The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

He actually likes the room where the deer walks.

Considering the size of the Huo family's mansion, it's not that big. It's on the second floor near the utility room, but it's quiet. The desk is placed in front of the window, facing the rockery below and the sparkling lake in the distance.A thick professional book, with draft paper next to it, when the stack of draft paper was used up, the sunlight moved from his left side to the right side, and the sound of falling snow could be heard while breathing.

Compared with Qingmo No. [-] Middle School, this place is more like a place isolated from the world.

Huo Silie has some classmates to go out to play, and there are extra classes from the physical training team during the winter vacation.

The housekeeper saw that Lu Xingyin stayed in the room all the time, besides writing questions, he read books every day, and the biggest activity was to go to the balcony with his mobile phone to make calls, and she would also ask him: "Will Xingyin hang out with Si Lie?"

Lu Xingyin just smiled at her and said, "There is a lot of homework in school."

Auntie didn't say anything more.She loves him dearly, and makes snacks and snacks for him every day, sometimes sweet and sour crab made with wine, and sometimes a bowl of glutinous rice balls made with sweet wine.

My aunt is also going home for the New Year. Every day, Lu Xingyin can hear her aunt making video calls with her family.A few days later, my aunt picked up the big and small bags and left. Before leaving, I made him a refrigerator full of small crabs and sugar cakes.

The empty mansion became quieter and quieter.

Huo Silie didn't know what he was doing, the two of them didn't meet often.Often at the end of the day, there is no sound in the house, the TV is turned on, and the news programs broadcast the activities prepared for the New Year in various places.

He called Grandma Lu, first to the post office, and then asked the person at the post office to call grandma to pick it up.

He said in the amplified TV voice: "Come to see you after the Chinese New Year. The final exam here is over. I am the second grader. Do you remember Mr. Chen Chong who called you last time? We will go there during the winter vacation. For training, I will go to the best universities to listen to their professors give lectures. And here.”

He paused, and said in a natural tone, "Mom and Dad said they would take us to ski, but I also did it because of training, and my younger brother Si Lie didn't make it because of illness. I stayed at home with him and sometimes went out. Play."

"You take the money sent to you. I don't lack money here, so don't save it for me." Lu Xingyin said. "You know, even if I don't have money, I can make money."

Grandma Lu sounded very happy over there: "Okay, okay, just live well. I made two sweaters for you, and the soles of your shoes. You young people wear shoes well now, so you don't need to pad your soles, but Still rest assured."

Lu Xingyin said: "Okay."

Grandma Lu said again: "When you grow up, don't feel wronged, don't be bored and say nothing. Grandma is far away, but behind me, everything here belongs to you, and you also..."

Lu Xingyin interrupted her: "Grandma, don't say such things. Neither of us would say such things."

How long ago was that agreement.

He was only five or six years old at the time. Looking at the big hemangioma in the hospital image results, he told Grandma Lu innocently and sadly: "Grandma, I am dead, and I will leave all my medicines to you."

At that time, the conditions in their family were the worst. A broken earthen pot was used to boil the medicine of the grandparents and grandchildren, and they had to save it.

Grandma Lu sighed over there: "Okay, okay, don't talk about it. But you...are you still helping others take the exam?"

Lu Xingyin was startled.

He didn't hide the matter of taking the test group from Grandma Lu. He has all kinds of crooked ways to make money, such as writing parents' signatures for him, helping with homework, and assisting in exams. She knows, but doesn't interfere.

The grandparents and grandsons have never talked about this matter directly, but grandma has always known it in her heart, and he knows it too.

"If you don't have money, you can't go astray. What is this called? It's called a gray area, and it's called partial wealth. Our family doesn't make partial wealth. Grandma told you before that you can't do it." Grandma Lu's voice sounded strange. Seriously, "Don't be looked down upon by others. If we do those things, it's a waste."

He didn't know why she brought it up all of a sudden.

"What are you talking about." Lu Xingyin said softly, the white steam that he exhaled dissipated in the winter night sky, his voice seemed relaxed, "I...don't need those now."

He kept the agreement and called Gu Fangwei twice a day.

One in the morning and one in the evening.Before washing and before going to bed, the unshakeable time period.Lu Xingyin will turn on the hands-free, and only at this time, there will be a little more vitality in the cold room.

Gu Fangwei's voice sounded clear and powerful despite the time difference between him and him.He heard that he still sounded sleepy on the phone in the morning, so he laughed: "Did you set the alarm clock to call me? You don't have to call me on time if you're so sleepy. Chatting with your boyfriend is like attendance check."

Lu Xingyin said: "I only call you when I wake up, and I have to eat and study at other times."

The young man's voice sounded equally indifferent and calm.

Gu Fangwei also had nothing to do with him, the magnetic voice was wronged and far away on the other side, "I just want to hear your voice. My brother is not here, so I don't know if my little calculator has been wronged or if I have a good meal. Do you miss your brother?"

He coughed a few times over there, and pretended to be silent for a moment, and finally couldn't hold it back anymore, and asked him: "... Is there any?"

It was dark, and Lu Xingyin was standing on the verandah in his pajamas, his bare, bare feet in plush slippers, freezing cold, his dark eyes looking at the night, as if he could see another person across the ocean .

The whole body is lonely, only distant places and distant people are his only tender thoughts.

He laughed silently here, but Gu Fangwei was angry and anxious over there, so he said softly: "I miss you...I miss you so much."

A few days later, Lu Xingyin received a call from [Caledon University Director]: "Little Lu, are you in City S? I'm here. Let's have dinner together?"

Lu Xingyin put down the textbook in his hand, stood up and asked, "...where are you?"

"Just tell me where you are nearby. Brother, come over and treat you to dinner. I have saved enough money, and now I can buy a smaller house here." The voice on the other side sounded beaming, "Brother can also live in the city The one who bought the house!"

Lu Xingyin quickly reported the address.

He didn't have a key to the house, but when Ji Bingfeng brought him here, he told him the access control code, and he could go out anytime he wanted.

After leaving the gate of the villa area and getting off the bus, Lu Xingyin saw a pale and tall man head-on, looking down at the map of City S: "Building a development zone... Damn, you're all living here now? Yes Money man, why do you have to take the bus by yourself?"

Zhou Dun was much taller than Lu Xingyin's impression. The boy who squatted with him in the arena and worked hard on Baidu and competed head-to-head in quick calculations had grown a lot more mature, exuding a delicate and sleek demeanor.

Seeing Lu Xingyin jumping out of the car, he immediately hugged him and patted him on the back: "Brother!"

In the hot pot restaurant, Zhou Dun brought a lot of tripe and yellow throat, and he ordered a lot of 68 grilled fish in the store: "Little deer, let's eat with open belly today, to celebrate the meeting of our two brothers, to celebrate your brother and me Wash your hands in the golden basin."

Lu Xingyin slowly stirred the oil dish with chopsticks, and asked, "Aren't you going to take the exam?"

"I won't do it! I have saved enough money!" Zhou Dun said, "I want to come to S City to be an education and training institution. I already have contacts in the group. The college entrance examination in S City is difficult, and there is a great demand for learning institutions. , and now it is starting to pay attention to competition, which is a good opportunity for development. But I am still thinking about the specifics, first buy the house, and have a foothold.”

Lu Xingyin was stunned.

A year ago, Zhou Dun's plan was to "save enough money and then go back to school." Going to school was his desire.

Zhou Dun was in high spirits, and he didn't interrupt him.

"Hey, the house prices in your area are frightening to death. Is there really someone so rich? I originally wanted to buy a new house, but when I saw that the delivery time was more than two years, I said forget it. Buying a second-hand house, the value-added tax and deed tax are too high." It's a lot of money, my agent talked about it in a flash, and I knew he was bragging at a glance, can you still see that he is such a monster?"

"And houses in S City are easy to sell, especially in school districts. There is a rumor that the Ministry of Education will carry out reforms in various aspects next year, but no matter what changes are made, the pressure on education will definitely be higher and not lower. Buy a place early and earn money... ..."

As he spoke, Lu Xingyin listened.Lu Xingyin's pale fingertips grabbed the yogurt box, and after drinking it, he opened it along the folds with his hands, scraped it around with a spoon, and drank it clean.

Zhou Dun paused in the end.

He is a little drunk.

"I know what you want to say. I won't go to school anymore." Zhou Dun took a sip of beer, and his speech was a bit "society". , information, all time-sensitive... I dare not bet, little deer cub, do you understand?"

Lu Xingyin thought for a while: "I understand."

"I know you understand." Zhou Dun's smile was a little tired. "It's great to be a student. If I have the money, I don't worry about the future. I also study. It's really tiring to struggle in society. But I just I think, I still have to seize the opportunity to make money now, and I can go back to school at any time, but once the society enters, it is difficult to get out. I have made a little money, and I want to make more money. A big place has a firm foothold... S city is so big, I'm smart, you know."

He knows he understands.

They are talking about different things, one has entered the society early, and the other is still in school.

But they knew each other, from the moment they met on the field.

The impoverished teenagers from the same small town were bound by fate together and walked to today with passionate dreams. One's arrogance gradually faded and settled down, while the other kept her arrogance and gritted her teeth to move forward.

The world is so big, and there are so many outstanding people and things that make them dazzled.They think they are smart people, but the smarter children are, the more they can see the resistance of reality from this extreme gap.

Lu Xingyin didn't know what to say, but clinked glasses vigorously with him, and said repeatedly: "That's fine."

"What about you?" Zhou Dun ordered a can of beer, "You still have to go to school, don't you? How are you doing in Qingmo?"

"Second in grade." Lu Xingyin smiled, remembering the title given to him by the grade group after several exams in a row, "Number two in ten thousand years. Now he is studying chemistry competition."

"Chemistry competition..." Zhou Dun thought for a while, and some longing and envy appeared in his eyes, "The chemistry competition is very good. We have done a lot of competition questions, but we haven't done it in high school—very Is it difficult?"

"It's the content of the university." Lu Xingyin said, "It's okay, if it's you, it will definitely work."

"I can't do it anymore." Zhou Dun waved his hand and said with a wry smile, "It's not interesting to deal with junior high school questions, high school questions, vocational high school questions, and winter vacation homework every day. It's still interesting if you are better now and can go to school."

"It's all the same." Lu Xingyin didn't usually drink, but now he reached out for a bottle of beer, clinked glasses with him seriously, and repeated, "It's all the same."

On the way back, Lu Xingyin discovered that Zhou Dun had transferred 1 yuan to him.

Note is "salary".

Lu Xingyin called, but Zhou Dun didn't answer.He drank too much today, so he didn't answer the phone, but just typed to him in paragraphs.

"I don't know why, but I think you're short of money. My brother has money now, so I want to give you some. If you take it, don't pay me back. You are still the face of our group."

"If you have to pay it back, then when I get married, you will give me double the share. Needless to say, we understand our friendship."

"I didn't have the nerve to ask about your boyfriend just now. I also checked the information. Gay men nowadays are all scheming, so don't be fooled!"

Lu Xingyin was also a little drunk, walking a little erratically.

Red lanterns were hung in the roadside shop, and crystal candied haws paper was scattered beside the trash can. He laughed while looking at these things under the night. .

This is not the time when he usually called Gu Fangwei, and it took a while before he was picked up: "Hello, little calculator?"

"I'm here to call you, brother." Lu Xingyin said.

Gu Fangwei noticed something was wrong when he heard it: "Are you drinking, little calculator? Who did you drink with?"

"I'm at home." Lu Xingyin said, "English is really difficult to learn, so difficult, I can't understand the original English textbook. I'm still one English away from you. Gu Fangwei, when can I get 150 points in the exam? ?”

The voice was soft, bewildered, and stubborn, which made the heart wrinkle sourly.

When he called his name, it was as if he was the only person left in the whole world. He just wanted to talk to him, act like a baby to him, and listen to his voice on a lonely cold night.

Gu Fangwei said: "Why did you get 150 points in the test? My brother is not with you because of how many points you can get in the test."

"Gu Fangwei." Lu Xingyin's voice was still soft, he didn't answer his words, and said to himself, "You want to teach me English."

"Teacher, where did you drink?" Gu Fangwei decided not to care so much, "Are you at home? Make a video to show me where you are."

"I'm at home, lying on the bed. You want to teach me English." Lu Xingyin said.

"..." Gu Fangwei didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and coaxed him softly, "What's the matter, you were stumped by English, so you ran out to drink? Are you staying with your brother just to learn English?"

Lu Xingyin fell silent again.

Gu Fangwei waited patiently for a while, then called him many times, but Lu Xingyin didn't reply.He fell asleep.

Lu Xingyin had never tried to drink so much alcohol before, his ability to metabolize alcohol was not strong, and he had a splitting headache after a night.

In the early morning of the next day, something buzzed and slid into his arms coldly, and a rustling electronic voice called him there: "Detected, detected that your state is uncomfortable."

It was Gu Fangwei's voice.

Lu Xingyin opened his eyes, and saw clearly that it was a little zombie.He had kept this thing in the corner closed to charge, but he didn't know why it suddenly started working.

"Get up, get up, go wash up, I can squeeze toothpaste for you, and I can sing you a song."

After the little zombie finished speaking, a small opening in his belly suddenly opened, and a small piece of... mint-flavored toothpaste emerged from it.

Lu Xingyin was amused by it: "...Did he transform you into an automatic toothpaste squeezing machine?"

He staggered out of bed, brushed his teeth, washed his face with cold water, and after barely waking up for a while, the little zombie made a fuss again: "Hello, hello, your status is detected as: after washing, now I will help you Sing a wake-up song."

"The World Through Your Eyes"

"Through the mountains and plains..."

It is the theme song of "Little Tiger Returns Home". Gu Fangwei actually recorded this song for him.

He listened and laughed.

"Through the mountains and plains...cough cough, are you a little out of tune?"

The little zombie's voice paused for a moment, Lu Xingyin pushed open the bathroom door and went out, only to find that the little zombie stopped running.

And that voice came from outside the door.

Lu Xingyin was stunned.

It's a real voice, Gu Fangwei's voice, not a noisy electronic sound effect after recording.

There was a knock on the door: "Hello, hello, your status is detected as: Your boyfriend is here! If you open the door for him, he will give you a New Year's gift."

After Lu Xingyin was stunned for a long time, he walked forward and gently opened the door.

There are windows in the corridor, and the skylight penetrates in and flows out through the cracks in the door, getting brighter and brighter.

"Surprise!" Gu Fangwei was wrapped in a thick ball, with his hands in his pockets, snow falling on his body, and frost on his dark eyelashes.

His beautiful peach blossom eyes looked over, proud and proud: "The direct flight from city S in country A is eleven hours. I climbed up from the roof. We discovered this secret passage when we were young. Didn't you get drunk last night?" Talk to me, I'm coming for you."