The thorny bird that does not want to fall to the ground

Listening to the bell ringing in my ears, the noise was like a torn thread, reverberating, and for about half an hour, the school also returned to its original tranquility.

The coming of the weekend is also a rare day for Nian Xiaofu to sleep in.

It's clearly autumn, but the sun outside is not very different from midsummer, and the cicadas that are dormant on the branches and leaves are still sparing no effort to make a sound.

In the evening, I took a bath, lay comfortably on the bed, and habitually took out my mobile phone. Although, without her information, the phone call was even more impossible.

But, today is her birthday, so the courier should have arrived.I don't know, if she will like it, she shouldn't guess that it's hers, right?

Thinking about it, I feel a little sleepy.I slept until dawn, and it was past 10 o'clock when I touched my phone. My stomach was growling. I got up, washed up, cooked a large bowl of noodles, added eggs, vegetables, and sliced ​​meat. It tasted very good.

Nian Xiaofu was nestling on the sofa with a book in his hands, the quartz clock was ticking, quietly, and the vibration of the mobile phone broke all the tranquility.

I thought it belonged to Li Ling again, took a closer look, it was an unfamiliar number, subconsciously wanted to reject it, but the phone rang again and again, hesitated, connected, and listening to the voice, it was that girl, Xiao Mi.

"She's in the Central Hospital, are you coming?"

The phone was hung up.

His breathing was stagnant, his head was dizzy, and only one sentence echoed, she is in the hospital.After being in a trance for a while, calming down the messy thoughts, holding the wallet and keys, getting dressed, and hurried out of the community, unable to wait for the bus, directly grabbed a taxi and went straight to the station.

I didn't have time to care about other things, I bought the ticket for the nearest train, holding the mobile phone in my hand, leaning against the window, everything outside the window became blurred, fear, like a seed, constantly sprouting, when I was young Countless dangerous thoughts and infinite possibilities formed in Fu's mind, and accidents happened around her.

When I arrived in Jiangcheng, it was already past 7 o'clock in the evening. I went directly to the central hospital, and there was still half an hour's car distance. I stood helplessly at the door of the hospital. Nian Xiaofu panicked. left.

Seeing the doctor, the nurse asked, crying in a panic.Choking, Nian Xiaofu couldn't tell whether it was the nurse who brought her to her ward, and when she opened the door, Nian Xiaofu couldn't even recognize her at once, the loose blue and white hospital gown covered her body , almost a whole circle older than her, she cut her long hair, and her hair became ear-hanging length, she approached quietly, with her eyes closed, her face was pale, just like the hand hanging the water, pale A sickly pale cyan.

Standing straight to the side, the tears that were tried so hard to hide still fell down uncontrollably.Nian Xiaofu was frightened by her non-response all the time, sitting by the bed, calling her softly, Mu Li, Mu Li,

When he touched the hand she put outside, it was frighteningly cold, but it was still so warm outside at this time, so he carefully dragged her hand for fear of hurting her.

After a while, the nurse came over, removed the needle, and said, "She has been here for two or three days, and she mostly sleeps, and she doesn't talk when she wakes up. Another friend of hers came over last time." , took care of her for two days, basically, she didn’t eat anything, all she had was infused with nutrient solution, if you know her family, you’d better ask her family to come, her physical condition is really not good.”

"Well, I see, thank you."

Covering her cold hand, put it to her mouth and let out a soft breath, it was cold, as if she felt useless at all.

It was about 10 o'clock, I was really hungry, and my legs were a little numb from sitting all the time. I took out the mobile phone in my pocket and thought, there should be something to eat outside at this time, so I should go eat some Things are better.

Putting her hand under the bed, when she was about to let go,

His hands were tightly grasped, and he was stunned, looking at her, she woke up.

"You, you woke up, me"

"You, are you leaving now?" Her voice was hoarse, as if she hadn't spoken for a long time.

"No, I didn't leave."

But before she finished speaking, she let go of her hand, glanced at the beginning, and said, "You go, it's better to leave here."

I don't know whether it's loss or sadness, but Nian Xiaofu is frightened and uncomfortable with her indifferent and unfamiliar appearance, lowering her head, hiding her red eyes, not knowing what to say or what to do.

The door was pushed open, Xiao Mi stood at the door, walked in with the heat preservation box, did not speak, approached, sat on the chair on the left, opened the heat preservation box, and said, "Today's porridge is not bad, Want to try it?"

"Okay." Her answer was like a thorn piercing into the flesh. The pain was as painful as being whipped.

I don't know how I left the ward, walked out of the hospital, reached out to wipe away my tears, took a deep breath, the neon lights outside made me dizzy, I lowered my head, and walked on my own, I didn't know where I was going, I just kept thinking about it Go, go to a place, and sit on a bench when you are relaxing in the park.

From time to time, a child passed by, holding a fluorescent stick, and it was so lively that it gave Nian Xiaofu a headache and a severe stomachache. He lowered his head and bent his body, tears bursting like a bank, and he couldn't remember the time when he cried, just My eyes were so sore and I was so tired that I went to the hotel and fell asleep exhausted, like a long dream.

At noon, I was so hungry that I woke up. After taking a bath, I was so hungry that my eyes were so dizzy that I even walked lightly. I looked around and went to a random shop. It seemed that the way I was eating was a bit scary. The boss He insisted on bringing a piece of barbecued pork buns himself, and Nian Xiaofu stopped when his stomach was a little full.

She paid the money, checked out the room, and walked casually with no purpose. When passing by the fruit stand, she bought some of her favorite fruits. She planned to have someone send them there. After all, maybe she didn't want to see herself at all.

But still hesitating, still thinking, it’s okay to go to see her again, walked uneasy, when she quietly pushed the door open, a group of doctors surrounded her bed, frightened Nian Xiaofu's whole body was cold, I don't know what Xiao Mi is Appeared from time to time, grabbed his wrist, pulled it hard, and left the ward, watching angrily.

Regardless of Xiao Mi's thoughts, Nian Xiaofu just wants to know her, is it okay?But she didn't dare to ask, Xiao Mi suddenly pushed her with one hand, slammed into the wall, and said, "Damn you!"

"Yesterday, why didn't you answer the phone?"

"Do you know that yesterday she was worried that you were outside alone, and in order to find you, she didn't care about her own body at all. You can imagine that she was still outside at one or two o'clock in the morning when she was seriously ill, like Is a lunatic looking for you in the streets and alleys?"

"You don't even know how bad her complexion is, don't you know her health? The doctor even said that she is very lucky to be in such a physical condition until now."

Xiao Mi's eyes were terribly red and swollen. Even though she pushed hard with her hands, Nian Xiaofu was already numb after being hit, but her heart seemed to be hollowed out, and every slight movement could cause endless pain there.

After two full days, she had been suffering from repeated fevers, but she finally passed the dangerous period safely. The doctor said that she should wake up in the next few days. Xiao Mi leaned against the wall tiredly, and walked out of the ward After a while, when he came in again, there was a faint smell of smoke on his body.

When I took out my phone, I realized that the phone had already run out of battery.I bought a power bank, and when I turned on the phone, the series of familiar numbers made Nian Xiaofu feel pulled up.Scrolling down is Li Ling and Xiao Ran's, and there are many messages. Then I realized that today is not a holiday. When I left the ward, I called to ask for leave, and returned the message to Li Ling. I didn't say anything about her, but just said It was inconvenient for the time being, so I went back to Xiao Ran's, and then entered the ward.

As if staring at the hanging water bottle she hung in a daze, it was flowing drop by drop, Nian Xiaofu switched feet and stood when he was tired from standing, Xiao Mi sat on the chair on the left, staring at her in a daze .

In the evening, Nian Xiaofu hadn't eaten all day and felt dizzy. She went out to buy something to eat, and when she returned to the ward, she was already awake.Pushing the half-open door, Nian Xiaofu was frightened. He lowered his head and didn't dare to look at her expression, afraid of seeing her indifferent ignorance, afraid of her direct rejection, and even more afraid of her saying that she wanted to leave by herself.

I couldn't see her expression and couldn't hear her voice, but I heard Xiao Mi's voice, asking her what she wanted to eat, or if she was uncomfortable there?She didn't answer, and Xiao Mi didn't say anything more, except for the sound of the instrument, there was only the sound of breathing.There was a knock on the door, Xiao Mi stood up, approached, opened the door, took the box, handed it over, and whispered, "Let her drink some."

The door was closed quietly, carrying the box, stunned for a long time, Nian Xiaofu dared to come closer, sat on the chair, she just looked at it like this, did not speak, her chapped lips were as fragile as It was about to tear apart, and it was very obvious under the light. Looking at the cotton swab next to it, she mustered up her courage and sat on the edge of the bed. Holding the cotton swab, she carefully slid it over her lips. She didn't The other reactions are just to watch, neither to avoid nor to refuse.

Touching the somewhat warm porridge, he opened it carefully and said, "Let's eat something."

I didn't look into her eyes, didn't hear her objection anymore, felt a little relieved, raised the height of the hospital bed so that she could eat, and carefully approached her mouth with a spoon, she didn't open her mouth, Nian Xiaofu She thought she was refusing, trying to hide her emotions as much as possible, but she opened her mouth again and let her drink carefully. Although she drank a small amount at a time, she still drank a small part. After she shook her head slightly Finally, Nian Xiaofu put away the spoon and wiped the corner of her mouth with a tissue.

At this time, her stomach suddenly gurgled, and she probably heard it too. Nian Xiaofu looked at the instant noodles she bought and thought, let's wait until she falls asleep before eating.When I glanced at her occasionally, she was always awake. After a while, my stomach was so hungry that I felt dizzy. When I peeked at her, she seemed to be asleep. I just stood up. She opened her eyes and said, "Where are you going?"

Nian Xiaofu faltered, touched his stomach subconsciously, and said, "I'll go out for a while, and I'll be back later."

"Don't go."

Looking at her in surprise, Nian Xiaofu looked at the instant noodles on the side, and sat down obediently.She just looked at it like this and didn't speak. For a while, Nian Xiaofu thought she was asleep again, but she raised her hand, pointed to the underside of the cabinet next to her, and said, "There are rice noodles and a small pot inside."

When she took it out in a daze, she realized that she should eat it for herself.Open the package of rice noodles, pour water, and after a while, the water came splashing, put in the ingredients, it smelled very fragrant, my stomach was growling, and I took the chopsticks and a small bowl to see that she was not asleep. Tentatively ask "Do you want to eat something?"

"Need not."

"Oh fine."

The taste is very good, and the weather is not too cold. The Nian Xiaofu is a little sweaty. After eating, wash it and put it back in the cabinet.She just watched like this all the time, and didn't speak, and Nian Xiaofu didn't dare to speak, but she was easily sleepy when she was full, so she yawned several times and rubbed her eyes.

She suddenly said, "I thought maybe you would come here after I died."

Looking back at her, she was very calm, as if she was talking about something she just ate. Nian Xiaofu lowered his head, not knowing what to say to her.

Immediately afterwards, she said, "Are you happy to leave me?"

"If, you are happy, then we will, never see each other again."

Hearing what she said, Nian Xiaofu became anxious and didn't know what to say. Nian Xiaofu didn't want to be like her, not at all.

With her head lowered, the more she thought about it, the more sad she became, tears dripping down the bridge of her nose quickly onto the white sheet, she shook her head violently, and there was a choked up sound.

But she sat up, raised her hands to hold her face, wiped it lightly, very lightly, was held by her hand, and pressed against her cheek, because she was crying too fast and her breathing was not smooth, she raised her face. She started to pat her back, as if she heard her softly say again, "Tell me, if you don't want to leave me, I will forgive you."

Nodding eagerly, she distanced herself, smiled, bent her mouth, and wiped her tears with her hand, but the next second, Nian Xiaofu shook her head again, her raised hand suddenly fell on the quilt, she Leaning helplessly, even unwilling to look,

Nian Xiaofu hurriedly grabbed her hand, eager to tell her, but his stomach hurt badly, his breathing was not smooth, his head became dizzy, and then his body lost his center of gravity in a daze, and his eyes turned away from her face. The white ceiling gradually became blurred, and there was a buzzing in her ears, as if she heard her crying, tears falling on her face, but Nian Xiaofu was so tired, she really had no energy left.