The 201st time a scumbag asked for reunion

"Woo..." Ever since Yue Lin came out of the hospital, it was like a different person. During the day, he would manage his expression well and not show any fragile and thought-provoking emotions in front of outsiders.But every time in the dead of night, when he returned to the villa full of the memories of the two of them, he would immediately take off his disguise, halfway through taking off his shoes at the entrance, he would suddenly sit down on the ground and cry loudly.

But this time, no one came over anxiously, bent down to pull him up, and asked him what happened.

"Qiao Jing...Qiao Jing...it's been a year, how are you doing? I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I haven't even seen you for the last time...I don't want to...I really don't want to..." Yue Lin He tightly covered his mouth, trying not to cry too loudly, but he found that it was not successful.

He ended up crying heartbreakingly in the empty room.One year is not short or long, but it is really enough to change many things.For example, Yue Lin has gradually changed from deceiving himself to being forced to believe in these long months.During this period, it was not that he did not investigate secretly, but all the results he obtained pointed to a cruel truth without exception.

He finally gave up, but he still hoped that one day, Qiao Jing would be able to come back and return to the room they used to live in.This is why he always disagrees with moving.

But will Qiao Jing really come back to see him?

No, Yue Lin knew that this was still his extravagant wish.When Qiao Jing left, she must have been completely disappointed and resentful towards him.How could he come back to see himself?

For so many months, he didn't even dream about him once.Most of the time, the so-called "dream" is nothing more than daydreaming, not a real dream.

Qiao Jing actually didn't want to enter her own dream.

This year, Jing Ai followed her "promise", did not take revenge on herself, and even secretly helped herself.He wants to live a good life for himself, and live a life with infinite beauty. Every minute, every second, he breathes the air of pain, letting guilt drown himself to his heart's content.

But although she didn't deal with herself, she dealt with Jin Chen.For the past few months, at least, he has disappeared completely.

Yue Lin didn't know where he went, and didn't want to know at all.

The current him is no longer the Yue Lin who is used to shifting responsibility to others.He learned to face himself, knowing that he is a rotten person like Jin Chen, who only deserves to live in the dark, so he hates him less and hates himself more.

Now I write a diary every day, record my thoughts about Qiao Jing one by one, and put it together with Qiao Jing's notepad.Now he has written as many as five books, but he still feels that there is too much love and regret, and he has not had time to vent it.

He never dared to go to Qiao Jing's tomb, because he was afraid that he could not help but follow him, and would obstruct Qiao Jing's eyes for no reason.Of course, even if he went, he would not be able to enter that door.Jing Ai will never allow herself to be near her son again.

He knew that this year was not going well for her.

Qiao Jing... After the funeral, she fell ill immediately. It is said that she was recuperated in the hospital for two or three months, but she could not recover.The whole person is haggard and aged a lot. Fortunately, she still has a husband who loves her and a son who loves her, who can accompany her and guide her well.

Now, she has also decided to let go of the past and live a good life, right?Maybe when I dream back at midnight, I will still remember that I once had such an excellent eldest son.But so what?The dead can never stop the living from continuing to live.

Thinking of this, Yue Lin couldn't help but feel worthless for Qiao Jing.Could it be that in the end, no one can prove the traces of your existence?

No... and me.

But I know you don't want me to do that.

I love you... Leaning against the cold wall, Yue Lin sighed slowly.If there is no accident, he intends to stay like this for one night.Although it is not suitable for him to do so given his body recovering from a serious illness, but now the only way to keep him awake enough.

Every night he does it in various ways, punishing himself.

Sometimes he felt that he was depressed, because several mornings, when he woke up, he found that his arms were covered with rough and shallow scars.

He knew he cut it himself, but he didn't know when he did it.Probably there is always such an impulse, which is not under my control at all.

It hurts... I really hurt... he thought.

Why am I still living in this world?

I want redemption... yes, I want redemption...

In fact, this year, apart from recovering, he didn't do nothing at all.In the name of Qiao Jing, he set up a fund to help those left-behind children in the mountains, hoping to help him accumulate virtue so that he would not be bullied by the little ghosts when he goes there.

Although this is just psychological comfort, but apart from this, he really doesn't know what to do, just like Jing Ai couldn't find his son back then, so he could only do the same thing with him.

In fact, if you really want to find it, how can you not find it?She just didn't want to try to find it.

Jing Ai is the same as herself, always huddling herself in a shell, afraid of making changes.If Qiao Jing hadn't let her guilt towards him reach the peak this time, she might not have the courage to admit in front of the whole country that Qiao Jing is her son.

Qiao Jing...I miss you so much...I miss you so much...

I don't know how long it took, when he rolled himself into a ball and gradually closed his eyes, the mobile phone at his feet suddenly rang.

A text message came in.

Yue Lin squinted his eyes and looked at the screen with the help of the faint light.

"Don't go to bed too late, pay attention to your image, you have work tomorrow morning."

Hua Min.

Is it because I am afraid that I will appear on the show with a pair of red and swollen eyes like last time?

Although Yue Lin didn't want to care about it, he was afraid that if Qiao Jing kept observing him by his side and saw this scene, he might be disappointed again.

He couldn't make him sad anymore.

"I will never let you down again." Yue Lin whispered, and finally managed to get up from the ground and went to the bathroom to take care of his eyes.

But he was not in good health during this period, and his hypoglycemia problem was a bit serious, so when he just stood up, he felt dark in front of his eyes, and couldn't control himself from falling forward.Fortunately, he was blocked by the shoe cabinet and stabilized his figure.Otherwise, he might appear on the show tomorrow with not only a pair of bloodshot eyes, but also a big bag.

This is too much of a joke, I can't do this, Qiao Jing won't like it.