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And he doesn't really seem like a very considerate person.

He didn't tell me where he was going. Every time I listened to the station announcement, I just glanced at him. He didn't intend to get off the bus, because he was uncharacteristically silent, and I became more and more nervous. Going to see my brother or my enemy.

In the end, there were not many people in the subway, and he and I were the only two people in the front and back three cars. There was a large expanse of green past the window, and we were getting farther and farther away from the city center.

Coming out of the subway station, it is already the suburbs, even the air is much fresher, surrounded by lush green trees, and the smoky gray mountains in the distance are rolling up and down.

"Let's go." Ling Xiao said.

I followed behind him, and the further I went to the place where there were few people, the more uneasy I felt.

This uneasy premonition was fulfilled 10 minutes later.

When Ling Xiao led me to the row of tombstones, I had already guessed it, but I was still caught off guard.It seemed that Ling Xiao was also caught off guard. He paused before leading me in.Finally we came to the only tombstone in this row with a bouquet of flowers.It was a bunch of white lilies, and the petals were still dripping. It seemed that the sender had just left.The tombstone was wiped clean, and even the photos on the monument seemed to have been carefully wiped with water.

In the photo, He Ming still had a smile on his lips. Compared with the tombstone next to him, that smile was clean and not stained with a trace of dust.Judging from the date of birth and death on the tombstone, He Ming was the same age as Ling Xiao now when he died, at 22 years old, while Ling Xiao was only 15 years old at that time.

Ling Xiao looked down at He Ming in the photo, frowning slightly. Although his expression was still stern, it was like the way a younger brother looked at his elder brother, as if his elder brother would come over and rub his brow as long as he frowned so stubbornly. Hair, to soothe the restlessness between his brows.

The cemetery was very quiet, I heard his slow breathing, everything I wanted to know seemed to be finally known...

"My elder brother and I are brothers we made up after our parents divorced and reorganized the family. My mother passed away because of dystocia. I have only seen her in photos since I was a child. It seems that because of this reason, my father is not close to me. The nanny who took care of me said That's because my father loves my mother very much. When he sees me, he will inevitably think of my mother who passed away. I have always believed that, and sometimes I even feel sorry for them...

"So I never thought that my father would remarry when I was ten years old. My brother's father was a military doctor in the peacekeeping force and died later. After that, his mother took him to remarry. My father came from a military family. He was serious and old-fashioned, but because My brother has excellent grades, and he is also very good at fencing. At that time, my father treated him well. I was not close to my stepmother, that is, we were nodding acquaintances under the same roof. Since then, my elder brother has been with me, and he taught me fencing."

The wind blew the tree and the fallen leaves fell on the tombstone. Ling Xiao squatted down and picked up the leaves one by one.

"...It's strange, he should be the person who is most incompatible with my family, but gradually I feel that he is the person closest to me. When I was young, I hated parent-teacher meetings the most. My father always didn't go or forgot to go. After my brother came, someone finally became a parent for me, someone asked me about my homework, someone cared if I was dressed warmly, someone accompanied me on my birthday, someone took me to eat delicious food during festivals, Just for fun...sometimes he would force me to do things like learn fencing or go for a morning jog with him, being forced sounds bad but I don't feel forced at all because no one ever forced me before What have I done." He squatted in front of the tombstone for so long, and lowered his voice as if he was afraid of disturbing the sleeping person, "I'm very happy that you forced me to learn fencing."

I dare not interrupt him at all. Every time he said a word, I could imagine him as a teenager. He should always be alone in the scene where he should be accompanied by family and friends. Later, He Ming walked in. It was this brother who filled his childhood. All the regrettable scenes in his youth are the family members who cared about his happiness, anger, and warmth, the friends who played with him and celebrated his birthday, and the mentor who planted his dreams in him.He Ming and Ling Xiao are not related by blood, but he is the one who gave Ling Xiao the most in this world, the one who raised him on his shoulders to look at the world.In fact, in my heart, the only relative.

"Later, my brother came out when I was in junior high school. My father couldn't forgive him. Our family has been a family for three generations, and the door style is strict. Naturally, we can't tolerate the gay coming out of the closet. At first I didn't understand my brother. Resent the person he likes. Although there are still people who hold the parent meeting for me, and I still have someone to accompany me on my birthday, sometimes two people... But slowly I found that my brother really loves that person, that person Love him too, for loving him, trying to be nice to me, giving me presents, helping me fix some nasty guys in school, and he never complained about my such a respectable personality. Then I figured it out, they I didn’t do anything wrong. Breaking them up is just out of our own selfishness. My father can be so selfish because he cares most about family style and face, and because he doesn’t have any feelings for my brother, but I’m different. My brother treats me the most. Dear ones, I should be the first to bless them, as long as that person treats him sincerely, I should be happy for him."

I looked at his quiet side face with mixed feelings in my heart.

"When my father found out, he asked my brother to break up with that person. My brother refused to compromise, so my father told him not to come back. They were two people who had no blood relationship. This kind of result couldn't be more normal. Although my stepmother hated my brother, she got used to it. It is impossible to stand on the side of my brother if I obey my father." He stood up and smiled at the photo, "He looks like a very gentle person, but he is tougher than anyone else in his heart, and he doesn't want to embarrass his mother. , that night he came to say goodbye to me, left his contact number, and cut off contact with his family. But he didn’t intend to give up fencing, and in order to raise training funds, he participated in an underground competition. Of course, I didn’t care about these things knew.

"If it is to get and protect a person's sincerity, then even if I betray the whole world, I think it is worth it. At first I was indeed a little jealous, but later I only left envy. Compared with my brother's love for that person, my father's love for that person My mother's so-called love, and my stepmother's so-called love for her deceased husband, seem superficial and ridiculous. Although I received some supercilious glances at school, I am already a person who eats supercilious glances anyway, and I don't take them to heart at all. , other people's eyes are not as important as brother's happiness."

I suddenly remembered that Granny Zhao once said that there was a young player surnamed He in the national team, but she never saw him again: "Your brother...was recruited into the national team, right?"

Ling Xiao nodded: "Although there were some rumors inside and outside the team at that time, the director Liang Zhonghui at that time valued his brother very much, and didn't let him leave the national team because of this incident. It seemed that he got into some trouble because of it. "

I don't understand: "Then why..."

"The man who made my brother sever ties with his family finally agreed to the marriage arranged by the family. He didn't tell his brother, and flew to the United States alone to marry his fiancée. My brother asked for leave from the team and chased him to the United States to find He, the team leader didn't approve, so he sneaked away... We didn't know of his death until half a year after he disappeared, and the ashes were flown back." Ling Xiao fell into silence when he said this, and then whispered for a long time, "It's been a long time. For a while, I didn't want to believe that he was gone. I felt that he must have had a last resort to act in such a play. He wanted each of us to find peace. I would rather believe that he was still somewhere in the world, and with his loved ones."

"Is he really gone?" I asked, no wonder Ling Xiao thought so, even I thought so.

Ling Xiao looked at me sideways: "Why don't you believe it?"

I looked at He Ming in the photo: "I don't hesitate to play such a cruel underground competition, and I have to continue to practice fencing under such great pressure. If it were me, I would not just give up..."

Ling Xiao pondered: "The photo is not fake, and the death certificate is not fake either. He is indeed dead."

"Is it... an airplane accident?"

Ling Xiao shook his head: "Traffic accident."

"Where's that man? Did he find him?"

"Is this important?" Ling Xiao said, "I have never been in love, but people will grow up and be sensible. Love is not a particularly complicated proposition. If I really love someone, I will never be in love when he needs me the most. When I left him alone, I left without saying a word."

I want to say that I believe you won't, and I definitely won't, but I can't say it. I'm full of thoughts about why Ling Xiao said this to me. There is a kind of determination in his tone that I'm afraid of.

This time he didn't look away, and looked at me firmly, as if asking me:

"I can understand that her stepmother had to bring her brother to remarry in order to make a living, but I can't understand why in the following years, in order not to offend her father, she kept a secret from the man she once loved, and never even visited him on the anniversary of his death. I can't even understand my father. If he ignored me since he was a child because he loved my mother, why did he marry his stepmother? Brother's relationship, and him..." He cast his eyes on the tombstone, "You can give up everything for your lover, but the other party abandons him. What will his persistent love bring him in the end?"

"Ling..."

"I work part-time in a bar, and I'm used to seeing people who are drunk and dying for love, and I'm used to seeing