Girlfriend addicted to unrequited love (gl)

I came to this speech contest at first because of Huang Sunmi's invitation.

At that time, Huang Sunmi handed the flyer of the competition under her nose, interrupting the chemical formula she had written in half. She casually scanned the list of contestants, but saw the name 'Lu Man', which she looked familiar with.

Since Lu Man is going to compete, Jiang Yujie, who is Lu Man's friend, should also watch it, right?So, if she also goes to the scene, will she have a chance to meet Jiang Yujie?

Huang Sunmei could easily see her full of sorrow, and couldn't help the other party's concern and inquiries, so she told Huang Sunmei what was in her heart.

And now -

Almost at a glance, she recognized Jiang Yujie who was sitting in the middle of the auditorium. Her heart, which was already beating a little fast, immediately ran uncontrollably in her chest like a wild horse, hitting her chest with pain. pain.

Of course, Huang Shanmei, who also saw Jiang Yujie, grabbed her by the corner of her clothes: "Hey, your ex-girlfriend is really there, don't you have to find her for something? Come on, be brave."

"Ah."

Taking a deep breath, Yan Ziqiao raised her head and chest, and strode up the steps of the auditorium. There were some words that she had to explain to Jiang Yujie no matter what.

But even though she made up her mind, the moment she met Jiang Yujie's eyes, she still felt flustered in her heart.

No, I can't escape anymore, if this goes on, there will never be any change between them.Even if Jiang Yujie is unwilling to accept herself again, she still has to try to take that step.

Sitting down directly behind Jiang Yujie, she clenched her fists.

I'm always in the mood of regret.Too many ifs, too many irreparable, too many regrets---

So, at least, this time, I don't want to let myself regret it.

"Yu Jiang Yujie, can you come with me?"

"Sister...what's the matter with you?"

Jiang Yujie, who couldn't bear Yan Ziqiao's fiery gaze at this distance where he could feel the other person's breath, looked away.

"Please, just one click, I really have something important to convey to you."

Unable to restrain his nervousness, Yan Ziqiao tightened his grip on Jiang Yujie's shoulder.On the shoulder, where Yan Ziqiao grabbed it, there was a dull pain. Jiang Yujie turned her head and looked at Lu Man: "Xiaoman..."

"Go now." Lu Man smiled lightly.

"Thank you, I will come back to watch your game as soon as possible."

Jiang Yujie turned and left.Lu Man stood there, her expression was as gentle as usual, as if the pain she couldn't cover up just now was just an illusion caused by light and shadow.

"When you say you have something to tell me, you mean... what?"

Yan Ziqiao led her through most of the auditorium and entered the balcony where there was no one else but them. Jiang Yujie stopped and stared at the back of her senior. I couldn't see Yan Ziqiao's expression.

"This...Jiang, Jiang Yujie, how have you been doing recently?"

Jiang Yujie didn't answer, just smiled wryly.

Hearing the bitterness in her laughter, Yan Ziqiao lowered his head, but still did not turn his face to her: "I know, because of my own willfulness, I asked you to date, and because of my own willfulness, I proposed to separate from you." , even up to this moment, I still found you out because of my unilateral desire to see you, so it is only natural for you to blame me."

I won't blame you, after all, I was willing to promise you at the beginning.Obviously, she should have answered Yan Ziqiao in this way, but her mind was completely entwined by the senior sister's sentence "Because I want to see you".

Why did the senior sister still want to see herself after she told her senior sister that she liked her?

"Do you remember? Yu Jie, a long time ago, at the back of the student cafeteria, when I confessed to you, I told you that I couldn't believe that someone with a 'like' could still be gentle."

"I remember, of course I remember." Jiang Yujie intertwined her ten fingers tightly, "That's why I feel confused, why do you want to see me, I still can't forget you, I still like you, there is no doubt, yes The kind of person you hate the most?"

Hearing her words, Yan Ziqiao suddenly turned around: "That's right, I did say that I was afraid of 'people who like me', in fact, until now, I haven't changed my mind, for 'people who like me' ’, I’m still terrified.”

Yan Ziqiao took a step forward and took her hand.To Jiang Yujie's surprise, her senior's face was as brightly red as her own.

"But, Yu Jie, I know that you will never hurt me no matter what -- whether your feelings for me are love or other things. Because of your existence and because of your tenderness, I am willing to believe in love again ,I……"

Yan Ziqiao's voice was trembling, and even Jiang Yujie could easily detect the tension in her tone.

Staring at her hands intertwined with Yan Ziqiao, Jiang Yujie said hoarsely: "I agreed to your confession at the beginning not because I was gentle, but because I longed to be loved; the reason I was gentle to you , not because I am kind, but because I feel guilty towards you, that is to say, the me you see in your eyes is not the real me at all. Don’t you think that our beginning was a mistake? "

"Perhaps as you said, your tenderness is just to make up for the guilt in your heart, but the fact that these hands once warmed me will not change because of this. Even if it was wrong at the beginning, so what? Is it wrong? Is it impossible to have a correct future from the beginning?"

Yan Ziqiao was facing the light, and her hair, which was slightly brown before, was dancing with fiery red colors under the afterglow of the setting sun.

"In the past, I loved the perfect you, but now, even after knowing that you are not the person I imagined, I still want to be with you, and I want to try to embrace the real person in front of me. You, I... still love you."

Yan Ziqiao didn't cry when she said these words, even though the sparkling eyes turned in her eyes, she still didn't let it fall down, but used the greatest courage in her life to hold Jiang Yujie's hand firmly, waiting for the other party's respond.

Advocating to smear every corner frantically with the orange-colored setting sun, the paint-spattered handrails on the balcony, and the whispers from the lecture hall outside the door, all of these make Jiang Yujie feel as unreal as if she is in a dream. What she felt on the back of her hand, the temperature of her senior sister's hand, reminded her that this was not an illusion but the fact that it was actually happening now.

So, she hugged Yan Ziqiao.

"After knowing what a strong character I am in your eyes, I tried my best to hide my fragility. I was afraid that if the truth under the perfect mask was exposed, you would leave me. Almost everyone said I was very gentle , but only I know that what they see is just an illusion I pretended,

"Senior sister, you are the first person to see my real side, not only that, you even said something like 'no matter who I am, you want to try to hug', such a cunning Senior sister, how can I stop liking you?"

As they could only feel each other's warmth, they hugged each other tightly. After a long time, they heard Yan Ziqiao whisper: "...Yu Jie, what do you mean, we can continue to be together?"

"Yeah." Jiang Yujie reached out and poked Yan Ziqiao's face, tears fell uncontrollably, "Isn't this natural?"

Yan Ziqiao smiled brightly.

We have a lot in common, we are all confused about love, we are all afraid of loneliness, and we are all bound by loneliness.

But at least this time, let us try to move forward hand in hand, and the warmth generated by embracing each other will definitely overcome other coldness.

Then---

"Sister, I actually promised someone else one thing..."

Stepping quickly, they rushed back to their seats in the auditorium. Cao Jingxuan turned her head after hearing their footsteps: "Hey, where were you just now? It's Lu's turn soon---wow!"

Seeing Yan Ziqiao who was holding hands with Jiang Yujie, Cao Jingxuan yelled reflexively, and Jiang Yujie quickly covered her mouth: "Xiaoman hasn't played yet, right? That's great, luckily I caught up, I promised she would definitely Watch her play."

Cao Jingxuan broke free from Jiang Yujie's hand, and stammered, "Wait a minute, you two are ---?

"We got back together." Jiang Yujie blushed and shyly changed the subject, "Jing Xuan, you are the one, did Zeng Lixin ask you to go out just now for something?"

"I just wanted to talk to her about the book club." Before Cao Jingxuan could reply from the shock, Zeng Lixin happened to appear and answered the question for her.

Jiang Yujie was about to ask what the reading session was, when the contestants on the stage just finished his speech, and when it was Lu Man's turn to take the stage, Jiang Yujie quickly silenced and pulled Yan Ziqiao to sit down.

Narrowing his eyes slightly because of the scorching spotlight, Lu Man stepped onto the center of the stage.

Compared with the brightness of the stage, the auditorium was pitch black, but this did not prevent Lu Man from recognizing Yan Ziqiao sitting next to Jiang Yujie.

Unexpectedly, her heart was quite peaceful, and she could still open her mouth to recite the new poem she had memorized as usual: "Under the moonlight, the vines are full of dreams that are about to bear fruit..."

In fact, she had already figured it out when she saw Yan Ziqiao calling Jiang Yujie out just now. At that time, the full attachment in the eyes of the two of them looking at each other, even an outsider like her could see it at a glance.

Outsider, the word hurt her heart.That's right, for Jiang Yujie, she is always just a friend, and a friend is an outsider after all.

"...Even though it's far away, it's still so dazzling that people long to pursue it..."

She withdrew her gaze that was still attached to Jiang Yujie, and continued to recite the poems written by herself in a tone that had been practiced repeatedly.

"...jumping vigorously, reaching out to pick off the fruit of the dream on the pergola..."

People call things that cannot be reversed no matter how hard they try, for example, love, isn't that the case?

She finally understood the meaning of what Jiang Yujie said at that time.

Even without Yan Ziqiao, it was still impossible for Jiang Yujie to fall in love with her, but because she knew it was impossible, she was even more eager to have the possibility of touching him, even though she knew that all her efforts would be in vain...

"...Dreams that are destined not to belong to me, have withered before they can be touched..."

Will she be able to let go when all hope is gone?

I---

"...Let it fall quietly, let it drift with the wind, this doomed dream."

Applause rang out from the audience. From the beginning to the end of the speech, Lu Man was smiling all the time, as if laughing at himself, and as if confiding his decision, drawing a picture for the doomed unrequited love. Poignant, bleak ending.

Looking at the smile on Lu Man's face, Jiang Yujie even forgot to applaud.

It was as if she was saying goodbye to herself, Lu Man's eyes, until the figure of the other party was hidden behind the curtain leading to the backstage, she still couldn't forget it.

Zeng Lixin said appreciatively: "Lu Man is really good, I think she is better than the previous contestants."

"Actually, I was worried that her mood would be affected because of... something happened temporarily, but it's great. It seems that she is doing very well."

As Cao Jingxuan was talking, a text message reminder suddenly appeared on the screen of her mobile phone. After reading the content of the message, Cao Jingxuan was stunned for a moment, and then hurriedly got up: "Lu Man has something to do with me, I'm going out first."

Jiang Yujie also stood up: "What happened?"

Cao Jingxuan hesitated for a moment: "Uh, it's her...something happened, you just reconciled with your girlfriend, now just stay with senior sister, I'll go first."

Without giving Jiang Yujie a chance to ask any more questions, Cao Jingxuan quickly ran down the auditorium and towards the back of the stage.Jiang Yujie, who was too late to keep up, could only stay in the auditorium with Yan Ziqiao, Huang Shanmei, and Zeng Lixin.

Seeing Jiang Yujie's dejected expression, Zeng Lixin scratched the back of her neck and decided to divert her attention by bringing up other topics: "The mid-term exam is coming soon, I was discussing with Jing Xuan just now, and I want to hold a book club in the department. From next Monday night until the final exam, I will study in the library for two consecutive nights, do you want to come to participate?"

"Reading club? Well, except for Monday night when I have a part-time job, I can do it any other time."

Feeling that her senior sister's hand holding her arm was obviously tightened, Jiang Yujie peeked, and found that Yan Ziqiao's expression immediately became somewhat depressed when she heard that she agreed to Zeng Lixin's invitation. Why is my sister unhappy, so she said to Zeng Lixin:

"Ban Dai, can I ask you one thing? Reading club, can my girlfriend also join? Although my sister is a student from another department, she has good grades in subjects such as Chinese, maybe It can still help."

"what?"

Yan Ziqiao stared at Jiang Yujie's face in surprise, and Jiang Yujie smiled back at her.Zeng Lixin replied: "Of course it's okay for the senior sister to come. You are welcome."

"Sister, can you?" Jiang Yujie turned to look at Yan Ziqiao.

"Why did it suddenly—?"

"I think you, senior, don't seem too happy about my going to the study club. I narcissistically guessed that you, senior, are unhappy because you don't want to spend less time with me. Haha, I would be wrong. It would be embarrassing, sorry--"

"You are not mistaken!"

Yan Ziqiao suddenly let go of her hand and jumped up from her seat. Fortunately, the last contestant had just finished his speech and retreated from the stage, and many audience members also got up and left their seats, so she did not become the focus of the audience .

"I really hope that I can spend more time with you, Yu Jie, you can always easily detect whether I am in a good or bad mood, I really--" Yan Ziqiao was so excited that her face flushed and her feet moved Staring, she flew into Jiang Yujie's arms.

While Jiang Yujie was worried that her senior would accidentally fall down, she was also worried that Huang Sunmei in the back row would be sad seeing them being so intimate.

Seeing Jiang Yujie who cared so much about her own feelings, Huang Shanmei gave a 'pooh' smile, leaned forward, and whispered in a voice that only Jiang Yujie could hear: "Oh, so you also know about my confession to Ziqiao. About This, don't worry, from the moment I was rejected by her, I have completely given up the possibility of becoming a lover with her, so although I am still a little sad, I will not be jealous of you."

After finishing speaking, she still didn't forget to reach out and pat Jiang Yujie's head: "You care so much about the feelings of unfamiliar people. I seem to understand why Ziqiao likes you when you are so gentle."

"Sister Shanmei..."

"Hey, what are you two whispering behind my back?" Yan Ziqiao, who was not willing to be left out, protested angrily.

"It's nothing." Huang Shanmei and Jiang Yujie said in unison.

Following the crowd that was leaving, they walked down the steps of the auditorium. Yan Ziqiao hugged Jiang Yujie's waist tightly and murmured: "It's like a dream, to be able to walk with you like in the past. Now, this time, I will never let you go again. In this life, I don't want to be separated from you.

There was warmth in her heart, as if the setting sun outside had once again illuminated her heart.Jiang Yujie hugged Yan Ziqiao back, and whispered in her senior sister's ear:

"Me too."