The days when I was forced to live with gentle scum

The cypresses were on fire.

About the night I slept at the door, I caught cold, and the temperature reached more than 39 degrees that day.

People in good health generally seldom get sick, but when they do get sick, they will be sick like a mountain. A while ago, they knocked their head and haven't healed up quickly, and they have acute gastroenteritis.

In just a few days, Bai Shu suffered from one disease after another, no matter how good his physical fitness was, Bai Shu couldn't hold on.

It was night when he woke up, there was no darkness in the room, the bedside lamp was on, and the warm yellow light shone down, which made people feel a little bit comforted. He opened his mouth and found that his voice was so hoarse that he couldn't even make a breath Can't send it out.

Yuan Qingye kept watching, and found that he woke up and immediately put down the phone in his hand and poured him a glass of warm water, stuffed a pillow behind the boy's back to help him sit up, Yuan Qingye pressed the mouth of the cup to his lips, "Are you asleep?" It's been a day, drink some water to moisten your throat first."

It was only then that Baishu realized that there was someone sitting beside the bed. After his eyes adjusted to the light, he realized that it was Yuan Qingye.

He thought that Yuan Qingye would be angry. After all, he had said so many things. To be honest, he didn't expect that he would say those things. It was probably because his brain hurt and confused, so he didn't control his mouth for a while.

Thinking about it now, apart from venting, those words were actually more like acting like a baby.

After drinking a glass of water, the dry throat was moistened, and the cypress tree was finally able to speak, but the words he spit out were breath-like, "I'm sorry."

Yuan Qingye stretched out his hand to check the temperature on his forehead. He was startled by the boy's sudden fainting. After seeing a private doctor, he found out that he had caught a cold and then had a fever. Before Baishu woke up It took an hour to finish three bottles of intravenous drip.

What he said when he fainted was loud and aggrieved, but now that he woke up, the first thing he said was sorry.

In the end, Cypress had nothing to do with him.

He smiled, "I'm sorry you shouldn't have said it, I should have said it, I promised your brother to take good care of you, but bad things happened one after another, either causing you to get hurt or catch a cold."

Yuan Qingye looked into Baishu's eyes and said sincerely, "Baishu, I'm sorry."

Yuan Qingye has lived for so many years and has always pursued egoism. He seldom considers other people's emotions. In fact, in his position, he really doesn't need to consider other people's emotions. He always only thinks about himself, so he lives a special life. whatever you want.

Everyone is selfish, Yuan Qingye is one of the best.

He is gentle and gentle on the surface, but he is always arrogant and selfish in his bones. The word apology has never appeared in his dictionary in life. Now he not only apologizes, but also to a boy who is 16 years younger than himself.

Baishu obviously didn't expect that he would get such a sentence. What was strange was that he suddenly felt flustered. Yuan Qingye's expression was too serious, so serious that there was no smile on his face.

He felt that Yuan Qingye seemed to want to say something, but he obviously didn't want to hear these words, as if it would put him in a very desperate situation.

So when Yuan Qingye's lips were trembling, Baishu held his mouth with his hands first, "Don't say it!"

Yuan Qingye was stunned, he took Baishu's hand away, and said unhurriedly, "Baishu, you said you like me, but you don't really like me, you are still young, you just entered the society, and you mistook the happiness produced by momentary pleasure As love, what you like is not me, but the feeling of that night, understand?"

In the end, Baishu still couldn't stop what Yuan Qingye wanted to say, the words didn't even have any ups and downs, flat and flat, but they were like a knife, piercing into Baishu's heart.

Yuan Qingye is still saying, "You have just entered this society, and you have not experienced its temptations of lights, feasts, greenery, and colors. This world is so big that people are not even counted as a grain of corn, let alone feelings. You are, There are infinite possibilities in the future, if you say you like me now, maybe two years later, you will be attracted by other people, liking is something that is easy to change, because people's hearts are easy to change."

"So Baishu, don't say you like me, it's too perfunctory to say you like me casually, and I'm not your lover, so let's call it a day."

How perfunctory can liking be?

Cypress doesn't know much about it, but he has seen it.

A classmate at school confessed to the girl that he liked her, and the two of them were sticky together with Meimei. A week later, the classmate was surrounded by another girl, probably because they were young, so they liked these two words from the beginning. They say it out of their mouths, with cheap cheap.

But there is also a beautiful side.

Encourage each other, make progress together, and study tirelessly in order to be admitted to the same university. No matter how hard it is, as long as you think that you can hold hands in the same university in the future, all the hardships are worth it.

Cypress has seen it, but he has not experienced it.

What he likes are boys, but he has never met a boy he likes. He always thinks that liking is a very sacred thing, because he has never experienced this kind of emotion from others, and has never said these two things to others. Two words, so like two words are very precious to him.

Until he met Yuan Qingye.

He still remembers the situation at the bar that night. He went to a gay bar for the first time, and he was very reserved. He was sitting at the bar, and many people came to strike up a conversation with him, asking if he had a date, and whether he lacked a partner. Of course And asked him if he wanted a one-night stand.

Those people were of all shapes and sizes, and many of them had good appearance, but Cypress didn't like any of them.

In the dim light, he sat on the high stool and looked around, and suddenly saw Yuan Qingye who was sitting on the corner sofa at that time. The man held a burning cigarette between his fingers, his eyes slightly Squinting, there was a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, which didn't reach his eyes.

Baishu's first reaction was that the smile was fake, he shouldn't have smiled like that, the idea came out of nowhere, he didn't know Yuan Qingye at all, but subconsciously felt that Yuan Qingye could smile more freely.

The second reaction is that this man is so handsome, he is the type he likes. In fact, he was still very apprehensive at that time, but after seeing Yuan Qingye, that apprehension turned into courage, which made him walk to Yuan Qingye before.

He admitted that he and Yuan Qingye met because of a one-night stand, and also admitted that the feeling that Yuan Qingye gave him that night was indeed too good to be true, but he did not admit everything that Yuan Qingye said today.

Cypress gritted his teeth, his voice was hoarse, and he said viciously, "Fart!"

The young man looked back at the man's eyes. He was still young enough to not hide his emotions. His clear eyes were open and frank. In addition to tenacity and pain, he said very clearly, "You have gone through the feasting, drinking, and greenery." And all kinds of temptations, you have seen perfunctory liking, you are an adult, I admit all these, but why do you deny my liking based on this? Why do you think my liking is cheap? "

Baishu's nose began to sore again, "I, Baishu, touched my conscience and said, I never liked anyone before you Yuan Qingye, I don't even know what the hell it feels like to be moved, it's okay if you don't like me, but you can't deny my love." I like it! You are not qualified!"