[Main Weak Insect] If you give me a pair of wings

The weekend after Valentine's Day, it started snowing again.

When waking up from sleep, there was light that was not glaring from the gap in the curtains. Kaiza Kazema rubbed his eyes and stood up. The quilt slipped off and felt a little cold. He opened a corner of the curtain and looked out, the world has become pure white One piece, the sky is still falling with big snowflakes like goose feathers.

Suddenly there was some small impulse in my heart, so I slowly moved my head closer, breathed out a mist on the glass window, raised my hand, and lightly drew a heart shape, the cold touch dispelled the lingering drowsiness , the corners of the lips could not help evoking a slight arc, almost involuntarily, wrote the name of that person in the heart-shaped frame, and then there was a burst of joy in his heart, as if he had done some important event, Accompanied by a small throbbing, the corners of the eyes were bent and the thin lips were slightly opened, and a soft word full of affection leaked out of the mouth, softening the whole world, "I like you so much."

Those were words that he dared not say in front of him no matter what, and only now that he was a little dazed when he first woke up, he had the courage to let himself take a look, and release the irrepressible love for a little bit, and suddenly The ringing of the phone instantly broke this short period of silence, causing her shoulders to tremble suddenly, almost like a conditioned reflex, she reached out and wiped away the mist with all her strength, and grabbed the phone.

"Hello? Hello, it's me... Eh? Senior Todo?!" After receiving a call from an unexpected person, Kazama Kaiku suddenly woke up, but after hearing those words spoken over there, She felt as if she still didn't wake up, because she couldn't understand what Dongdou Jinpachi was saying, "Wait...please wait! Senior Dongdou! You said...you called Onoda-kun to come to Hakone and Shinami-kun Climbing together?! Wait a minute...you...do you know it's February? And it's snowing a lot today!!!"

"...I see, I'll be there right away, please wait for me!!!" The usual way of communication seemed to be unable to communicate with the senior who didn't care about anything when he was interested, Kazama Kaikai began to hold his hands With some tightness in his chest, he took a deep breath and quickly grabbed his clothes.

"Yo! Xiao Haikong! You are finally here!"

"Wow! Haikong is here too? So happy!"

"Ah! That... Kazama-san? Long time no see..."

When they arrived at the place mentioned by Dongtang Jinba, the two teenagers who had been cheated had already arrived. Looking at the roadblocks at the intersection and the signs of heavy snow blocking the road, Kazama Kaikon once doubted life, walked around the railing and walked to The three of them went side by side, facing the boys who greeted her with a smile, Kazama Kaikong really didn't know what to say, and finally chose to ignore the two idiots who were already straddling the bicycle, and turned to the east first. Do everything possible, try to organize the language.

"...Senior Dongtang, have you seen the road closure sign over there in snowy weather? What is the meaning of the road closure in mountainous areas? Do you need me to explain it to you again?" He was so completely reckless He was so angry that his chest was stuffy, Fengjian Haikong didn't care about seniority, pointing to the sign hanging on the roadblock blocking the road, and said in a blunt tone, "Even if you don't talk about the problem of slippery mountain roads in snowy days , it's so cold now, you let the two of them..."

"Haha! I'm relieved to see Xiao Haikong you are so energetic! They are both here, so don't worry so much!" Tang Jinbayi was still a little fresh at the moment, raised his hand and patted Kazama Kaikong on the shoulder, and interrupted her complaints with a smile, "Although snowing is indeed unexpected, but it is also There is no other way, the road race itself will always have various unexpected situations!"

"It's different...!" Kaiku Kazama, who was really worried, opened his mouth and wanted to refute, but was blocked by Todo Jinpachi's serious expression looking at Mount Shinami and Onoda Sakamichi, and soon he heard that there was already a lot of excitement in his tone The playful smile faded, "Go and run. It wouldn't make sense if it wasn't for the two of you."

After understanding the deep meaning in his words, Kazama Haikong sighed heavily, finally gave up the usual frowning and shook his head, stepped forward to check the condition of the two teenagers' cars again, and finally asked: "I Understood, you guys go... You must pay attention to safety, if you encounter serious skids or other situations, give up the competition and stop immediately, you know? If you dare to get hurt..."

"Wow! Kaikong's expression is so scary..."

"Hey! I, I understand Kazama-san! Safety comes first!!!"

"Hmph! Onoda-kun has passed! What about you, Shinami-kun?!"

"Hehe, don't worry, what Haikong doesn't want to see, I will definitely not let it happen."

Although it was a little different from what I imagined, but after getting the guarantee from the two people, Kazama Kaikong watched their backs disappear into the heavy snow, and then he still stood on the side of the road in a fit of anger. Go to Lidongtang to do all eight.After all, Dongtang Jinba, who still understood her mood, calmed down the girl's emotions first, "Okay, okay, Xiao Haikong, don't be angry. They are all people who know how to measure, and nothing will happen. What's more... ...Today's game, even if there is no winner, there will be no problem."

"Well... Senior Dongtang, you just said that because you know that I can't stop them! Really..." I also understand the purpose of Dongtang Jinba's move, Kazama Kaikyo still can't do it in the end Blaming him for his intentions, he could only sigh fiercely, "You might as well not tell me!"

"Then why? Xiao Haikong, do you really think so? I thought you would never want to miss anything related to Zhenbo."

"Hmm! Well, that's true...but...that's two different things, okay!!!"

His cheeks were reddened by the conditioned reflex of being teased, Kazama Kaikong subconsciously raised his hand to cover his heart, then suddenly fell silent, and after a long while, he slowly raised his head and looked at Dongtang Jinpachi, with a sad and disappointed expression, "Senior Dongtang , Actually... I'm already planning to give up... Zhenbo-kun deserves someone better than me... who has no future burden... I don't have much time..."

"...Who said that? Did you decide it yourself?" After being shocked by the sudden news from Kazama Kaikyo, he was stunned for a moment, but Dongtang Jinba quickly reacted, since that time When he came across her conversation with the reporter, he knew that besides his illness, the child had other things that he was hiding from everyone, even him.Those who have been on the sidelines have learned from the teacher that although her illness is serious, it is not terminally ill. The biggest enemy Kazama Kaikong has always faced has never been the god of death, but his own demons.

"I have no other choice, Todo-senpai...that feeling...you won't understand..."

"If you ask me, you and Zhenbo are really a match made in heaven."

"Eh?"

Surprised by his sudden teasing, he suddenly raised his head and opened his eyes wide. When he was confused, he saw Dongtang Jinba standing next to the roadside stove, warming his hands, looking up at the direction of the top of the mountain, as if he was looking for something.

"Both of you got into the hole you dug for yourself and couldn't get out. He used too much force, and you just gave up. I don't think it's right for you two to neutralize?"

I really couldn't tell whether he was serious or joking, Kazama Kaikong bit his lip, just about to tell him not to make fun of himself, but Dongtang turned his head to look at her, and even lowered his voice, all of a sudden He became serious and calm, "Xiao Haikong knows bicycles so well, so he should be able to understand it. In fact, falling in love and cycling are the same thing. Now I feel that you are just like Zhenbo back then, plunged into a dead end Yes. If you can’t win the game, try to make yourself stronger, and just win it back next time. If you feel that you can’t see the future, you have to look forward and use your own hands to clear the fog and find the answer, not like this Give up on yourself and stop moving forward. The game and teammates run together, and life is the same, just like us in Zhenba and the club. Xiao Haikong, you have never been alone. Why do you always have to carry those burdens alone? Let it go, let others share some, and if we hold hands, no matter how thick the fog is, you will never get lost, right? You are thinking now, if there is no you, there will be others, but if that person It’s not you, what’s the meaning to you? The future you want should not be in a world without you, where others can live happily, but should be by your side, where you can see everyone’s happiness Smile is right."

It’s not about making everyone happy in a world without us, but about creating happiness for others by ourselves…

If she has never even tried her best, what qualifications does she have to say that she has lived with her best? ...In fact, she has always understood in her heart that the reason for refusing the operation is not at all because she wants to live to the end with her own will, but she is just afraid, timid that she will make a wrong choice, and dare not bear the burden of life. responsibility.But to escape to the end... What is left of her life?

"...I'm sorry, Dongtang-senpai, I'm not feeling well, so I'm going back today. Please apologize for me and Shinami-kun..."

In the end, Kazama Kaiku, whose mood was so chaotic that he couldn't sort it out, said goodbye to Dongdou with a pale face, and the teenagers who didn't wait for the return journey got on the bus going home alone.

What to do, in fact, she already had the answer in her heart.

"Hello? Brother Naoki? Um... yes, actually, I have something to tell you... well, it's best to talk to you face to face. When are you free?...Okay, I see."

In the season of early Sakura Hatsusaki in March, with the approach of the final exam, finally ushered in the graduation ceremony of the third-year seniors.

That morning, even though he was not a student representative, Zhenba Shanyue was not late, but arrived at the auditorium early, and sent bouquets to the seniors of the bicycle department, expressing his gratitude earnestly.He who has always been sloppy is actually more serious than anyone else in his heart, and cares more about this club. Kazama Kaikuro, who understands this matter deeply, sits beside squad leader Miyahara and looks at them quietly, hesitating for a while , finally got up and stepped forward, walking to them.

"Congratulations on your graduation."

Sending the most sincere blessings and thanks to each of the seniors, when Kazama Kaiku stood in front of Dongdou Jinpachi, he raised his head and stared at him for a long time, as if hesitating, but finally revealed to him in relief. With a smile, I bowed deeply: "Thank you very much all the time, Senior Dongtang. Regarding what you said last time, I will think about it with a positive attitude. I have caused you a lot of trouble, and I am really very grateful. Feel sorry."

Hearing her answer like this, Dongtang Jinba finally felt relieved and smiled back, "It's better if you want to think like this, Xiao Haikong has worked hard all this time, but we will continue to work hard in the future. "

"Yes!"

The conversation between the two people was so confusing that the people next to them were all confused, but no one wanted to explain, so they returned to their respective positions and started the graduation ceremony.

"Um... Kazama-student, is Todo-senpai the same senior you mentioned before?" During the ceremony, Miyahara, who was sitting next to Kaiku Kazama, poked her arm lightly and asked in a low voice, Kazama Kaiku nodded and answered truthfully: "Yes, Miyahara-san also knows Todou-senpai?"

"Well, I heard about the mountain, and I said a few words before..." She was talking about what happened when everyone worked hard to understand the true wave of the mountain. What is Kazama-san going to do after graduation? I just heard you guys talking about the future..."

"Eh? What?" Facing Miyahara's sudden question, Kazama Kaiku didn't react all of a sudden, she didn't know what they meant by the future, and heard Kazama Kaikai's conditioned reflex When I asked back, I just felt that she didn't want to talk about this topic with me, and this question was indeed a bit presumptuous, so I immediately shook my head and said with an apologetic smile: "Yeah, it's nothing, please don't worry about it."

"Yeah." Kazama Kaiku who just came to his senses responded in embarrassment, and didn't say anything, just apologized in a low voice in his heart, I'm really sorry, she seems to have accidentally done something that misunderstood Miyahara ...

The time we agreed to meet with Naoki Irie was during the spring break. It was because she was busy both with schoolwork and club affairs at the end of the semester, and she couldn't spare time to go back.He didn't tell him that he already knew the "death date", but just asked him what preparations he would need to make if he wanted to undergo surgery. Although Irie Naoki didn't understand why she suddenly changed her mind, she explained it to her in detail. up.

"If you need surgery, it's best to arrange it as soon as possible. You may need to take a break from school for a while."

"Well...can we wait until this summer is over? Look...it's not a few months anyway, it shouldn't be too late, right?"

"Huh? Why do you say that? Is there anything you want to do?"

"The summer high school league... I want to participate again, that, in fact... There is a person, I want to accompany him to complete the game no matter what..."

"That's it... well, how should I put it, as a doctor, I don't recommend delaying it for so long, but... I also want to respect Haiku's will, so if you promise me to be obedient, from now on When I start preparing for the surgery, I will try my best to coordinate with Dr. Nishigaki."

"Really?" Hearing Naoki Irie's answer, Kazama Kaiku opened his eyes wide open with a tangled face. His pupils were bright, and he finally smiled, but suddenly thought of something, and quickly twisted his eyes. Eyebrow, "Well, brother Zhishu, about this...can you not tell my mother and them?"

"what happened?"

"If my mother knew, she would definitely pull me to have the surgery regardless of my thoughts... Although there was indeed a similar agreement before, but I... really don't want to leave the school, I don't want to leave everyone... So ..."

"...Okay, I get it, I'll keep it a secret for you, but if you force yourself to do something dangerous, I'll still notify your parents as soon as possible."

"Hmm... Brother Naoki, are you threatening me?"

"Why? I just want to do my duty as a doctor."

... I was caught again! ! !Talking to geniuses is really annoying! ! !

The author has something to say:

Ah, I finally finished writing the first year of school! ! ! !Sprinkle flowers! ! !

I don’t want to write any more after writing, I just want to directly upload the outline to get OTL

I can finally start writing [-]nd grade stories! !Touched QAQ! ! !

Irresponsible spoiler. In the second grade, Kaiku and Mamami will confess to each other and get together!

By the way, the agreement between Kaiku and his mother is to go back to Chiba for treatment in case of an attack, and Kaiku has been staying in Kanagawa without telling his family that he almost fell ill several times.

In fact, Haikong has been subconsciously escaping from reality. Li Ying told her before that she should face the future bravely, but she escaped. Haikong's state of mind will be different on the road to nowhere. She doesn't want to die, so when she can't escape anymore, she must learn to face it.

After all, it would be happier to live with everyone than to die alone, wouldn't it?