The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

Lu Xingyin was sitting on the sofa, holding a cup of hot milk in his hand, sitting upright and obedient, as if he was not at his house, but in class.

It took Gu Fangwei a long time to wash away the toothpaste foam in his mouth, and he rummaged through boxes and cabinets to barely find a pack of strawberry-flavored biscuits, poured them out and put them on a plate, and then sent them to Lu Xingyin.

Perhaps due to the influence of his growth experience, Gu Fangwei has some inexplicable sense of ritual in these small things, such as now - when Shijiao's younger brother comes, he has to make him a cup of hot milk, and give him a stack of beautifully arranged strawberries. Small biscuits.

It's a way to coax children.

After Gu Fangwei confirmed that he had heard correctly, he wiped his hair with a towel and smiled: "Little calculator, you ran out at night to let my brother teach you English?"

Lu Xingyin held the milk glass and nodded seriously, his eyes were still as calm and bright as before.

He was very serious, and he didn't eat the biscuits that Gu Fangwei gave him.

He was sitting, while Gu Fangwei was standing, looking over with bright eyes, reminding Gu Fangwei of the group of white pigeons he met outside the church in S city.

At that time, he was far away from the crowd, listening to the hymns in the church indifferently. The church in S City was silent during the day, and almost no believers were seen coming in and out. Almost all the people coming and going were middle-aged aunts and uncles—a bit of a magical reality. Yes, after receiving the communion, the aunts turned around and fed the pigeons with inferior waffles. During the day, they danced in the open space in front of the church, playing deafening earthy love songs on the stereo, and the blurred colored lights spinning and shooting.

Someone paid attention to him that day, and saw a beautiful but strange boy sitting on a pew outside the church with a chilling and indifferent expression. From early morning to night, he breathed the cold winter air, like a drowning dead.

After the strangeness of the night passed, the wandering pigeons were released, and this batch of already fed white pigeons no longer flew towards him hungry and hungry as they did during the day, but scurried quietly under his feet.There was a pigeon sitting on his lap, and he lowered his eyes, and saw the round eyes of the pigeon looking at him, black and pure, far away from all the hustle and bustle of the city.

At that moment, he found some solace in the eyes of these little things trained as begging machines, and even some kind of divinity that had nothing to do with the world.

By chance, Gu Fangwei came over to dry his hair, bent slightly, and looked into Lu Xingyin's eyes.

He had just taken a shower, and he smelled of mint toothpaste and body wash. The mint was cool, but the wind was slightly hot.He was tall, and he couldn't be seen wearing a coat in late autumn, but it was obvious when he was only wearing a single shirt. His muscles were stretched under the smooth and delicate lines, giving people a faint sense of oppression.

Lu Xingyin raised his face, his shadow was reflected in his quiet eyes, clean and shiny as well.

The moist breath gently pressed against the eyes.

... so good.

When his consciousness returned, Gu Fangwei suddenly realized that he had lost his mind. He was almost confused by Lu Xingyin's eyes, and his thoughts also became scattered: "Is... learning English?"

He pursed his lips, "Late at night, come to me and learn English?"

Lu Xingyin asked eagerly: "Is it possible?"

He looked at him expectantly and cautiously, and after seeing Gu Fangwei's expression, he realized that he seemed a little willful, so he lowered his voice and said in his usual very serious tone: " You're very busy, if you don't have time, you don't have to, I'm... I'm here to ask you."

I thought about it again: "Actually, I can also learn by myself."

At this moment, he was taken aback.

Like the wind blowing, such thoughts passed through his mind, making him suddenly understand the motivation that drove him to find him out of school.

Since you can learn by yourself, why do you come here so excitedly?

Lu Xingyin's fingertips were a little hot, he lowered his eyes, suddenly changed his words, and said softly: "I...I'm going back first, the dormitory needs to check the dormitory..."

Capricious.Gu Fangwei thought to himself.

Capricious little calculator.

Gu Fangwei didn't know why he wanted to laugh a little, he teased him patiently: "Then you learn by yourself, how are you going to learn?"

Lu Xingyin summed up earnestly: "My foundation is not good. I started to take English classes in the third year of junior high school, a year later than the progress in City S, and I couldn't understand the questions, so I recited the vocabulary first, from junior high school to the current second year of high school. Plates do reading comprehension..."

"Well, do you still have listening skills?" Gu Fangwei couldn't tell where it was fun, so he followed his words and asked, with a half-smile in his eyes, "Do you want to follow along, buy the original soundtrack and listen to it yourself, I have a sweetheart sweetheart English The learning system..." is actually a remodeled Eraser and Memorable English Dictionary.

The smile in the eyes permeated into the bottom of my heart, and it exploded, only the heartbeat could be heard.

He was teasing him.

Lu Xingyin let go of the milk cup in his hand and wanted to stand up, lowered his eyes and said, "I'm going back to the dormitory."

Gu Fangwei stood in front of him and didn't let him move. He stretched out his slender, knuckle-knuckle hand and gently pressed him on the sofa, restraining him with his body. His fingertips brushed his black and soft hair: "Why? You are so good, will you be greedy?"

Lu Xingyin looked at him in some confusion.

His bright eyes still contained his shadow.

Gu Fangwei raised the corners of his lips, "Greed is—"

Lu Xingyin raised his eyes and saw him approaching, his fingertips were no longer hot, but began to tremble a little.Gu Fang was overwhelmed by the fragrance of the bath and the scorching body temperature, as well as the shadow under the lamp.

He subconsciously wanted to hide, but he didn't dodge. Gu Fangwei clasped his shoulders and stretched out his hand to wrap him up with the air conditioner on the sofa. It was so tightly wrapped that he couldn't move.

"Is there anything I can't promise you, brother." He heard Gu Fangwei say, his peach eyes narrowed, indifferent and undisciplined, unable to tell the truth or falsehood.

Gu Fangwei pulled him up, half hugged him and pushed him in.

Mulberry silk's air conditioner was slipped, so he clasped his shoulders and pushed him into the bedroom half coaxing and half hugging: "Sleep first, my dear. Are you running back now to send the boarding supervisor to arrest you and leave school? "

"You have to know how many girls want to get your position, little calculator." He lay down next to him, and then pinched his face when he was bored, "With me as your brother, not only can you supplement your English, but you can also work with you. Sleeping together in the same bed, advancing together and retreating together..."

Lu Xingyin took off his hand and stuffed it back outside the quilt.

He said, "Then, can you go back and take the exam?"

The young man's clear voice resounded in the empty and quiet night, followed by a moment of silence.

Gu Fangwei glanced at him: "Little calculator, do you think I need a test?"

Lu Xingyin didn't know if he was sleepy, he was lying on his side facing him, but his eyes were closed, as if he was always ready to fall asleep.His voice was small and light: "No need, but I want you to go, it feels better this way."

After a while, he added softly: "It's hard to start a business."

"Today, Mr. Chen from Class [-] printed the test papers for the advanced class, and I got a copy for you."

Gu Fangwei didn't smile again this time, his face turned cold, although his tone was still casual and indifferent, but there was a bit of dangerous coldness underneath: "Brother's business, be good, don't worry about it. "

Lu Xingyin opened his eyes, looked at him for a while, then let out an "oh", got deeper into the air-conditioning quilt, and stopped talking.

The electric fan was humming on, making the silence even quieter.

Lu Xingyin quietly hid in the air-conditioning quilt, shrinking into a white ball.

Gu Fangwei turned off the fan casually—he just washed the circuit components, and turned on the fan to dry it with a small wind. The noise disappeared, but the silence was even more harsh.

Gu Fangwei felt a little headache.

How did you provoke such a little guy?

Late at night, Gu Fangwei had a dream.

He didn't know exactly what the dream was about. He only remembered the smell of blood in his breath and the sound of "boom", as if it hit his own scalp. Someone in the dark alley said: "I didn't die immediately, I jumped down and climbed for a while, and sat here for a while."

"Is it the contestant who made trouble a few days ago? Now that the students are so fragile psychologically, isn't it just that they got second in the exam? How many people want to take the second exam and can't pass the exam?"

The sound of breathing, figures, and lights in the alley were all scattered in the dream, and the feeling of suffocation gradually rose. He was unable to move or speak, and could only look at the dead man on the ground, staring at him quietly.

It is the eyes of the dove, pure and divine.

With a "click", Lu Xingyin beside him turned over and knocked down a small ornament on the bed with his fingertips.

Gu Fangwei woke up from the dream in a cold sweat.

He was trembling with breathing, turned his face to look, only to see a little white dumpling beside him in a haze.

It's the chant of the deer.

His family friend's little brother.

Gu Fangwei remained motionless in the darkness for a long time, like a robot whose clockwork had run out.

After a long time, he got out of bed lightly and planned to take a shower.

Lu Xingyin woke up when he got out of bed, the young man was pulling the quilt, looking at him with some sleepiness and confusion: "Gu Fangwei?"

"It's okay." Gu Fangwei forced a smile, "Sleep with you, brother remembered that there is something to do."

The stimulation of the cold water made him shiver all over his body, but it also eliminated the aftertaste of those broken dreams.

Gu Fangwei turned on the small light in the living room and sat down on the sofa in the living room.

He was stunned for a long time, and then saw the cold milk by the table, took a sip, and ate another biscuit.

Under the biscuit plate, there was an additional thin test paper side bound together. Gu Fangwei picked it up and browsed it. He saw that it was some relatively elementary competition expansion questions, mathematics and comprehensive science.

He thought about it again, and remembered: this was given to him by Lu Xingyin.

This guy was still sleeping inside, Gu Fangwei realized that his previous tone seemed a bit fierce.

I don't know that Lu Xingyin is not angry.

He generally doesn't care whether his younger siblings are angry or not, even when they play with them, he is perfunctory.Brother and sister are angry and cry, what does it have to do with him?In short, they insisted on coming to play.

"It's so troublesome." He said softly.

There was a pen by the table, and he picked it up, but instead of writing the questions, he just turned over the test papers printed on one side and used the back side as a draft paper.

Strong and sharp handwriting fell on it.

"English small calculator version improvement log."

"Adjusted the BUG: memorize words. Revised to: no need to memorize words, abandon the inefficient way of scoring..."

He wrote a lot in eloquence, and finally he was too lazy to write, and wrote on the last line: "The following is abbreviated. Just ask me."

After thinking about it, he seemed to feel that this kind of apology was not enough, so he carefully drew a comic version of a calculator and an unlucky villain next to him, with a bubble above his head: "Return to zero, return to zero, return to zero, unhappy Return to zero..."