The Swan Bay Murders

Brother Bai Chuan asked us where we wanted to go during the New Year’s Eve. I’m a person who has no idea. When I was with Berlin, he decided on such things, and then he came to ask my opinion.

Of course I don't have any opinions, as long as I want to go wherever he goes, I am willing to accompany him.

We have been to Seattle, Hawaii, Bangkok, and Santorini. Last winter, he read an article and suddenly said that he wanted to go to Arctic Village.

It's just a pity, we were very busy at work later on, and we originally planned to find an opportunity for the two of us to take annual leave together and then go there, but it turned out to be nothing.

"Is there any place Jiangluo wants to go?" Auntie made tea and poured a cup for each of us.

I was distracted at first, but when she asked me, my heart skipped a beat.

In fact, I really want to go to the Arctic Village. It should be very cold this season, but that's where Berlin wants to go.

But I can't say it, my uncles and aunts may not be able to bear it in places that are too cold, and I don't want to be a burden to them.

"I can do it, you can decide." In fact, I thought it would be good to let the family of three go out during the New Year's Eve. During this time, I have always been mixed in their families. I also try my best to take care of them, but they are outsiders after all.

"Bai Chuan, do you have any suggestions?" Uncle asked while watering the flowers.

Brother Bai Chuan was drinking tea. Hearing his uncle's question, he thought about it seriously and said, "Do you want to play at home or go abroad?"

"Do it domestically." The aunt said, "Of course you have to spend New Year's Eve with your own country, right Jiang Luo?"

I think that my aunt is afraid that I feel that they have neglected me and don't care about my thoughts, so she always wants to hear my opinion.

After she finished asking, I nodded too.

"Then I'll see if there are any places in China that are worth going in the past two days. At this time, there are many people everywhere." Brother Bai Chuan looked at the time, stood up and said, "I'm going to the gym, Jiang Luo wants to go together? "

I have no interest in fitness. Compared to this, I would rather spend my time reading or listening to music.

But Brother Bai Chuan is completely different. He likes fitness very much. In his words, he is too busy with work on weekdays. Only when he works out can he relax and maintain his figure.

I shook my head and said with a smile: "I still won't go, I'm afraid when I enter the gym."

He laughed a couple of times, rubbed my hair, and said as he walked out, "Why is it like Berlin!"

As soon as the words came out, we were all silent for a while, and it was the aunt who broke the awkward atmosphere first.

"Remember to buy salt when you come back at night, or you can drink clear water soup for dinner!"

Brother Bai Chuan went out, I had nothing to do, so I went back to my room to look at the online recruitment information.

After New Year's Day, I'm going to look for a job. Although it will be difficult to find a job that suits my heart, let's take a look first, just in case I find a suitable job.

I browsed casually, then found an electronic resume template and started filling it out.

Since Berlin left, I have hardly used my mind on myself. Now when I am filling out my resume, I suddenly realize that I am also a real person.

I also want to make money to support myself, and I have to take every step of the way in the future.

The pain that Berlin brought me is hidden in a small room in my heart. As long as I don’t mention it again and again, it should be sealed sooner or later.

I think, I will probably never forget him in my life. I don't know if I will not love him, but I will definitely not forget him.

All my best and hottest love these years was given to that bad guy. He left me so irresponsibly, how could I forget.

I will remember the happiness when we were together, the despair when I saw his dead body, and the pain of wanting to eat the suicide note that I tore into pieces.

I can no more forgive him than I can indulge myself.

Since you can't ask for love, then live a good life.

I filled out my resume carefully, and I swear, when I was looking for a job after graduation, my resume was not as careful as I am now.

I long for a good job, imagining that it can save me and get me out of this dark state of mind.

For some reason, I feel much better after submitting my resume.

Probably because I really think that life will get better and better. Although I am a little self-deceiving, I am still very satisfied with how I am now.

At least, working hard, isn't it?

I cooked the dinner, Brother Bai Chuan helped.

We made a beef soup and fried three dishes.

After the meal, Brother Bai Chuan said to me, "Do you want to go out for a walk?"

I'm lazy, and I really don't want to move if I don't have to.

"Go ahead," my aunt patted me on the back, "I'll do the dishes, you guys go out and walk around."

My aunt had spoken, so I had to stand up obediently.

Brother Bai Chuan handed me the coat, and turned over a scarf for me: "It's windy outside, tie it up."

I took it with some embarrassment. In fact, I have it myself, but I don’t know where to put it.

We went out together, and I always felt that he called me out because he had something to say to me, and Auntie knew what he was going to say.

Sure enough, as soon as he left the house, Brother Bai Chuan asked, "Has Xu Zhao contacted you again?"

I huddled my face in the thick woolen scarf, only showing my eyes, smiled secretly, and then pretended to be cold and said: "I called a few times, but I didn't answer."

"Hmm..." He put his hands in his coat pockets and walked forward with his head down.

The wind is really a bit strong tonight, I blame him a bit, why did he choose such a weather to come out.

I took two quick steps to keep up with him, and found that hiding beside him would allow him to protect me from the wind.

Brother Bai Chuan is taller and stronger than me. We stand together, obviously he is much more masculine than me.

Especially now, although the flesh has grown back a bit, it is still too thin.

I don't like the way I look now. In order to avoid getting upset, I don't even look in the mirror every day.

He seemed to see my thoughts, intentionally or unintentionally, he turned sideways to help me block the wind, but I pretended I didn't notice, and just looked ahead and walked slowly.

"Xu Zhao came to see me once." He suddenly spoke again.

When I heard it, I felt a little unhappy. The recent Xu Zhao is very strange, not at all like him before.

From what I know of him, once I say no, he almost never brings up the same thing again, just like when I was with Berlin, he was unhappy, but we talked about it and never talked about it again I love related issues.

This time, I really don't know what happened to him.

"Jiang Luo, I think I should ask you what you mean."

"What?" I thought he was going to ask me if I had feelings for Xu Zhao.

"Are you really willing to live with us?" Brother Bai Chuan stopped and looked at me. The lights in the community were dim orange, and the strong wind swayed the dead branches next to him.

I stopped too and turned to look at him.

"Why do you ask that all of a sudden?"

He said: "Xu Zhao gave me the reminder, I found that I really forgot to ask for your opinion."

I frowned, and he continued: "At the beginning, I just thought that we could comfort each other by living together, but I didn't consider whether it was suitable for you. I'm sorry."

"Don't do this." My heart was beating so fast that I was afraid that he would tell me to live alone, "I like being with you."

I’m telling the truth, the warm family I’ve longed for for so many years actually experienced it after the death of Berlin. I cherish it very much and carefully maintain the relationship between us.

Every step I take is very cautious, for fear of causing trouble to them and making them unhappy. The family who should have suffered more than me and need to take care of them care about me all the time. I don’t know what to say except gratitude.

I thought about leaving them, I thought about it from the very beginning, but it's not that I don't want to be with them, on the contrary, I care about them very much, and I'm afraid they will hate me.

"You said," I looked at him, "we're family."

He should have laughed, the wind was too strong, I couldn't hear it clearly.

There was almost half a step between us, he came over, grabbed my shoulders, and walked forward: "Okay, let's turn this matter over, now tell me the truth, do you want to go to New Year's Eve?" The place?"

I lowered my head again, Xiaosi would always be embarrassed if someone saw through.

"There's nothing you can't say." Brother Bai Chuan squeezed my shoulder hard, "I'm really curious what kind of place you want to go."

"Arctic Village." I said, "Brother, do you know about Arctic Village?"

The northernmost town in China, it is said that if you are lucky, you can see the Northern Lights.

"Arctic Village?"

"Hmm." He probably didn't know, I explained, "Before Berlin said he wanted to go, he said he wanted to see the Northern Lights, and wanted to experience the polar day and night."

"Then let's go to Arctic Village." Brother Bai Chuan let out a long sigh of relief, pretending to be relaxed and said with a smile, "Let's take Berlin with us."

It was freezing cold, and I felt a little guilty looking at my aunt whose nose was red from the cold.

But she seemed to like it here, and she and her uncle took pictures of each other with their cameras.

Of course, they also carried pictures of Berlin in their breast pockets.

The tour guide said that we came in the wrong season, and the Northern Lights would be easier to see around the summer solstice.

"It doesn't matter, let's try our luck." Brother Bai Chuan pulled me forward, and we stepped on the thick snow with every step.

We are in the northernmost part of China and continue to walk north. It is said that the "northernmost point" can only be reached on foot.

We stopped and went, although it was cold, we were sweating.

Uncles and aunts couldn't support their physical strength anymore, so they found a farmhouse to rest and said they would wait for us to come back there.

Brother Bai Chuan and I, as well as the tour guide who told us about the history of the Arctic Village along the way, continued to move forward.

After going forward for about 10 minutes, I saw a stone tablet.

The tour guide said: "This is it!"

Brother Bai Chuan and I walked over, and before we could stand still, the tour guide said again: "Actually, to tell you the truth, this is only the northernmost point in name, and the real northernmost point in China is 90 kilometers away from the Arctic Village. The Ussuri Shoal, it is not convenient for you to go there, so...haha, you can just think this is the northernmost place!"

After listening to his words, brother Bai Chuan and I felt cheated.

However, if the money given does not come back, I can only accept my fate.