The 201st time a scumbag asked for reunion

Qiao Jing shivered non-stop on the recliner, just like an epileptic seizure.His hands were still grabbing the collar unconsciously, his fingers were blue and white, and he looked very scary.His mouth kept opening and closing, breathing hard, looking uncomfortable.If you look closely, you can even see his eyes rolling slightly.

This scene may seem a little scary to others.But in Yue Lin's eyes, apart from being distressed, he still feels distressed.

He stroked the screen slowly, as if in this way, he could touch the person he was thinking of through the screen.

His Qiao Jing was suffering where he could not see.But he hasn't put his heart and soul into acting.He would love to see him... would love to see him... would love to fly back to America right now...

But he also knew that this was just a dream.

All he can do now is to slowly hold the laptop tightly, imagining that person is being held in his arms at this moment.

After a long time, he slowly let go of the laptop, picked up a notebook at hand, opened a page, and wrote in it, "On the 29th, the third day after leaving Qiao Jing, apart from thinking about him, all I had left was Heartache. Endless heartache. When will this kind of life end? Qiao Jing, I want to hug you. Please let me hug you. "

He writes these illogical sentences almost every day.And this notebook never leaves me.If anyone accidentally touches it, he will lose his temper with others.

At this time, Qiao Jing, who was missed by Yue Lin, what was he doing?

He is also writing.

This has to be said to be a strange tacit understanding between the two.But he still writes in English.

That is a sentence written by Pascal in his article, "Man is a pampas grass, the most fragile thing in nature. One breath, one drop of water is enough to kill him; but even if the universe destroys him, man Still far more noble than that which killed him."

After he wrote this long sentence, he felt dissatisfied, so he used a pen to cover it with black marks, then pushed away the notebook, and leaned back.

"It's so well written, why cross it out?"

"Why are you here?!" The moment Qiao Jing saw the person coming, Qiao Jing sat up from the quilt in an instant.But because he got up too fast, his eyes were dark, so he fell back again.

When he came back to his senses, he found a pair of warm hands on his temples, slowly massaging them.

"Don't rush to open your eyes yet. How do you feel?"

"much better."

"After being ill for so long, can you still learn to get up slowly? Remember to pay attention in the future."

"Got it. That's fine."

"Don't worry, let's massage for a while longer."

"You haven't answered my question just now."

"With Mr. Sheng's consent, I am now your personal psychiatrist."

"What did you say?" Qiao Jing opened her eyes in shock after hearing this.

"Don't worry. Joe, don't you mind if I cut it first? I'm sorry, but your situation is too serious and there's no way to keep it a secret. Besides, you really need a trustworthy person to take care of you now."

"You mean...you want to take care of me?"

"Yes, I heard that you are very repulsed by the approach of the nurses, right? You have to go to the toilet by yourself. How can this work? You are pushing yourself too much."

"...I think you should know me. But I didn't expect that you would think so."

"what happened?"

"Do you think that if you were to take care of me, I would accept your closeness? In fact, I can't accept anyone's touch. After you come, I will still go to the toilet and wipe myself."

"And then toss yourself into a daze?"

"Joe, in fact, you only accept Yue Lin to serve you, right? In this case..."

"Johnson! How could you say this so lightly?" Qiao Jing waved away the man's hand that was still on her temple, and turned to wait for him.

The man was not angry when he was beaten, but smiled very gently, and then looked away, as if he was missing something.

"You probably don't know, I have missed times. So when I see you, it's like seeing myself in the past. I really want to help you, and I am helping myself." When a psychiatrist starts talking to his patients , Telling about their past life, it means that they really need to start building a bridge of trust.

Psychiatrists have always been a very magical existence. They just have the ability to let patients gradually let go of their guards and start to open their hearts through their own voices and narrations.

There have been cases where the murderer told the doctor about the process of killing himself.

Therefore, when Johnson started to talk, Qiao Jing unknowingly quieted down.At this time, the roles of the two of them are reversed, the doctor becomes the narrator, and the patient becomes the listener.

This is a novel experience that may be widely used in the field of psychological medicine in the near future.

"Did you feel it? My sadness."

"Ah."

"Later, you choose to forgive, right?"

"I choose to forgive. But not forgiving him, but forgiving me."

"Forgive you? What does that mean?"

"You don't understand, right? Many people don't understand. In fact, in our common language, it means letting yourself go."

"It's just that simple?"

"Is it easy? My dear. No, it's not easy at all. If it were easy, you wouldn't be in such pain now."

"..."

"In other words, you haven't let go at all, and you haven't let yourself go at all."

"..." Johnson's straightforward words made Qiao Jing fall into deep thought.Why didn't he know it himself, he didn't let go at all.Knowing it is one thing, actually is another.

My thoughts are not under my control, can I blame myself?

He wanted to let it go, but on the one hand, he really couldn't learn from that open-minded person, and on the other hand, Yue Lin had appeared in his dreams quite frequently recently.Qiao Jing even felt that she was drugged by him.

"Can you tell me what you're thinking?"

"I'm thinking... Let go... How can I let go... I find that I can't..."

"It's all about him in your mind now, isn't it?"

"wrong."

"That is……"

"Myself."

"Yourself? Well, dear, take a deep breath, and now close your eyes and think again."

Qiao Jing obeyed, but after a while, he felt that his head was about to explode, because at this moment, his mind was filled with many broken pictures, which he didn't want to see.