1921

Rain on Friday, November [-]

It has been raining these days.

Autumn in Nancheng is always accompanied by rain, and it is even worse in winter. It is cloudy and rainy all day long, and even the air is humid.

I messed up last week's midterm exam.

And today, it's the parent meeting.

I sat on a bench in the lobby on the first floor of the complex, looking at the patter of rain outside, feeling terrible.

There are 75 students in the whole class, and I am ranked 58th, which is behind the whole grade.I am not worried that my parents will beat me. They have almost given up this violent education method since I transferred from primary school, because I always try my best to keep my grades in the middle and upper reaches. As bad.In addition, I have always been submissive, not disobedient to them, and behaved well-behaved and sensible, so they gradually relaxed and adopted a free-ranging attitude towards me.Although you won't be beaten, but earnestness is indispensable.I know that they want me to get good grades, especially my mother, who has high expectations for me. She hopes that I can get into a good university and find a good job.I know that she wants to have a child, and I know that she is not just out of concern for me.She thought I didn't know, I just pretended not to know.

The day before the exam, I caught a cold.I thought it was not serious, and after looking for medicine to take at home, I didn't take it too seriously.When I took the exam the next day, I realized that it was bad.I was dizzy, had a stuffy nose and a cough, and had a slight fever.Sitting in the seat by the window, I closed the window, got myself hot water and put it on the table, and prepared the pen, pencil and eraser, hoping that it would not affect the exam later.

feeling bad.

I've been wiping my nose and I've almost used up the pack of tissues I brought.My throat was itchy and I really wanted to cough, but I suppressed it tightly, not letting myself cough out.Everyone is taking the exam and needs a quiet environment to think. If I cough, it will definitely affect other people's exams.What's more, I feel that as long as I start coughing, I will definitely not be able to stop it for a while.I kept holding back, feeling that my internal organs were twisted and painful, and I kept thinking about why the time was still so long, and why the exam was not over yet.

The bell rings, hand in the paper.Taking advantage of the noise of everyone discussing the answers in the classroom, I covered my mouth and coughed loudly in the corner.My eye sockets were hot, and when I wiped my eyes, physical tears flowed out.What a mess, I thought.

The next few exams are basically like this.

Although I went home and took medicine, my cold didn't get better in a while. It wasn't until two days ago that my cold was completely healed.Before the grades came down, I was very worried that I would do poorly in the exam. I was always groggy during the exam, and I felt like I couldn't think well.On the day the results were announced, my fears were fulfilled.

Wan Xinghua took the test paper and looked at the wrong questions, and leaned over to ask me how I did in the exam. I could only smile wryly and say it was not very good.He thought I was being modest, took my report card over to read, and then returned it back, patted my shoulder, comforted me and said: "It must be a mistake in performance, your grades are usually very good, wait for the next exam Just test it back."

I don't care too much, because it's an accident, so to speak.However, it is difficult for me to escape the faint sense of depression in my heart.

Some of the students are like me, sitting and chatting and playing in the lobby of the complex building waiting for the parent meeting to end, some are killing time in the snack bar, and some are playing around outside the school.The Parents' Association does not require students to be in school, and everyone can choose how to spend their time.

I don't want to go home. Today is my turn to clean up. I don't want to go to school again after I go home.

There was no desk in the hall, and I couldn't do my homework, so I had to take out the history book and memorize it.I will check the recitation next Monday, and I haven't recited it yet.

The rain has been falling, and the tiles in the hall are wet from the steps of the students coming and going. Be careful not to slip under your feet when walking.I closed the book, closed my eyes, and quietly recited what I had just memorized. When I got stuck, I opened the book and took a look before continuing to recite.I recited it back and forth many times, and finally memorized all the contents of a page and a half.I opened my eyes, ready to read the book again to consolidate.Glancing casually out of the corner of my eye, I found that someone sat down next to me, about an arm's distance away.I didn't pay much attention to it. After browsing through the recited content, I put the book sideways into the schoolbag beside me, only to realize that the person sitting next to me was Ye Aichen.As if sensing my gaze, he turned his head and smiled at me.

Originally Wan Xinghua and I stayed here together, but not long after, Li Chi, Xiang Zhihong, and Wang Lerui came over and asked if they wanted to hang out together, Wan Xinghua agreed, and I chose to stay here.Before Wan Xinghua left, he borrowed my umbrella. He didn't take the umbrella because he thought it was troublesome, so he brought me the same umbrella when he came to the complex with me.I don't plan to go anywhere else here, they said they would be back before the parent meeting, so I gave it to him.

There is still about half an hour before the end of the parent-teacher meeting, and it is estimated that Wan Xinghua and the others will come back in a while.After memorizing the history, I couldn't find anything else to do for a while, so I became dazed unconsciously.

I don't know what my mother will say to me after the parent meeting is over. It should make me study more seriously, and don't miss out in class.It may also make me pay more attention to adding clothes to keep warm, exercising more, and not accidentally catching a cold like this time.What will daddy say to me?He usually doesn't care much about my studies, as long as he knows that I don't make trouble and get along with my grades, he probably won't say anything this time.Sometimes I wonder if my father doesn't care about me, or doesn't take me seriously, otherwise why can't I always get a word from him?No matter how good or how bad I behaved, as long as I didn't go out of line, he wouldn't say anything.In the past, after receiving a certificate of merit, I took it home excitedly, and what I always heard was my mother's praise.The certificate will be posted by my mother, and then she will happily tell my father how good I am, and my father will nod to indicate that he knows and there is no other words or actions.Sometimes I wonder if my dad doesn't like me too much.But the teacher and the textbook said that the love of the father is like a mountain, he is not good at words, but just gives silently.Every time I think about it, I feel that my thoughts are disrespectful to my father, and then I will force myself to forget those thoughts.Dad probably just doesn't know how to show his love.

If no one else asked me about my grades, I don't think I would be so depressed.Relatives and friends will definitely talk about this when chatting. I don’t care about others, but I don’t want grandma to know about it.I hope that what she hears is the news of my good grades, not such poor performance.

It's not that I don't want to disappoint the old man or something, I just have a faint feeling that grandma doesn't seem to like me very much.Sometimes I would hear my mom complaining about grandma when she was talking to dad.When I was in front of my grandma, she always looked stern. Even if there was a smile, it made people feel that there was no smile in it, just a smile on the surface.Grandma's slightly cloudy eyes always looked at me without emotion, as if she was looking at an outsider.Whenever she looks at me like this, I feel chills running down my back, worried that if I don't pay attention, I might annoy her.So, I am not very willing to get along with grandma.

Once when I was young, I was going to go to my mother to get some biscuits. When I walked to the door of the room, I heard my grandma say to my mother: "You have to discipline Wu Zi well, don't go out and let people say that he is uneducated, it doesn't matter to you as a mother." , I can't afford to lose that face." The voice was cold and full of dissatisfaction.My mother retorted immediately, her words were defending me and expressing her displeasure.But I didn't listen, turned and ran away.At that time, I felt that I should not be loved by grandma.If grandma hears the news that I did so poorly in the exam from others this time, will she think that I am a bad person and embarrass her?If grandma said that my mother didn't discipline me well, my mother might get angry when she found out, and then quarrel with grandma.

Thinking about that scene makes me feel a little out of breath.

"what happened?"

Feeling someone pat my arm, I came back to my senses and found that Ye Aichen was looking at me worriedly.

"You look a bit unhappy." Ye Aichen said, "Are you worried that your parents will scold you for failing the exam?"

I shook my head and said nothing.

I don't worry about being scolded by my parents, I just don't want to face family quarrels.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Ye Aichen sighed suddenly, leaned back on the chair, stretched his arms on it, and said in a distressed tone: "This time I must be dead. My dad will surely Beat me to death."

In elementary school, Ye Aichen's grades were not bad, and he was always in the top of the class.Even in junior high school, it shouldn't be much worse.Moreover, judging from the fact that his father always greeted me with a smile when I went to his house, I think the other party should not be such a violent person.

"It would be great if my mother came to the meeting," Ye Aichen continued, "If she says something, she can say a few words about me at most."

Hearing what he said, I couldn't help but want to ask how many exams he had.

"370 one," he said.

I thought about my ranking and found that he was only 20 more than me.

"how come?"

Ye Aichen glanced at me and said with a smile: "I can't help it, I can only say that the teaching level is different. The teaching in the village is indeed different from that in the city. Only after I entered junior high school did I realize that I was really far behind. I don’t know a lot of things, and my field of vision is very narrow. The starting point is different, and it’s really difficult to catch up with others.” He shook his head, “However, now I think you were really right to change schools.”

The matter of transferring schools was told to me after my parents had already contacted the school. I didn't want them to waste their efforts. Although I was very reluctant, I still nodded and agreed.When I first entered a new school, I had many discomforts.Not to mention the extracurricular reading materials, just talking about the course content is much richer and more complicated than the previous school. Various interest classes can be seen everywhere.I was among them, feeling alone, unable to fit in at all.At that time, in order not to let myself be too far behind them, I tried my best to not be left far behind.

"At that time, I felt that you abandoned me and us. I always felt a little unwilling in my heart, and felt that I had been betrayed."

Eh?I didn't expect Ye Aichen to think so, and I was surprised and a little sad.That was not my original intention, I did not intend to betray.

"Thinking about it now, it should have been a child's possessiveness at that time. After all, I regarded you as my best friend." Ye Aichen scratched his head, then turned to look at me, "I want to tell you I'm sorry for thinking like that." He continued seriously, "You are just a child, you can't object to the decision made by your parents, right? And after you left, you still wrote to me, explaining that you are What puts me in my heart is not the betrayal and abandonment of me as I thought. In fact, I am very happy to receive your letter, very happy."

Hearing Ye Aichen's sincere words, and seeing his apologetic and happy gentle eyes, I feel that the little bit of sadness just now has disappeared.He had received those letters.Also, he treats me like a friend and the best, which makes me happy.It was as if a hot spring flowed slowly through my heart, warming my heart, and the oppressive feeling before was also warmed and became light and light, without the initial weight.I don't feel as if I'm alone anymore, and I'm cared for, and that's satisfying.

"I never thought of betraying you," I said.

"Well, I know." Ye Aichen said, "So, I apologize to you."

"Then...are we still good friends?" I asked nervously.

"Of course, you will always be my best friend." Ye Aichen said with certainty.

After that, we didn't talk anymore.It was only after I realized that I felt embarrassed. It was really embarrassing for the two boys to talk about betrayal and abandonment, and to declare their friendship bluntly.I feel my face is a little hot.

"The parent meeting is almost over, are you going back to the classroom?" Ye Aichen looked at his watch and asked.

There are still 5 minutes before the end of the parent-teacher meeting, and Wan Xinghua hasn't come back yet. If he doesn't see me when he comes back later, he will go directly to the classroom.I nodded, and suddenly thought that I didn't have an umbrella and it was still raining outside, so I felt a little embarrassed.

As if seeing my difficulty, Ye Aichen picked up an umbrella from the armrest next to him, "I have an umbrella, we can fight together."

It turned out to be there, covered by the armrest and Ye Aichen's body, no wonder I didn't see it.

"Ah."

Ye Aichen's umbrella is very big, there is a lot of space for the two of us to walk under it, unlike my single umbrella, which can only cover one person, and it will be a bit crowded for two people.

Ye Ai held an umbrella, and I walked beside him, carefully avoiding the puddles, and when I got to the teaching downstairs, parents who had finished the parent-teacher meeting started to come down one after another.

I said thanks and went back to my classroom. After talking with my mother for a while, I asked her to go back first, and I stayed to clean up.

When the people were almost gone, I started to sweep the floor. After a while, Wan Xinghua came back.

"I'm here!" he yelled, "Wu Zi, thank you, I put the umbrella here for you." After speaking, he put the umbrella on my table, then picked up the broom in the hygiene corner and started cleaning.

While sweeping the floor, he told me what he did with Li Chi and the others, and then said with a little pride that he came back at this time because he didn't want to meet his mother so as not to be lectured, and praised his wit.

But, in fact, I want to say that he will see his mother differently when he goes home, and then preaching and so on can't be avoided, can't it?

However, I didn't say it out loud.