Madness and Redemption

That evening, Lu Heng took Su Wen to the supermarket.

Lu Heng thought about buying something to cook and eat at night, and then stocking up on miscellaneous things so that he could sneak some leisure during the working day.

In the afternoon, there are not too many people.Lu Heng pushed the cart and followed, Su Wen walked away shaking his hands.Occasionally take something and throw it in the car.

When Lu Heng was picking vegetables, Su Wen stayed by the side. He was very discerning, tearing bags, handing them, and so on. He was absolutely proficient in his business.

Because Su Wen didn't have too many emotional likes and dislikes for various vegetables, so in his eyes, except for the difference in color and shape, there was not much difference.So when he saw Lu Heng buying vegetables by category, he could sometimes tell which vegetables were good or bad, but he didn't feel a little bit confused.

After weighing the dishes, the two of them bypassed the fresh food area and went directly to the freezer, thinking about buying some milk and juice for the residence.

There are many people in the supermarket, and the heat is strong, but this is the only place, which makes people feel very comfortable.

Lu Heng put one hand on the car, took a milk box and threw it into the car basket, then turned around and saw a row of greasy juices.

"Here."

Lu Heng casually stuffed a piece of carrot juice for Su Wen.Su Wen was concentrating on feeling the air-conditioning, but he couldn't help being stunned when he was suddenly stuffed with a cold carrot juice.So he looked at Lu Heng with a dazed expression.

Su Wen thought it was inconvenient for Lu Heng to hold something in his hand, and wanted him to help, so he thought about throwing it into the car basket, but before he could move, he saw the six words facing him:

very happy

met you

Su Wen raised his eyes and looked at Lu Heng. Seeing that Lu Heng turned his head away from him, he said in a low voice, "Didn't you say it was hot just now?" After speaking, he turned around and pushed the cart forward, and then threw a row of Juice yogurt milk goes in.

Su Wen seemed to sense something, took two quick steps, and caught up.

He has always been interested in molesting people.

I'm actually embarrassed.interesting.

So Su Wen, who had a bad intention, half-hitched the bottle on the side of the car in a big way, and let the six big characters shine there brightly.Then he looked at Lu Heng, and when the man turned his head after being stared at by these eyes, he said, "I haven't tried this flavor before." Su Wen seemed to be looking at the juice seriously.

"So you might as well give it a try." As Lu Heng said, he always felt that the air-conditioning here might not be enough, and those cold drinks might be going bad.

"Hey, let's talk about it." But Su Wen didn't put the juice back, but let go of his hand, letting it slide along the side of the car and fall on the things he bought before.

Lu Heng felt that his heart was slowly falling along with the slipping juice, then it jumped wildly, and then stopped there steadily.It's like sitting on a diving roller coaster, sliding down from a high place with a whimper, and finally slowing down and stopping on the platform.But the heart was beating like it was still hanging in the sky.

After Su Wen finished speaking, when Lu Heng was stunned, he pushed the car away, saying that there was nothing to buy, and went to pay the bill.

Lu Heng looked at the back of him turning around and pushing the cart, he seemed to be unrestrained and heroic.

Then he saw Su Wen turn around and beckon at him from a distance.As if being pulled by something, he followed.

The two of them had dinner that day, and Su Wen washed the dishes as usual.

When Su Wen was about to put the dishes in after washing, he was accidentally scratched by the edge of the cabinet door, and several bowls were scattered scattered all over the floor.His hands were also bleeding.

In fact, Su Wen saw that place just now, and somehow the edge turned up.So Su Wengang'er thought to tidy it up later and don't forget to deal with it, but he got scratched first.

Lu Heng came over when he heard the voice. In fact, he was just outside the kitchen and wanted to come here, but he couldn't find a reason, and he couldn't think of something to say for a while.So this sound was like the ancient signal to throw a bowl. When Lu Heng heard it, it arrived immediately like an arrow leaving the string.

When Lu Heng came in, Su Wen squatted on the ground and picked up a broken bowl, wondering where the trash can was.

Lu Heng caught a glimpse of his bloody finger, the wound could not be seen clearly, but some blood flowed out.

In a moment of impatience, Lu Heng picked up Su Wen's finger and put it in his mouth.

He felt Su Wen's fingertips recede slightly, lightly touched the tip of his tongue, and then stopped moving.

Lu Heng was suddenly at a loss. He looked up at Su Wen and said, "You are here, I'll get the gauze."

When Lu Heng got up, he felt a fishy sweetness in his mouth, so he swallowed instinctively.He felt his head buzzing, as if he got up in a hurry just now, and the blood supply to his brain was a little insufficient.

Lu Heng came over with the medicine kit, and seeing Su Wen holding a few fragments with the other hand and throwing them into the trash can, he said to leave that alone and bandage it first to avoid infection.

Su Wen said that he had just washed it with clean water, and the wound was not deep, but it was bleeding a little, so it looked scary.

Lu Heng took an alcohol swab and slightly touched the wound.He looked at Su Wen, afraid of hurting him.Su Wen didn't show any expression, his expression was indifferent.But his fingers dodged reflexively.Lu Heng felt it, so he gently squeezed his palm with his fingers, as if to comfort him.

Lu Heng bandaged him with gauze, and finally checked the box, but found no scissors either.Lu Heng held it with one hand, fearing it would hurt Su Wen, so he pulled his hand over, leaned forward, and used his teeth to help him tear open.

Lu Heng felt that Su Wen lowered his head not to look at him.The two were very close, and their breaths were entangled.

Then Lu Heng tied a knot and let go of Su Wen's hand. He felt the cool touch on his fingertips lingering.The rough texture of the gauze seemed to be still at the fingertips last second.

He squatted there and didn't get up. He saw Su Wen slowly withdraw his hand, and then slightly curled up the finger that was bandaged just now.And just now there was a little extra on one side of Lu Heng's department, so he watched the gauze and followed Su Wen's movement, sweeping it lightly.

Lu Heng felt that the extra corners seemed to be roughly scratched in his heart.Itchy, but can't catch it.

So he pretended to be calm and pulled Su Wen's other fingers. He felt the man's fingertips move, but he didn't pull them away, so he followed the man's fingertips upwards and caught his. wrist.

He was a little greedy for the coolness, the air was so hot that it looked like it was on fire.

He felt the whole room was his heartbeat.

thumping.thumping.thumping.

He tightened that wrist and slowly pulled it towards himself, then he turned his face and leaned forward gently.He felt as if he was not breathing.He forgot his feelings, and half-kneeled there, his center of gravity slowly pressed over, over.At this moment, he felt that the man's hand was holding his knee, it was soft, but it seemed a little hot.Then he raised his leg as if suddenly aware of something, and took a sharp breath.He hurriedly took the man's hand, turned the back of his hand over, and touched it tremblingly.

It's okay, it's okay.Lu Heng said it silently three times in his heart.He looked at the slight imprint on Su Wen's hand, and for some reason, he felt sour in his eyes.

Just now he was kneeling there, Su Wen was probably afraid that he would kneel on the unfinished pieces and get hurt.Without even thinking about it, he put his hands underneath.On the pile of sharp and broken fragments, under Lu Heng's knees that might be crushed at any time.

If Lu Heng had knelt down like this just now, then Su Wen's hand would probably be bloody by now.

Lu Heng took Su Wen's hand, he wanted to call him stupid.

He wanted to ask him why he didn't care about himself so much, but why he treated him so sincerely.

Su Wen could have just pushed him away, or just let him go, or, like in the past, with the corner of his mouth half-twitched, he asked casually: Are you fucking blind.

But he didn't have any, he seemed to have an instinct to keep him out of danger, and his instinct seemed to push himself out so fiercely, leaving no way out.

They are childhood playmates and old acquaintances.It's been done absurdly before.Also like fox friends and dog friends, they spend a lot of time in one place.

Lu Heng considers himself a little older, and sometimes considers himself an elder brother.So he has always felt that he takes care of Su Wen more and allows him more.But he never really thought about it, those self-righteous self-impressions are also selfish after all.

In the past, he always asked him out to worry about his own troubles. Although Su Wen occasionally came up with some strange reasons to prevaricate, he never seriously left him alone.He is often sarcasm, but he often tells him about the situation, although sometimes the truth of the matter is not so popular.

So every time Lu Heng used the banner of bartering to take care of him, but he didn't know if it was the same as this time. Out of danger, and then let him feel at ease thinking that he was taking care of him.

How could he treat him so favorably.

How could he deserve such kindness.

"I'll go clean it up." Su Wen took his hand away from Lu Heng's fingertips, turned and left.

Just as Lu Heng wanted to hold him back and say to go by himself, he was in vain.

Lu Heng felt that he was probably stupid.Obviously, he should know that he shouldn't treat the wound in such a dangerous place, he should have pulled him in.

What happened to him recently? He even forgot basic common sense.

But Su Wen was also surprised, so he really stayed there. If he used to be, he would probably say: Do you fucking have common sense.

They must have burnt out their brains.

Seeing that Su Wen came over with something, Lu Heng wanted him to hide away.

Su Wen saw it and said, "Let me come, you go and wipe this place, it's not convenient for me to get wet."

The two tidied up and wiped the debris, Lu Heng asked Su Wen to go back to rest, and said to leave the rest to him.Su Wen went away in response, and Lu Heng watched his leaving back. He felt that he had known Su Wen for so long, but he might not really know that person.

After tidying up, Lu Heng walked back and saw Su Wen leaning on the bedside holding the computer.He stopped his steps, stared blankly for a while, then turned and went back to the room.

That night, Lu Heng was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. He suddenly thought of the meeting between himself and Su Wen freshman before they broke up.

It was rare that they did not follow the routine.

It wasn't intentional, but because the two actually met in the cafeteria that time, they were both alone, and they ate together, so there was no intention of avoiding suspicion.

In Lu Heng's memory, it was the first time he had dinner with Su Wen at that time.

Like ordinary classmates, they lined up together with their campus cards, guessing which window would be faster and which window would have more abundant dishes.

There were not many people that day, so Su Wen ordered a meal and took the chopsticks and spoons, told Lu Heng that he had already taken them, and went over there to find a seat.

Lu Heng said yes.

Then when Lu Heng finished his meal and turned around, he saw a crowd of people in the cafeteria.Suddenly, he was a little stunned, he didn't find Su Wen, so he stood there, thinking about what color clothes Su Wen was wearing today.

white.

As he thought about it, he saw Su Wen standing there in the southwest corner, waving at him.

Lu Heng saw that Su Wen was mixed with the crowd behind him and the daily noise of the cafeteria.He just stood there, standing in the noise, wearing that simple white T, waving to him.

He suddenly felt as if something had been touched.Those originally irrelevant people and backgrounds are mixed together, and there is nothing inappropriate, as if it should be like this.

Lu Heng followed Su Wen's direction and walked over. He saw Su Wen sitting down when he reached the passage here.Then he picked up his chopsticks and spoon, and when he put down the plate, he put it on it.

"You don't come to this cafeteria often?"

"Well, most of our classes are near the xx cafeteria, so go there during class, and go to the one next to the dormitory when you are in the dormitory."

"You three stay closer to there. Sometimes I order takeaway in the dormitory."

"Actually, sometimes I'm too lazy to go down."

"The teppanyaki in the dormitory is good, but it was closed last month."

"The newly opened one is so good, I almost doubt the world."

"That's right, it's also a door to a new world. Hey, by the way, it's not bad to have a store near the school. It's called xx. I think you'll like it too."

"I haven't eaten yet, let's go together when I have time."

The two of them ate and chatted, talking about the school's food, the wonderful curriculum of their respective departments, and which public elective courses were not bad.Even so, there has been no embarrassment.

After the two finished eating, Lu Heng asked Su Wen where he was going.Su Wen said that the books renewed by the library last time should be returned.Lu Heng said that he happened to be going to the library too, and their teacher asked them to borrow a certain type of books from the library within this week, or else they would endorse one book.I want them to have such a deep reading routine, and the current teacher is also refurbished.

Su Wen joked that the contract between them and the teacher has worked hard for those little bees in the library.

At that time, the coffee shop was still open on the second floor of the library. When Su Wen was returning books at the self-service machine, Lu Heng saw the sun shining down there, mixed with the aroma of coffee, wafting warmly over there, which made him feel very comfortable.

Su Wen returned the book, and the two went upstairs to borrow it.

Lu Heng said that he wanted Su Wen to go and read casually. He would check which books to take first. Those wolf cubs in his class had probably already picked them out, and he didn't know what was left.

Su Wen said yes.

Lu Heng borrowed the book and went to find Su Wen. He walked through the stacked bookshelves, as if walking in a huge wooden corridor.

Su asked where did he go?

Just when Lu Heng was confused, a book on the opposite side was taken down, it was a big one, Lu Heng saw Su Wen's profile through the wooden shelf and the book.

Su Wen just picked up the book, holding the book and leaning against the edge of the bookshelf.

Lu Heng was on this side, looking at Su Wen through the high and low books and the staggered gap on both sides. He felt that time seemed to have stopped for two seconds, and then he suddenly had an unreliable idea, but As soon as he thought about it, he dismissed it.

So he looked at Su Wen across the library in the middle, and coughed lightly.

Su Wen heard the sound and went to look for it.

Seeing Su Wen looking around, Lu Heng suddenly turned his head to look at him, and the corners of his mouth burst into a smile.

Lu Heng felt that it was the most beautiful smile he had ever seen, like a mountain stream suddenly pushing away the roadblock ahead, suddenly revealing his original appearance, cool and refreshing.

Lu Heng suddenly remembered that unreliable idea again, he suddenly thought to forget it, people are not crazy, and the youth is wasted.

But the young Lu Heng didn't have that chance to go crazy.

Or it was just his thought at the moment, and when the scene dissipated, he no longer thought about it.

Besides, when he saw Su Wen again, Lu Heng completely dispelled that unrealistic thought.And he seemed to blame the previous memory as if he was sitting still.Put a light shadow on it.

So he never went to the restaurant Su Wen mentioned again, he dragged Lin Ye to another restaurant, which Su Wen criticized as useless that day.

He feels good, showing off to whomever it seems.

But now, Lu Heng is no longer disturbed by those complicated emotions.He lay there, but he felt that something seemed wrong that day later.

It was raining that day, and Lu Heng came from the path over there holding an umbrella.

Then I met Su Wen and the boy.

Lu Heng suddenly remembered that Su Wen's two hands were in his pockets at that time, while the other boy's hand was holding an umbrella, so they seemed inseparable, but they seemed inseparable.

Lu Heng thought about it carefully, Su Wen seemed to be on his side at that time, so he didn't turn around when he was talking to him, he seemed to have something to say to him early in the morning, and he seemed to have expected that Lu Heng would come from that side come over.

Lu Heng suddenly had doubts about his memory.

Myself in different situations have such different interpretations of the same picture. Sure enough, experience is an important factor in the formation of vision.

But what is the truth?

If it was as he thought, Su asked why?

What is he running from?

What is he afraid of?

And what frightened him so much.

He suddenly wondered whether Su Wen's expression after he turned around was really as careless as he appeared.

Lu Heng lay there on his back, staring at the ceiling in a daze, as if casually, he called Su Wen in a low voice.

Then he slowly closed his eyes.

Maybe he doesn't know what that is, but he wants to be by his side.

Just like when I was a child, hold his hand and say to him: Don't be afraid, I'm here.