1921

Jun. [-] Sun. Sunny

When I received the invitation from Xie Lingjie, I was a little surprised.Knowing that Wu Zi would also participate, I readily agreed.

It seems like a good choice to go to the amusement park together on Children's Day.

Today I found that Wu Zi was a little afraid of riding roller coasters and haunted houses.He was full of confidence before entering the haunted house, but halfway he was so scared that he pulled my clothes and walked behind me, but I thought his little gesture was a bit cute when I was in front.

In fact, I kind of wanted to hold his hand and tell him not to be afraid.

Maybe it was because the atmosphere was so good, I almost couldn't help telling him my heart when I was riding the Ferris wheel.But when I saw him purely looking into my eyes, I hesitated for a long time and still didn't say anything.

The city under the setting sun is very beautiful, but all I can see is Wu Zi who is sitting across from me and enjoying the scenery.For this beauty, I think it is better for me to stay in the circle of friends.

On the way back, the group of people who had played around all day were tired and sat on the seats to take a rest.Wu Zi fell asleep with his head resting on my shoulder, just like he did last year after interviewing for a part-time job as a tutor.Earlier I told him not to be too nervous, but he still wore a formal suit in the winter, and his serious but pale face from the cold really made people both happy and pitiful.Can't hug him to keep him warm, I can only give him the coat and hope it doesn't make him so cold.Wu Zi, who was sleeping on my shoulder, shook his head occasionally as the bus drove, and street lights flashed from the window from time to time, casting light on his face.The lights in the carriage were not turned on, and the passengers were sitting in twos and threes.Looking at his peaceful sleeping face, I gently kissed the top of his hair.

Sitting on the subway, I looked at him quietly, wishing that he would be as innocent, happy and carefree as a child.

Jul. [-] Fri. Sunny

I want to protect Wu Zi, I want to take care of him, therefore, I realize that I am not capable of achieving these things.

I want to be independent, I want to be strong, and I want to have the strength to deal with the ups and downs that I will face in the future.

With the help of Zhang Junyue, I took a small step towards this goal.

I hope I can be alone soon.

Jul. [-] Fri. Clear to few shows

During the summer vacation, I lived in the same dormitory with Wu Zi. Although we rarely met each other, I was very happy.

An idea was born.

I want to live with Wu Zi and have more time to meet him.

Next semester, try to move out.

Jul. [-] Sat. Sunny

In the evening, Zhang Junyue asked his girlfriend to return the book that he had borrowed from me because of something. When he was talking to the girl, he saw Wu Zi coming back. He just wanted to say hello to him, but he went back to the dormitory alone.

Did you not see me?I guessed in my heart, but another delusion came to my mind.

Although I know that's not possible.

Going back to the dormitory and pretending to ask casually, I got the answer that I don't want to disturb me talking to others and leave first.

Although I knew it was a delusion, I was still a little bit lost in my heart.

Aug. [-] Sat. Sunny

I drew two characters in Q version, one is Wu Zi and the other is me.

The drawing skills are poor, so I had to ask a classmate I know who studies fine arts to help me revise.After getting the finished draft, compared to my crappy drawing, the revised one came alive.

After thanking the other party, I found a handmade shop and made the two characters into key chains, hoping to give them to Wu Zi today.

I think I will work hard to learn painting, and one day I will draw Wu Zi by myself.

I originally wanted to invite Wu Zi to dinner, but it seemed inappropriate for two boys to eat alone on a festival like Qixi Festival, so I ordered a family bucket after returning to the dormitory.

Using the excuse of not being able to finish the meal, he brought Wu Zi to eat together, and pretended that the key chain was a holiday gift and gave it to him, it shouldn't be too abrupt.

Unfortunately, Wu Zi did not accept my invitation.

I put the key chain in the drawer.

Lying on the bed and unable to sleep, when I heard Wu Zi's voice of tossing and turning, I thought about it and called him softly.

He did not fall asleep.

I remembered the roses I saw on his desk earlier, and brought the topic to that by beating around the bush. I was relieved to learn that it was given by his part-time local boss.Originally, I also wanted to take this opportunity to know what kind of person he likes, but I never thought about the topic but it was brought to me.

Wu Zi asked me if I had someone I liked, and my answer was yes.

And whether you are in a relationship now, my answer is no.

Communication is something that I look forward to but is impossible.

Wu Zi misunderstood my relationship with Zhang Junyue's girlfriend, and I immediately explained.

There is only one person in my heart, the only one, not anyone else.

"Then who is the person you like?"

Wu Zi hit a straight ball, and I was caught off guard.

Recalling in a trance the bits and pieces since he discovered his relationship in junior high school, it was only when he realized that he had silently liked someone for so many years.

Although hopeless, this relationship may last into the future.

Without directly answering Wu Zi's question, I described my mood and small prayers to him, hoping to convey this love and concern to him.

If only he could feel it.

"But why don't you tell the other party what you want? Give it a try, maybe the other party likes you too."

When Wu Zi said this, I wanted to ask him back: "What about you, do you like me?" Fortunately, I was still rational, so I didn't say it.

A feeling that cannot be responded to can only annoy the other party if it is spoken out.

And I don't want to bother him.

I want to cherish him so much, and I don't want to add new scars to his not-so-smooth life.

I will play my role well.

Aug. [-]Mon. cloudy

For the first time, I felt that growing up was such a slow thing.

When will I have the ability to protect him from wind and rain?

Aug. [-] Sun. Sunny

There is a wall between Wu Zi and me.

On the other side of the wall, did he sleep well tonight?

I thought, I can't sleep.

Sept. [-] Sat. Sunny

I really want Wu Zi to see the scenery of Jiuzhaigou.

In front of Zhang Junyue and his girlfriend's light bulb, I thought it would be great if Wu Zi could be by my side.

I found a turquoise amulet, and I fell in love with it at a glance.

Thinking of what Wu Zi looked like with it, I immediately bought it.

Turquoise, the birthstone of December, I hope it can protect the happiness and peace of the people I like.

Sept. [-]Mon. Sunny

Washing a bowl can get the foam on the forehead, Wu Zi's clumsy appearance made me laugh out loud.

She reached out to wipe it off for him, but was unexpectedly avoided by him, and even walked back to the room to pass by him and took a step back.

Am I getting too carried away?

Because he was too happy to be able to live with Wu Zi, he let down his vigilance, did he accidentally do something that bothered him and hated him?

I should have been more careful, more careful.

Sept. [-] Sat. Lighttrain

Wu Zi was avoiding me.

Don't meet me, and sometimes avoid me when they see me.Even when he speaks, he is evasive and nervous.

I can't remember how many days I haven't had a good conversation with Wu Zi.

Should I distance myself from him a bit?Would this be better?

Did my feelings miss the show?

Sept. [-] Wed. Overcast to little rain

Trying to send a message to invite Wu Zi to go back together, but unexpectedly received a reply letter from him agreeing.

I thought he would say no.

It seems that we really need to distance ourselves from him.

They ate bibimbap together, and Wu Zi was silent during the dinner.

For a long time, Wu Zi hesitated and asked me if he knew the person I liked.

At that moment, I thought, he must know something, so he asked this question.

"Wu Zi, do you... know something?"

I asked him anxiously, but Wu Zi's expression didn't look like he knew something.

I can't grasp how much he perceives, I can only tell him that he knows, and that we met in elementary school.

If he has a little bit of thought, he might be able to deduce from these words who the person I like is.

Can't tell what I'm betting on.

Oct. [-] Sun. Overcast

The distance from Wu Zi is only one wall.

But I still miss him very much.

Oct. [-] Fri. cloudy

The moment I accidentally heard a girl confessing to Wu Zi, I froze in place, feeling like I was losing something important.

Wu Zi rejected the other party.

"I have someone I like." Wu Zi said.

Not an excuse, but a fact.

I thought I could keep waiting, but suddenly I realized that Wu Zi will eventually have someone else standing beside him, and I will lose my current position.

For a moment, some kind of impulse is ready to move.

I tried my best to suppress it, but lost my defense at the end and let the desire roar out.

"Wu Zi, if I confess my love to you... in the future, can we still be friends?"

I hear myself say this.

As soon as I said it, I regretted it.

The timing is too bad.

Wu Zi must be shocked.

Will this be the end of our relationship?

I said that I was talking nonsense to make Wu Zi forget what I said, and I knew it was impossible.

I am kidding myself.

I panicked.

What if Wu Zi hates me?

Oct. [-]Thur. rain

The situation is reversed, and now I am avoiding Wu Zi.

Many times I saw Wu Zi hesitate to speak, but I avoided it.

I must have hurt him.

It turns out that I am such a cowardly person.

Nov. [-] Wed. Little rain to clear

This thing will be over.

It's been a month and it's time for me to calm down.

All the words buried in my heart will be spoken tomorrow.

As for the result, it will be left to Wu Zi to decide.

Nov. [-]Thur. rain

"I like you, Wu Zi."

I thought I would never tell the secret in my life, but I did tell it after all.

With a desperate mood, I cried for nothing, and let Wu Zi see my embarrassed side.

"In the future, can we still be friends?"

After a long wait, I thought, I understand Wu Zi's choice.

The expected result, I should accept it.

From now on, the distance between me and Wu Zi will be unreachable.

But when he heard Wu Zi say it himself, his heart still ached uncontrollably.

After hiding for so long, I will lose him eventually.

"Because! I like you too! Because I like you, we can't be friends anymore. I don't want you to be my friend, I want you to be my family, a family that will be together for a lifetime, is that okay?"

I think I will always remember the scene when Wu Zi said these words, and the disbelief I heard when I heard these words.

The light was dim, and I couldn't see Wu Zi's face clearly, but I knew that his voice was trembling, and he, who never spoke loudly, was speaking to me of his wish forcefully, and my heart that was about to die just now was beating suddenly stand up.

I think Wu Zi needs me to hug him now, and I also want to hold him in my arms, so I do this.

I have no time to take care of the umbrella thrown on the ground, I can only feel the person in my arms, his breathing, his heartbeat, his temperature, everything about him.

Wu Zi, how can you be so pitiful, so... reluctant?

I thought I would never have such an opportunity in my life, Wu Zi, but you made my extravagant wish come true.

If this is a dream, I will be very satisfied if I can be with you.

Wu Zi, it is you who made the miracle come true.

Nov. [-] Sat. Cloudy to little rain

Seeing Wu Zi sleeping in a daze, very cute.

Today is the first date with Wu Zi, the shy blushing appearance makes me want to kiss him.

In fact, I still feel a little unreal that Wu Zi and I are really together.Holding his hand, I felt that it was true, he was by my side.

After returning home, for some reason, Wu Zi became depressed.

I don't want to press him, I hope he can take the initiative to tell me.If he can't break the barrier in his heart by himself, no matter how hard I probe outside, I will only hurt him.

I don't want to hurt him.

I will wait for the day he is willing to tell me.

Until then, I will take good care of him.

I am very happy that Wu Zi is finally willing to show me his heart and tell me what he thinks.

I still didn't give him enough sense of security and trust, this is my fault.I thought I was doing well enough, but now I find that I am far from it.If I really did well, Wu Zi wouldn't be so panicked.

He cried and told me he wasn't as good as I thought he was, and told me a bunch of things he thought he sucked.

"Ye Aichen... If even you have to leave in the end, what should I do?"

My silly little Azusa, you are you, no matter good or bad, I like you.I don't only like your good, I also like your bad.No matter what kind of person you are, you are my Wu Zi.There will be no second you in the world who I like so much.You are my one and only, how can I leave you?

You can talk to me slowly for the rest of your life.You are not alone, you have me, we will go on this road of life together.I will hold you until you are gray-haired and faltering, until the end of your life.

You and I are here, we'll always be together, always, always.

So please stop crying.

I feel sorry for the way you cry.

Nov. [-] Fri. Clear

Zhang Junyue teased me if I fell in love recently, I just laughed and said nothing.

If possible, I would like to announce to the world that I am with Wu Zi.

I really want everyone to know how good Wu Zi is.

Wu Zi is my baby.

The most precious treasure in life.

Dec. [-]Thur. Sunny

The unsent gifts on Qixi Festival were given out on Wu Zi's birthday.

Seeing Wu Zi's delighted smile and shining eyes, my heart moved, and I kissed him.

Soft and moist to the touch, accompanied by the faint vanilla scent of the lip balm I bought for him.He closed his eyes and grabbed my clothes nervously, I hugged him gently, and we felt each other's love in our space.

Life is still long, and we will be by each other's side till the end.

So, have a good laugh.

Happy 19th birthday to my dear Xiaozi.

The author has something to say:

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To some extent, it was similar to Ye Aichen's mood.

This article is over here, thank you little angels for reading here.

It was originally planned to be a short story, but I didn't expect to be dragged down and wrote so much by myself.

I want to express the similarities and differences between self-cognition and others' perception of myself, and I want to give some people some strength, but the writing is not strong enough, and the writing is clumsy. It seems that it is a running account, and what I want to convey may not be conveyed.

However, in the end they came here, good or bad, it can be regarded as an ending for the two of them.

Thanks again, bows.