[Main Weak Insect] If you give me a pair of wings

I don't know how I got out of the hospital, Kazama Kaikong sat on an empty bench in a street park, the biting wind blew on my face, like a knife was about to cut off flesh and blood piece by piece, it hurt so badly Totally unresponsive.

She opened her eyes wide and stared blankly at the heavy traffic on the road in the distance. The prosperity and haste of the capital passed by her eyes without leaving a trace.

The two doctors who just overheard discussing her illness seemed to have reached a conclusion long ago, but no one was willing to tell her the truth.Ben was full of joy and thought that as long as she kept taking the medicine obediently, she would be able to live her life in such an ordinary way. Although she never expected a long life, she never thought that her life was just doomed. the brief...

Two years left.

I knew that I would not live too long, but I didn't expect that the deadline would come so quickly, and it even made people a little unprepared. With only these short two years, what else can I do?Can you get your high school diploma without incident?

It was obviously hard for me to make up my mind to come to that school. In my favorite club, I went on the same boat with the best teenagers in the country, and moved towards new goals and dreams. I just got a boy I like, and I want to work hard. There is nothing wrong with some sweet troubles in the days of youth.

Obviously, a few days ago, I was still sad about the parting because of the familiar and kind seniors who were about to graduate, and I was still dreaming about whether I could get the second button on the boy's uniform at the graduation ceremony... But in the blink of an eye, all those fantasies disappeared. Torn into pieces of a dream, scattered in the icy cold wind, dissipated cleanly.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I can't graduate with everyone..."

The slight trembling of the vocal cords felt as if it was about to sever the throat, and finally wet tears appeared in the dry eyes, with rustling pain, and the temperature of the falling tears almost scalded the cold cheeks... …

Ah, even though my body is so cold, my tears are still warm.

"I'm sorry... I don't want to... but... Shinami-kun..."

The hair band tied on her head was the first Christmas gift he gave her, and the pattern of red dots on a white background was a code that only those in their circle could understand.The Mountain Award, that was their initial and final dream, and it was the direction they have been walking together and working hard for...

It's just that someone who obviously likes it so much, and who likes it for the first time, is always special.She clearly wanted to overcome all difficulties and strive for it, but now, how could she have the qualifications to say it?She already... really has no future.If there were really only two years left in the rest of her life, then instead of letting him live with the pain of losing her, she wanted to use these two years to make him forget herself slowly.Little by little, disappearing from his world without leaving any traces, so that when the day he really leaves, it will definitely not bother him anymore.

Ah, that's great.She hasn't had a deep bond with him yet... This may be the most correct thing she has done in this life of indecision and the most worthy of her happiness now.

"Father... Mom... Hailu-kun... Li Ying... I'm sorry..."

But what about the parents, family, and Haruhi Rika?What should she do to minimize the harm to them?Having caused them so much trouble all this time...she didn't even have time to make up for it in return...

However, she has no other way to do something for them...

Sure enough, I don't want to die yet!There are still many things she wants to do... But when did she have the power to decide her own destiny?All she can do is to work hard to survive the last two years... At this moment, for the first time, she had the idea of ​​thanking herself for knowing the truth. One day suddenly ushered in the last moment, and she hoped that everything could be arranged when she knew the end, so as to minimize all possible damage.

If only she could be alone when she left, it would be great if the whole world forgets her.This way... no one will be sad because of her disappearance, so no one will be sad for her.

"No...you can't cry!" He raised his hand and wiped away the tears fiercely, wiping his entire face so painfully, Kazama Kaikong clenched his fists and bit his teeth to death.She had to be strong, and it was at this time that she had to be stronger than usual!There are still two years left!Two years, 24 months, 730 days, 17520 hours, 1051200 minutes, 63072000 seconds.Look, if you think about it in terms of conversion, there is actually a lot of time, isn't it?Wouldn't it be enough to deal with the little problems left over from her fledgling life?

Isn't that the reason why you don't want to undergo surgery all the time?She wants... to be able to arrange her own life well, instead of being influenced by other people's success or failure!

only……

"Next time we have a chance, let's ride out together!"Hmm... how about going uphill?The manager also likes it very much! 』

"Actually, I really want to ride with you too!Even if you can't climb hills, you can't ride fast, but if you are with you, you will feel very happy even if you ride slowly! 』

If possible, she would really like to go out cycling with him again...to the mountains, to the beach, to climb slopes together, to train together, to ride the way home under the moonlight together...that might be her dim The only light in my life, the only dream...

But that's already... I have to give up.Don't bother him anymore.Can't leave too many traces...

"Obviously...it's been decided...but why...why...it hurts here?!..."

"Why... It's not like I'm sick, but my heart is hurting..."

"What the hell am I..."

"'Death is not the opposite of life, but exists forever as a part of life.' Obviously...you know..."

"But if it really disappears, what will the world look like?"

"Death or something... It really is... scary..."

"I'll never see you again...so scared..."

"help me……"

The girl clasped her hands lightly against her forehead, tears kept dripping like pearls with broken strings, murmured those whispered words as if praying, trembling, drifting in the cold wind, without Who will respond to the redemption...

That day's agreement with Kasuga Rika was eventually pushed away by Kazama Kaiku on the grounds of impromptu affairs, and he couldn't make others worry for nothing with a crying and red-eyed look. Fortunately, the other party didn't care about it seriously. Just tell her to go to work, don't worry about it.Instead, I spent the afternoon walking aimlessly among the high-rise buildings in Tokyo. After finally calming down, I got home and was asked by Kazama Kaiji who also came back because of an appointment with a classmate. Eyes such a reason to fool the past.In a blink of an eye, it's time to start school again.

The third semester is the end of the school year. The graduates are busy preparing for exams and matters related to entering a higher school or finding a job. They get busy early, and the students in the lower grades are not idle. is approaching them step by step.

Because the weather has not yet warmed up, the activities of the bicycle department are still confined indoors, and there are not many things to do. Kazama Kaikong just got free after finishing his own work, and he heard a few voices in the gap of drinking water. A second-year senior who helped clean the department room was discussing whether Toichiro Izumita, who was exercising his muscles in the equipment room, could become a qualified captain.As the commanding tower of the team, the captain shoulders a very important responsibility. The captains of the previous generations of box studies were either all-around players or climbing players, and this time the sprint-type Toichiro Izumita really made history. After losing At the moment of last year's competition, it was even more disturbing.

The Hakaku team in the last high school league was a very good team, and as a member of that team, Toichiro Izumita, Kaiku Kazama naturally did not doubt his ability, and she also admired that person's hard work and growth in recent days From what I can see, he is somewhat dissatisfied with those seniors talking behind their backs.

"If the seniors are free, how about finishing the work at hand quickly? In addition, it is always bad behavior to speak ill of people behind their backs. If the seniors have any opinions, why not report them directly to Senior Quantian or the teacher?"

On the first day of school, there are always a lot of things that the manager and chores need to do. After being told by Kazama Kaiku, several people couldn't hold back their faces. They flicked the brooms in their hands to the side, and walked up to her in two or three steps. , looking down at her with her waist down, taking advantage of her height, "Don't interrupt the seniors when they talk! Kazama, don't talk about how clean you are? Who doesn't know that you are the famous Kazama player?" Daughter, relying on family connections to run in, she only blindly pleases the guy who is being elected, how can she say anything about us?"

"You...!" Unexpectedly, the topic was brought to her instead, Kazama Kaikuro's eyes widened, and he glared back fiercely.She had a little impression of these seniors, they were among the people who bullied Tongqiao Zhengqing and forced him to quit the club before!All of them are capable but not capable, all day long they only know how to put on the posture of a senior to bully others, and now they dare to point out that a deer is a horse and pour dirty water on her head regardless of black and white!

"What? Do you want to fight? I said you have thin arms and legs, don't say that we are bullying people." Noticing the anger of Kazama Haikong, a slightly shorter senior stood up and stretched out jokingly. He shot a light push on Kazama Haikong's shoulder, but they didn't expect that she couldn't help hitting more than they imagined. With just such a light push, she was directly pushed to the ground and fell a somersault.

Coincidentally, Wei Muchang Tuo Dou just came to report to the club at this time, and just opened the door, before he finished saying "good morning", he saw Kazama Kaikong being pushed to the ground by several boys , Immediately quit.

"Hey! I'm talking about you! What are you doing! Several big men bully a girl, don't you have such a thing as self-esteem?!"

"Huh? She collapsed at the first touch like a piece of paper. Where did we bully her? Why do you want a hero to save the beauty in Weimuchang? This year's main force is all this kind of stuff. We can learn from it. No way, don’t get kicked out in the regional competition.”

"……What did you say!!"

Seeing that Wei Muchang Tuo Dou, who was much taller than them, took a few steps forward and grabbed the speaker's lapel, Kazama Kai Kong, who was stunned there just now, got up from the ground and grabbed Wei Takuto Kiba's arm, shook his head, "I'm fine! Senior Aishakiba! Don't be impulsive!"

"But they...!"

"What's the matter? What are you doing at Weimuchang? Kazama! What's going on here?"

Takuto Ashikiba hadn't uttered a rebuttal yet. Toichiro Izumita and Yusei Kuroda, who heard the noise outside, saw such a chaotic scene and felt a headache. Thinking about it, there might be nothing useful to ask from him. According to the news, Toichiro Izumita still chose to let Kai Kazama, who seemed a little more rational, explain the situation.

As a result, the moment she opened her mouth, the atmosphere became even more embarrassing.

In the final analysis, this problem was caused by Toichiro Izumita's failure to establish prestige in the team. Kuroda Yusei's whole face turned black when he heard it from the side, and Takuto Aishakiba still stared at those people angrily. , The Zhengxuan of Box School has always been protective of the calf. Whether it is the new general or the manager they like very much, it is not easy to forgive, but this matter is ultimately a dissatisfied opinion of others. If anyone here does anything, it will be regarded as retaliation, which is very difficult.

In the end, they accepted their opinions humbly, but they pushed the girl, and Takuto Akiba grabbed her by the collar, both of which were the facts and asked both parties to apologize to each other.Looking at the empty department room in the morning and the gloomy sky outside, Kazama Haikong couldn't feel at ease.

It looks like it might snow today.The few people who routinely ride to school... just don't encounter any problems.

The author has something to say:

Physical problems and problems in the community all came up in one brain this winter, and life became more and more difficult, and I don't know what the future will be like.

[Death is not the opposite of life, but exists forever as a part of life. 】This sentence is from the forest in Norway. Haikong likes to read this book very much.

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