The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

The station lights were dim. There is no direct train from Province S to Dongtong City, and you have to transfer twice. Lu Xingyin and Shen Qingyun said goodbye at the intersection of the first transfer station.

Shen Qingyun said: "Little brother, see you in a few days."

Lu Xingyin also said: "See you in a few days."

He didn't bring much luggage, a book bag for a change of clothes, another big kraft paper bag for the medicinal materials he bought, special snacks from S City, and some daily necessities.

The paper bag was stuffed bulgingly, but the edge of the handle was thin, and it fell heavily, leaving a whitish mark on the fingertips, as if it could be directly ground into the bone.After changing one hand for a while, and then switching back, the fingertips of both hands were imprinted, turning white and hot, and the burning pain was lingering.

The journey was only five hours, Lu Xingyin bought a hard seat ticket, hugged the schoolbag to his chest, tied the bag to the shoulder strap of the schoolbag, curled up and leaned against the window, and closed his eyes.

The vehicle was rickety, the air was filled with the smell of instant noodles, cigarettes and some kind of plastic, there were children running and playing, the man scolded in a low voice, a pair of grandpa and grandma bought a 45 yuan train set lunch by mistake, and one complained about the price , a person who complains about the price is pretty disgraceful...

His pale and quiet face was reflected in the dark car window. He felt drowsy, but he felt that this place was suitable for sleeping peacefully, because he grew up and studied in such an environment.

He knew he was going home.

Dongtong City didn't change much. When Lu Xingyin returned with his things, the people in this city hadn't woken up yet, and there were cold stars hanging in the night sky.

The proprietress of the breakfast shop instructed her husband to grind the soybean milk. In the midst of the white steam, she caught sight of the person coming and said, "Oh, isn't this Xingyin? Why are you back?"

"It's just a holiday, come back to see grandma." Lu Xingyin smiled with his eyes bent, "Hello, Aunt Wang, you are still so beautiful."

He learned this mantra from Gu Fangwei, and he was not considered a "glib" kid before.

The proprietress was also very curious about it, and when she was happy, she wrapped two deep-fried dough sticks and a few buns and handed them to him: "Xing Yin has really grown up, taller than before, and handsome, and knows to come back to see grandma after the holiday."

"The most important thing is to remember to come back when you have money, the young man will become a great talent!" Her husband also chimed in, seeing that Lu Xingyin wanted to refuse, he laughed, "Why are you being polite to uncles and aunts? Isn't it all us?" Watching him grow up. Next time I come back, I’m afraid I’ll bring a girlfriend back.”

"What kind of girlfriend to bring! How nice to bring a letter from a prestigious university."

……

The iron fence gate outside the Lujia campus was deformed, and the tree carried outside was broken from the root and disappeared.

Lu Xingyin put down the things in his hand, breathed some white mist into the palm of his hand, and forcefully pushed back the iron fence, the iron spikes scraped the ground, making some harsh noises.

"Hey, isn't this--Xingyin? Don't break that thing, your grandma said that you can get a new one when it's time, it was broken by the wind and heavy rain before."

A street away is the post office. The staff member who came to open the door in the early morning noticed him and said, "Your grandma is not at home—why didn't you notify me when you came back?"

It was just six o'clock in the morning.

Lu Xingyin wiped the mist off the phone screen, looked up and asked the post office staff: "I didn't have time to tell. Where did grandma go? Is she okay?"

"I went to the market and said it was to see a doctor, and the neighborhood committee accompanied her." The post office staff looked at him and added, "It's okay, I should be back this morning, I'll give you a call and you can get in touch. Your grandma doesn't have a mobile phone, so it's really hard to notify her."

The phone was picked up after several calls.The aunt of the neighborhood committee said: "It's nothing, it's just some routine examinations, and the county hospital can't do it. Your grandma is in the MRI room this time, and it's not convenient to talk on the phone. Don't worry, we'll be back in a few hours. You take care of it first." Take care of yourself. If your grandma knows that you are back, she will be happy."

Lu Xingyin then entered the house first.

The yard is not the same as usual, maybe because the owner has not been there for a few days, and weeds have emerged, crowding out the neat space of flowers and trees.The same goes for the interior, although everything is where it should be, but it is not as neat as it used to be.

Grandma Lu has always been a person who made all bottles and jars fit and aligned. Lu Xingyin walked in and screwed an unscrewed candy jar, feeling heavy in her heart as if something was pressing on her.

He is a sensitive and thoughtful child, and has been like this since childhood.When he was young, he could hear the neighbors talking about his life experience, he didn't care, but every time Grandma Lu went out to buy medicinal materials, or temporarily left him in the hospital for infusion and went home to cook by herself, Lu Xingyin would always think- —Grandma Lu is so old and lonely, where will she go, will she encounter a rainstorm, an unreasonable conflict, a taxi driver who doesn't look at the road.

Could it be that one night when he was studying in a distant place, the old man quietly left this world.

He once watched "Five Decays of Heaven and Man" in a TV series. When talking about dying people, the first thing is that they are no longer neat and clean.

He cleaned the house by hand, and then quietly waited for the time to pass.It is impolite to call and ask repeatedly, so he will always hold back the time promised by the adults.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, Grandma Lu came back.

The silver-haired old man was neatly combed and looked a little older and shriveled than before he left.She looked at Lu Xingyin with her usual serious and gentle eyes: "Are you back?"

Lu Xingyin stood up, took the medicine in her hand, nodded and said, "I'm back."

"How long will you be back?"

"Two days, the car back to school on Sunday night." Lu Xingyin said.

Grandma Lu took a sip of water and laughed: "That's no different from the granddaughter of the Li family next door who is going to college. Just like going to college, you can come back on weekends."

Lu Xingyin looked at the medicine in the plastic bag and asked, "Grandma, did you just come back from the city hospital? What are you looking for?"

"It's nothing, it's just the same old problems, it's the same when I'm old." Grandma Lu said, "Someone will come to deliver native eggs later, and buy half a native chicken. Let's make chicken soup at night. I'm going to take a nap. Your room has always been like that, change the quilt yourself."

Grandma Lu's routine is unshakable, everything is the same as usual, and the grandparents and grandchildren live peacefully and casually.

Lu Xingyin nodded and said: "Okay. If someone comes to the door, I will open it. I also want to eat glutinous rice balls with distilled grains from Xianghe Restaurant. I will serve some dishes there at night. Didn't you bring the monitoring watch I bought for you last time? "

Everyone in this small town knows each other, and there is no need to take out the restaurant. If you live nearby, you can just take the pot with you, and you will return it anyway.

"Bring it, I'm charging today, I was going to the hospital, so I didn't bring it." Grandma Lu glanced at the things he brought, and sighed softly, "Why bring things over there, the family will give you the missing things." I brought it. It’s hard to say what you think over there. Boys of this age spend money on the Internet and buy snacks, and you send them home. This is not the time for you to send money until you graduate and work. "

Lu Xingyin just smiled: "I have a computer and snacks, over there...there is a lot of money, I have no shortage, grandma."

Lu Xingyin was in charge of preparing the dinner, and Grandma Lu took a longer nap than usual, making an uncomfortable snoring sound as if she couldn't breathe.

Lu Xingyin's movements were often interrupted by this sound, but luckily it didn't last long.

In the evening, he took a walk with Grandma Lu for a while, and did his homework as usual when he came back.

As he was writing, he scratched his head as if he suddenly remembered something, and said, "By the way, grandma, our school has a competition class to sign up for, and here is a notice to parents to sign, as well as parents and students to sign up." Let's call the teacher together, and you happen to be here, so please sign for me."

Grandma Lu didn't say anything, and signed for him.Chen Chong answered the call, and he also said that he was Lu Xingyin's grandma.

Chen Chong chatted with the students' parents for a while as usual.

He prefers Lu Xing Yin, so naturally he chats more, and he has praised a lot about Lu Xing Yin with Grandma Lu.From entering the school all the way to the two monthly exams, Grandma Lu listened carefully and asked some questions.

"Does your school have air conditioning? Where are the fans?"

"All."

"You went to a bad class and got good grades. Don't your classmates exclude you?" Grandma Lu asked, "The friendship between classmates is very precious. Don't engage in studying and forget about it."

"Everything is fine, don't worry."

One word at a time, the most common exhortation, but he never got it after leaving Dongtong City.

Lu Xingyin tried his best to control his voice, and answered seriously, as if he had returned to his childhood, chasing Grandma Lu and loudly broadcasting the diary of today's elementary school students, happily sharing what Chinese characters he learned today, and which classmate was praised today up...

Every time he spent in Dongtong City was carefully put away and treasured by him.

The only regret may be that the children who often come to him to ask questions are not there. I heard that they were sent to a closed private junior high school by their parents, and the control is very strict.

Before leaving.

Grandma Lu couldn't see him off, she just sent him to the door.

"Stop coming back in the future." Grandma Lu said calmly.

Lu Xingyin lowered his head and did not speak.

"It's not that I don't want you to come back, but I'm afraid that your child will be delayed. You have to think more over there, and the people here don't speak well. Once I come back, I will also think about whether you have a bad life there." When Grandma Lu said this, her eyes were very calm, "My good grandson has grown up, and when I come back, I will bring someone I like back to show grandma. Does the sweater from last time still fit?"

With these words spoken so calmly, Lu Xingyin gradually understood that this is the way Grandma Lu loves him—it is the same as the character she taught him, measured, reserved and determined.

Lu Xingyin took a deep breath, said with a smile: "It fits, it fits. My classmate and I both like it."

"Okay, grandma will knit insoles for you next time." Grandma Lu said, "Make it two sizes larger than your size, and you can wear them. Boys, the size should be larger."

"En." Lu Xingyin carried the schoolbag on his back and supported Grandma Lu, "Don't give it away."

He and Shen Qingyun met at the train station.

Shen Qingyun didn't adjust his schedule, and was so sleepy that he fell asleep all the way. When he was about to arrive at the station, he realized that Lu Xingyin was too silent.

He gently poked Lu Xingyin with his elbow: "What's wrong?"

"I'm a little homesick." Lu Xingyin said softly.

"Well, I know." Shen Qingyun said, "When I left home for the first time to go to boarding school, I cried under the quilt at night. After that, every time I went back to school from home, I would cry. I got used to it later. "

"I'll get used to it." Lu Xingyin's voice was softly nasal, "I know."

In the early morning, Gu Fangwei was wearing a coat and a scarf, standing at the gate of the railway station, struggling to identify the train number information on the panel in the lobby.

There are only two direct trains to Dongtong City a day, so it's easy to recognize.

When he returned home this time, he was scolded again by Gu Qingfeng for not being able to sneak Lu Xingyin back, and imposed a new round of economic sanctions on him—he will not be allowed to pay the bill in the future, but It must be in the form of a video call, with Lu Xingyin to reimburse the account.

"Do you think I'm stupid? What did you say to buy a global limited edition signed T-shirt for Xing Yin, and coaxed your assistant uncle to send you a lot of money, and the only limited edition T is in the hands of my friend's grandson!" Gu Qingfeng couldn't wait to smoke Beat him with a cane, "Go and see your brother! Don't play tricks!"

After a long while, the old man relented and said, "Forget it, look at you this time——you came to ask me to sign, are you planning to go back to study, please forgive me."

Gu Fangwei was disheartened, so he asked him to sign and came back.

He worked as a little zombie at home for another two days, always feeling empty and lonely in his rented house.

He suddenly remembered that Lu Xingyin didn't say the specific time of his return - he didn't even tell him when he was going back to Dongtong City.

It's hard to say whether he can catch up with the class, the point is that if Lu Xingyin comes back in the early morning alone, he might have too many things to do and it might be a bit dangerous.

He got up and sent him a text message: "When will you be back?"

Time, three o'clock in the morning.

It's already Monday.Gu Fangwei waited for a while, but Lu Xingyin did not reply, presumably he was sleeping.

It was still early, and Gu Fangwei's biological clock was used to staying up late again. After thinking for a while, he simply went out and took a taxi, intending to pick up his younger brother.

In the early morning, the train station was very windy and extremely cold.

Gu Fangwei stood outside the only exit door, and when he felt that he was about to freeze, he finally saw a white ball coming out of the exit.

He also couldn't explain why his intuition was so accurate - he picked Lu Xingyin out of the crowd with just one glance.

Lu Xingyin walked out of the train station and took a deep breath.

Shen Qingyun had equipment in a package, but it got stuck and asked him to come out and wait.

In the distance, he heard someone calling him: "Little calculator!"

Deep, magnetic voice.

Looking up, the sharp and beautiful young man was standing in the cold wind, wearing a nice suit, waiting for him.

Lu Xingyin was startled for a moment.

At this moment, the depression, grievance, and missing emotions that came all the way seemed to turn into white steam that was exhaled lightly, and flew away lightly.

Even if reason blocks it, he doesn't want to care about it right now.

He walked over quickly, faster and faster, and then threw himself into Gu Fangwei's arms.

Gu Fangwei didn't expect him to be so bold and willful - he didn't react for a while, he just reached out and hugged his back, trying to stabilize his voice: "Ah, this, brother, are you hungry..."

Lu Xingyin clung to his arms without saying anything.

Gu Fangwei hugged him silently - he couldn't explain why, he felt distressed when he saw Lu Xingyin plunge into his arms, his thin shoulders and his figure struggling to walk over with luggage.

Distressed, and heartbeat.