The 201st time a scumbag asked for reunion

"Who is Qiao Jing? If you don't tell me, I'll check it myself."

"..."

"Don't try to perfuse me, you don't have enough ranks."

"I never thought of being perfunctory to you. You misheard just now, it wasn't Qiao Jing, it was Xiao Jing. During our best days, he asked me to call him that." Yue Lin had a secret show-off mentality Those who say this sentence must deliberately suppress their ending sound too much.

He didn't know why, but he just wanted to tell the man in front of him in this way, look, Qiao Jing and I also had a sweet past.But there was always a voice in his heart that kept denying him.

He said, "You and Qiao Jing don't have any sweet past. What you have is only painful memories. What you think and say now are nothing but your hallucinations."

"No! It's not like that! Qiao Jing and I, we had good memories!" Yue Lin heard himself rebuttal.

"What's wrong with you? You, like him, like to be in a daze."

"……"who?Who likes to be in a daze?Qiao Jing?All of a sudden, a strong distressed emotion quickly swept through his whole body, making him unable to help but raise his hand to grab the collar, so that he could breathe smoothly.

Seeing that his expression was not right, Gu Mingsi asked out of fear that something might happen to him, "What's wrong with you? Do you want to see a doctor?"

"I...it's fine...Ming, Mingxuan's mental state is very bad, you have to pay more attention and don't let him be stimulated again, otherwise..."

"You don't need to remind me of this, of course I know."

"No! You don't know! He has depression!" No one expected that Yue Lin would suddenly explode, grab Gu Mingsi's collar, and push him to the corner.

"You said...what..." Gu Mingsi had no time to consider that he was being treated like this at this moment, he turned his head slowly, looked at Yue Lin in disbelief, and asked again, "You said...what... "

"He has depression. It can't relapse again, absolutely can't relapse... Can you guarantee that his illness will not relapse..."

"What the hell are you talking about...depression? Impossible...because he is such a powerful person..." He once saw with his own eyes that the man couldn't eat anything, vomited and passed out without saying a word, and he also saw it with his own eyes. Seeing him tossing and turning with chest pain at night, but still closing his eyes tightly, pretending to be asleep, but when he woke up the next morning, his lips were bitten several times, and blood was constantly oozing out.

How could such a strong person suffer from such an incredible disease as depression?

So Gu Mingsi immediately thought that Yue Lin said this on purpose, because he wanted to let himself quit in the face of difficulties.

But unexpectedly, Yue Lin slowly took out a few pieces of paper that were folded squarely from his pocket, spread them out in front of Gu Mingsi.

Gu Mingsi took it with shaking hands, and found that it was Sheng Mingxuan's diagnosis certificate in the hospital. He was diagnosed as moderately depressed.

"Now you know...why didn't I dare to stand upright and walk in front of him? Because I was afraid of provoking him."

"No, I don't believe a single word you said. If you really made up your mind to stay away from him, you wouldn't hide in the dark and observe him silently, let alone let his little girl give him gifts every day. Do you think he would not be surprised if he is so smart? No, he has already become suspicious. If it is not a sudden symptom, I am afraid that the little girl is standing in front of his hospital bed now."

"I...you're right, I'm not ready at all to stay away from him completely. I..."

"Then what do you want to do? Hurt him again?!" When Gu Mingsi faced Yue Lin, you would find that he didn't have the gentleness and patience he had when he was in front of Qiao Jing.

"What do you know? You don't know anything at all!"

"Yes... I don't know. But I'm not blind, and I can see. But you, you can't see his goodness, you can't see his excellence. You only have yourself in your eyes. Until now, you are still cowardly You don't dare to stand in front of him and say to him, 'Give me a chance'. What face do you have to stand here and yell at me. Yue Lin, do all of you actors have such big faces?"

"Well, I'm blind." Yue Lin not only didn't get agitated anymore, but completely calmed down after hearing his rant.He exhaled lightly, and curled the corners of his mouth, "I wish I could go back to the past and tear the self that was a fool more than a year ago to pieces."

"So what? Have you put in practice now?"

Yue Lin didn't speak, but he rolled up the sleeves of his overalls, revealing the criss-crossing scars on his arm.Those scars are old and new, and some even ooze blood when touched, obviously they were newly scratched in the past two days.

"..." Gu Mingsi gasped, so shocked that he didn't know what to say.After a long while, he decided to speak, "I suggest you also see a psychiatrist, I doubt you..."

"I suspect I'm depressed too, right?"

"..."

"I'm fine. I just... want to remind myself to remember what I've done. The year I separated from him, whenever I missed him, I would draw a scar on my arm. Sometimes I would take a needle Pricking my fingers. It’s hard to imagine how I, who was so afraid of pain, endured it.”

"Why do you prick your finger with a needle?"

"Because the ten fingers connect to the heart, I want to experience the feeling of heartache."

"Then do you feel it?"

"...I got it. Do you know? He blocked the knife twice for me."

"So you still come to show off to me?"

"No. I'm just thinking, if I return the two knives to him in front of him, will he forgive me?"

"He won't forgive you. It's more likely to be thrown out with your knife."

"..." Yue Lin was amused by this statement, but he just raised the corner of his mouth and put it down immediately.

"Yeah, he should blame me even more. Because he hates others for not cherishing himself, and also hates others...threatening him."

"Yue Lin, happy birthday."

"You..." Gu Mingsi stared at his pants in horror.

Yue Lin took out the phone from his pocket, looked at the screen, and said a little embarrassedly, "I... only recorded this sound, so I set it as the SMS ringtone."

"You... are really good... aren't you afraid of being heard by your colleagues or fans in public?"

"It doesn't matter if you hear it, just let them know how much I love this person." Yue Lin knew that once Gu Mingsi followed him to check, he would still know about Qiao Jing's existence.But he wasn't worried at all, because he knew that the Sheng family would make all this look so reasonable.