Palm Idol

It took a lot of effort for Lu Yiwen to pull Jian Le back from the brink of collapse.

After 9 o'clock in the evening, the bar began to come in one after another, and with the noise of others, the previously stiff atmosphere was finally dispelled.

Lu Yiwen and Jian Le took the opportunity to change places, went to the bar to refill their cups, and chatted again.

"Speaking of which, I actually fell in love with Xiao Nan at first sight." Jian Le regained her emotions and said with a self-deprecating wry smile, "And the location is still in the hospital, at the door of the intensive care unit, what you say is outrageous."

Jian She's biological father died of illness when Jian She was six years old.

The first time Jian Le saw their mother and son was exactly when Xiao Nan said goodbye to her husband who was about to pass away.

That day, Jian Le happened to go to a hospital for a university volunteer activity. When he passed by a certain VIP ward, he only took a look inside, and couldn't move anymore.

It seems that in order to keep Xiao Nan clean, all the doctors and nurses were not present.

The breath of the dead man spread out soundlessly, and the entire ward and even the corridor were suppressed in a terrible silence.

Jian Le is not interested in the man who died in pain on the bed, and all eyes are on the woman next to him—that is, Xiao Nan.

"I can't describe my feelings at that time." Jian Le took a sip of wine and said, "I just think that this woman is really beautiful. In fact, at that time, Xiao Nan stayed with the hospital all day long and lost weight. I remember it very clearly. At that time, not to mention her lips, even her fingertips were turning white and purple."

But he fell in love with her like this.

On the day her first husband died, as she lay dying in agony.

Jian Le held her breath deeply at that time, silently looking at Xiao Nan's stunningly beautiful silhouette because of her emaciation.

What was frozen was not only time, but also his heart.

It wasn't until Xiao Nan slowly turned his head to look out of the window that his heart, which seemed to be covered with snow-white cement, came back to life.

Jian Le was still in the mood of "she's looking at me", when she saw a small head protruding from Xiao Nan's back, it was a little boy who looked almost like her, looking at him with restrained curiosity. look.

"I don't care at all that she already has a child. From that day on, I started pursuing her crazily."

At that time, Jian Le was still a sunny and healthy ordinary college student, with no money and low education, her only advantage was youth and vitality.

No one is optimistic about him, because even if Xiao Nan is a widow and still carries a bottle of oil, she is still a spoiled young lady, and her worth alone can attract many coveted men.

In fact, Jian Le knew deep down that it was impossible, but she still tried again and again without bumping into the south wall and without looking back.

I don't know if even God was moved by his sincerity, as if a miracle had happened, Xiao Nan finally started to invite him to his house as a guest.

At that time, Jian She still didn't hate him.

Moreover, it may be because of his background, although he is still young, he seems to be very transparent and understanding.

When he saw Jian Le, he asked, "Is this mom's little boyfriend?"

Xiao Nan stuffed him with a toy and asked him to play elsewhere.

Jian She wasn't interested in that toy at all, she raised her head and said to Xiao Nan quietly, "As long as Mom feels happy."

"He's really smart." Jian Le said to Lu Yiwen, "Maybe he saw that I might have a chance to be superior—well, the word superior may not be appropriate, anyway, he learned to please me from the very beginning. And took the opportunity to inspect me for my mother."

"It doesn't have to be to please you." Lu Yiwen said softly, "That child has a very direct personality, and he will show it clearly when he likes someone. Maybe he really likes you?"

"Really..." Jian Le was stunned for a moment, seemed a little unexpectedly happy, but soon became discouraged, "But I still failed his expectation in the end."

What happened next, even Lu Yiwen felt magical.

Jian Le in college was indeed a lively, energetic and charismatic person, admired by all the stars, and surrounded by a beauty like Xiao Nan, she seemed really proud of herself.

But no one expected that such Jian Le would become a waste after graduating from university.

The school that Jian Le studied was a third-rate private university that had only upgraded from a junior college to a basic major in the past few years.

The academic qualifications are unreliable, and almost all the students around me started to make plans early. Some of them were busy with postgraduate entrance examinations for civil servants, some of them took the language test and prepared to go abroad, and some of them had a lot of ability certificates and internship experience. Only Jian Le—— -Nothing at all.

His life for more than 20 years has been immersed in a kind of unprovoked and vain prosperity. When the day when all the bubbles burst, even the illusion of light from the bubbles can no longer be maintained.

There is no need for him anywhere, no place for him anywhere.

He was eliminated by society and silently killed.

This thought grew out like a tree heel, and terribly entrenched in his mind, bit by bit wearing away all the self-confidence and self-esteem he once had, and pushing him into another dreamy world.

He has become a gambler.

And after his gambling addiction was exposed, the pain and blow he brought to the family was much heavier than all the previous failures and setbacks.

However, it is incredible that even at this point, Xiao Nan still did not give up on him.

"To be honest, I was desperate at that time." Jian Le stared at the bottom of the cup and sighed, "Not to mention relatives and friends, even my parents severed ties with me because they were too disappointed."

"But Xiao Nan didn't, not only didn't she, she still believed in me. And I really like her, I don't want to see her force myself to quit gambling because of my sadness."

Not long after quitting her gambling addiction, Jian Le searched for days, and finally found a new hobby that she could make a living on - photography.

It really seemed to work, and he even won a small photography award.

However, man is not as good as heaven is, just when he regained his strength and was about to sprint for the next award, Xiao Nan encountered a car accident on the way to see him, and the car crashed and killed him.

And the reason why she rushed to Jian Le's studio to find him was to give him the camera equipment he had left at home.

"Xiao Nan was indeed killed by me." After drinking glasses of wine, Jian Le's face finally became drunk, "I stood up again because of her. But after she left, I even I don’t want to do it again.”

Those who fell into the abyss because of Xiao Nan's death were not only Jian Le, but also Jian She who was not yet ten years old at the time.

It stands to reason that they also lost important people, and the father and son should be more dependent on each other. However, when Jian Le saw Jian She at that time, the more sympathy and intolerance he felt, the more sorrow and despair he felt.

Unfortunately, instead of deepening the bond between the two, a deeper and longer gap was erected in front of them.

"A She was only ten years old at that time." Probably really drunk, Jian Le directly began to count on his fingers, "He is now 16 years old, that is to say, he grew up alone in the past six years. Nothing helped him."

Lu Yiwen couldn't help reminding him: "I'm 17 years old, my birthday just passed in May."

"Ah..." Jian Le suddenly stopped counting, as if trying to digest the information, "That is, another year has passed."

"It's so fast." He looked up at the glazed lamp on the ceiling, the colorful lights seemed to be unable to reflect his demeanor in the past, "Then A She and I, maybe... we can't get back together in this lifetime. "

Lu Yiwen only sighed lightly, but didn't answer.

"Do you know, I had a dream a few days ago." Jian Le said, "In the dream, although Xiao Nan still left us, I did not neglect A She. The two of us walked through the pain together. These seven years—oh, by the way, he also called me Dad, as if we had become real father and son."

"However, just when I thought we would go all the way to the end like this, the end of the world came suddenly. I remember that there was a tsunami, an earthquake, a plague... I forgot all the other messy disasters, because it was too overwhelming. Strange, I woke up from the dream very quickly."

"Do you think it's too much?" Jian Le suddenly laughed, but what didn't match this smile was that his loosened fingers were clenched tightly on the table, "I finally had such a fulfilling dream. But it ended like that. It was like deliberately telling me that this was just a dream. Everything was destroyed in that bizarre way. After waking up, I just felt dizzy and dizzy, and all the good things couldn’t be complete again. remembered."

"I know there is nothing I can do now, but..." Jian Le's voice gradually became lighter and lower, "It's just a dream, don't you want me to relive it..."

At the end of the conversation, Jian Le buried her head deeply on the table, as if she was crying silently, but she didn't make a sound in the end.

When the drinking session was over, Lu Yiwen proposed to send him back.

"Farewell, goodbye, I'm not drunk, I'll just call my assistant, you'd better go back and see A She early." Jian Le waved her hands repeatedly.

Lu Yiwen thought about it for a while and thought it was the same. The two planned to leave the bar immediately, but there was a sudden noise upstairs, mixed with screams and disputes, which made everyone in the bar stunned.

The waiter, who had been burying his head behind the bar and playing with his mobile phone, heard this voice, his expression changed instantly, and he stumbled and ran up.

But it seemed that someone stopped him, and he couldn't go up the steps.

He ran back with a pale face, made a phone call in a panic, and then began to explain and apologize to the guests, saying that he was open today and was going to close soon.

"What's going on here?" Many people in the bar were half-drunk, all in a daze.

After quarreling for a long time, Lu Yiwen and Jian Le finally figured out that the upstairs turned out to be a duck shop. Tonight, the police happened to be cracking down on pornography and illegal activities, and they brought the TV cameras over.

This bar is connected to the upper floor, and there are internal stairs. Although it is not the same store, when the camera comes down, the whole building will not be able to escape. In order not to be affected, the bar owner can only close the door and run away.

"I seem to know," Jian Le touched his nose and said, "Why was A She so angry just now?"

Lu Yiwen: "...I understand too."

"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow I did not have!" Jian Le jumped up immediately, "Even if you know how to call a duck, I won't be able to! A She should be very clear about what kind of person I am, and you are the one who hurt me Review!"

Lu Yiwen: "..."

Fine.

In terms of stalking and beating, you are indeed true father and son.

"You think too much." Maybe it was to annoy Jian Le on purpose, Lu Yiwen began to speak indiscriminately, he said slowly, "If I really like this one, isn't there enough for me in the dormitory now?"

Jian Le: "!!!??"