Dedicated to Luhe

In fact, those of us young people who are so busy in modern society have no intention of falling in love, especially young people living in first-tier cities from other places. What do we think about every day?

It's not whether I will meet my next lover or my last boyfriend when I turn right when I go out, or whether I will have a new relationship if I take the bus or the subway.

What we think about every day is-damn, we have to pay rent again.

Or—fuck, why hasn't last month's reimbursement been sent yet?

When I was young, I didn't understand the meaning of "tired and exhausted". When I grew up, I was in it, and I didn't dare to think about it, because if I thought about it too much, I couldn't help but feel sad for myself.

But this is not my sorrow alone, the majority of poor young people are experiencing such sorrow.

Of course, some people may not think that this kind of life can be regarded as "sorrowful", and even enjoy it with full of ambition. They are probably really young and energetic, full of enthusiasm for everything, because I used to be like this of.

In the first two years of working, I even felt happy working overtime, because even if I didn't work overtime, I would just lie at home and be bored, so I might as well go to the company to do something meaningful.

But then I began to understand how beautiful it is to be able to lie at home for a while without any worries.

In those early twenties, who didn’t have high morale and were full of expectations for tomorrow, but after ten years of wandering, morale was worn away a little bit. I am 30 years old and still floating.

In this city, I am indeed not the hardest worker. My salary is not considered the lowest income group. I can pay for any party without hesitation, but I still feel tired mentally.

30 years old and rootless.

I know very well that I am afraid that I will not be able to take root in this city in this life, and the capital I hold is not enough to support me to get the registered permanent residence here, buy the house here, and have the love here.

"What are you thinking?" Lu He asked me.

When he was talking, I suddenly came back to my senses, and found that I had lost my mind again.

I said, "It's too difficult."

"what?"

"It's so hard to meet the right people."

Lu He looked at me, took a sip of beer, and said, "Shu Wang, do you think it's hard to meet the right person, or the one you like?"

When he asked this question, I suddenly realized that what he just said and what I just answered him were two different things.

Appropriate and liking are really two different things.

"It's all very difficult," I said, "but which one to have in the end depends on personal choice."

Many of my classmates are married.

That's right, I'm thirty, and my classmates are about the same age as me. They've all reached the age of starting a family and starting a business. The boys and girls back then have now become men and women. Many people, no matter whether he can take on the responsibility of a family They have all entered the family and entered the married life.

Most people, especially after the age of 27 or 30, probably reach the peak at the age of [-]. Everyone has changed from trying to find "the person they like" to looking for the "right person".

Lu He said, "Which one do you want?"

I laughed: "Of course I like it. It's better that the other party likes me too, otherwise it will be very hard for me to be unrequited love."

In fact, I have no choice.

When I was 13 years old, I knew that I liked the same sex, so the so-called suitable "marriage" was a matter of another world for me. At the dinner table, I expressed my attitude to my parents. What I said was: "Mom and Dad, your son wants to be a firm unmarried family. Although you may not support it, I hope you can understand."

What my dad said at the time was: "Who cares about you."

And what my mom said was, "Oh, take a sip of that soup, your dad made it."

So, I don't need to choose at all, just wait.

Waiting for someone I like to show up will allow me to look at him a few more times in my "busy schedule" - well, I admit that talking like this is a bit stinky and shameless, but I am really tired of being a social animal every day, if it is not I like it very much, but I really don't want to allocate more time to others.

With that time, wouldn't it be good for me to lie down and sleep?

With that time, can I figure out if I have saved enough rent for the next quarter?

I live too realistically.

But in this society, who is not realistic?Unrealistic people will really starve to death.

Lu He picked up his wine glass and said to me, "Then I wish you the soonest possible meeting with someone who is in love with you."

"Thank you Mr. Lu." I smiled and clinked glasses with him, "With your good words, I think it will be soon."

This is another rainbow fart.

When I praised Lu He, I really didn't have any psychological burden.

We drank wine, ate meat, watched fireworks, and chatted.

In the middle of the night, the bonfire party was over, and everyone went back to their cabins to rest.

The place where Lu He and I live is in the innermost place. We walked slowly along the small bridge. When we looked up, we found that the stars in the sky had appeared at some point. We couldn’t see them when the fireworks were set off before. It was a bit cloudy at that time. sky.

Although there is no comparison, at this moment I think of Van Gogh's "Starry Night Over the Rhone", which was painted by Van Gogh in the autumn of 1889.

And in the autumn at this moment, Lu He and I are walking on the small bridge, and the cold autumn night river flows under our feet, and the river surface also reflects the lights.

"You seem to be distracted easily?" Lu He said, "What do you think about every day?"

"I'm thinking..." Before I finished speaking, I sneezed, rubbed my nose and said, "I'm thinking, it's too cold tonight."