ABO diurnal boundary

After a long while of dead silence, Qin Shen still chose to turn on the light.

The light dispelled the darkness and allowed him to fully see the crime he had committed: the Omega who was forced to perform the marking act was disheveled, lying in place motionless, with fresh bite marks on the back of his neck.

The scene in front of him gradually overlapped with the nightmare-like scene buried deep in his memory.

Unhealed wounds, old ones piled up with new ones, circle after circle, shocking, like annual rings carved by sin.

Qin Shen didn't allow himself to escape from him. If he escaped, he would not even be as good as that man.

"It's useless to say I'm sorry." He pressed a number on the screen of his phone and put it in front of Xie Jingchi, "Do you want to call the police?"

Everything seemed to repeat Xie Jingchi's birthday, but this time the person who hurt Xie Jingchi was replaced by him.

The rationality of returning to the cage put his little conscience on the fire, and he carefully observed Xie Jingchi's every move, "If you want, just nod, I will help you."

This sentence was like a switch, a layer of bright water mist appeared in Xie Jingchi's dull eyes, and the mist accumulated more and more until it shattered.

He didn't say yes or no, tears rolled down from his eyes and flowed down his black temples into his hair, leaving behind wet traces.

As if feeling that the tears were getting in the way, Xie Jingchi raised his hand to wipe it off, but the emotions that were on the verge of collapse were like a flood bursting a bank, how could it be so easy to stop.

In the end he gave up these pointless attempts and wept like a collapse.

In order to keep quiet, he bit his lips till they bleed, and there were still broken whimpers and weeping sounds in his throat.

Seeing him crying out of control, Qin Shen really wanted to hold him in his arms, caress his trembling back, comfort him and kiss him to calm him down, but because he knew he was not qualified, he knew he shouldn't Touching even a strand of Xie Jingchi's hair again, in the end, he just silently handed him a wet towel.

Xie Jingchi didn't even look at him.He was breathing rapidly, his chest rising and falling rapidly.

Qin Shen frowned, "Slow down, or you will suffocate."

The dizziness caused by the lack of oxygen became more and more intense, Xie Jingchi knew that this was not going to work, so after thinking about it, he did the only thing he could do right now.

He lowered his head, bit his wrist hard, and forced himself to calm down with the pain.

"Don't bite yourself, bite me if you want to hate." There was obvious panic in Qin Shen's words, but Xie Jingchi didn't seem to hear it.

The thin layer of flesh was almost bitten by him, and the sharp pain came straight to his mind, which made him calm down strangely.

"Just bite me!"

Qin Shen repeated it again, he tried to replace the wrist that Xie Jingchi was biting with his own, but Xie Jingchi swung it away forcefully.

Qin Shen, who was rejected, was afraid that he would do something radical again, so he didn't dare to move again.

Xie Jingchi maintained this posture for a long time.As if he couldn't feel the pain, he bit his wrist with scars.

When his shoulders were no longer trembling, he said to Qin Shen the first words since that absurd affair just now.

"why?"

From a very young age, Xie Jingchi understood an easy-to-understand truth: if Xie Xuan cried, Fang Rujun, Xie Mingyao and even other servants in the family would feel sorry for them, but no one cared when he cried, so he needed Give up crying to get other people's attention.

Crying that cannot be exchanged for benefits is an act of weakness and cowardice, and it cannot solve any problems except shame.

Xie Mingyao used a contemptuous tone more than once to laugh at those Omegas who would die if they encountered a trivial matter.In Xie Mingyao's view, Omega is fragile, incompetent and emotional. There is no need for many things to collapse, but they are terrified as if the sky is about to fall.

Xie Jingchi hated Xie Mingyao and even hated everything about him. He refused to admit that Xie Mingyao was right, but was defeated by his own uselessness time and time again, just like at this moment, he obviously didn't want to cry at all, but he couldn't help it.

The container used to hold emotions in his body was overflowing, and the bitterness and grievance that had no place to rest ran around, and finally all turned into futile tears.

"Why?" Xie Jingchi licked his lips, tasting the bitterness of tears and the sweetness of blood at the same time.

Qin Shen didn't answer his question, maybe because he didn't know how to answer it, or maybe it wasn't necessary.

Xie Jingchi's breathing was still messy, but it was a little better than before, at least his cheeks would not turn red from being suppressed, "Why do I want to let go, but you act as if you care about me."

"I don't know."

Xie Jingchi accidentally choked and began to cough violently.

He coughed for a long time, and the smell of blood filled his throat, "I don't understand why you did this to me."

He thought many times that he was hurting in this relationship because he wanted too much and got too little—maybe saying too little wasn't appropriate, he just didn't get what he wanted.He wanted love, unreserved and pure love, but Qin Shen couldn't give him this.

Love cannot be forced, he has been forced for four years, and he has come to this situation now.

Now he no longer hopes for those distant and unattainable things. He believes that as long as he learns to accept the fact that he has never been loved, no matter how bloody the wound is, there will always be a day of healing.

But why, this person used such cruel behavior to pull him back into yesterday's vicious circle.

Is it that fun to watch him seek the impossible like a fool?

"Qin Shen, do you know what you acted like just now?"

Because he washed off the mark, he was furious because he had the possibility of accepting other people's pursuit, and he couldn't think of any other answer to such behavior except jealousy.

Only jealousy can make people unrecognizable, ugly and hideous.

Xie Jingchi raised his head and said in a difficult tone, "It's as if you...love me. I don't understand."

In their more than seven years of getting along, it was the first time he wanted to get an answer so stubbornly.

If he doesn't get a definite answer here, for the rest of his long life, he will always think about what happened today, even if he dies, buried in the soil to rot and turn into a pile of bones, he will not get a free soul Neither can rest in peace.

"Xie Jingchi, I..." Qin Shen stared at him.Those eyes with slightly lighter irises were like whirlpools, dragging Xie Jingchi's attention to swirl, downward, until the abyss.

"En." Xie Jingchi responded in a low voice.

Qin Shen paused for a long time, then said quickly, "I don't know if I love you."

For such an answer, Xie Jingchi opened his eyes wide in astonishment as if he had never known this person before.

We have shared the same bed for four years, and we have done even the most intimate things. If you really like it, you really loved it, how could you not know it?

He thought, this is actually just a euphemism, and he did something to humiliate himself again.

He forced Qin Shen to answer his question, and Qin Shen answered, what is he dissatisfied with?

"It's okay, I know your answer..." Xie Jingchi wanted to back away in a panic.

"I..." Qin Shen subconsciously wanted to reach out and grab him, but retracted the moment he touched him.

"Stop talking." Xie Jingchi leaned his back against the hard car door, which gave him a sense of security like a duckweed, "I don't want to hear it."

Stop talking, don't remind him again of the fact that he has never been loved in this failed marriage.

It's not that he likes Qin Shen, Qin Shen must like him, he can forget such a simple truth.

"I understand what you said, I know I..."

"Xie Jingchi!" Qin Shen finally scolded as if he couldn't bear it anymore.

Xie Jingchi didn't speak any more, the tears that had been barely stopped filled his eyes again.

Knowing that his current appearance must be ugly and terrible, he tried his best to endure the urge to cry, until his nose and eye sockets turned red, and he looked extremely pitiful.

Qin Shen sighed, and slowed down his tone again, "Xie Jingchi, it's not what you think. Listen to me, okay?"

It's not what he thought, so what?Xie Jingchi stared blankly at this person.

He wanted to say, don't continue to humiliate me, but seeing the slumped and exhausted look in front of him, he couldn't say anything.

At such a time, he still can't help but feel soft towards this person, maybe he... is really hopeless.

Qin took a deep breath, "Let me think about where to start."

While thinking, he took another wet wipe and gently wiped away Xie Jingchi's tears, so as not to sting his delicate skin when the tears dried.

"Did I never mention the person who gave me the other half of my blood with you?"

Although he didn't know why this person suddenly mentioned this matter, Xie Jingchi still nodded.

"His name is Qin Yi, and he is a male Alpha just like me. As for why I didn't mention him to you, it was purely out of shame and vanity... I don't want you to know that I am actually a very unbearable man with such a family and background .”

At this moment, great confusion overwhelmed Xie Jingchi's original sadness.

What's the need to hide it?He didn't know what kind of family could be dirtier than the one formed by Fang Rujun and Xie Mingyao.

"My mother, Ruan Heng, she is a Beta, you have seen her picture."

The number of Omega is the least among the three genders, so it is not uncommon for many Alphas to choose to form families with Betas.

"Very beautiful." Xie Jingchi recalled that elegant and beautiful woman like Bai Camellia, "You are very similar to her."

Qin Shen smiled, there was not much joy in that smile, only endless bitterness and ridicule.

Xie Jingchi didn't understand why he was laughing, nor did he understand what was so funny about it.

"She used to be a star and was very famous. I won't say how they met. All in all, their combination was a mistake. Do you know how Ruan Heng died?"

"Car accident." After watching "A Spring Dream in Homeland", Xie Jingchi looked up a lot of Ruan Heng's information, and even looked at all the movie and TV commercials that Ruan Heng had starred in.

He didn't know at the time what it was all about, and he was vaguely aware of it now.

"You know her. Then you must also know that she is the shadow of her marriage." Qin Shen was a little surprised that what he wanted to say was said in advance, "It was my father who asked her to give up, because he gave up Qin Qin for her." The identity of the heir."

In this marriage, both parties gave up the aura of the world for each other, so when he was young, Qin Shen once thought that they really loved each other.

His eyes fell on a certain point in the void, "After retiring from the circle, she has been at home without a job. In the second year of marriage, she gave birth to me, and then I was all she had at home during the day."

In Qin Shen's narration, Ruan Heng had been a housewife for more than ten years, until he was ten years old when the director of "A Spring Dream in the Homeland" approached him.

"She wanted to come back, but my father didn't agree and couldn't stop her, so he drugged her and imprisoned her at home. Yan Hui used forged phone recordings and medical records to evade it." Qin Shen clearly saw Xie Jingchi's face changed, "After that, what awaited her was three years of imprisonment, rape and humiliation."

Qin Yi claimed that his wife suffered from an inconvenient disease, and she did not "recover" until three years later.

Ruan Heng is worthy of being a woman who has three actress trophies, she has fooled everyone, including her own son.

In the end, unable to escape, she resolutely chose to die with that man.

"Xie Jingchi, what do you think love is?" After talking about those two people, Qin Shen asked Xie Jingchi some questions that he still couldn't figure out, "In your opinion, does Qin Yi love Ruan Heng?"

He couldn't call such behavior love, so he wanted to know Xie Jingchi's answer.

Xie Jingchi couldn't answer.

How could he answer such a question?

If you love, why can you do such terrible things to her, if you don't love, why can't you leave her side even for a moment?

"Why did you tell me this all of a sudden..." There was a shake in his words that even he could hear.

"Do you really not understand?" Qin Shen dismissed his knowingly asking lightly, "I am the son of that man, and I am the same kind of person as him. Is this something unimaginable?"

Like many people in this world who stare at the abyss for a long time, he cannot escape the end of being swallowed and assimilated by the abyss.

"Do you also think it's disgusting for my father to do those things to her? On the one hand, I feel disgusted to myself like this, but on the other hand, I can't help but want to do something similar to you." Qin Shen curled the corners of his mouth, obviously smiling, The light in his eyes was cold and gloomy, "Don't think that what happened just now was an impulsive accident. From bringing you here to pressing you on a chair to make a temporary mark, everything was carefully planned by me."

Xie Jingchi froze on the spot, forgot how to breathe for a while.

In the small space, Qin Shen saw his shock and panic in his eyes, not missing a single bit, "Xie Jingchi, you rely on me and like me because I am the only one who can treat you well in that situation." People, I want to pretend to be a good person and respond to your liking, but in the final analysis, I have never been a healthy person, the more I touch you, the stronger the deformed desire."

Qin Shen stretched out his hand, wanting to touch the soft skin under his eyes, but he stopped abruptly while hanging his hand in the air.

"You should be loved and raised by the right person, but I'm exhausted just fighting against my distorted dark side." The violence and gloom between the brows faded like pen and ink, and he turned back to the one Xie Jingchi was familiar with People, "I wanted to be nice to you very seriously, but I still hurt you in the end, I'm sorry."

The tobacco-colored lights spread silently like soft water waves, Qin Shen half-closed his eyes, and his long eyelashes cast gray shadows.

There was guilt in his expression, and there was also helplessness after admitting his fate, "If you decide to sue me, I will honestly plead guilty, and I will not escape the punishment I deserve..."

"Do you have such a desire for other people?" Xie Jingchi interrupted him indifferently.

Whether it's suing or apologizing, he doesn't care about other things, all he wants to know is this.

There was an unconcealable surprise on Qin Shen's face, "No, only you. It may sound like you're justifying yourself, but I really thought I could control myself for you..."

Xie Jingchi looked at Qin Shen expressionlessly, and Qin Shen also looked back quietly.

He was waiting, waiting for Xie Jingchi to pronounce his death sentence - he had committed an unforgivable crime, and he had long since hoped for any form of forgiveness.

Time passed quietly, after about 1 years, Xie Jingchi slowly exhaled the stale air in his lungs.

He made a decision that might not have been that difficult.

"Is that what you want to do to me?"

Xie Jingchi put his hands on his chest and unbuttoned them one by one.

What Qin Shen was unable to do before, he completed instead of him.

First the suit, then the vest, and finally the tie and shirt.

Xie Jingchi has a beautiful body that can easily arouse Alpha's sadism. No one knows this better than Qin Shen.

When all the buttons of the shirt were undone, Xie Jingchi's upper body was completely exposed to Qin Shen's vision without any cover.

Exquisite clavicle, flat chest, and belly without a trace of fat.Because the second sex is an Omega, even if she has never given birth, her light pink areola is slightly bulging.

"You mean, want to lock me up, relabel me, make me do something that's yours alone, don't you?"

Qin Shen looked away, "Don't mess around." His breathing became more and more heavy.

"What's messing around?" Xie Jingchi approached him lightly like a cat.

From Qin Shen's perspective, he could see the bloody bite mark on the back of his neck.

Alpha's instinct made him want to punish this Omega who dared to tease him desperately while still wearing his mark.In order to prevent himself from crossing the line, he grabbed the steering wheel closest to him. Due to excessive force, his knuckles turned blue and white, and veins appeared on the back of his hand.

Xie Jingchi boldly covered the back of his hand, Qin Shen's body was stiff, but he didn't push him away.

As if with tacit approval, Xie Jingchi continued to push forward, "Lock me up, use ropes, chains... whatever, let me belong to you alone, if you really think so. Then come on, I'm not afraid .”

Qin Shen suddenly opened his eyes, "Don't make such a joke!" With a cold face, he wanted to scare Xie Jingchi away with such words, "I will really hurt you..."

"I don't care, but you really want it too, don't you?" Xie Jingchi lowered his eyes and told him not to joke, but actually reacted so clearly.

Xie Jingchi lowered his eyes, such an obvious thing, why didn't he notice it before?

"Are you going to let me go?"

"Are you going to set me free?"

Qin Shen opened his mouth, as if he had an answer.

Xie Jingchi raised a finger and pressed it against his lips, "You only have one chance to answer." In the warm summer night, his hands were cold.

He looked up at the handsome face in front of him, only at this time, those light-colored eyes were all his reflection.

"I want to hear your truth, you just need to tell me, do you want me to go?"

Pain, struggle, contradiction, sadness... Qin Shen was at war with heaven and man in his heart. He struggled for a long time, but he still didn't say a word in the end.

He didn't dare to look into Xie Jingchi's eyes, Xie Jingchi understood his choice, and withdrew disappointedly, "Then I'm leaving."

Before he could leave the man completely, someone grabbed him and pulled him into a warm embrace.

Like a little boy holding his lost and found favorite toy, Qin Shen didn't consider whether he was comfortable or not, but just held him tightly, not allowing him to break free from his side.

"Please, don't leave me." Qin Shen put his chin on the top of his head and said hurriedly, "I can't live without you, don't leave me."

Xie Jingchi was completely hugged in his arms, his eyes were completely dark, he couldn't see his expression at all, he could only hear his heartbeat comparing each other, "Is this what you mean? Don't pity me..."

What he never expected was that when he said this, Qin Shen hugged him even harder, "What do you want to make you stay, tell me, I'll do it... as long as I can make you stay, I will go Willing to die."

"Don't say such things, you won't really die..." He bent the corner of his mouth indifferently.

"I would really die without you." Qin Shen retorted eagerly.

——You will die without me, so when you pushed me away before, did you consider my feelings?

Xie Jingchi swallowed the salty and bitter hot flow in his throat, opened his mouth, and bit the man's shoulder.

An astonishing hatred erupted, and he didn't know that there was so much hatred and grievance hidden in his body, as if he wanted to take revenge for all the cold reception and rejection he had received for so many years.

Qin Shen hugged him, no matter how much he bit and struggled, he would not let go, even if it hurt him.

Through layers of clothing, Xie Jingchi still bit deeply, Qin Shen didn't say a word of pain, just hugged him, stroking his hair and back repeatedly.

When he was almost done venting, Xie Jingchi slowly let go, "I hate you." The expensive woolen fabric was twisted into a ball in his hands, and he grabbed Qin Shen's collar, repeating it over and over again in a hoarse voice.

Qin Shen leaned against him, kissed his heart and ears, "Yes, I know."

"You don't know anything. I hate you, Qin Shen, I hate you so much, why do you treat me like that...I hate you." Xie Jingchi clung to his body, his volume getting smaller and smaller , until the end almost whispered, "But I love you more..."

The warm scent of pine resin surrounds him, gradually relaxing him.He is so pathetic, even if he is treated like this, there is still no way to truly hate this person.

Qin Shen let go of him a little bit, took his injured wrist, and kissed him nearby lovingly.

"I also... love you." As if he was not used to saying love, he gave Xie Jingchi a jerky response.

Even if he is still not sure whether this feeling can be called love, at least it will not be like the past, no matter what he says or does, it is Xie Jingchi's one-man show.

Xie Jingchi hummed, and buried his face in the shoulder of this strange yet familiar Alpha, "If you push me away again, I will run far away and never come back... Do you understand, I will only give you Don't let me go this time to start over again."