[Main Weak Insect] If you give me a pair of wings

She asked this question herself, and she asked him to answer it seriously. He was just telling the truth, but even though he knew it was true, Kazama Haikong only felt the pain in her chest, and she could hardly breathe , slowly paled.

In the dimly lit carriage, Zhenba Shanyue couldn't quite figure out why Kazama Kaiku became silent, but he seemed to have some difficulty hearing her voice, so he hurriedly leaned over and asked in concern, "Kaiku? What are you doing?" Is it? Is there any discomfort?"

The innocent young man didn't know where the girl's sudden pain came from, and naturally he didn't realize that there was something wrong with what he said just now. Facing his sincere and innocent concern, Kazama Kaikyo almost wanted to laugh for a moment, but she In the end, he just avoided his gaze without a trace, and shook his head desperately to show that he was fine.

But even if she did that, the boy over there still didn't feel relieved, and still asked her this and that, looking nervous.Kazama Kaikyo was finally completely defeated by his reaction, burst out laughing, and pressed the shoulder of Shinami Shanyue, who was already fidgeting, to let him sit down in the seat, the hazy light cast by the old street lamp In the middle, the young man's eyes were as clear as a starry night sky, she suddenly stopped breathing, and her smile finally brought a bit of bitterness.

"If... if I meet you first..."

Such a sentence from the bottom of her heart leaked out of her mouth, Kazama Kaikyo stared at the real wave mountain, and the moment he met his gaze, she once again confirmed her feelings for this boy in her heart, she couldn't let herself She stopped her longing and longing for him, she knew she couldn't give up, but this was the most desperate place.

That flower bloomed quietly inadvertently, but it was destined not to be able to bathe in the sun...

If she appeared by his side when he was lonely and helpless, if she met him earlier than Class President Miyahara... Could everything be turned into a beautiful fairy tale?But at that time... After all, she was just a sick child who was lying on a hospital bed, her heart might stop beating at any time, and she was worse than him.

"What?" Zhenba Shanyue, who was obviously confused by the sudden sentence she said, and was still being pressed on his shoulder, asked naturally, tilting his head.

"No... no, it's nothing... well, I just suddenly felt that the time I have survived, is there any meaning? Is it... valuable... or something..."

That accident failed to take away her life, which was left behind by the god of death. During these five years, why did she exist?In addition to bringing pain and misfortune to her family, and constantly causing trouble to those around her, has she ever done anything to help others?

No matter how much he didn't want to admit it, it was Miyahara who saved Mount Shinami, both physically and mentally.She led him into the world of bicycles, so they met...

"Why am I...why am I here..."

Kazama Haikong asks himself such a question many times in his heart almost every day, but he never mentions it to others.Even though her life is worthless, she also knows that everyone around her wants her to live, and she doesn't desire to die.Just emptiness.So that day, when she saw Dongtang Jinba crossing the finish line on the top of the mountain, his back overlapped with some vague images in her memory, and a feeling that she had never had before emerged from the bottom of her heart and filled her heart With her whole heart, at that moment, she seemed to have been reborn suddenly, and she had found the goal of existence.She was going to that man's side, she had to be by his side, to help him win.

It was the first time in her life that she was so resolute and willful, even though she contradicted her parents, she still had to come to the distant Kanagawa.

But after she really integrated into the circle he was in, the air between the wind, the sea, and the sky quickly fell down again. Everything seemed not to be what she thought. Her feelings for that person seemed to be different from what she thought. What is different.She still looked at his back, overlapped with the vague picture in her memory, she heard the cheers, just like what she heard when she was a child in a distant overseas.But the east hall is so full...it can't be the second Kazama Kaixiang.When she realized this, the delicately maintained balance was quickly broken, and she became at a loss. At that time, the figure of the boy who always climbed the hill with a smile squeezed into her little by little. Her heart opened another door to a world she had never touched before, and light came in.

So I don't know when it started, what she cared about was no longer the perfect mountain god, but the young man with not yet full wings.He is like the center of the world, where the world shines brightly with him, but where the light does not reach, the shadows appear even darker.She began to doubt her own heart. She came to Dongtang Jinbachi for atonement, but she changed her mind... The person she wanted to accompany and assist was no longer the mountain god. She seemed to have betrayed her. She has been persevering all this time, but she also understands that what she has been persevering all this time is just what she thinks is kindness.It's just that when the last fig leaf was torn away, the condemnation of herself and the uneasiness of conscience engulfed her more and more violently, and almost instinctively, she was seeking redemption - Zhenbo Shanyue naturally Became the only ray of light.

The more he knew that what he was doing was hopelessly depraved, the more he couldn't resist the wonderful temptation, until he himself uttered such a cruel answer and woke her up from the dream.Of course he didn't know the whole story, and he didn't need to know, but she couldn't help but care about it. She was struggling in the conflict like this, unable to let go of anything, unable to grasp anything...

"Um... that, although I don't know what you mean by Kaiku...but I think there is no problem." I don't know that the girl's heart has been tangled and churned several times in just a few seconds. Shan Yue still responded to such completely unclear speeches. Kazama Kaiku often does some strange things, and he has become used to them. Moreover, she said such words in such a tone, there is nothing he can do about it. ignore it.

So under the girl's still somewhat bewildered gaze, Zhenba Shanyue smiled and nodded to her, almost with pampering comfort, raised his hand and gently patted the top of her hair, "I think the sea and the sky are There is absolutely no problem here. Rather, Kaiku should be here."

"Although just now Haikong asked me if I would not have met you if you had never touched a bicycle, I said maybe it would really be like that, but such an assumption does not exist! Now I Knowing Haikong, sitting in front of you like this, there is no way to change this fact?"

"It's the same even for me! If I hadn't been in bed all the time, maybe I would still have encountered bicycles, but I definitely wouldn't like it so much. I wouldn't feel the joy of riding that I enjoy now, wouldn't it? Is it a pity? Well...although it sounds a bit embarrassing to say it, but this is a blessing in disguise, right? That’s why I was able to ride a bicycle, or rather, I’m actually very grateful to myself who was once sick and weak!”

"So, everything that Haikong has done is by no means meaningless. It is because of everything that we have experienced in the past that we exist today. I think so! After all, we live in the present, The past has passed, and we can't change anything. If you feel that you can't find value and meaning, take everything you have now as the value and meaning accumulated in the past, and then look forward .”

It seemed that he was not good at expressing his thoughts, and he paused several times before he managed to organize his words, but every single word fell into Kazama Kaikong's heart heavily.

"...Thank you.....That's what you said, but...I always feel...Minami-kun is so powerful. He has become...very reliable." Obviously, he was so childish and had a temper with her before, After being unable to get over a loss in a game for a long time, now, she was able to speak such mature and steady words to comfort her.Perhaps his wings had really grown rapidly in a place that she hadn't even seen.

"Eh? No, there's no such thing! It's also because I was educated by Kaiku, Todou-senpai, and Kuroda-senpai before, and I have thought about it a lot... If I am always stuck in the past success or failure, I can't get out Otherwise, even what I hold in my hand may be lost, let alone look to the future. So I decided to let go of those useless regrets and look up to the front. It is because Kai and Kong are always by my side By my side, I can make progress like now! So the same goes for sea and air, no matter what happened in the past, we should look forward, okay?"

"Okay." Unable to refuse his request, Kazama Kaiku nodded and finally smiled.

He was real, growing more mature without her noticing.Do high school boys grow up so fast?A him like that...wouldn't it make her even more unbearable and want to rely on him?Do you regret it?But what he said is right, the past has passed, she is powerless to change anything, and even if she was not at the best age in her childhood, she still met him in the end, perhaps this kind of fate is actually not bad, This fact, she also does not want it to disappear from the bottom of her heart.

Whether it's the sufferings of the past or the things she has to bear now, the things she wants to abandon, without these, she would never have met this boy, and would not have fallen in love with him.In that case, she is willing to regard all the pain and suffering as the trials of fate, and only after she has been tempered can she meet the most beautiful gems.

Her life is by no means meaningless, and everything in the past is not indifferent. It is those experiences that have built her present self, and all of them are worthy of gratitude and cherishment.

"I seem to be able to understand that Mr. Zhenbo wants to pursue the feeling of being able to feel the pain of being alive..."

The author has something to say:

Let me explain, this chapter is the main plot, it is not just prepared for romance, it should be said that the change of Hai Kong's state of mind in this chapter is an important foreshadowing for being able to move towards HE.Because in the original setting, Haikong is a weak person who has no courage to face reality and pressure. She always chooses to escape, so there will be BE1 later. Haikong finally did not undergo surgery and died at the age of 18. In BE2, Haikong and Zhenbo still broke up because of some things after dating, and they didn't make it to the end. This kind of development, but here, Haikong decided to face it, and decided to cherish even the suffering. Such a change will make She has become stronger little by little, and she has learned to insist on herself. Of course, this change is subtle, and it will not change all at once. I will try my best to be more obvious. When I really feel that I am a fool and can't write well, I will write notes later. Please bear with me.

Regarding the real wave in this chapter, and the real wave in a certain plot later, let me give you a vaccination first. After I told the story to the military division No. [-] friend, the friend said it was a bit OOC, but I Personally, I think it’s okay. After all, this person is a natural black attribute. I think natural black is not stupid and sweet. Although he is called a little angel, this person is actually very smart. He has a dedication to competition and victory, and has his own. Of course, he is usually a sweet-mouthed baby, but after going through so many things, I think he will grow up. Well, since there are dark elements, I will write about the carnivorous baby who turns black after enlightenment. Let me give it first. Everyone be mentally prepared.

Of course, I can't say that my own writing will never be OOC. If there is something that makes everyone feel that it is unacceptably broken, I still hope to point it out, and I will try to correct it. After all, everyone's analysis and understanding of characters are different. It's not the same, and I can't say that my understanding must be correct, I can only say that I try my best...

Thank you very much for your long-term tolerance and support!

Two days late for Chinese New Year greetings, I wish everyone a happy and prosperous Year of the Dog and everything goes well! ^_^

Ah, apologies for writing so many long and stinky instructions, with a little theater attached --

[In the explanation that day, he talked about the past, about life and the meaning of being alive. He said that he was grateful for meeting her, but he just seemed to forget to mention the girl who was his childhood sweetheart.So a long time later, when they had confirmed their relationship, on a certain Christmas Eve, when the snow was falling, she took his rare rest by the hand and sat on the tram home, leaning her head lightly on his shoulder, Suddenly remembered such an old event, and asked with a smile: "Speaking of which, there was one thing that Shanyue didn't explain to me at that time." "At that time...? What happened?" He didn't react at all. What was the situation that my girlfriend suddenly mentioned, Shinami Shanyue looked at Kazama Kaikyo in a daze, and met those eyes that seemed to be dissatisfied, "It was Christmas in the first year of high school, we didn't come from the club Did you escape? Shan Yue told me that Ms. Miyahara brought you into the world of bicycles, so even if she is not a childhood sweetheart, she is still an important person to you, a special existence...I say you, no Do you still think so now? I will be angry, huh?" "Eh? Ah... You said that. It's true that the situation has not changed now, but you misunderstood that it was Kaiku, I didn't mean that in particular. Oh." "Huh? Are you kidding me?" "How come! Ah... Didn't I tell you? That day I raced with Ms. Miyahara, the day I rode a road bike for the first time , Then, I tried my best and couldn't catch up with her, that's why I said it was special, after all, she is the only person in the whole world that I haven't won, and the monitor that day was probably the fastest in the world." "... ...Shan Yue, do you want to fight?" "???" "Why don't you go to a match with Ms. Miyahara tomorrow?" "?!?!?!" "... Forget it, what do you think of me Didn't say anything. Ah, sure enough, don't pretend that I didn't say anything, you can make an appointment with me tomorrow!" "!!!" "I beat you, and I will be number one in the world soon, so don't think about it Are you looking at Miyahara-san, huh?" "Pfft...so Kaiku is thinking about this kind of thing? Haha, it's okay, it doesn't matter if you don't have to win me, after all... from now on, you will stay with me for the rest of your life , only the bicycle and you, you are my most special person, the most important person, an existence that no one can replace." "...But I still want to win you once!"]

(Note: This is the plot that will happen in the direction of HE~ Zhenbo road bike professional player and world champion is set. Regarding the title of Ms. Miyahara, it was called by Zhenbo himself in the official magazine. I didn’t expect him to treat others Speaking of Miyahara not using the title of class monitor, it turned out to be Miyahara-san as an honorific name, I thought he would call him by his name... I was shocked when I saw it...)