Needle tip pressing wheat mango

The national fencing team has won the National Games champion and the World Youth Championship. Where are you now?

That person was obviously poked by me: I'm doing well, what's so great about the national team, let's talk about it when we win the Olympic champion!

At this time, someone replied: I remember a post last time saying that Ling Xiao was excluded in middle school because his brother was gay, and it was not his fault. Isn’t it the fault of the person who excluded others for this reason?

——That's what I said, but it's embarrassing for my brother to come out publicly. Otherwise, why did it come out that some athletes were removed from the national fencing team because of coming out?

——I'm not saying who is rubbish, I mean all the homosexuals here are rubbish.

——Fucking py is disgusting, if you want to fuck you, you fuck it secretly, and you come out publicly, not ashamed but proud, if I have such a brother, I will hate it to death.

——Yes, especially some rotten girls, they always masturbate with real people, you can see them bouncing around anywhere, and some even masturbate with their friends, it's so disgusting!

——It’s not prejudice. In fact, the gay circle is really messy. They are all promiscuous scumbags. Some people say that they don’t discriminate against homosexuals. In fact, everyone has an opinion in their hearts. After all, it’s the truth. ah.

Unexpectedly, it was already late at night, and there were not many people's posts that suddenly became lively in this way.

Obviously I don’t feel that being gay is a very shameful thing. I have never flirted with others, and I don’t like some rotten women. But now I just feel a burning pain on my face.

I think of Ling Xiao, his brother, and my concubine. As a young gay guy who has never been on the road, I have never been in a relationship, I have never dated anyone, and I have never come out of the closet. For the first time, I feel the love from mainstream society. pressure.I thought the world was already very enlightened. The world is full of people like Laoqi and Gao Dapang. They will be full of curiosity about this group, but they will definitely not have malicious intentions. However, this maliciousness from mainstream society still exists. They just Just keep silent and laugh behind your back.

I, Qiao Maihuo, am so old that I never know what grievance is. If I feel unfair, I will fight for it. If I have a misunderstanding, I will explain it. If I make a mistake, I will correct it. What grievance can there be in the world?But I didn't expect to taste this kind of taste for the first time, because of this thing that I couldn't win, explain, or correct.

There was silence all around, and it was as if a hole had been torn apart in my heart, and it exploded all at once.

Dugu Qiubai: I seem to have never mentioned it in this bar, and I didn't want to mention it at first, but now I feel that I have to mention it. After all, I didn't realize until today that I concealed such a disgusting truth.I am gay.I don't know what you think upstairs when you see this, but it shouldn't be as uncomfortable as when I saw your reply.

I remember quite a few of the friends who replied to the disgusting homosexuality above, "a hug", I remember when you first came here when you were just learning saber, you sent a post to ask questions, but no one replied, and it sank to the next page at noon, I picked up the post and replied to you; there is also "Sword Spring and Autumn". I'm watching you", you posted a game video of the great Yaghilev, and I am also a fan of Yaghilev, we had a good chat in your post.

It’s true that I’m gay, but I’m also an ordinary person like you, I admire Yaghilev, I play FIESD, and occasionally I play LOL, I don’t miss every game of the European Champions Cup, I watch LOTUS concerts, listen to Germany The cross talk of Yunshe.

Yes, I know that there are a lot of promiscuous people among homosexuals, and there are many scumbags. I also have friends who met scumbags. At that time, I also thought about it, fucking gays are all scumbags!But in this world, there are also gay people who have come together hand in hand, and there are also gay people who have worked hard for the right to be together in a fair manner, and there are also gay people who have stayed together until they grow old. I like "Brokeback Mountain" and "Mulholland Drive" ", I believe that such a film will be made because such feelings really exist.You will deny the whole group because of those scumbags, but will you affirm the whole group because of those good people?In fact, there is no need for this, as long as you believe that the world is inherently black and white, that there are good and bad, and there are ugly and beautiful, and that the world is not all black.

The reason why I am so concerned about Ling Xiao's matter is that in reality, I have a friend who had a similar experience with Ling Xiao. Because his family members came out of the closet, they were also criticized, excluded, and treated coldly and violently. However, I cherish this friend and love him even more. He doesn’t know that I’m gay, because I dare not tell him. I’m afraid that he will discriminate and hate homosexuals because of the experience of being squeezed out and being cold and violent. Afraid of losing this friend.

Maybe everyone has lost a friend because of different ideas, because of time and geographical division, because of the temptation of interests, but is there anyone like me who is afraid of losing this friend because of discrimination and prejudice from others?I did nothing wrong, why should I lose him?

It’s almost two o’clock after posting this reply. I regretted it. Looking at the shiny phone screen, my eye sockets were sore. Since I confirmed my sexual orientation, I have been living a chic and calm life because of the kindness of people around me. However, I have seen Can I still be cool and calm about other people's malice?

I want to forget it, close it, I will not see you from now on, but somewhere in my heart I hope to see someone understand me, not the kind of understanding from a rotten girl, but a sentence of understanding from ordinary people, even if there is only one sentence "What? clatter".

I refreshed again with despair and expectation, and sure enough, after my untimely tirade, there was only a long silence and only one reply.This reply is from Windless.

Windless: If he was worth being your friend, you wouldn't lose him.

A few lines of words, but it seems to be extremely heavy, and it fills up all my regrets that I can't wait.I think Wufeng in reality must be a person with an extremely strong heart, so that he can stand up for me alone without fear of words.Putting the phone on your chest, as if you can feel the care from the person on the other side of the screen, it seems that this is enough.

I know that I can't change anything, and I hate those promiscuous scumbags and being represented by them, but I can't change them, I can only be myself.Facing Wufeng's reply, I silently swear to myself that I will never have promiscuous sex in this life, never have sex, never cheat on marriage, and never associate with dirty and ugly people in this circle.

I have to be the best person in the world for the person I love, so that I can be worthy of his courage in deciding to be with me.

Early the next morning, I got up full of positive energy and planned to run it for three or five laps to shake off the haze.After leaving the dormitory, I saw Ling Xiao downstairs.

"Ah, what a coincidence?"

"Unfortunately," Ling Xiao, dressed in a white T-shirt and jeans, stood at the bottom of the steps and looked at me, "I'm waiting for you."

We ran three laps around the track, and no one said a word. After the run, I sat down on the steps with my legs stretched out like salted fish.I ran with all my strength before, but now I take a big breath, my chest seems to open up, all the trash emotions are blown away, I just feel happy and happy.

Ling Xiao's shadow cast from above and handed me a bottle of water.

"Thank you!" I took it, unscrewed it and drank it.

Ling Xiao sat down beside me and watched me drink a third of it in one go. I put down the bottle only to find that his hand was empty: "You didn't buy water for yourself?"

He didn't say anything, took the mineral water from my hand, took a sip himself, lowered his head and screwed it on, his cold voice was as calm as ever: "One bottle of water is enough for two people, there is no need to buy two bottles."

"Well, that's right." I smiled and nodded, but I thought in my heart, it's a pity that you don't know what I'm thinking, and you don't know what I'm saying.

The base was empty and quiet in the early morning, the sun had not yet come out, and the sky was blue and a bit cold. This atmosphere, like Ling Xiao's home field, had an unpredictable gravity like the deep sea.My emotions are all controlled by this person at this moment.We sat on the steps beside the runway, and neither of us spoke. Of course I have something on my mind, but I feel that he has it too.

"Qiao Mai." Ling Xiao said after a while, "I thought about it yesterday, I shouldn't tell you that it has nothing to do with you."

I was a little surprised: "...Actually, you are right, you don't need to know everything to be friends."

I also have secrets that I don't want you to know...

"That depends on what kind of friend it is." Ling Xiao said, "The kind of friend who wants to know nothing, or the kind of friend who knows everything."

For you, I naturally want the kind of friend who knows everything, even myself, I want to tell you everything, including those secrets that belong to me that you don’t know.

Ling Xiao's eyes looked at me, and I thought my expression might be too sincere, he didn't need me to answer the conversation at all: "The kind of friend who knows everything, I thought about it, if it's you, I don't mind. "

I opened my mouth, thinking I had heard it wrong, but he said he didn't mind?It's only one night!And it was still "if it was you", I could be excited for a long time just because of this.

"If you want to ask anything, just ask."

"...I have a lot to ask you," I said, my voice trembling a little, "for example, what do you like to eat, what do you dislike, and what are your hobbies? There are too many, including...you and Between Li Rui