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"Mother, mother! Look at Daddy is amazing!" Xiao Ping'an's eyes were shining, and he looked at Liu Xingzhou with respect and dependence.This is a completely different look from his biological father Liu Yanshi, no wonder Xiaoping can't wait to "recognize the thief as his father".

Liu Yu touched his head with a smile, and asked softly, "Are you happy with Daddy?"

"happy!"

"Shall we live together after that? Just the three of us."

"it is good!"

This time, Xiaopingan didn't even hesitate at all.

Liu Xingzhou was sitting, playing with a Luban lock in his hand, his movements were extremely slow, as weak as an old man in his twilight years.

"What's wrong?" Liu Yu hugged Xiaopingan and sat beside her.

Liu Xingzhou shook her head, she raised her head, her eyes showed a rare tiredness, a little dazed and empty, and said in a low voice: "I'm just a little tired."

Liu Yu was taken aback, this was the first time she saw Liu Xingzhou showing such an expression, even when Liu Xingzhou asked why she didn't have a name when she was young, she didn't look so dazed.

"Wait until Chang'an, is it over?"

"Ah."

"Then... shall I continue to be called Liu Xingzhou? Or Chen Qing? Or, another name." Liu Xingzhou murmured: "When I was young, you said my name was Chen Qing, so I will be called Chen Qing. When my father dies, I will take over the Hanzhong King City, and you said that if I want to fully gain the loyalty of the Hanzhong King’s Department, I have to change my name to the one set by my father, after that, I will be called Liu Xingzhou.”

Speaking of this, Liu Yu already realized what Liu Xingzhou wanted to say, and also knew why she became like this.

Liu Xingzhou exhaled softly, and asked, "Then what will I call when I get to Chang'an?"

Liu Yu was speechless.

"When we arrive in Chang'an, the Emperor of the Great Jin has already conferred the title of Marquis on Xiaopingan, and maybe he will also confer titles on you. You are the orthodox descendant of Liu Han, and I am just my father's adopted son. I can read the Four Books and the Five Classics, and the Six Arts of a Gentleman. But those things are useless, those things are useless at all, I can only kill people, I can only kill people in the Xiongnu. When it comes to Dajin, do you still need me to kill people? Do you still need me?"

"No..." Tears were already streaming down Liu Yu's eyes. She grabbed Liu Xingzhou's hand, shook her head, and murmured, "No, Liu, Chenchen, it's not like this..."

Liu Xingzhou looked at her, smiling very softly, but his eyes were empty, erratic with nowhere to go.

"I still... have the qualifications to be used by you?"

"Liu Xingzhou!" Liu Yu yelled.

Xiao Ping'an was also frightened. From the very beginning, he was too scared to make a sound by the strange atmosphere. Liu Yu's screaming made Xiao Ping'an look panic-stricken, and tears fell down his face.

"I'm not..." Liu Yu's words got stuck in his throat after he finished speaking.

Now, how could she say against her will that she didn't use Liu Xingzhou, she had been using Liu Xingzhou from the very beginning, not in the past few years, but earlier, since she had the idea of ​​going to Dajin, from Liu Xingzhou, or It was the moment Chen Qing arrived in the Xiongnu, she saw the baby in the swaddle biting her finger and smiling at her, and the idea that this child could be used by her had already been born in her heart.

But she is real, she really hopes that Liu Xingzhou will go to Dajin together!

"You scared Ping'an." Liu Xingzhou gently hugged Xiao Ping'an who was covering his mouth and weeping softly, and said softly: "It's okay, Auntie scared you, right? Daddy apologizes for Auntie, okay?" ?”

Xiao Ping hid in her arms, clutching her sleeve tightly, trembling and choking out a sound.

"Daddy, don't quarrel..."

"We don't quarrel, Daddy is here." Liu Xingzhou comforted him, patted his back lightly, and softly hummed the nursery rhymes of the Huns.

The two of them didn't speak any more, and when Xiaopingan was tired from crying and fell asleep, Liu Xingzhou said, "You scared him."

"You scared me too."

"I'm just telling the truth."

Liu Yu didn't speak.

"Little Ping'an's biological mother was tortured to death by Liu Yan. Liu Yan probably beat and scolded Xiao Ping'an a lot. He experienced this since he was a child, and his temper was greatly affected, so he became timid. He is very concerned about this. Sensitive, it's a big deal, you can't vent it in front of him."

This may be the reason why Xiao Ping'an became cowardly and pleasure-seeking in the dream. Liu Yan's psychological shadow on Xiao Ping'an was too great, and he was terrified by the violence.Liu Yu thought.

"...But what about me? You only talk about Xiaopingan, so what about me?"

Liu Xingzhou was silent for a long time before speaking again.Her voice was difficult and hoarse: "I don't know. I thought I could, I could send you to Beidi, I could still be of use to you, and I was still useful. But Qin Zijin came, and he said he Okay, so what else can I do? Liu Yu, am I still useful to you?"

Liu Yu suddenly felt a chill.Not because of Liu Xingzhou's words, nor Liu Xingzhou's thoughts, but something she should have realized long ago, but never thought of.

For decades in the dream, Liu Xingzhou accompanied her for the first half of her life and sacrificed her life for her. She was trapped in Chang'an for the rest of her life and lived alone until she died of old age. She never thought about it.

What did she think of Liu Xingzhou?

What did Liu Xingzhou think of himself?

... What did it become?

A tool that is driven by the owner's will, has no will, and is felt by the owner.

So Chen Qing changed her name to Liu Xingzhou, because she needed the full allegiance of the Hanzhong royal family.

That's why Liu Xingzhou was able to watch her marry Liu Yan without being moved, because whether in the dream or in reality, it was something she chose to accept.

So Liu Xingzhou fought bloody battles for her for decades, blinded and broken arms, because it is only natural for weapons to be incomplete after being used by their masters.

So Liu Xingzhou died at the foot of Longcheng in the end, because if she wanted to live, Liu Xingzhou had to die.

Liu Xingzhou is...a tool.

Liu Yu felt uncomfortably full in his stomach, and there was an obvious discomfort in his throat, as if something was rushing upwards.

She was disgusted by herself.

"Chenchen, no..."

"Give me some time... I don't know what else I can do for you... Will the Emperor of Jin marry you?"

Liu Yu retched, covered his lips and rushed into the clean room, vomiting out the contents of his stomach.

Behind her, Liu Xingzhou sighed softly, looking lonely.

In the next few days, the two of them had no harmonious communication. Xiaopingan was sensitive to what had happened, but neither Liu Xingzhou nor Liu Yu's attitude towards him had changed, so he gradually let go of his heart and only took this matter as his own. does not exist.

I don't know what Qin Zijin did, but the situation of the Huns became more chaotic within a few days, and the Aries King sent envoys to Longcheng to ask for help.

Aries King City is the closest city to Dajin.

This is inconspicuous in the increasingly chaotic situation of the Huns. From the moment King Youxian died, there have been constant Xiongnu nobles coming to Longcheng for help, and some of them were not clear-headed and tried to attack the city.

The valuable and large items in the Longcheng warehouse were rewarded before, and the remaining gold wares were melted into portable sizes and distributed to the thousand cavalry who were absolutely loyal to Liu Xingzhou. A jade article that was additionally rewarded.

They couldn't take their wives and children with them, but the King of Hanzhong promised that when they arrived at the Great Jin, the Emperor of Jin would definitely send someone to pick up their wives and children from the King of Hanzhong City, if those people were willing to leave.Even if you don't want to, you can marry another wife in Dajin. From then on, your descendants will be Jin people without having to endure the drought, sandstorm and snowstorm in Mobei.

This is a promise that is enough to make them even more loyal.

Liu Yu has her own means. She has sold her private property long ago and exchanged it for Dajin's Bailu ticket.Roll up the ticket and stuff it into the riding boot. As long as she lives, no one will know that there is something worth a million coins hidden in the boot.

A group of people set off from Longcheng with a thousand cavalry and temporarily settled in Hanzhong Wangcheng.Liu Yu came out openly, so that every Hun who saw her knew that this was Princess Changle.They also brought Xiaopingan out.Today's Dragon City can be said to be a real empty city, but no one has the spare power to attack, the Huns fight each other to disown each other, if it weren't for the detached status of the Hanzhong King City in the Huns for a hundred years, they might have set their sights on this place long ago.

Liu Xingzhou came back to pack her things, but she didn't bring too many things with her. She only brought her own bow and arrow and her usual sword, and the rest of the things were left intact in the warehouse of Hanzhong King City.No one knew what she was thinking, including herself.

Qin Feng stepped into the palace of Hanzhong King City through the wind and snow, and was very surprised when he saw the things in the storeroom. He said, "You just left these things here?"

"En." Liu Xingzhou was wiping the knife, she responded sullenly, and said: "This is the accumulation of Hanzhong King City for decades, I can't take it away."

Qin Feng thought for a while, then laughed out loud, and said, "You are somewhat similar to a nobleman from my Dajin."

"Who?"

"The eldest princess' son-in-law, the current Commander of Jinyiwei, Yanhou Yan Zhaoge."

Liu Xingzhou moved his gaze away, then quickly looked back, and said flatly, "I don't deserve it."

"The Marquis of Yan in the Great Jin Dynasty was the eldest son of Marquis Ji. He joined the royal family for the sake of Princess Shang. He willingly became the eagle dog of the Tian family. He killed 23 nobles in Hedong County and captured four other princes in Chang'an. Hanzhong The king's friendship with Princess Changle is as deep as it is."

The movements of Liu Xingzhou's hands froze, she was probably thinking about something, or maybe she was simply tired from wiping and taking a rest.After only a few breaths, she began to wipe again.

"That is the son-in-law of the eldest princess, I'm just... the knife in Changle's hand."

She has always had a very clear position for herself. Since when did this idea start, it is irretrievable, but it must have lasted for many years.Sometimes when she looks at Liu Yu, she will have the illusion of seeing through the long river of time, and will have a sense of loss that comes from nowhere.

Was it because she fell in love with Liu Yu that she was willing to make a knife, or was it because she was willing to be a knife that she fell in love with Liu Yu as the master.She may wonder, but never seeks out the answers.

She's just, knife.

Liu Xingzhou inserted the knife into the sheath and closed his eyes.

A knife should have no emotion, no will.

"If I can't find a reason to stay by your side, let the knife decide. You may not need Liu Xingzhou or Chen Qing, but you must need a knife."

Qin Feng was at the side and could hear it clearly.This is his private matter, he can't control it, but as long as he thinks about how similar Liu Xingzhou is to Yan Zhaoge, he will be scratching his heart with curiosity.

In the same situation, with the same people, and even with the same thoughts, will the answer of Princess Changle be the same as that of Princess Changle?

Liu Yu was silent for a moment, then turned to look for Liu Xingzhou.

"If you must be my knife, then I will be your saber."

Liu Xingzhou looked at a loss, she couldn't figure out why the knife and the sword could be connected here.

Liu Yu didn't want to think about it anymore.Her desire to keep Liu Xingzhou is true, she can't bear the pain of losing Liu Xingzhou again, whether it's tools or relatives, they will always be tied together for the rest of their lives.If Liu Xingzhou was worried that she would be given a marriage by the Emperor of Jin after arriving in Dajin, then she would stop this possibility now.

Liu Yu approached her step by step, pressed her on the bed, and pulled down the curtain.

Liu Xingzhou looked up at her with an uneasy and confused expression.

After Liu Yu came to Hanzhong Wangcheng, she changed into a military uniform that was easy to move. She has not yet felt whether it is really easy to move, but it is much easier to take off than the original layer after layer of skirts.She took off her clothes one by one, and neatly folded them aside. In the end, only a white corset was left on her body, which made her skin whiter.

Liu Xingzhou's eyes could no longer move, she trembled her lips, muttering something to say, but she didn't say anything in the end.

Liu Yu leaned over, straddled her, and asked, "Would you believe me if I'm like this?"

Liu Xingzhou nodded again and again, as if he finally had the ability to speak, and said softly: "There's no need for this..."

"Don't you want this?"

"I don't know..." Liu Xingzhou shook his head. This wasn't the first time she saw Liu Yu's naked body, but none of them had a greater impact on her than this time.

Liu Yu unbuttoned her belt, put his hands in through the gap of the inner garment, and hugged her tightly.

"But I do.

"Whether you are Chen Qing or Liu Xingzhou, you can be anyone, but I can't lose you again.

"Just like the previous few times, here, get me again."

Liu Xingzhou finally raised his head and kissed her lips.

Just like the first time, the back of her hand guided her to where she should go.

Here, the weapons and masters switch positions, the chess pieces become chess players, the chess players become chess pieces, the controller is manipulated, and the manipulated begins to manipulate.

Liu Yu was clutching the corner of the quilt tightly with sweaty hands, she gritted her teeth, and was being played with in the palm of her hand.

When her consciousness was blurred, she heard Liu Xingzhou's voice, which was gentle but very powerful.

"Liu Yu, don't regret it."

How could I regret it.

What I regret most is that I didn't die with you in my dream, and let you wait alone in the underworld for more than ten years.

Liu Yu didn't show up for the next few days, and it was Liu Xingzhou and Qin Feng who were discussing. There was a smile on her lips, and the four words of being happy were written in her eyes.

It seems that this Princess Changle is more radical than Princess Changle.Qin Feng thought.

According to the original plan, Liu Xingzhou led the troops to Baiyangwangcheng, the eldest princess changed into the clothes of the soldiers of the king of Hanzhong and accompanied her, and Xiaopingan was hidden in a wooden barrel and transported away as food.The eldest princess found a confidant of similar stature as her substitute, changed into her dress, and found another child who was about the same age as Xiaopingan, and was escorted back to Longcheng by the soldiers of the Hanzhong Royal Department.

No one would have thought that the eldest princess would flee south.Central Plains people hold grudges the most, and her father and her husband both died in Dajin, so how could she go to Dajin?

However, the eldest princess did just that.

A group of people settled in the Aries King City. The Aries King received them and supplemented them with food, grass and dry food. Xiaopingan was released and lay in Liu Xingzhou's arms with a panicked expression. Obviously, the experience in the wooden barrel these days gave her No small shade.

Aries King seems to have become Da Jin's internal support, or maybe it was just this time that Da Jin bribed him.Neither Liu Xingzhou nor Liu Yu asked any questions. They only rested for one night and then hurriedly set off on the road.

Although no one was intercepted and killed along the way, the wind and snow were not small, and it was common for those who fell at the end to get lost in Feng Xueli, and many people were frozen to death at night, or half of their limbs were frozen, and they had to cry He entrusted his family to Liu Xingzhou and slayed himself with a horizontal sword.

By the time they arrived in the Northland, there were only more than 1000 wounded cavalrymen and more than 400 horses left among the 300 men and horses.

The war horse Liu Yu decided to give it to Beidi, and sent it directly to the Liaodong King. As for how to distribute it, it was his business. After all, it was the best horse of the Xiongnu, both male and female.The king of Liaodong sent a letter to Chang'an, and they lived here temporarily.The cavalry lived together to recuperate, and all of the more than 400 people were injured. Some even dragged a frozen leg to Beidi, which had to be amputated in the end.

The King of Liaodong allowed them to walk around in Liaodong City, as long as they didn't enter the barracks, they could look at them at will.

Xiaopingan is very curious about Liaodong. It is also cold here, but not as cold as Longcheng. As long as you dress warmly, you can run around.His Central Plains language was very poor, with a strong Hun accent, but he did not arouse the hostility of the people in the Northland. There were always people who could not survive in the Huns and came to the Northland to beg for food.They know exactly where the hatred in the North came from, and who should bear the burden of the bloody hatred.

After waiting for more than a month, I finally got a letter from Chang'an, letting them enter Chang'an, and these five hundred wounded soldiers can be brought into Chang'an.On balance, Liu Xingzhou left with only lightly injured cavalry, only about 130 of them, and the rest stayed in Beidi to recuperate. The king of Liaodong made arrangements on the spot.

The king of Liaodong agreed.

There is no shortage of elite soldiers in the Jin Dynasty, but there is a shortage of people who know enough about the inside of the Xiongnu. How to get from the North to the Huns' Dragon City?How to tell the direction in heavy snow?They couldn't figure out how to tell the direction in the grassland.But with these people, you can figure it out.

The road from Beidi to Chang'an was not short. They stopped and stopped along the way. Halfway there, the snow had already started to melt in the north.

"How does it feel?"

Liu Xingzhou was stunned for a while, then laughed, and said, "I might be able to find my parents."

"That couldn't be better."

A group of people stepped into Chang'an on the tail of March, and found that there were lanterns and festoons everywhere, as if they were celebrating the New Year.

"At first glance, you are foreigners. I'm afraid you didn't come back from the border. You don't know about such important events! The eldest princess of Dajin is going to get married!"

"The marriage is set on the eldest princess's birthday. I heard that the day was chosen by the son-in-law himself!"

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