The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

Lu Xingyin never told anyone about his sexual orientation.In other words, before he came into contact with the Internet, Dongtong City did not allocate a special space for the phenomenon of "homosexuality", and everything related to it was hidden under the calm and transparent deep water. No one discussed it either.

Lu Xingyin knows that there is a pair of old ladies in Qingshui Lane, Dongtong City, who are not married, take care of each other, and walk together hand in hand when walking.He once thought they were sisters, but when he asked for their names, they had different surnames, not to mention they didn't look alike.

From childhood to adulthood, his perception of women is more inclined to family affection and respect. Among his peers, only when facing men can he experience the throbbing and shame unique to teenagers.On the day he discovered this, he accepted this fact calmly, like a river accepting a rain.Dongtong City is small, it is a small cog that runs peacefully, it cannot accommodate more missteps, but it appears more generous in other places.No one will go after other people's affairs, meet on the road, occasionally say hello, talk about trivial things in the neighborhood, that's all they care about.

After entering junior high school, he went to boarding school. He applied for day school and spent an extra 10 minutes walking home every day, and got up 10 minutes earlier in the morning.These four 10 minutes were used by him to memorize Chinese and geography. Later, he got the only perfect score in the city in the geography test.

Later, he learned to use the school computer room to surf the Internet, and he also had his first mobile phone—Grandma Lu saved her pension to buy it for him.He didn't want it at first, but Grandma Lu said later: "Others have it, so you take it too."

Even if the mobile phone is placed in the whole class, it is quite exquisite and expensive. Before 4G was popularized, his mobile phone was already considered very smart. It was a touch screen, and he could browse any forum quickly.He downloaded a lot of e-books to study, and because of some coincidences, he passed through some same-sex dating forums, but he went in and looked, he was not very interested, and he didn't meet anyone he liked, so he put it on hold, rest assured Studying, I want to find a better job in the future, and take Grandma Lu to the provincial capital city for recuperation and treatment.

At that time, which parents in the neighborhood were disturbed because their children were found to be in love, so they would inevitably use Lu Xingyin as an example: "Look at the child of Grandma Lu's family, he looks like a sign, tall and white, and his grades are good, the little girl who likes him Where is it so much, why don’t people fall in love and know how to study?”

There is also a neighbor aunt who said with a smile: "Xingyin is not a thing in the pool. If he will soar into the sky in the future, how can he stay in our Dongtong City to marry and have children. I am afraid I will find a girl in the future. I have high vision. Any girl who wants to chase him, I am afraid I want to go to Tsinghua University and Peking University with him!"

There is no malice in these words, but it seems to be more hopeful and gratifying. There are not many college students in their town. Most of them go to work after graduating from junior high school, or return to their hometowns farther away to "revitalize tourism" Economy", the streets are empty, and there are stalls selling non-staple food everywhere. Besides, there are traditional local businesses selling curtains, and the facade is covered with thick dust.

Lu Xingyin has heard these words before, and there is nothing to say, but Grandma Lu is as careful as a hair, and occasionally he would think to himself that the parents and elders who get along day and night know their children best, and there is nothing they don’t know. Maybe Lu Grandma knew, but she just kept silent.

Or, Grandma Lu didn't know anything, but he was upset.

One red and one white sweater, one bigger and one smaller, with exactly the same texture and texture, as if there was some kind of link between him and him.He likes this kind of link, like the relationship he has with him after entering Huo's house. It doesn't represent anything, but it really exists.

Gu Fangwei took the red sweater, looked at it, and his peach blossom eyes curled up: "It looks good."

He still has the kind of tutoring he has cultivated since he was a child. He unwraps the presents in person and expresses his liking.This kind of person must have been likable when he was young, unlike the obedient children like Lu Xingyin, everything that an obedient person can get is the rest that others can give, it is because he noticed that there is such an obedient child here, and he likes him ; and Gu Fangwei made a sound with a golden spoon in his mouth. He is a beautiful child, and his speech is also likable. He is born to be the focus of everyone. Everything comes first, and there is no second way.

Lu Xingyin exposed him: "You saw it yesterday."

Gu Fangwei still smiled: "I've seen it again and again, and I still think it looks good. Yesterday I noticed that this sweater is probably too big for you to wear. Seeing that you have a fever, I am too embarrassed to ask you for it. I happen to be short of it in winter. A turtleneck to go with my trench coat."

Lu Xingyin lowered his eyes and said softly: "Oh."

He picked up the chalk again, and continued to write on the blackboard.

He thought it was clean this time, but Gu Fangwei still didn't leave, and was still beside him, looking this way motionless.

He followed his gaze and saw Gu Fangwei looking up at a formula he had copied.

It was a relatively difficult physics competition question. The question had many twists and turns, but it was not beyond the outline.

In order not to occupy the space of the writing on the blackboard, Lu Xingyin skipped a few steps before finishing the process.

Gu Fangwei said suddenly: "Did you use a recursion for what you omitted?"

Lu Xingyin looked back and said, "Yes."

In the physics inspection of high school and college entrance examination, the place where recursion can be used is basically the finale.

"It's useless to learn these things." Gu Fangwei said.

Lu Xingyin didn't listen to it, but continued to write: "I want to learn."

"Competition is useless." Gu Fangwei seemed to see through his thoughts, "It's better to change schools if you take the competition in Qingmo. There is no competition class in Qingmo No. [-] Middle School, and the entire college in S province does not respect competition. There are no good competition instructors, without these things, your starting line will be worse than others."

Lu Xingyin continued to write, the dust fell on his shoulders, and his voice was clear and light: "I like it."

Gu Fangwei was speechless.

He once again felt the fact that this little guy, Lu Xingyin, was not very well-behaved sometimes, and sometimes not so well-behaved, and even dared to talk back to him.

This challenged his self-esteem as an older brother.

Gu Fangwei held back for a while, raised his eyes and said, "You made a mistake in this place."

Lu Xingyin stopped and looked back, then said: "I did not make a mistake, it is your calculation that was wrong."

Gu Fangwei acted nonchalantly: "Oh."

Lu Xingyin glanced at him again: "You yourself even add 27 to 496 to make 513."

Gu Fangwei: "..."

He said, "Brother, I'm just sleepy!"

"Then you also made a mistake." Lu Xingyin said slowly, "If you are wrong, you are wrong. It's not a big question, and you won't be given process points for judging the paper."

Gu Fangwei felt that these words sounded a little familiar, as if they were what Qu Jiao had said back when he was angry with him.

Gu Fangwei: "..."

He returned to his seat silently.

Looking up, Lu Xingyin was standing in front of the blackboard with his back to him, his figure was clear and elegant. The blackboard in Class 27 was newly replaced, smooth and large, which made Lu Xingyin even smaller, and because of the heat in the classroom, he only wore a shirt and sweater inside, so thin that his shoulder blades and butterfly bones were showing alone. Although thin and lonely, he appears to have a serious stubbornness.He probably still had a fever and was out of strength, holding the chalk with his white fingertips, just as lightly as when he was writing notes.

"Forget it, come down, I'll copy it for you." Gu Fangwei stood up, just as Lu Xingyin choked on the chalk dust, coughed a few times, and the voice said again: "Follow me home to see a doctor during lunch break, you Get an injection."

"No." Lu Xingyin said.

Gu Fangwei took a breath: "Brother will help you attend the evening improvement class, and then listen to the class for you. When you go home at night, my brother will tell you what was said in today's class. Is this okay, my friend?" Little ancestor?"

Lu Xingyin sniffed, "Oh".

After a while, I realized that saying "oh" didn't seem very good, so I said "hmm" again, which was considered a reluctant agreement.

Seeing that he was finally willing to see a doctor for an injection, Gu Fang was also relieved, and rubbed his head casually.

Everyone who had eaten came back one after another, and started to copy the questions as usual.Everyone in the class noticed that the handwriting on the blackboard was different, but they didn't care too much.

The class bell rang, and the students in the class took out their textbooks and notebooks one after another, preparing to wait for the class representative to announce today's content.

Today is a chemistry class, and they have formed a normal routine—in the past, Hou Hao would finish speaking the content of this week in the first two classes of each week, and leave the rest to them to do their homework, which will be handed in before the holiday. Zhou corrected and asked them to compare the correct answers.

And this week, Hou Hao didn't even talk about the content of this week, and the learning tasks were not released.

Everyone waited for a while, but the teacher didn't come for a long time. Meng Congzhou stood up and greeted the chemistry class representative: "Let's go to the office to find the teacher. The teacher didn't even tell us the task this week."

The representative of the chemistry class turned around and said, "Everyone be quiet, let's study by ourselves first."

Lu Xingyin flipped through the chemistry book.

He never took chemistry class seriously, and he never wrote homework, so he was blacklisted by Hou Hao.As early as last week, Hou Hao already had the intention of not wanting to see him in the classroom. According to Chen Yuanyuan, "next week, he will let you go out and stand up to attend class." It is used to improve the class questions and supplement basic English and biology.

For some reason, he just felt that Gu Fangwei was looking at him—folding his arms, looking forward from the back, as if he was looking at something that he couldn't understand for a while, or rather, it was Gu Fangwei's first serious look at him. Look at the class you are in, and the people and things in this class.

In fact, I have been in this class for more than a year, and Gu Fangwei still can't remember the names of many people.He is unorthodox and unrestrained, even if he doesn’t know him, he can buy Coke from the entire canteen after his favorite team wins and distribute it to the whole class, but he doesn’t necessarily remember everyone’s name; The girl was sent back to the dormitory, but she forgot about it the next day.

Yesterday, in order to find Lu Xingyin, he was forced to attend class with Meng Congzhou, and even copied his notes for him. For him, the people in this class didn’t seem to be so difficult to communicate with, or in other words—communication was not as difficult as he thought. so laborious.

Within a few minutes, the chemistry class representative and Meng Congzhou came back: "The teacher is not here."

Hou Hao was no longer there, but they brought last week's homework, but even last week's homework, Hou Hao did not correct it, and sent it out intact.

There was a lot of discussion in the class.

Recently, the progress of chemistry has reached the difficult part of the organic part of high school, and there are quite a lot of experimental courses, and the students in class 27 failed to take it once.

Meng Congzhou went out again. He said, "I don't know if something is wrong with Mr. Hou. I'll go to the next class to borrow a mobile phone—"

Before he could take a step, he heard a lazy voice from the back row: "Use mine. The class next door is already in class."

Gu Fangwei hooked the corner of the table and leaned back against the table, holding a black mobile phone between his fingertips.

Meng Congzhou: "..."

Everyone's searching eyes looked over.As we all know, Gu Fangwei is a person who dissociates from Class 27 and never cares about his business.Since the beginning of school, the only thing he has intervened in is related to Lu Xingyin.

One time Shen Nu wanted to bet with Lu Xingyin and everyone, and the other time Lu Xingyin fell ill recently.In addition, the story about Huangmao's group was gradually spread, and everyone knew: Gu Fangwei is not easy to mess with, and Lu Xingyin is his younger brother, so he can't mess with it either.

"What are you looking at me for?" Gu Fangwei pushed the phone out and glanced at Lu Xingyin in front of him again.

This good student's younger brother is still obediently studying by himself, indifferent to any disturbance.

Seeing him like this, he wanted to harass him, Gu Fangwei stretched out his finger, slightly curved his fingertips, flicked lightly, and it landed on Lu Xingyin's black hair.

Lu Xingyin was startled, dropped the pen in his hand, and looked back at him blankly.

"Hurry up, it's because someone wants to study hard." Gu Fangwei smiled a little, "We can't delay."