Penitent hand, trembling slightly

The reason why Lou Jingmo did not accept Shang Zhou's request for help also had his own reasons.

She has a little understanding of Shangzhou's guild, and there are a few veteran players with strong abilities, but there are more talented newcomers.The core of their organization is Shang Zhou, and everyone's purpose is to leave the game. The members of the guild seem to have been brainwashed by Shang Zhou, and they all trust him unconditionally, and believe that their president will take them together. 12 cards take everyone out.

In their guild, the main task of Shangzhou is to guide newcomers. At the beginning, the newcomers became old people, and then spread out to bring other newcomers. In short, one by one, collectively doing charity.

However, their selection requirements are relatively high, and the major crimes are not so serious, and they must have a talent for playing games.

All in all, Shang Zhou is not just a guild leader, but also carries more than 100 lives on his back.If you take his card, you have to inherit his guild, and you have to be responsible to his guild members. Lou Jingmo doesn't do this kind of loss-making business.

As for taking the card and ignoring other people... She even disdains doing such treacherous things.

Afterwards, Shang Zhou didn't contact them again, it must have made another arrangement.Five days have passed since this phone call, and at noon on the fifth day, Lou Jingmo received the news that he was safe.

"He said that he was struggling this time, and he almost confessed to it." Lou Jingmo repeated to Shen Maomao, "All the players in that book were wiped out except him, but he got a card that he didn't have because of a blessing in disguise." Card."

"He just told you so directly? Are you afraid that you will snatch it from him?"

Lou Jingmo: "I'm glad you trust me so much, but unfortunately, I can't beat more than 100 of them."

Shen Maomao: "Eh? They're together."

Lou Jingmo: "Otherwise, why build a guild? What if Shangzhou ran away with the card? Who would they turn to? He told me this just to lure me into joining the guild."

Shen Maomao thought about it too, knowing each other's details in reality is much more reassuring than being a netizen in a game.

She asked again: "Why does he keep looking for you? Are there no other characters in their guild who can take the lead?"

"It seems that there are a few good ones." Lou Jingmo said, "But they are not bad. Shang Zhou can guarantee that he has no selfishness and will lead everyone to leave in the end, but he can't guarantee that his confidantes will do the same .”

People all have desires, not to mention that each of them has made mistakes for their own desires, how could Shang Zhou trust them with confidence?

Shen Maomaozah felt something was wrong: "No, what's the relationship between you two? Why do you trust each other so much?"

Lou Jingmo gave her a playful look: "What? Jealous?"

Shen Maomao: "I advise you to be frank and lenient and resist strictness today, otherwise I won't take you back to your natal home during the Chinese New Year this year, and let you live alone."

Lou Jingmo raised his hand as a sign of surrender: "We did know each other before."

Shen Maomao's vinegar jar was overturned, and the air was full of sour smell: "Yo... childhood sweetheart."

Lou Jingmo: "When he was a child, he liked to bully girls, and I led someone to beat him up all over the floor."

Shen Maomao: "Yo... If you don't fight, you don't know each other."

Lou Jingmo couldn't help laughing: "Be normal for me."

Shen Maomao: "You scolded me for him..."

Lou Jingmo: "Okay, let's do it twice."

Shen Maomao's mouth was so pouted that he could hang a soy sauce bottle: "Oh, so what's the situation with you?"

"It's just an ordinary high school classmate. He went to a university in the north, and I stayed in Nancheng. We haven't contacted each other since then, but we still trust each other's character." Lou Jingmo pinched her face , "Why are you jealous? I have never liked men."

Shen Maomao deliberately distorted her meaning: "Oh! Then you mean that if she is a woman, you will like her?!"

Lou Jingmo put his arms around her directly: "I think you are deliberately finding fault."

Shen Maomao laughed and quarreled with her.

……

The day before the new year, Shen Maomao and Lou Jingmo pasted up the Spring Festival couplets and blessing characters together, and then led Lou Jingmo back home.Her father and mother expressed a 12-fold welcome to Lou Jingmo's arrival, and even took her to buy new clothes for the New Year.

Shen Maomao also clamored to buy it, but her mother refused on the grounds that "you still have a bunch in the closet". She was so angry that she also refused to go shopping with the two of them, and chose to play computer games at home.

When the couple came back from shopping in the afternoon, she immediately went out to greet her, but when she saw Lou Jingmo's new clothes, she immediately squatted down on the ground laughing, patted her legs while laughing, and almost couldn't breathe from laughing.

Lou Jingmo's pink hair is tied loosely at the back of her head, and there are some curly hair in front of her, which looks very intellectual, but when she looks down her face, she can see A bright red down jacket that is fattened and enlarged, and there is a circle of colorful fur on the collar of the down jacket, which is the aesthetics that her mother can have.

Facts have proved that it’s not a matter of body shape that some clothes don’t look good. Just this down jacket, Lou Jingmo’s good figure looks like a plastic red bucket. If she wears it... the picture is so beautiful, Shen Momao dare not imagine.

Shen's mother kicked her: "Why are you smiling? How festive is this color? How does it match Xiao Lou's hair color? I think you are just envious."

"Hehehehe..." Shen Maomao laughed till he cried, "I'm so envious hahahahahahahahaha..."

Shen's mother gave her a hard look: "Don't laugh, find a basin and put the fish in it. Today, Xiaonian, let your father show his hands to you two. Xiaolou is very lucky. Your uncle is one of the cooks." Absolutely."

Lou Jingmo took off the down jacket and hung it up, trying not to look so impatient, he said, "Uncle can also cook?"

Mother Shen said proudly: "I was cheated by him with two dishes because I was greedy back then!" As she spoke, she glanced at Shen Maomao on the ground, and said: "Maomao just follow me, I am so greedy that I can’t walk when I see delicious food, and I secretly order takeaway when I’m at home during the holidays.”

Lou Jingmo smiled shyly: "Then I have to learn from my uncle, so as not to be cheated away with food again."

Shen Maomao said speechlessly: "Am I a child so easy to deceive?"

Shen's mother said: "I'm ashamed to say that your IQ is at the same level as the children in the kindergarten downstairs."

Shen Maomao rolled his eyes and went to the kitchen with the fish, out of sight and out of mind.

When she came out of the kitchen, she found that the two of them were sitting on the sofa with a photo album, and immediately had a bad feeling.

"Look, this is when Mao Mao was three years old. She was afraid of taking pictures when she was a child, and she cried when she took pictures. This picture annoyed me from crying. I was so angry that I said something to her, and then she didn't dare to cry anymore. You look at your little face, wrinkled like a bun." Shen Maomao introduced while pointing to the photo.

Shen Maomao: "! What are you doing!!!"

Lou Jingmo looked up, with a smile on his face: "Auntie said she wanted to show me the photos."

Shen Maomao: "What's so good about looking at the photos, let's go out and buy milk tea!!"

Mother Shen: "Why are you so incapable of doing things, you child? People see it just right. If you want to drink milk tea so much, you can go out and buy it yourself. Don't forget to bring a copy for Xiao Lou, and we don't have to worry about it." Come on, let's go, let's go."

Shen Maomao: "..." It's over, her black history and her image are all ruined.

She didn't dare to leave, so she chose to sit next to the two of them with a pillow in her arms, her eyes were like two searchlights, she was always on guard against her mother shaking out something she shouldn't have said.

After flipping through a few pages of the photo album, Mother Shen pointed to the photo album and said, "This is a picture of her when she was six years old. She knew beauty at that time. At that time, the makeup artist put a spot on her forehead with lipstick, and she refused to wash it off. , Then I wiped it for her, but she still made trouble with me and didn't talk to me for several days."

Shen Maomao was so ashamed: "Can we stop talking about these old sesame seeds and rotten millet?"

Lou Jingmo glanced at her with a smile in his eyes and said, "Very cute."

Shen Maomao blushed silently.

Their family would go to the photo studio to take photos every year, and Lou Jingmo followed them all the way, and couldn't help but have the illusion that he grew up with Shen Maomao, and his heart was so soft.

As they scrolled, time gradually progressed to Shen Maomao's 15-year-old. Shen's mother wanted to continue scrolling down, but Shen Maomao interrupted: "Don't look at the photo album, my dad is coming back, let's deal with it." food?"

Shen's mother glanced at her, as if she had seen through her little thoughts, and said, "Isn't there still you? Hurry up and wash the vegetables, don't delay our mother and I looking at the photo album."

Shen Maomao: "Is Lou Jingmo your own?"

Shen's mother sighed: "I thought about it, your old Shen family doesn't have this gene."

While speaking, she resolutely flipped through the photo album regardless of Shen Maomao's objection, so a non-mainstream girl appeared in front of the two of them.

It was a photoshoot that was very popular more than ten years ago. In the photo, Shen Maomao had dyed yellow hair. His hair was permed like corn silk, fluffy and fluffy with a ball head tied on the top of his head. It was thick and thick. Her bangs covered half of her eyes, her sideburns were so wide that they could run like horses, and there was a row of small diamonds pasted under her eyes.And this photo has a copywriting, next to the profile picture are three pink Martian characters, if you look carefully, you can recognize these three words as "forgot love", it is simply a non-mainstream fighter.

The corners of Lou Jingmo's mouth rose wildly, but he didn't laugh out of face.

Shen Maomao's tears were about to fall: "I've said it, don't watch it..."

Anyway, her image has been ruined, so she simply gave up on herself: "Okay, you see, I'm leaving, I went to wash the vegetables, no see."

As soon as she entered the kitchen, two arrogant laughter erupted in the living room. She was so angry that she slammed the door shut and refused to communicate with them any more.

Shen's mother said: "This hair was done behind my back, and I beat her up when she came back, and I took her to the barber shop to dye it back."

Lou Jingmo: "It's really cute... Poof..."

Shen's mother was merciless when she sold her daughter: "She was still writing a diary, thinking she hid it well, but I knew it all, but I didn't read the contents, you can go to her room and look for it, maybe you can get something hapiness."

Lou Jingmo shook his head: "Forget it, don't make her angry, I'm afraid she will ignore me."

Shen's mother smiled and said nothing.

After a while, Shen's father also came back. He saw Lou Jingmo sitting on the sofa with Shen's mother at first sight, so he first said hello: "Xiao Lou is here?"

"Hello, Uncle." As she said that, she was about to stand up to help Shen's father get the slippers, but she was pushed back by Shen's mother: "Don't worry about him, let's continue to look at the photos. Look at this one, it's Mao Mao..."

Lou Jingmo smiled apologetically at Papa Shen.

Father Shen waved his hand and asked her to accompany Mother Shen, while he took off his clothes and hung them on the hanger, then went to the bathroom to wash his hands, and then consciously got into the kitchen.

Shen Maomao, who was washing vegetables, looked at his father with tears in his eyes: "Dad... just take care of your wife... I have no image in my wife's eyes."

Her father patted her on the shoulder and comforted her: "Girl, you just need to get used to it. Husband and wife...er... couples should be honest with each other."

Shen Maomao: "..." You said it so grandly, isn't it because you are afraid of your wife so you dare not stand up for her?Heh, man.

The father and daughter were busy in the kitchen in silence. After a while, the kitchen door was pushed open, and a pink head poked out: "Shall I help?"

Shen Maomao was afraid that her mother would dig out a few more photo albums to tarnish her image, so she quickly waved to Lou Jingmo: "Come on, come on!"

The moment she met Lou Jingmo's gaze, she clearly saw a flash of a smile inside, and she was so angry that the smile gradually disappeared, and tears gushed out.

It's over, she really has no image to speak of.

Father Shen said: "No, no, it's enough if Mao Mao can help me. Xiao Lou, go and eat an orange, or watch TV with your aunt for a while."

Shen Maomao put his arms around Lou Jingmo's shoulders on tiptoe, and said, "Dad, you teach Sister Lou two dishes, let her go back and cook for me?"

Shen's father had no intention of hiding his secrets at all, and said happily after hearing the words: "That's a good relationship! Come on, Shen Maomao, you make room for others, you don't have any eyesight, little Lou, it's not uncle bragging, back then, Your aunt was moved by my cooking, so she followed me, a poor boy."

Lou Jingmo echoed: "Auntie also told me, Uncle, you really love each other and are very happy."

Father Shen's face was full of red, and he was triumphant: "Of course! Come on, look at this dish. You need to heat the oil first. After the oil is [-]% hot, you need to add pepper, aniseed, and cinnamon... Can you eat chili? No. I will add less..."

The two exchanged their experience in cooking, and Shen Maomao, who couldn't get in the way next to him, seemed extraordinarily redundant.

Originally, she was afraid that Lou Jingmo would be awkward getting along with her father, but now she suspects that she is the son-in-law at the door, and the two in front of the pot are the father and daughter.

Did Lou Jingmo play tricks on her parents, so awesome? ?

After washing the dishes, there was no room for her in the kitchen, so Shen Maomao had no choice but to leave silently, and the two people inside didn't even look at her when they left.

When Shen's mother on the sofa saw her coming out, she quickly waved to her and whispered, "Come on, let me ask you something."

Shen Maomao walked over: "What are you doing?"

Shen's mother: "I wanted to say it when I came back last time, why did you two dye your hair so strangely?"

Shen Maomao: "Isn't it pretty?"

Shen's mother hesitated for a second: "Xiao Lou dyed it pretty."

Shen Maomao: "??? Your daughter is not good-looking??"

Shen's mother: "What are you talking about? It's neither fish nor fowl." Then she opened the photo album and went straight to the black history that Shen Maomao couldn't bear to look directly at: "Look, isn't this what you are like? ?”

Shen Maomao laughed angrily: "Are you too double-standard? Why, Lou Jingmo's face looks good in any color, so I'm out of the mainstream? Besides, can these two be the same? I'm obviously a sweetheart now. How is the girl?!"

"Ouch——" Shen's mother vomited, "I don't care about you, just dye whatever color you like, and don't disgust me here."

Shen Maomao: "..." Although she won the victory, why couldn't she be happy at all?

……

After dinner, Shen Maomao went to wash the dishes, then went back to the room to find Lou Jingmo.

On her bed, Lou Jingmo was holding a locked codebook with a pink cover, looking at her with a half-smile.

Shen Maomao's hair exploded: "Fuck! Can you find this out?" As he said that, he was about to grab it.

Lou Jingmo raised his hand to avoid her movement: "Auntie gave it."

Shen Maomao: "..." Her mother really spared no effort to cheat her.

Lou Jingmo: "What? I can't watch it? Is there a secret?"

Shen Maomao hesitated and said: "Actually, it's not impossible...but you can't laugh after watching it."

Lou Jingmo: "We have received professional training, and we generally don't laugh unless we can't help it."

Shen Maomao locked the door, glared at her, and then reluctantly unlocked the password: "The password is my mother's birthday, and I write this diary in the hope that one day she will find my diary and feel guilty towards me." ,result……"

As a result, Lou Jingmo already knew about it—Mother Shen didn't even watch it.

The first diary was from 06, and the font on it was still immature: [Today, my mother mama me because she didn't get 555 points in the math test.Her daughter is already dead, from now on, I will become a learning machine without emotion, and let her know the taste of regret! 】

Lou Jingmo was silent for two seconds, looked at the diary, then looked at Shen Maomao, and commented pertinently: "You know that the word 'Tao' is wrong."

Shen Maomao rolled his eyes: "I didn't ask you to correct my mistakes."

Lou Jingmo gradually couldn't manage his expression: "Let me ask you something."

Shen Maomao covered his face: "Don't ask, I loved it."

Lou Jingmo suddenly burst into laughter, and everyone was dumbfounded.

Shen Maomao: "Fuck, you bitch."

"Hahahahahahaha!!" Lou Jingmo even forgot when was the last time she laughed like this, but when she thought of Shen Maomao's expression of embarrassment, she felt cute and funny.

Shen Maomao became angry: "Can't you watch it?! If you laugh again, I won't let you see it!"

Lou Jingmo coughed twice and calmed down: "Ahem, it's okay, let's continue watching."

As I spoke, I opened the second article: Today, my mother took me to Youyuan, and said that she wanted to tell me that she should not be so fierce to me yesterday, but it was too late, I am not her daughter anymore, why? Did she want to say that?My heart is so tong, unless she buys me a bangbang don tomorrow, I won't Yuanliang her!

A cracked heart is drawn next to it.

Lou Jingmo praised her with a smile: "You learn pinyin well."

Shen Maomao buried his head in the quilt.

Lou Jingmo turned a few pages back, and the contents were roughly the same, and they were all complaints from some children. There was a long interruption in the middle, and he probably couldn’t keep going. It was already 13 when he turned to the content. Years old: [She doesn't understand me at all!The moment my hair was forcibly straightened, it felt as if something was broken together...Ah...that was my dream and my heart.It seems that there is only a fog left in my world. There is a little me in the fog, and I can't find my way home.Do I still have a home?Is this place really my home?Water knows when fish cry, but who knows when I cry? 】

Lou Jingmo: "Pfft ha ha ha ha ha ha ha...you can rhyme quite well..."

This diary is better viewed with that photo.

Shen Maomao wished he could dig out a three-bedroom and one living room with his toes, and then shut Lou Jingmo in, so as not to hear her crazy laughter: "Shut up, you!"

Lou Jingmo turned another page, and this page was even more amazing. It was full of Martian characters. She read it for a long time, but only read two sentences. "Blackened (heartbroken)".

She suppressed a smile and turned the page again, only to see that it said: [Adults can only lie, they will never understand my feelings, when the sharp knife cut the skin, I cried, but not because of the pain , but because the heart is dead.If one day, she saw these wounds, would she feel a little bit guilty?Maybe death is a kind of relief, but I am a coward, not even daring to commit suicide. What is the point of living like this?How long can I last? 】

Lou Jingmo frowned: "Did you harm yourself at that time? Did you see a psychiatrist? Do you still have such thoughts now?"

Shen Maomao felt ashamed: "No... I just wrote like that. I didn't know why at the time. Self-mutilation was very popular in the class. I followed the wind and cut my arm with a knife, but because I was too timid to use force, the skin didn't break. I wrote it to annoy my mother on purpose. Sigh...it’s useless to think about it now, otherwise my mother would be so sad when she saw it.”

Lou Jingmo was relieved, read two more pages of non-mainstream remarks, then closed the diary, and said seriously: "Actually, I am very disappointed, I have not been able to participate in your past, and have not been able to see you so lively. I I am very grateful for those photos and this diary, because they let me see a complete you and let me know what kind of person you were in the past, so you don’t have to be embarrassed, everyone has a young time. Everyone That’s how they all came here.”

Shen Maomao looked forward to: "Have you ever been a non-mainstream?"

Lou Jingmo: "No. Pfft."

Shen Maomao looked at her coldly, and said quietly: "I have said so much, if you don't laugh, I will really believe it."

Lou Jingmo: "Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha, why are you so cute hahahahahahahahaha!"

Shen Maomao: "..." Very angry, but still smiling.

Stop laughing, the child will be stupid if you laugh again! !

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-08-0310:16:16~2020-08-0410:11:59期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Fengkuang, nanjoballno☆1;

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: My__, Hewu, wuli Xiaozhien, Befa Ai Enterprise, and one page Yancheng;

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