The whole world thinks I'm a scumbag

After several months, Lu Xingyin saw Gu Qingfeng's face again.

In the phone video, the old man's expression is complicated and heartbroken: "Xingyin, you think about it, you just got the recommendation agreement from Tsinghua University, and you will be full this summer - your cerebral hemangioma is in a very biased position, and surgery is very dangerous , You must think about this matter clearly. What the doctor said, as long as you take good care of it, there is a probability that you will not rupture and get sick for a lifetime—”

"But it may happen in the next second." Lu Xingyin said softly, and the old man over there also paused.

He sat in front of the round coffee table in the hotel, with his mobile phone on a stand, next to a cup of milk tea that Gu Fangwei bought for him.

Gu Fangwei sat opposite, with his back to the phone, with a shocked and complicated expression.

He tilted his head, nodded his head to the person in the video, and also to the person opposite: "I can feel that it is getting bigger, and it is affecting my body more and more seriously. I used to catch a cold, I don’t feel dizzy, but now I have a common cold and feel dizzy when I stay up late, with a feeling of insufficient blood supply. The doctor said that it may be because it is getting bigger and compressing other brain nerves and blood vessels.”

"Grandpa Gu, I have known that I have this disease since the year I can remember. Grandma has always put the choice in my hands. I chose and waited. I don't regret this decision." Lu Xingyin said, "Now I don't want to Wait, I want to have an operation. Even if the probability of failure of the operation is 70%, 80%, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I want to try it.”

Gu Fangwei stood up suddenly, his face was pale, his brows were furrowed, and he stared at him tightly: "No."

Gu Qingfeng raised his eyebrows: "Gu Fangwei? Is it Gu Fangwei's voice? That kid is here? Xingyin, please tell me seriously, did that kid in our family pour you some ecstasy soup—"

"No, all of this is my own decision." Lu Xingyin said softly, "He never knew about my illness."

"Grandpa Gu, apart from asking for your help with the operation, I have one more thing to tell you. Today Gu Fangwei won the second place in the country and signed a contract with Tsinghua University. He is very good." Lu Xingyin said seriously Tell the old man opposite, "He is very good and works very hard. Every night he has to stay up late to design until the early morning, and he has lost a lot of weight."

"..."

At this moment, looking at the boy's clear and firm eyes on the other side of the screen, Gu Qingfeng was also stunned on the other side.

He subconsciously ignored Gu Fangwei's due achievements—or rather, because of Gu Fangwei's talent and intelligence since he was a child, he didn't know when they stopped worrying about his growth and paying attention to his achievements. Look at his efforts again.

But the child with the golden spoon in the greenhouse has also grown up. They looked at him looking forward to the miserable wind and rain outside, and believed that sooner or later he would compromise and return to their shelter crying, but no one expected Gu Fangwei smashed the glass of the greenhouse and walked into the rain without looking back.

Even if it is windy and rainy.

He was silent for a while: "You and him...?"

Before Lu Xingyin could speak, the phone was suddenly taken away by another slender hand.

Gu Fangwei said to the phone screen: "No, he doesn't know about me either. Before this final, I haven't seen him for several months. Grandpa, hang up first, I have some questions to ask Xingyin, first Bye."

The phone hangs up.

Lu Xingyin hugged the pillow and sat on the bed, wrapped himself in the quilt, and tilted his head to look at him.

In the past, Gu Fangwei couldn't stand his expression the most. Every time he couldn't help stretching out his hand to pinch him, he was also the most soft-hearted, but this time Gu Fangwei didn't, and his expression was so serious that it was almost cold: "Lu Xingyin. Your illness, what happened?"

"It's just like what you heard. Cerebral hemangioma is in a dangerous location. If you don't have an operation, you may suddenly rupture and die one day. If you have an operation, you may die directly on the operating table." Lu Xingyin said softly.

"Aren't your medicines..." Gu Fangwei felt that his voice was stuck, he was trapped by some kind of pain, and he froze every word inch by inch, "Is it to regulate the body?"

"It is for regulating the body. There is no specific medicine for cerebrovascular tumors, and the only clinical treatment is surgery for the time being. The traditional Chinese medicine I prescribed can enhance the resistance, nourish the body, promote blood circulation and remove blood stasis." Lu Xingyin's expression was very peaceful, almost a kind of Consolation, "My grandma also has a similar disease, arteriosclerosis, all of which are vascular diseases, but also to prevent rupture or thrombosis, and take the same medicine as me."

Gu Fangwei still felt pain—heartache, throat pain.

He couldn't say a word.

"Why didn't you tell me before..." He murmured in a low voice, "Why did this happen?"

Lu Xingyin looked at him with dark eyes: "I used to think that I was always going to die, so I didn't have any wishes. Brother, at that time, I never thought that I could have a future with you."

Gu Fangwei's eyes were red, and his lips were pursed tightly.

Lu Xingyin slowed down and said softly: "But now, I want to live."

He stretched out his hand and stared at the contours of his fingers against the light. The edges of his pale skin were illuminated into a bright orange, and the light blue blood vessels became dull and indistinct.

"why--"

"Because I want to live." Lu Xingyin pulled out the pre-admission agreement from under the pillow, his eyes filled with smiles, "Because I came to Qingmo No. 27 Middle School, entered Class [-], and met a very good-looking one, I like it very much Boy, I also fell in love with him. I entered the provincial team, met a lot of amazing people, and saw a bigger world, because I entered the finals, won the gold medal and was recommended by Tsinghua University. The person I like He shared a room with me, he was so poor that he couldn’t even afford food, and he would spend money to buy me milk tea and the most expensive train package—this boy was the one I liked at the beginning.”

Is there any reason to give up?

He wants to live, wants to keep so many gold medals exchanged between night and morning, and everything behind it.Painful and sweet, all belong to Lu Xingyin.

The next day, Gu sent someone to pick Lu Xingyin back for a pre-operative examination.

Therefore, Lu Xingyin asked Chen Chong for leave, and asked him to help collect the gold medal and a series of follow-up matters.Those who needed Lu Xingyin himself to participate, such as the interview at Tsinghua University Union Medical College, after deliberation, passed it directly to Lu Xingyin, saying that the dean was present when the contract was signed today, so it was considered that the interview had already taken place.

Gu Fangwei had actually asked Chen Chong for leave before.The winter camp was held for seven days until the signing of the contract. He only planned to spend the first four days, and then rushed back to the location of Fushi Technology to continue the research and planning of the small robot.

He whispered, "I'll go back with you tomorrow."

Lu Xingyin said softly: "It's just a pre-operative examination, you can do your own thing. After I have the operation, you can come to accompany me again. I checked, and the recovery from cerebral hemangioma surgery is very fast, as long as two Week."

Gu Fangwei has no voice.

The lights in the room were turned off, only to see the screen of his mobile phone light up, and after a while, he heard him say in a cold voice: "That is the recovery time of oral hemangioma, the brain is divided into three stages, one is the acute stage, One is the recovery period, and the other is the sequelae period, two months to half a year."

"In fact, as long as the operation is successful, the sequelae are blood clots. I am very young, so blood clots..."

"Nonsense! Lu Xingyin, I warn you, don't take your body seriously." Gu Fangwei's voice sounded fierce, more fierce than usual.

Lu Xingyin shrank back into the quilt, smiled, and buried himself in it and stopped talking.

After a while, Gu Fangwei probably realized that he was a bit emotional, so he called him: "Deer Xingyin?"

Lu Xingyin didn't say a word, Gu Fangwei became highly nervous, waited for a while, then called him again, but when he heard that he didn't respond, he ran out of the bed from one side and leaned over to check his situation.

He wanted to lift the quilt, but Lu Xingyin kept shrinking in, until Gu Fangwei knelt down on the bed himself——Lu Xingyin stretched out his hand and gently pulled, and Gu Fangwei rolled away Come in.

He stretched out his hand, and his pale and thin hand fumbled in the dark quilt, gently hooking his fingertips.

"I'm not going to die so soon."

He said. "Listen to the doctor, brother. It's useless to worry now."

Gu Fangwei said, "Yes."

"What is it that you didn't tell me?" Lu Xingyin asked in the dark, "Grandpa Gu said it."

"...It's nothing." Gu Fangwei was holding one hand by him, lying on his side facing him, his breathing and heartbeat were very close, but in the dark night, they couldn't see each other's faces and expressions clearly.

Lu Xingyin suddenly smiled.

"Are you out of the closet, Gu Fangwei?"

"—do you know what it means to come out?"

In the dark and invisible place, Gu Fangwei's ears began to burn, but his voice was still calm and calm: "I know."

He was a little angry, a little bit ashamed and annoyed at being exposed the secret, and a little wronged: "Can I not know? I..."

His voice was aggrieved and almost low: "I really like you."

"So now, we don't have any secrets anymore." Lu Xingyin moved, adjusted his sleeping position, his fingertips still hooked Gu Fangwei, and he didn't let go. He murmured, "Your acting skills are really bad. When people have no money, it doesn’t look like they have money. How long have you eaten instant noodles?”

"...It's not long." Gu Fangwei shook his heart, "It's only seven or eight days."

"Grandpa Gu gave me my money and pocket money every month." Lu Xingyin felt under the pillow again - he usually puts things carefully, everything must be where it should be, The bank card must be in the wallet, and it appeared under the pillow at this moment, indicating that he had prepared it in advance.

He stuffed a cold bank card.

"You don't need to pay it back, as long as you wait for me for a few months, the food must be delicious, brother." Lu Xingyin said softly, and paused, "There is no need for Gu Fangwei to teach me how to do the questions, and there is no need to provide his mobile phone number. "

——At this moment, it seems to coincide with a year ago.

At that time, he didn't know him yet, and met him in a chat group under the nickname [27th]. The reason was that one was short of test papers and the other was short of money.

Lu Xingyin remembered this past, and laughed, his voice was elegant and gentle, spreading out in the dark night: "Swipe casually."