeing the photo, Sheng Yu squeezed his hand and told him that he was thinking too much.

Even though Gu Xingzhi was protecting him from the explosion that day, he was still almost blind, how could Gu Xingzhi's face not be injured?

Ye Qiao thought about it.

"Too……"

Can't tell if it's lost or what.

Sheng Yu once again told him solemnly: "No matter what happens, we will go together."

He couldn't believe such a promise, but as soon as he saw the affection in Sheng Yu's eyes, he knew it was over again.

Gu Ran looked at the two of them without saying a word, and just looked at the stubbornness of his youth that remained under his gradually aging appearance.

Why did Lin Ran hide in a mental hospital?

Of course she knew.

Abandoning her family and children, her relatives did not recognize her, and since then she was erased from the world and became a person whose traces no one knew except Gu Ran.

If Gu Xingzhi is most like her adoptive mother in that way, it must be paranoia.

……

After saying goodbye to Gu and then returning to the mental hospital, Lin Ran became more patient with the two of them.

Obviously she already knew the purpose of Ye Qiao's visit, she didn't interrogate her, she didn't blame her, she just sat quietly and looked at the ring on her hand, and then said: "I am Gu Xingzhi's mother, but not my mother. "

There were tears in her eyes, Ye Qiao didn't know what she knew from Lin Ran, but what he could know was that Lin Ran probably didn't want to hide anymore.

Everything in the ward was properly tidied up, without Ye Qiao needing to speak, she said, "I already know, because I know what kind of child my son is."

She was probably a little helpless, the self-blame made her frown, and the tears in her eyes made her look very fragile.

"It never occurred to me that the first thing I taught my child from the moment he was born was to abandon."

After she finished speaking, she wiped her tears on the back of her hand, Ye Qiao looked at Sheng Yu in a daze, Sheng Yu didn't understand what happened today, and instead looked at Ye Qiao.

Apparently he was weird too.

Lin Ran was sobbing, and Ye Qiao handed over tissues one by one, and then heard her saying intermittently: "I know Xingzhi is sorry for you, and I also know what he did, I didn't teach him it was all my fault, I just want to escape and only think about myself..."

And how much more accurate?

She seemed to be hit in the center, and her brows furrowed even more. Who was she most guilty of in her life?

It was Gu Xingzhi's father, the man who had hoped for Gu Xingzhi.

The man said to Gu Xingzhi, who had not yet learned to read: "Words must be done, and actions must be resolute."

So his name is Gu Xingzhi.

And in the next few years, from thinking he was a perfect match to finding out that he was cheated into marriage, he also told his wife countless times that their child would become the happiest child in the world.

"The words of adults are the most unbelievable."

On the first day of being sent away, Gu Xingzhi said so.

It was also on that day that Gu Xingzhi learned to please and act good. His name carried his father's expectations, but his fate was only for his mother to escape from his father's abandonment. They were all irresponsible people.

Even Gu Ran never told him how to love someone when he saw him.

Twelve years of upbringing had only taught him to survive.

Lin Ran only felt distressed, and when she looked up at Ye Qiao's slightly worried expression, her heart ached even more for no reason, it was a feeling almost suffocating.

She felt as if she had grasped something, and she seemed to have grasped nothing, and her life had passed like this.

She told Ye Qiao that she would start preparing to be discharged from the hospital.

Ye Qiao received the transfer letter from Sheng Yu, and he will return everything that Gu Xingzhi owns to Lin Ran. He thinks this is the best choice.

However, Lin Ran refused, firmly and without thinking.

"I don't have the qualifications and the face to ask for it."

She paused, and then said, "I will pay off my debt."

Ye Qiao shook his head but still put down the assignment letter. He didn't know why Lin Ran would repay the debt he signed in the past. He only knew that this was the last thing before he separated from Gu Xingzhi. He has nothing to do with Gu Xingzhi anymore.

Lin Ran looked at the documents on the table in a daze for a long time, and when he looked up again, he suddenly asked a question that confused Ye Qiao for a long time: "Do you still hate doing it?"

hatred?

Of course hate.

"I cannot condone violence."

This was probably the first time that Ye Qiao faced the topic he wanted to do with Gu Xingzhi calmly.

It doesn't matter whether he forgives or not, he only knows that violence cannot be forgiven, neither in the past, nor in the present, nor in the future.However, when he thought about why Gu Xingzhi became like that, he couldn't bear it.

Lin Ran got the answer she wanted, and immediately picked up the document and tore it to shreds.

"My behavior towards Xingzhi is probably called 'violence', a mother's cold violence towards her own son, and he probably won't forgive me."

It is true that Gu Xingzhi will not understand, let alone forgive, he has never learned to let go so how can he say forgive.

Ye Qiao suddenly understood Lin Ran's guilt towards Gu Xingzhi from the bottom of his heart.

So I didn't say much, just said goodbye and went out.

Sheng Yu was always with him, but he suddenly felt empty in his heart.

After the rain, the sky was as heavy as his mood, and he was a little depressed. Sheng Yu saw his discomfort and said, "It's all over."

Is it all over...?

Everyone knows that people are impermanent, and no one has ever dared to make a guarantee for themselves that they will never meet such a person or such a thing again.

His sense of security had been lost many years ago.

All that remains now is unease.

Does he look like Gu Xingzhi back then?

Ye Qiao really didn't dare to think any more, so he walked aimlessly along the road in front of him.

The wetness against his body made people feel dull and uncomfortable. He walked through the pond with every step and brought muddy all the way. Sheng Yu was not close to him but was not far away. Maybe Ye Qiao needed some time to digest these things , but he can afford to wait no matter what.

He can afford to wait for one second, one day, even one year or ten years.

However, Ye Qiao suddenly turned around, then turned to look at him with a smile and said, "I think I won't take the ring after I put it on."

Sheng Yu smiled lightly, but Ye Qiao put away his smile, and then looked at him solemnly, as if he had prepared for something, and looked at the man in front of him who had been with him for a long time.

"Shengyu, if you are really ready to be with me for the rest of your life, then tell me, I don't need any promises from you, love is a matter between two people, it's responsibility, respect..."

He thought for a while, then suddenly knelt down on one knee.

"Before I do that, I want to tell you that I'm ready."