[Main Weak Insect] If you give me a pair of wings

Ever since he learned the classic ballad that has been sung endlessly since he was a child, Kazama Kaiku liked to look at the sky and stay in high places. Such preference was not only influenced by his father who was good at climbing.What's more, it comes from her own desire-to spread her wings and fly towards the free sky without sadness.

It was an emotion that was difficult for other people to understand, not even the Kazan Hailu who grew up with her, who was almost inseparable for a moment, couldn't understand it.At that time, the little girl who had just turned 11 years old began to have her own delicate thoughts, gradually became sensitive to everything in the outside world, and had some little secrets that could not be shared with her elder brother. This was also the beginning of the first quarrel. , So the sky entrusted almost all of her thoughts.

She began to become more attached to the summit than anyone else.

And Kazama Kaiji didn’t hate bicycles when he was a child, although because of his sister’s unusual enthusiasm for bicycles, he felt that he might not be as good as a road bike in her heart, and he was a little unbalanced, but look Looking at the shining light in her eyes as she watched her father riding, he couldn't hate this sport she loved so much.

Just like birds fly and clouds float, everything is subject to change.

Accompanying his frail younger sister to ride a bike every week to exercise was once a compulsory homework for Kazama Kailu, but this task stopped abruptly in the spring of the fifth grade of elementary school.

In fact, it is hard to say whose fault it is. Maybe it is due to the car driver's negligence in the final analysis, but it is very dangerous to ride the bicycle in the middle of the road.

Everything happened in a blink of an eye. At that time, the little girl was still betting on whether she could ride to the target store in one go today to buy a new cake. Turning around, she smiled and bet with her brother, but saw her brother's smile suddenly froze. On the face, as if seeing something terrifying, his eyes suddenly opened wide, and the familiar face that had not yet been distinguished from her was filled with fear.

"Hai Kong!!!" The second after she exclaimed her name, with Kazama Kailu's sudden acceleration, Kazama Kaiku could only feel a huge force pushing her towards the sidewalk , Then, the ear-piercing sound of car tires rubbing against the road came, she fell to the ground in a daze, stared at the place where she was just now, and the boy who was wearing the exact same tracksuit as her fell to the ground, with bright red The blood kept pouring out from his small body. For a moment, the horn of the car behind and the screams of the crowd disappeared suddenly, and her world seemed to collapse in that instant.

For the first time in her life, she felt a tearing pain in her heart, but subconsciously stretched out her hand towards the place where the boy fell.She wanted to go to his side, she felt that she should be there, but she couldn't move even for a moment, tears blurred her vision uncontrollably.

"Don't ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

She never thought that there would be a day when she would be separated from Kazama Kailu. That boy has been by her side since she existed in this world. They are siblings, and they are the closest people to each other in this world.They are like a community of destiny, even the joys and sorrows of each other blend together. If she loses him, Kazama Kaikyo feels that maybe her life will come to an end at that time.

But that was just what she thought after all.Even with twins, they are ultimately two different people.

When she opened her eyes again, Kazama Kaikyo was lying in the intensive care unit of the hospital, surrounded by instruments she had never seen before, making disturbing and terrifying sounds.She didn't know what happened, she just felt dizzy, as if she hadn't woken up, Kazama Kailu's blood-stained face flashed across her mind, her pupils shrank suddenly, she opened her mouth to say something, but was caught The oxygen mask blocked the sound, and he couldn't use his strength at all.

The anesthesiologist noticed her strangeness, bent down to listen to her words, and Kazama Kaikong called his brother's name, only then did he realize that his world had completely changed during the time she passed out.She didn't lose her favorite brother, but she was deprived of her dream of riding a bicycle to the top of the mountain.

Fortunately, Kazama Kailu's wound only looked serious but not deep, and he could be discharged home after simple medical treatment, but Kazama Kaikyo's condition was worse than him.The girl who was pushed out by Kazama Kailu at the critical moment did not suffer any serious trauma, but the excessive fright and self-blame caused her already fragile heart to be completely overloaded, almost taking her life away.

But life is tenacious in the end.Although the emergency surgery did not succeed in curing Kazama Kaiko's disease, it still saved her life, so that the little girl would not leave suddenly when she just started to feel the world, but for Kazama Kai As far as Sora himself is concerned, he doesn't know whether it is good or bad to survive like this.

With only ten years of life experience, she has not experienced the vicissitudes of life in this world. She just yearns for the sky and the wings of birds soaring.But she may be destined to be a prisoner surrounded by shackles. When the disease locks her up, she will eventually lock up everyone around her and drag them into the dark abyss together.

In fact, Kazama Haikong has always known it. From the day she was sensible, she understood what her existence meant to this family.She is a drag, a burden, and a "defective product" that is not perfect or healthy.But even with her like this, no one even thought about abandoning her even for a moment, and even loved her like a treasure together with her sickness.How lucky she is to have such a family who loves her deeply, and she also wants to work hard to become stronger, so as to make up for the love they gave in return.

But that can only be in vain after all.After the operation, the more fragile body and the uninterrupted medicines have increased the burden of all aspects of the family. I don’t know if it was affected by this incident. My father was also injured in the game. It also caused a series of unwarranted framing and accusations in the team and in the society.

She saw her father's most proud leg covered with white bandages, just like what she saw on her body when she woke up that day. She didn't know if her father's wound was as painful as hers, but she just looked at it The extremely tired face of the father who was lying on the bed unable to move, felt that he must be much more uncomfortable than himself.

That was the first time that Kazama Kaiku saw her mother's tears. The always cheerful, optimistic and gentle mother has always been the most powerful existence in Kazama Kaiku's eyes. In the little girl's cognition, mother can solve all problems. As if there was nothing that could bother her.But even such a powerful mother finally lost her smile under such successive blows.She lay quietly by the crack of the door and saw her mother sobbing softly in her father's arms. It was only for the first time that she realized that people's words are terrible, and realized that there is no such thing as the so-called clean in this world.

Kailu Kazama once again fought with her classmates in order to protect her and refute some malicious rumors, and she was punished by the school, and finally ended everything by transferring to another school.She was left there alone, like a bird with half of its wings torn off, unable to fly towards the blue sky anymore.

In fact, it's not that she doesn't want to leave with him, it's just that everything happened because of her. If she continues to stay with him, Kazama Kaikong understands that everything will not change at all, and can only repeat In a vicious circle that is almost crazy, until it reaches an irreparable hopeless situation.

She can no longer be willful.

Fortunately, no one was defeated by the predicament. Her father and mother actively faced the framing, and after unremitting efforts, they finally proved their innocence and brought out the real black hand behind a certain queen. For a time, all public opinion turned to the complete opposite. direction dumped.But such a change did not bring up the atmosphere in the school. She was still alone, becoming more and more reticent, and used to being cautious with others.

Habits are really a very scary thing.

Then one day, the reporter who still didn't give up and wanted to dig out Kaixiang Kazama's black material stood in front of her and asked such a question: "Miss Kaikong, do you think it's because of your illness? The mentality of Kazama caused him to be injured and lost in the game, is it because you were sick and admitted to the hospital and the family needed more money, so your father had to make that choice?"

She suddenly opened her eyes wide.

The impolite reporter was quickly cleared out by the school's security guards, but his words were already deeply engraved in her heart.

She had never thought about such cause and effect before.

But if this is the case... Even if the father is really innocent in that matter, it is true that he was injured and lost the game. Was it... influenced by her?She knew that her father had always loved her, but if that love caused him pain... She didn't know why she was still alive in this world.

Everyone's love for her will eventually turn into pain and bounce back on her body, and that pain will multiply countless times at the same time, stabbing in her young heart.

But at the same time, she also understood that no one wanted her to die, and she couldn't do such a thing of revenge.She had to live, to live... They wanted her to live, and she didn't want to make them sad anymore.

It was an endless loop of despair, as long as she was still alive, she was destined to hurt them, but if she died, it would also be a knife in their hearts, it made no difference.After all, no matter how she chooses, she is a shameless victim, and her existence itself seems like a mistake.

That was the straw that broke the camel's back.

Kazama Kaikong's heart couldn't bear such pressure, she fell ill with a fever that day, and after the fever subsided, her memory changed slightly.That is the brain's last protection for herself, she needs someone who "hates" herself in this family, so that her guilt will not have nowhere to vent, and because of that incident, she starts to hate her most important girl Kazama Kaiji of the injured bicycle unfortunately became that candidate.

She thought that he had always hated bicycles very much, and that she hated herself for forcing him to ride a bicycle because of her cycling injury.Only when he hates her, targets her everywhere, and speaks against her, can she feel a little better in her heart. She feels that she should be "punished" and "disgusted". Only when she is hurt can she hurt others with "peace of mind"... …

Kazama Kailu quickly noticed her subtle changes, but he couldn't refute her words.She said that because of that incident, he started to hate her and left her, and only then did he speak against her. He didn't dare to explain, it was all out of a feeling that could never be said, should not exist, and he couldn't explain it either.

So the misunderstanding continued like this.

But there will always be a day when the only truth will be seen again, and when the scene of that day reappeared in front of her eyes again, her memory finally returned to its place.at the worst possible moment.

The author has something to say:

I really didn’t expect to spend three consecutive New Years in this article hhh

In fact, I originally expected to be on the New Year's Eve in the article about exorcism, but I... don't know which muscle cramped and applied for a list, and it happened to be this time period...

I think it's all fate hahaha!

The number of updates in 19 is half that of 17 and double that of 18. On average... it seems to be about the same? hhh I hope I can finish this article smoothly in 20 years... (Another flag, waiting to be slapped in the face x)

Then, according to the usual practice, the little angels who leave a message under this chapter from the 1st to the 3rd can get a small red envelope~

I wish everyone a happy new year~ Continue to support me this year! ^_^