The down-and-out princess has a backer

When the face and voice of that person appeared in her world so clearly, what Suining felt was not a sense of reality, but a kind of specious nothingness, her hands and feet were cold, and she didn't even know whether everything in front of her was real or not It's all her imagination, or it's just an illusion.

Maybe she is still in the Qingyuan Palace, everything is just her false fantasy, she fantasizes that she met a Qingjin, fantasizes that Qingjin is willing to stand behind her to support her, everything is her own conjecture , She was not so lucky, she was imprisoned for ten years, and she didn't wait for that person in ten years, because her obsession was too heavy, so she had this fantasy.

She listened to Qing Jin's voice, listened to their conversation, she could see the expression on the man's face, saw his approval of Qing Jin, and what he said, many, many, in front of her eyes like a lantern, Suining Unable to confirm what is real and what is fake, she looks like everything is real now, but it feels like everything is fake, there is no place for nothing, and someone pinched her arm.

It was only then that Suining noticed that Xiaoya was beside her, Xiaoya looked at her with worry in her eyes, Suining showed her a smiling face, although it was a bit reluctant, this was the only thing she could do.

Emperor Chu Zhao was also very moved by the old paintings that Qing Jin took out, and the two of them talked a lot, most of which were said by Emperor Chu Zhao, Qing Jin occasionally matched two sentences, and sat for about half an hour on Qing Jin's side There was something to be busy, and it was inconvenient for Emperor Chu Zhao to stay for a long time, so he was about to leave. Qing Jin sent him out all the way, and when he turned back, Suining was nowhere to be seen.

He frowned and asked Xiaoya: "Where is she?"

"Miss Aning said to go back and rest first." Xiaoya told Qingjin about Suining's strangeness before, and then she was a little worried: "My lord, Miss Aning seems to be very concerned, I'm afraid it will be difficult to solve."

"You go to work first, I'll go and see her." Qing Jin confessed: "Let the kitchen make something she likes to eat in the evening."

Suining's reaction like this was also within Qing Jin's expectations. Only when she had given her affection before would she be unable to face it. If she really didn't react at all, then Qing Jin would really feel chilled.She sighed silently, no matter what Suining said, whether she hated or complained, that man was her father after all, before that incident, they had a very good parent-child time, the affection that was given was the result of receiving If she didn't come back, and she was imprisoned for another ten years, normal people would have psychological problems in that closed environment, not to mention that she had been so stimulated.

Qing Jin knew that she had a wound in her heart, the wound was deep, and she hid it well after the baptism of time, but this does not mean that the wound was healed, not only did it not heal, but it became more serious, day by day Fester, and one day it will kill her.

rule?Then you have to tear off all the meat that has grown on the wound, and then take out the rotten meat inside, which is so heart-wrenching, and then let time heal slowly, and it is even very likely that it will not heal for a lifetime , The scars left are not only ugly, but also painful every time it is cloudy and rainy, reminding you all the time where you have been injured, it is painful.

Is it dead?The injury was inside, and everything looked fine on the outside, but the inside had been rotting away for a long time, and it became unrecognizable in the end.

No matter which one it is, Qing Jin is not willing to do it. She hopes to reduce the harm to Suining and heal the wound in her heart with the gentlest method, but she also knows that that person will not It's her, she is a dagger to Suining, this dagger can cut through the skin that has grown in Suining's heart at any time, exposing the inner wound.

She was unwilling, so she turned the blade of the dagger towards herself.

Qing Jin pushed open the door, the light in the room was a little dim, and there was no sign of Suining, but the gauze curtain on the bed was lowered, and a vague bulge could be vaguely seen inside. Swollen, Qing Jin sat on the edge of the bed and pulled the quilt with her hands, but unfortunately she was dragged back by the people inside.

"Ah Ning, it's me."

Suining inside still didn't respond, but the quilt moved slightly, wrapping himself more tightly, Qingjin put his hand on the quilt, felt the movement of the people inside, and said softly: "You will be in it if you stay inside." It's boring, come out, it's okay, didn't you say you want me to accompany you? I'm here, don't you want to come out and see me?"

Suining clutched the quilt and said after a while: "You go back, I don't want to see you now."

The voice was muffled, even through the quilt, Qing Jin couldn't tell if she was crying again, or was she sad or scared?

"You open the quilt, can we talk?" Qing Jin gently tugged on the quilt without using much strength, just wanted to tell the people inside that she was waiting outside.

"I don't want to talk, I'm tired, I want to sleep."

"Then you can't sleep like this." Qing Jin pulled the quilt to let the air flow in: "It will be stuffy, how about some air?"

"No!" Suining was very anxious, pressed the little gap and covered it tightly: "The wind is blowing in, it's very cold, I won't feel cold if I cover it, you go, don't worry about me. "

The room is not cold, on the contrary it is very warm, why does she feel cold?Qing Jin lowered her eyes, clenched her hands and then let go, and said after a while: "I asked someone to turn on the stove again, and now the room is very warm, very warm, not cold at all, I'm sweating, you Do you feel it? Touch your forehead, is there any sweat?"

She was afraid that Suining would not be sober at the moment. Before seeing her, Qingjin's heart was always on the back of her mind. Even her words had to be carefully considered, for fear that she would touch something that could not be touched, not only her tone, but also her words. Even the limbs are carefully.

The person in the quilt didn't answer, Qing Jin was a little anxious, and asked her again: "A Ning, are you okay?"

"Qingjin, I'm fine, let's go, I want to rest for a while." It sounds like everything is normal, but Qingjin still can't let go of her heart: "Come out and let me have a look, if you're sure I'm fine, I'll go, no Disturbing your rest. Okay?"

After waiting for a while, the person in the quilt didn't respond to her. Qing Jin was hard-hearted, and lifted the quilt a little bit by herself. She was afraid that Suining would act too aggressively, but she didn't, until the quilt was opened , Suining didn't respond at all, curled up in a small ball on the bed, hugged himself tightly, his complexion was a bit unwell, and his lips were pale.

Qing Jin wanted to feel her pulse, but her hands were clasped tightly in front of her chest, in a protective gesture, Qing Jin couldn't touch her, but could only touch her forehead, feeling a little hot.

"I feel cold, Qingjin, can you hug me?"

Qing Jin went to bed, leaned against her, hugged her in her arms, then covered her with a quilt, and patted her through the quilt: "It's not cold anymore, it's a little hot, just sleep well."

"Didn't you say you're sleepy? I'm here with you, go to sleep, and you'll be fine when you wake up."

Suining moved closer to Qing Jin, then slowly slipped into Qing Jin's arms, found a comfortable position to nest inside, and asked, "Then will you always, always be with me?"

"Will do."

Suining stopped talking, Qing Jin thought she was tired, raised her hand and put down the gauze curtain, then saw the person in her arms opened her eyes, but not asleep, seeing Qing Jin looking at her, she hastily closed her eyes again, and put Qing Jin hugged her tightly, as if she was afraid of something, Qing Jin had no choice but to hug her back with the same strength, and then said: "Don't worry, I will always be with you, as long as you need, I will always be there for you." All by your side."

"Am I, won't you dislike me?" Suining pulled Qing Jin's belt and twirled it in his hand: "I don't know why, I can't control myself, is that a disease? I will become a A monster? I don't want to become a monster, Qing Jin, I'm afraid, what if I become a monster? Will you not want me? Will you drive me away?"

"No, no." Qing Jin spoke to her in the most gentle tone: "You are normal, not a monster, just have a fever, you can feel it yourself, sick people are more fragile, don't think too much, okay? ?”

She put her forehead against Suining's, and then asked her: "Is that right? Do you think my forehead is a little cooler? You are hotter than me, right? It's just a fever, and you'll be fine after you sleep. fine."

"Is it just a fever?" Suining repeated Qing Jin's words, seeing that Qing Jin nodded in affirmation, then hugged Qing Jin's neck tightly, and did not speak again.

Before leaving the Qingyuan Hall, Suining never felt that there was something wrong with her. There was only herself in the Qingyuan Hall, and she didn't need to see other people. When she felt cold, she would naturally wrap herself in a warm blanket In the quilt, sometimes wrapped up for a while, sometimes wrapped up for a day and night, sometimes not remembering the time, she didn't think there was anything wrong with it, she just needed a quiet space, that's all.

When Xiaoya came to help her, Suining knew that something was wrong, she wanted to find a place to hide herself, there was no one, no one, and there was a burst of cold air on the soles of her feet, obviously the room was very warm for her But like an ice cave, she shivered from the cold, she didn't want to be in contact with anyone, their breathing made her feel uncomfortable, their voices made her feel harsh, everything was infinitely magnified, and it was noisy in her ears , constantly pulling her, tearing her, gnawing at her bones and blood, it was a feeling that there was no escape.

Suining knew that this was not right, she was afraid of the crowd, she felt panic, afraid of trembling, her limbs were cold, and even nauseated, she wanted to find a safe place to hide herself, even at that moment, she hoped to be able to Go back to Qingyuan Hall, hide in that secluded place, no one can find her.

Then came Qing Jin's voice.

Very light and soft, even in that situation, she could hear the caution in Qingjin's tone, as if she was afraid of shocking her, the soft tone was different from her usual coldness, Qingjin was Worried about her, that kind of worry was directly conveyed to Suining's heart, she could feel Qing Jin's aura, and the feeling of anxiety in her heart did not decrease, but after Qing Jin came over, that kind of fear and uneasiness disappeared little by little, and then disappeared. up.

Those noisy tugging and tugging disappeared, and she was safe hiding under the quilt, because Qing Jin was guarding her outside.

But even so, Suining was unwilling to come out to see Qing Jin, she felt like she was like this, there was no way to see Qing Jin, she was afraid that Qing Jin would despise her, like a neurotic monster.

But she didn't want Qingjin to leave, even though she said to let Qingjin go, she still hoped that she could stay in her heart, she longed for Qingjin's care, she wanted to draw warmth from Qingjin, she was afraid that Qingjin would Really left, that moment of silence was a great torment for her, she almost thought that Qing Jin had really left, that she was the only one left, but Qing Jin didn't leave, and pulled her away little by little. After saving her, she would still feel cold, but when leaning against Qing Jin, the cold was not so terrible, it was just an ordinary fever.

Qing Jin just hugged her and slept all night without letting go of her hand. When she woke up the next day, half of her arm was so sore that she couldn't move at all. Suining didn't notice it at first, because Qing Jin's expression was very natural, there was nothing wrong with it, until she saw Qing Jin slowly lift the quilt with one hand, Suining realized something was wrong.

"Did I crush you?" Qing Jin almost wanted to say, didn't you crush me, you crushed me all night, unfortunately, looking at the guilt still in Suining's eyes, Instead, he went to comfort her: "It's okay, it's just a little numb."

"I'll rub it for you." Then, without waiting for Qingjin's reaction, she knelt down on the bed and began to help Qingjin pinch Qingjin's arm seriously with a small face. I feel warm in my heart, and the spring breeze blows away the little awkwardness in my heart.

She's like this, it's really good, so good that Qing Jin can't bear to part with it, if there were no all kinds of things lying between them, would she just hold this person in her arms and never let go?

The answer is already in her heart, but Qing Jin can only hold back those thoughts that she shouldn't have. It is not something she can expect. If she really takes that step, it will be a greater harm to Suining. I am still ignorant right now, even if I really know the ins and outs of the matter in the future, when I hate myself and blame myself, it will not be more painful.

"Qing Jin." While holding Qing Jin's arm, Suining looked at Qing Jin's expression, she felt that Qing Jin seemed to be in a bad mood.

Actually it's not, just now Qingjin's mood was normal, just when she was pinching her arm, Qingjin was unhappy, Suining was a little concerned about this, she was afraid that Qingjin was because of her Not happy.

"what happened?"

She called out but didn't speak for a long time, Qing Jin was a little confused, went to see Suining, and then saw that the girl lowered her eyes, seemed a little unhappy, and thought she was worried about yesterday, so she took the initiative to raise the issue. Said: "Take your time, it's not for you to accept it all at once, we just made a plan in advance, so that when you really have to face him, you will be in a hurry and feel uncomfortable."

"Yeah." Suining agreed, biting his lower lip lightly, and asked again: "Are you unhappy? I was very poor yesterday, did I let you down?"

"Why do you think so?" Qing Jin turned her face to look at her: "It's nothing, but you still have to be mentally prepared. Yesterday's effect was not very good. We all know that we don't have much time left. Maybe There will be a few more meetings like this, you have to adjust your state."

Seeing that Suining was still the same after speaking, he added another sentence: "I'm not unhappy, don't think too much about it."

"You're obviously unhappy." Suining said seriously, "I can tell, if it wasn't because of what happened yesterday, then tell me why you were fine just now, and nothing happened in between, and suddenly you Are you unhappy? Isn’t it because you think of yesterday? You don’t have to hide it from me, it’s not necessary, I didn’t do a good job, you can reprimand me, it doesn’t matter if you scold me, I know you are doing it for me.”

"If you scold me, I won't be angry." Pulling Qing Jin's sleeves, his tone was very serious: "I mean it, as long as you don't get upset, I'm fine."

Qing Jin was at a loss for words for a moment, and she never expected that Suining could be so sensitive, and could detect the activities in her heart so quickly, feel the changes in her emotions, so that Qing Jin didn't know how to answer her for a while, she really It's very clever, Qing Jin hesitated for a moment, and found an excuse: "It has nothing to do with you, it's a matter of the court."

"Don't lie to me, what's going on in the court." Suining was relentless: "Everyone knows that the high priest has never been involved with the political parties in the court. What is in the court that can make you so worried?"

"What are you talking about?" Qing Jin had no choice but to take Suining's hand. The body language and movements were to prevent Suining from maintaining such tension and let Suining relax, so that she could follow suit. She said slowly: "It used to be the past, but now it's different. Others don't know, so don't you?"

"What do I know?" Suining was really at a loss for a moment: "You are for me?"

Then I immediately remembered what Xiaoya had accidentally told her. It was the time Qingjin went out to give alms. Originally, she said she would go out for several days, but she came back after only going for a day. After a while, Qingjin They were all very busy. Suining couldn't find anyone a few times, so he asked Xiaoya what Qingjin was busy with. At that time, Xiaoya accidentally told her that it was because of the charity. Qingjin discovered that the eldest prince might be corrupt. So I have been busy with that matter, so I have no time.

Thinking about it now, it is indeed very problematic.

She was a little anxious: "Is it still related to the princes?"

Qing Jin seriously flashed a trace of fierceness, and squeezed Suining's hand even harder: "Who told you?!"

"Don't get excited, it really has something to do with the princes, right?"

"Xiaoya told you?"

Suining was a little flustered, he didn't understand why Qing Jin took this matter so seriously, and obviously didn't want her to know, but she already knew.

"It hurts." Suining embroidered eyebrows, and her mind was spinning rapidly. Since she already knew, she couldn't even touch Xiaoya. Xiaoya has been by Qingjin's side, not only loyal, but also very helpful to Qingjin. Helper, many things are handled by Xiaoya, if because of this, there is a rift between the two of them, it will not be a good thing for Qingjin.

"You let go first, okay?" Suining said in a pitiful tone, lowering his head and looking uncomfortable looking at Qingjin, "Don't blame sister Xiaoya, she didn't know, I set her up I introduced it myself. Before you were busy and didn’t come to see me, so I asked Sister Xiaoya what you were doing, and you didn’t tell her not to reveal your whereabouts to me, did you? Sister Xiaoya was afraid I was worried, so I said it, and I just figured it out on my own."

After finishing speaking, he looked up at Qing Jin cautiously: "So, is it really related to the princes? Why is my matter related to the princes?"

This time Suining really didn't understand.Logically, she is just a princess. In fact, the biggest obstacle in front of her is the emperor himself, and the remaining small obstacles are those princesses or concubines in Suiyang, which really have nothing to do with the princes.

"Do you still remember why you were locked up?" Qing Jin didn't answer her question directly, but threw another question to her.

"Because I was born at the wrong time, I am an ominous person."

She really didn't know.Qing Jin quietly breathed a sigh of relief, the question just now was just a test, when Suining was locked up, he was already quite old, and he should remember things at the age of six or seven, but remembering things does not mean he is sensible, Qing Jin boldly It is speculated that Emperor Chu Zhao would not tell them the truth, so it is very likely that Suining does not know the real reason why she will be locked up, or that it is the reason why Emperor Chu Zhao must kill her, she does not know of.

"You are not an ominous person." Qing Jin endured the pain like a needle in her heart, and smiled slightly: "You are the most honorable princess in the world. But before that, we need some helpers, and those two princes can help us. "

"How to help?" Suining didn't understand.

Qing Jin: "That's too complicated, you don't need to know. The word unknown, never mention it again, remember?"

Suining was still a little ignorant, but hearing the meaning of Qing Jin's words, he could only nod blankly.She could tell that Qing Jin was very concerned about her identity, especially when she said those two words, the expression on Qing Jin's face was stiff for a moment, not obvious, but Suining noticed it.

"I see, I'll listen to you." He smiled sweetly at Qing Jin, then reached out and pressed Qing Jin's eyebrows: "Don't be unhappy, if you have any troubles in the future, tell me , I can bear it with you, okay?"

"There is nothing to worry about, I just hope you can be well." Qing Jin held Suining's hand: "Promise me, you will be well in the future, as long as you are happy, then everything I do is worth it .”

"Qing Jin." For a moment Suining didn't know how to answer Qing Jin's words.

"You are really good to me, so good that I feel unreal." Suining whispered next to Qing Jin, "How should I repay you?"

"You do not need."

Qing Jin's gaze was gloomy, and it took a long time before she sighed in a low voice, she only hoped that when Suining understood everything in the future, she could see what she had done today and give her a chance.