Severe Emotional Cleanliness Mutual Aid Group

When I received that photo, Jin Chunan was sitting on a low stool on the set, leaning against the wall and dozing off.

The stool is very small, a common plastic children's stool. Jin Chunan has tall legs and long legs, so he sits very cramped. His two long legs can only be crossed in front of him.The walls are cold, rough and hard, and after leaning on them for a long time, the air-conditioning will penetrate into the cracks in the bones, making people's blood cold.

However, in such a bad environment, Jin Chunan still took a nap.He is a person with a fairly regular schedule. When he has nothing to do on weekdays, he goes to bed at ninety o'clock at night. Now it is past three o'clock in the morning. He took it into a shallow dream.

In the dream, Jin Chunan was sitting on the sofa at home, and Fang Xiaonan was curled up in a ball, nestling on his lap, like a large fur cushion.Fang actually stood next to him, soaking his feet in hot water together with him, the wheels in the electric foot bath whimpered and rolled, some hot water droplets splashed on his calf, and then slowly slid down.

Fang actually held a cup of hot milk very unhappy, and turned around while holding it with both hands, but refused to drink.Jin Chunan looked amused, moved the sole of his foot forward, and rubbed his little toe with his big toe.Fang actually tilted his head, glared at him angrily, picked up the cup unwillingly and took a sip, swallowed it, pinched his nose and drank the rest in one gulp, then put the cup heavily on the coffee table, His face was full of humiliation.Jin Chunan leaned over and kissed his cheek, Fang unexpectedly wiped it with his hand awkwardly, Jin Chunan leaned over and kissed him again, Fang unexpectedly turned his head to stare at him, then threw himself into his arms suddenly, pinning him down on the sofa.Fang Xiaonan's tail was squeezed, and he jumped away with a groan.

The two kissed and rolled on the sofa...

When Mengzheng was in full bloom, Jin Chunan was awakened by a ringtone. He opened his eyes and saw that it was the mobile phone of the younger brother who was not far away. The younger brother picked up the phone and chatted happily.Recalling the scene in the dream, Jin Chunan blushed slightly, looked around guiltyly, happened to catch a glimpse of the mobile phone light flashing between his legs, clicked on it, and it was a text message notification.

The number was unfamiliar, and his first reaction was an advertisement or a scam message, but he still clicked on it and glanced at it. With just one glance, his whole body felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave, with cold from head to toe.

The person who was still in love with him in the dream was lying on someone else's bed when he woke up.This day-to-day difference made his whole body stiff, and he leaned against the wall, unable to recover for a long time.

The walls are cold and hard, like love.

When he reacted and wanted to identify the authenticity, he trembled all over, moved his eyes to the screen, and studied the details one by one.

Fang Ranran's body shape, Fang Ranran's legs, Fang Ranran's back, the scar on Fang Ranran's buttocks, there is no doubt that it is Fang Ranran, not a composite, nor anyone else with a similar back, that is Fang Ranran, transformed into Hui, who he also knew, actually knew Fang.

And the man who lowered his head and kissed his scar, although only showing a side face, but the contours of eyebrows and eyes are still clearly discernible, is the Mr. Fang Changfang who enthusiastically enlightened him.

At that moment, the sunny and perfect world that Jin Chunan lived in for more than [-] years collapsed, or it can be said that part of it collapsed.

His tears poured out like a rushing river.Excessive psychological sadness and anger turned into physical pain. He trembled all over, convulsed to the point where he could not hold the phone, and his calf began to cramp. The field worker next to him looked at him in surprise while talking on the phone. With tears in his eyes, he slowly got up and staggered away from the set.He sat on the long steps in the back hill of Dongcheng University, sat in the dark, called Fang Ran over and over again, turned off the phone, and kept turning it off.He called "Fang Chang" again, but the phone was also turned off.

He thought, at this moment, now, what is he doing?what are they doing?

This kind of imagination made him collapse, and he wailed loudly in the silent to lonely night, with tears streaming down his face, and no one knew about it.

On the car back to the city, he leaned against the car window, covered his head and face with his coat, clenched his teeth and cried silently.The car was a little bumpy, his head bumped against the car window rhythmically, and the fabric in front of his eyes was soaked with tears.

When he arrived in Pingcheng, the morning light was twilight. After getting off the car, he threw his coat into the trash can, turned off his phone, and called the car with a blank expression.At this moment, apart from his excessively red and swollen eyes, he could no longer see anything unusual. No one would know that this handsome boy had cried uncontrollably in the late night that just passed.

Back home, he started packing his clothes, ready to leave, to his parents' house, to a friend's place, anywhere else, as long as it wasn't here.

In the process of packing his clothes, he cried again.There are so many good memories in this place, his own, his and Fang Ran's, every flower and grass here, a sofa, and even a dishcloth are carefully selected by him.He can even recall the carefree and fulfilling happiness he felt when he bought these items.

He stood in the room and looked around, no matter where he looked, there was only Fang Ran's figure, Fang Ran who was picking at the dining table to eat, Fang Ran who was lazily reclining on the sofa watching TV Fang Ran, who was drinking secretly on the bench on the terrace, and Fang Ran who was throwing Fang Xiaonan up and down while holding Fang Xiaonan.

The Fang he loves is unexpectedly.

This hallucination allowed him to obtain a short period of peace. It seemed that such a bad thing was just a nightmare, and his life hadn't changed in the slightest. He would live like this with Fang.

But such a wonderful hallucination did not last long, and soon another tall figure appeared beside Fang Ran, the Mr. Fang Chang in the photo, they were kissing, they were stroking each other...

Jin Chunan collapsed to the extreme, he slapped himself hard in the chaos, the pain made the hallucination disappear, and the emptiness returned to his eyes.

Sitting on the cold floor, Jin Chunan hugged the computer, logged into an emotional forum, and posted a post asking, "What should I do if my lover cheats?"

Some people say that "love can't be smooth sailing, as long as the other party is willing to come back, you should give a chance", some people say "one must have two, absolutely unforgivable", some people say "love and sex are not the same thing, don't care about it", some people say " There are many kinds of emotions, and people’s emotional needs are also diverse. Marriage itself is against human nature, and people who demand loyalty are narrow and stupid.” Some people say, “From your description, it’s probably just a one-night stand, no big deal. of".

There are so many opinions, and Jin Chunan looked at them one by one. When he saw the last one, he thought, why is it not a big deal?

Is one-night stand just three empty words?Doesn't it represent something more specific?

Your lover, and another person, where you can't see, they kiss passionately, lips and tongues intertwined, hug each other tightly, skin to skin, and caress each other passionately.Those parts that were only exposed to you were delivered to another person without reservation, every inch of skin, every moan and cry, every emotional trembling.They breathe together, they are intimate, in such a passionate and ambiguous state, there may be a moment of temptation and affection.Your lover gets pleasures and orgasms from other people, and those pleasures are not different from those you get from you.

Cheating or one-night stands are not just inanimate words, they represent real kisses, real physical contact, one or several irrefutable physical orgasms and pleasures.

Jin Chunan thought, why would some people think that this is no big deal?Because you don't really love each other?

He thought, did Fang actually give that population?Like giving yourself a mouth?

He was crushed by his own imagination, and the pain spread in his body, like countless small knives, walking through his flesh and blood, like endless lingering, like bone removal and heart removal again and again.

The hut that was originally full of warm memories turned into a purgatory of swords and flames in an instant, and into a Shura field full of corpses. He couldn't stay for a moment, and rushed out the door with a half-packed suitcase.

At this time, he was in an infinite embarrassment, and he couldn't go back to his parents. Even if his emotions collapsed, he still had a sliver of reason, so he couldn't let his parents worry about it.He has very few friends, and most of them overlap with Fang Ran's circle of friends, so it's hard to avoid visiting at this time.As for the middle school and college classmates, they are either married or alienated, so it is not easy to bother them.Fang unexpectedly □□ he didn’t want to spend any more, and his card landed in the house in a panic. He didn’t want to go back to that sad place. At this time, he had less than [-] yuan in cash, and he couldn’t stay in a small hotel. no.After thinking about it, the world is so big that he has nowhere to go except Chu Jing.

Fortunately, Chu Jing took him in generously, listened to his experience, expressed sympathy for him, and understood his grief, and gave him enough space to be alone.

Jin Chunan locked himself in the small room of Chu Jing's house, closed the curtains, and spent the most difficult four days in his life in the darkness.

He masochistically described the scene of their lovemaking, over and over again, from the foreplay to the tenderness after the event, every detail was clearly shown, as if he had carefully observed the incident at the scene.Such descriptions aggravated his grief, pain, and jealousy.

Those sad knives shuttled cruelly through his body, cutting off his tendons, cutting off his flesh and blood, including the bones.And on the bloody wound, the new tissue spread bit by bit, up and down, covering his broken body.

Wait until he heard Fang Ran's yelling in the room, wait until Chu Jing opened the heavy curtains, and wait until the sun shone in again.

Jin Chunan is no longer Jin Chunan.