The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

It was already night when we left the restaurant.

Zhou Dun wanted to take Lu Xingyin up to take a look, but Gu Fangwei was a little upset and borrowed the store's bathroom, so he didn't follow.

Lu Xingyin came down after looking around, but did not see Gu Fangwei, so he waited by the side of the road.It was a light snow day and the ground was wet and slippery. He looked down at the road that had been trampled dirty by pedestrians, and watched the ice that was stained maroon by muddy water slowly dissipate.

About 10 minutes later, Lu Xingyin felt the phone vibrate, opened it, and a message popped up on his social account.

【15th】: Where are you?

The account he used to send him messages, and the last time they had a conversation, it was still Gu Fangwei telling him where the campus card was kept.

Lu Xingyin slowly typed with frozen fingers: "I'm also at the door, I didn't see you."

【15th】: "I see, I'm coming."

Ten seconds later, Lu Xingyin saw Gu Fangwei walking over from the other side, with changed clothes and a brown paper bag in his hand.

He said casually: "Their bathroom is a bit dirty, and it got wet when washing hands. I went to the counter of the shopping mall next door to get a new set and put it on, which wasted a little time."

Lu Xingyin did not speak, but stared at him with black eyes, and said softly, "You are angry."

Gu Fangwei tilted his head to look at him, his peach blossom eyes were calm.

Three seconds later, Gu Fangwei was defeated - he looked away, rubbed his hair, and said in a low voice, "Then you won't explain it to me, or coax me?"

Lu Xingyin still blinked at him with dark eyes, stretched out his pale hands: "You hung me here to freeze, and you didn't coax me."

Those hands were thin and pale, and the wrists were too thin, as if they could be broken with a pinch.

Gu Fangwei couldn't stand seeing this look. He reached out to hold his hand and stuffed it into his purse. Then he walked up to him, hugged him in his arms, and gently rubbed his chin on the top of his head: " Well, it's brother's fault. Brother shouldn't have left you in the wind for 10 minutes."

"The cold war is very childish, Gu Fangwei." Lu Xingyin said softly.

"Then what do you say." Gu Fangwei clasped his fingertips, warmed them up vigorously, his voice sank, a little aggrieved, but also a little serious: "——What's going on with the exam?"

"I used to be short of money, so I helped others take the exams and assisted." When Lu Xingyin spoke, the white steam drifted in the wind, "Vocational high school exam papers, mathematics, [-] a time. Ordinary middle school exam assists, huikao... [-], high school exam , dare not do it, only small places can do it.”

"Stop talking." Gu Fangwei's eyebrows twitched a few times, his voice a bit cold.

Lu Xingyin looked at him quietly: "But this is reality, I am such a person, as if I am not a girl. If you can't accept it, we can divide—"

"Don't talk about this!" Gu Fangwei felt that his little aggrieved just now swelled into an uncontrollable anger, and Lu Xingyin always had various ways to drive him crazy, "Is it necessary? "

He was even more aggrieved, with some kind of paranoia in his beautiful peach eyes, his voice was hoarse and lost, "Why do you always make people so angry? Who hasn't quarreled with others, I flew over to accompany you yesterday, and we broke up. Was the word mentioned casually?"

"You really..." Gu Fangwei murmured, "You're going to piss me off, brother."

Lu Xingyin lowered his head.

After a while, Gu Fangwei said again: "You know that my brother is concerned about these things..."

That was his nightmare for many years and the reason why he refused to take the exam.Lu Xingyin took him out, maybe all the hazy but fanatical love and attachment, not only started from that night sitting side by side in the classroom of the science and technology building, from the moment Lu Xingyin appeared in his life, he vaguely felt , this is a character who will shake the earth.He was different from everyone he had seen before.

Knowing that Lu Xingyin has done these things now is nothing less than a kind of deception and betrayal.

"I'm sorry, brother." Lu Xingyin said. "I don't have pocket money. I want to buy medicine for my grandma. What I said is true. I'm short of money."

"Here... Dad, Mom, recharged 2 yuan to my campus card, but I don't have the cash to buy books in the bookstore, so I went to the group to sell the meal card credit. I have never done this now." Lu Xingyin Still said softly, "Really not."

That look was not an excuse, not an explanation, but a certain kind of frank statement—as if he had made such preparations in advance, so he could accept any result.

"...a small calculator." Gu Fangwei clasped his fingers and said in a gentle voice, "Come back to country A with me, and we will celebrate the New Year together this year."

Lu Xingyin still didn't speak.

Gu Fangwei said in a low voice: "...My brother is angry, but I don't blame you. They treat you badly, I know. But my brother told you before that being uncomfortable and treating you badly is not our problem now , Huo Sifeng is Huo Sifeng, the only grandson of Grandpa Huo. The past is the past, and my brother will give you money in the future, okay? You help me make the hardware of the small robot, and I will pay you."

"You stay up late every day to repair things, how much money can you make?" Gu Fangwei's voice was also low, "Just for a few money, it's not worth wasting your talent and time like this. Why don't you ask your brother for money?"

"You're poor too. Be a little zombie." Lu Xingyin said, "And ask you for money, it's not good."

"What's wrong, I used your name to ask the old man for reimbursement. The money should belong to you. You can take it if the elders give it to you." Come over and transfer him a sum of 5000 yuan, "Brother has money."

He soon saw Lu Xingyin's previous bills again, saw the 1 yuan Zhou Dun gave him, and frowned: "Why did he transfer the money to you?"

Lu Xingyin whispered: "Competition training, going out, asking for money. Signing up for classes, also asking for money."

"Let's have less contact with this person in the future." Gu Fangwei didn't know whether to believe it or not, he frowned, and transferred another 1 yuan to Lu Xingyin, "My brother will transfer it to you, you return this money he."

Lu Xingyin moved his fingertips, wanting to say something, but he didn't say it in the end.

He didn't know that sometimes he had no choice. At such an early age, he had tasted the sweetness of giving up his principles and tried the shortcut of making money faster, and sometimes he had no choice.

Just like the phone call from the competition committee back then, the gentle voice on the other side asked him: "Are you sure you don't want to appeal?"

Not to appeal is to admit to cheating, and to sit down to an unfair and innocent ending.

He stared at the green glass in front of him, the kitchen bottles and jars that were illuminated crystal clear by the sunlight, and under the bottles and jars was Grandma Lu's operation proposal.Fifty thousand, surgery, their small family may not be able to earn a whole year.

"Don't you believe us? I can give you the card first, and I can show you the deposit. You can go to the bank to check for [-]. We buy a quota for [-]. The top ten first prizes are guaranteed to Fanxing Middle School, and the next ten One, twelve, thirteen, do you think their parents are in a hurry? The first one will give up one, and the next one will have a chance. Children, don’t be too shallow, do you think that no one will buy you one for [-] without appealing? Is it a loss? They bought Fanxing Middle School for [-] yuan! You are still young, you can retake the exam for a year, it is not a big deal. Think about it, and contact us."

That sunny afternoon, he said, "No appeal."

How many times has Grandma Lu taught him to be self-respecting and dignified, but no one taught him, a child from a poor family, how to have dignity in the face of life and death.What he saw was Grandma Lu whose eyesight was affected by nerve compression, and how she often lost her balance and fell at home.

— what choice?

Lu Xingyin paused and said: "Zhou Dun is my friend."

It is the past that he cannot give up and deny, the ideal they are closest to reality.

His expression is very calm, but reveals a kind of stubbornness that is more determined than Gu Fangwei.

Gu Fangwei paused, and finally realized that if this topic continued, the two of them might quarrel even more, so he stopped talking, just held his hand, and the two of them walked home slowly.

Gu Fangwei was on the plane the next morning.

Lu Xingyin sent him to the door.He rejected Gu Fangwei's proposal to take him back for the New Year on the grounds of competition training during the winter vacation.

Gu Fang was afraid that he would not be able to eat well at home alone, so he bought a lot of instant food for him, and took him to buy a lot of winter clothes.

"Call me if you miss me, and you don't have to call if you don't want me." Gu Fangwei held his face, carefully pecked again, and suppressed the throbbing heartbeat, "Brother likes you, likes you very much, little brother Calculator."

After he complained about being together, Lu Xingyin stopped confessing to him.

Lu Xingyin just laughed, as if coaxing him, lowered his voice, and told him in the crowded airport: "I like brother too, very, very much."

The brief reunion was like a dreamlike scene, after Lu Xingyin went back, he would occasionally think about whether this was true.

Gu Fangwei became busy, his phone number was changed to a text message, according to his itinerary, he would fly back and forth to many places every day, hold seminars, meet with various investors, and cheat money from Gu Qingfeng with sweet words.They prepared the island cliffs for the New Year, and Gu Fangwei recorded him a gorgeous scene of fireworks. The fireworks bloomed grandly over the paradise, as if after this moment, the whole world would disappear silently amidst the splendor.

Lu Xingyin went to the attic to play the piano as he took him.He doesn't know how to play, but only remembers the fingering. When playing alone, the tone is strange and complicated.Play it again after a while, ding ding dong dong.

Notes bounced and fell, as if dissolving in water, becoming more silent after disappearing.

Zhou Dun and Shen Qingyun took over and exchanged shared resources.

A few days later, Lu Xingyin received a forum message from Zhou Dun: [You are sincerely invited to register and join the forum - Chemistry Competition Island]

After Lu Xingyin registered, he clicked in and saw that it was a platform for high school students from all over the country to gather and discuss information. There were provincial award winners and even international gold medalists sharing their learning experience and using the series of books. There are a lot of real questions and training questions...

He still uses the nickname [LXY] and logged in, as if he had discovered a new continent.But there are still a lot of abbreviations that Wange and Lu Xingyin can't understand, so he didn't speak for the time being.

There is a large group on Chemistry Competition Island, and Deer Walking Yin joins it.

The group owner's ID is [木化锅], Aite said, "Newcomers, please introduce yourself. What grade and which province are you going to win?"

Lu Xingyin typed and replied: "Second year in high school, province S, I want to take the provincial second prize or above."

【Wooden Potassium】: "Tsk, another sophomore in high school."

Lu Xingyin obviously felt some contempt and hostility from the short line, so he didn't speak.

There was a bit of silence in the group.

The chat window jumped up, and a dialog box initiated from the group chat appeared in front of him.

Lu Xingyin saw that he was the deputy group leader in the group, and his ID was [Shen Du]

[Shen Du]: "I'm sorry, the tone of the group leader is a bit aggressive, don't worry about it. If you have any questions in the group, you can ask me, and you can also read the information shared by everyone. I don't remember that S province is not a strong province, right? You are this Freshman in high school? It should be better to be more prepared."

Lu Xingyin asked: "I'm not a freshman in high school, I'm a sophomore in high school. Is there any difference in the second year of high school?"

[Shen Du] sent a dumbfounding emoji: "You are really a rookie, this year's sophomore national preliminary competition has passed, you are going to take the exam next year, right? Then you are a senior high school player, we don't classify according to the grade you are going to, It is divided according to the number of exams. You and I are in the same class."

[Shen Du]: "The leader of the group is in the same class as us. He doesn't like the second year of high school, because the second year of high school obviously takes up the quota for the third year of competition. Some provinces do not allow sophomores to enter the provincial team."

[Shen Du] Seeing that he is indeed relatively new, so I popularized more terminology for him.

The "Konjac" mentioned in the forum is the name of a vegetable. Because it has the same pronunciation as "juwei", it is used by many people to be self-effacing, and it is the antonym of "giant".

"Big Book" is the abbreviation of the third edition of Xing Qiyi, a must-read for beginners, which is the basic part of organic chemistry in the book list of Lu Xingyin.

The advice given by [Shen Du] is exactly the same as Chen Chong's advice to them: "Your province S is not very competitive, so you can only read a part of it. Don't rush to do the real questions and other test papers. There are many small questions to share and small knowledge points to answer in the forum. , you can post any questions you have. If we are in the same class, we might have a chance to meet offline."

Lu Xingyin lingered on the forum all night, probably found a lot of information, and the obstacles that had been difficult to read professional books before were slowly dispelled a lot.

During the winter vacation, he couldn't bother Chen Chong and Shen Qingyun too much—although Chen Chong responded to every request, he still had family members to take care of. Every time he called them online to give lectures, he could always hear his voice coaxing his daughter.And his questions usually involve the whole system. For example, the last time I asked Gu Fangwei about the transition problem, it needs to be extended all the way to physics, and there is no way to finish it right away.

Before going to sleep, his phone made a "ding dong", and he opened it to see that someone had sent a friend request in the same-sex dating forum that he hadn't been on much.

Nickname: Shendu

Source display: automatic recommendation of contacts on social platforms

Lu Xingyin hadn't thought of this platform for 800 years, and at this moment he saw clearly that it was the sub-group leader, and was startled.

It's a bit embarrassing to be found out about your sexuality by strangers on the Internet.Even though they are all in this group, Lu Xingyin still feels a little uncomfortable.

After looking at it, he deleted the application, but it was not approved, and then changed his personal information to "I have a partner, please do not disturb".

He casually clicked on the new fans and took a look. Among several chatterers, he found an ID: 15th

Registration area, Qingmo No. 17 Middle School, age [-].

Lu Xingyin: "?"

He tentatively typed: "Brother, do you have an appointment?"

"Brother look at the picture"

"Brother 1 or 0, take a look at the photos, my brother is cute, obedient and obedient, and will never pester you"

After a while, Gu Fangwei's phone bombarded him, and a series of messages came on the chat screen: "Is it itchy, little calculator!!!"