1921

Wednesday April [-] rainy

Rainy days, always have bad memories.

Huang Li said that everything is inappropriate today.

I use facts to prove that it is not alarmist.

When I was going to school, I was splashed with water on my legs by a speeding car, and I spent the whole morning in the classroom wet.The math test papers that were handed out were full of red crosses, and the teacher called him to the office to reflect.When I came out of the bathroom, I was pushed against the wall by the slapstick boys and got dizzy. I was too sleepy and dozed off in class and was called up by the teacher. When cleaning, my hands were scratched by the burrs on the trash can and bled. It was only when I was handing in the biology newspaper that I forgot to do it, and I was almost hit by a car when I was crossing the road.

This is really inappropriate.

I thought it would be better if I didn't do anything, but God didn't seem to think so. When I went home for dinner in the afternoon, he dropped a heavy bomb on me, which made me stand still and my mind went blank.

Some things I faintly noticed, and even faintly expected it to happen, but when it really happened, I was at a loss and didn't know what to do.

When I got home, I found that my rare parents were at home, with the same meals as usual on the table, and my parents were sitting on the sofa in the living room, without turning on the TV or talking, I don’t know what they were thinking.

After I said hello, I started to eat by myself, and I had to go to evening self-study in a while, so I didn't have much time left.

After dinner, when I put on my shoes and was about to go to school, my mother stopped me suddenly.

"We have something to tell you."

At this moment, I had a hunch, but I was struggling in my heart not to hear the moment when it became true.

"What?" I said with difficulty.

Mom stopped talking, her eyes moved around, and finally landed on Dad, which meant to signal Dad to speak.

I followed her eyes and set my eyes on Dad, and asked, "What's the matter? I'm going to class."

After a while, my father spoke until I became a little anxious.

"I divorced your mother," he said.

"Huh?" Although I had a question, I was thinking in my heart: Ah, it really is so, it really is this matter...

They finally couldn't bear the life of constant quarrels, and decided to get out of the quagmire of marriage.That's fine, fine.

Mom went on to say: "I discussed it with your father, thinking that you will grow up, or let you decide who you want to follow."

Only then did I think, yes, they are divorced, but I still exist, and this kind of thing also needs to be considered.

But who can I choose?

My father has never been close to me, and my grandma doesn't like me either. If I stay with him, I will probably be rejected even more.

mother?

My mother is very kind to me, but with me, she might not be able to start her new life. Looking at me will always remind her of her previous failed marriage.If I follow her, I will cause her troubles and hinder her happiness.

Thinking about it this way, I realized that I was really redundant.

When they made the decision to break up the family, they never asked me what I thought, as if it was just the two of them, they just gave me a choice in the end, and I just need to make a choice.

I was cut off from both of them.

It's ridiculous to think about it. After being a family member for more than ten years, they just broke up.

Also, in the final analysis, they are just strangers who have no blood relationship.And I, because of their blood, was lucky to be the object of this choice.

Suddenly I hate that I am still underage. If I am not, I can say it self-willedly and confidently, saying that I will not follow anyone, instead of being watched by them like now, insisting that I choose from A and B. One comes out.

I felt like they were getting out of this mud, but I was sinking in and about to be submerged.

Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, my mother quickly said: "This decision is a bit sudden, but it's what your dad and I have done for us after consideration. You don't have to decide who to marry now, we will give you time to think about it. Thought."

"Oh..." I said, "Then, can I go to school now?"

"Well, let's go." Mom nodded.

"I'm leaving."

I opened and closed the door, ran down the stairs as if to escape, rushed all the way to the school, and locked myself in the bathroom cubicle.

I wanted to cry a little bit, but I couldn't cry. After all, I am not the person who cried because of a broken bowl a few years ago.

I knew in my heart that this was the best way for them. Didn't I myself think about their divorce a long time ago?I just understand it intellectually, but emotionally, there is an unacceptable feeling of grievance and discomfort, which is so oppressive that I can hardly breathe.

It seems that I laughed at myself, even if I don't know how to cry, I am the same as before, and I am a worthless person.

I stayed in the bathroom until the bell rang before returning to the classroom, and then I was stuck in my homework all night.I really can't think of any other way to divert my attention other than doing this.

I finally got through school, but I didn't want to go home.

Home?It's not my home anymore.

Anyway, I learned years ago that I don't have a home.

I was in a bad mood, I didn't want Ye Aichen to see me like this, so I sent him a text message saying I'd go back first.

Instead of going home, I wandered the streets.After school, the crowd gradually decreased.The night gradually deepened, and there were no people on the road, only the street lamps were still standing in the rain.After going around and around, I still walked to the door of the house.

After standing there for a while, I reached for the key from my schoolbag to open the door.

If you don't go back too late, your parents will be worried.

Are they still worried?

As soon as the key touched the keyhole, there was a sound coming from inside, which seemed particularly abrupt in this quiet night.

Quarreling.

They are arguing again.

Are you already divorced?Haven't you been freed from marriage?Why are you still fighting?

"Don't tell me this!" I heard my father yelling, "This is long gone!"

"Oh," my mother sneered, "You've passed, but I can't!" She also said loudly, "If it weren't for your mother, my first child would not have been lost, and Wu Zi would not be a child now. A person, but a brother!"

elder brother……

What do you mean?

"Are you going to turn over old scores again?" Dad asked, "After all, it was because you didn't pay attention back then. My mother told you not to go out, but you just wanted to confront her and run around with a big belly." .If you were a little more self-conscious, how could such a thing happen!"

"Wu Jianpeng, are you blaming me? Haha! It's not that you don't know what kind of virtue your mother is. She entered the door from me, no, from the time I was with you, she disliked me and found fault with me everywhere. How did I offend her?" I have done my best to serve her without any complaints, and I am proud of her as a mother-in-law. She is what she says. Why did I talk back to her? But she treats me like her daughter-in-law or you Did you see my wife? You said I lost my child because I went out against her, so why don’t you ask her what she did? Do you think she treats me so well? If she didn’t say nothing that day It’s not clean, will I go out in anger? As my husband, you just listen to your mother’s words, and my mood turns a deaf ear. Do you think you are competent? "

"You...we are all very sad that the child is gone, but if you..." Dad wanted to refute, but was interrupted by his mother.

"What's wrong with me? Yes, you are all sad when the child is gone, so am I not sad? He was lost from me, can you understand the feeling of life disappearing? I watched him die helplessly, Do you know that kind of pain? Can you feel it? No, you don’t understand, you don’t know, and you can’t feel it! You just think that the grandson of the Wu family is gone, and I am the one who caused this tragedy. So your mother kept trying to make me divorce you, and wanted you to marry another woman she liked, who could give birth to a son for your Wu family and would not rebel against her, but where were you at that time? I wanted to maintain Our love and marriage have always been in dire straits, but you only know how to be impatient and perfunctory, and then go out to fool around with your group of cronies. Now think about it, I was really a bitch back then, you don’t want this house anymore, I But I'm still trying my best to protect it. What's the point? No matter how hard I try, in the end, I can't escape the ending of today's separation."

Dad was silent for a while, and then slowly said: "I like you, and I also want our family. However, if you haven't been more and more fussy over the years, and you don't let go of trivial matters, meeting my mother You don't have a good face, can we drift away like this?"

"Wu Jianpeng, I am such a fool for expecting from you." Mom's voice was a little choked up, "You always only think about yourself, you never think that you are wrong, and you never think that you have not fulfilled your responsibilities You think you are being filial to your parents, but you don’t realize that you are trampling on your wife and son. After Wu Zi was born, I thought your mother could at least look at his face and stop being the same as before. Aggressive, but I was wrong. At that time, I realized that if I hate it, I hate it, and if I don’t like it, I don’t like it. That's how groveling. Your mother doesn't like Wu Zi, so it's fine if I like it. If you don't protect Wu Zi, I'll just protect him.

"Over the years, has Wu Zi received less cold violence from your mother? You said you also want our family, but how much have you cared about Wu Zi these years? Don't use your work to busy yourself. An excuse to be good at communicating and talking, if you care about him and our family even a little bit, what are those? You know it, but you don’t do anything. You say I’m getting more and more caressing, huh, I also There is no way, what can I do? There is not much difference between having a husband and not having a husband. What can I do if I don’t support myself? Materially you are never stingy to us, but emotionally you are even stingy to give us Ding bit.

"Wu Jianpeng, I'm already very tired. You never care about what I said to you, and you don't cherish the love I give you. I will never argue with you again, that is meaningless. Anyway, we have It's over, let's talk about it today, and we will be happy with each other in the future. No matter who Xiao Zi chooses, I hope he will be happy. Of course, if Xiao Zi chooses you in the end, and you still have a little If you feel pity for me and him, please protect him and don't let him be tortured by your mother again. I've had enough, I don't want my son to be like me." Mom let out a heavy breath , "I will move out in the next two days. Let's finish the follow-up matters of the divorce as soon as possible."

……

I feel like I'm a little confused.

What's this?These things……

I feel a bit hot in the eye sockets.

So, I originally had a brother?

So, am I really not loved?

I don't think it's suitable for me to go back now.

But after going downstairs, looking at the empty streets, I didn't know where to go.

Again, the feeling of being alone in the world.

I was walking on the street in a daze, until I was awakened by a cat meowing, and I realized that I didn't know where I had gone.He raised his head and carefully identified the surrounding scenery, only to realize that he had unknowingly walked near Ye Aichen's house.

Is Ye Aichen still reading now?Or, being urged by aunts and uncles to go to bed early and have to go to bed?

What a warm home.

The rain has stopped, the ground is wet, and the night wind is blowing with coolness, I can't help shivering from the cold.Sit down on the chair at the bus stop, the surroundings are quiet, the night is late, and everyone has fallen asleep.

I touched the back of my head, the place where I was hit today was a little swollen, and it hurt a little when I touched it, and I don't know if it will go away tomorrow.The wound on the palm of the hand has scabbed, and it is estimated that it will heal in two days.I can't do the English cloze exercises in my schoolbag tonight, so I can only do it tomorrow when I find time.

I sat quietly, inexplicably wanting to say something to Ye Aichen.

In fact, there is nothing to say, but I just suddenly had this urge, and it was very urgent.

He took out his phone, and there were many missed calls on it.I ignored the red dot and opened the SMS interface directly. I wanted to type something, but I didn't know what to say.

I typed and deleted, deleted and typed again, and repeated several times, but in the end I just sent a "good night" in the past.

After [-] o'clock, Ye Aichen should be asleep, I hope I won't wake him up.

My wish was fulfilled, and I breathed a sigh of relief.I was just about to put the phone in my pocket when the bell rang unexpectedly.

It was Ye Aichen who beat him.

Is he still asleep?Or did I wake him up?

After hesitating for a while, I connected the phone.

Ye Aichen's eager voice came over: "Wu Zi, where are you!"

A little overwhelmed by his tone, he asked, "What?"

"Auntie said you haven't come home yet, and asked me if I know where you are." Ye Aichen slowed down a little, "So where are you now? Your parents are looking for you everywhere, and they are so anxious that they are going to call the police." gone."

"Ah..." It turned out to be like this.

It really shouldn't have caused them trouble again, and also for Ye Aichen and his family.

"I'm at... the bus stop next to your house." I told him my location, and then said, "Don't worry, I'll be right back. I'm sorry to disturb you to sleep."

I thought, I have to call my parents, I can't make them unhappy at the end.

"Don't move!" Ye Aichen suddenly shouted. "Just wait for me where you are, don't hang up the phone." After he finished speaking, he didn't speak again. I could only hear the sound of cloth rubbing, shoes being put on, uncle's questioning, and the sound of running downstairs. Not long after, Ye Ai Shen stood beside me panting.

I was stunned for a moment, then stood up with my phone in hand, tried my best to hook the corners of my mouth, and asked him why he got down.

"I'm going back now, you go home. I just took a walk and didn't notice..."

"It's so late, let's stay at my house tonight." Ye Aichen interrupted me, "We can still go to school together tomorrow. I'll call my aunt later, is that okay?"

"Need not……"

However, Ye Aichen didn't listen to me, but directly dialed the phone: "Hello, Auntie Ding, Wu Zi is at my house, can he stay at my house tonight? We can just go to study together tomorrow... um... ...Okay...don't worry...ummm...okay, goodbye, auntie." He put away his phone, "Let's go, auntie agreed."

"I……"

Ye Aichen patted my head, "Okay, let's go."

In the end, I was held by Ye Aichen and went back to his house. When the warm hand touched my cold hand, I didn't flinch, but wrapped it tightly.The warmth travels along the meridians on the arms to the heart.

After Ye Aichen and his parents explained the situation, they pushed me into the bathroom and urged me to take a shower, then put me on the bed, turned off the light, and let me sleep.

"I have to get up early tomorrow, go to sleep." His soft voice sounded in the darkness.

"Ah."

I wrapped myself in the quilt, and my body became warm after taking a shower. I felt a little sleepy and fell asleep unconsciously.

I really hope that tomorrow will be a sunny day.