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It was the first time Lin Feng saw Gang San staring at him, and he was still staring at himself. He blamed himself for this, but now he felt even more guilty. , Just—fuck, I know I'm messed up. Sigh, you can scold me, I also feel that I am too worthless!" Lin Feng lowered his head and said nothing, knowing that he was right.

Gang San was also silent, he didn't know what to say.

After a while, Lin Feng spoke again: "You can't imagine, you absolutely can't imagine how he turned around and treated me!"

"Fuck it back! Then he must not be as cruel as you." Gang San said it as a matter of course.

Uh... Lin Feng was speechless, Gang San said this, and it was not wrong at all, it just made Lin Feng speechless, and the two continued to remain silent.

"I'm not wrong, why don't you talk anymore?" Gang Sanshou raised his head and asked after reconciling with his superiors.

"Yes, I told you to talk. Dapeng was afraid of hurting me, so be careful, I really don't deserve that kind of service! The more he treats me like that, the more I feel worthless. It's really fucking nothing..." The voice became smaller and smaller, and Lin Feng wanted to slap himself.

"Fuck!" Gang San suddenly thought of something and swears, punching himself on the head with his fist, he remembered what he was here for today.Leizi and Gangsan knew that Jia Zhipeng was gone, and knew that Jia Zhipeng would not come back. They agreed that Gangsan was here to persuade Lin Feng to let go of Jia Zhipeng and start over, not to make himself half dead, but now... these two days Humans are really a perfect match, a donkey looks like a human being, and a donkey is up to you, and I will treat you heart-to-heart.Gang San, who has always been sharp-tongued, didn't know where to start his words to persuade people to let go. "Oh!" Gang Sanchong sighed heavily.

"Alas—" Lin Feng also sighed, but he wanted to let out the blockage in his heart for a long time.

"You still have self-knowledge, and you feel that you are not human..." Gang San didn't know what to say, you felt that you were not human anymore, but he still presented you with a heart, Jia Zhipeng is Did I owe you anything in my previous life? "You really are not a thing! But then again, Dapeng is also willing to be a good guy, he is good to everyone."

The two lowered their heads and made dumplings for a while, silently hearing the pace of the clock on the wall, which was the sound of time passing by.

Gang San was thinking in his heart, he had also experienced a heartbreaking parting from life and death, how long would it take for that heart disease to be cured by time?It was about three months. At that time, I felt that life was like years, but after three months, at least my heart would not hurt so much that I would not wake up in the night, and the pain gradually eased. Although it will take a while to let go, a longer period Time, but survived the first three months and came back alive.

"Should I pack it later or now?" Lin Feng asked Gang San after he finished adjusting the stuffing.

Gang San saw that the time was just past noon, and he had eaten at noon, and now he couldn’t eat the buns, so why not cook dinner now, and said, “Later, have you eaten yet?”

"I didn't eat, I didn't eat in the morning or at noon. I didn't know I was hungry if you didn't come. I'm hungry now too. Sit down and go. I'll get something to eat." It's been like this recently, and Lin Feng is used to it. After Jia Zhipeng left, the biological clock ran slowly, and I didn't know how to sleep or eat.It's either that I'm not sleepy, or I can't fall asleep; it's not that I don't know I'm hungry at all, but I always remember it after the meal time.

"Fuck, I know you're running out of food. There are noodles at the bottom of that bag. You can eat them yourself. I've eaten them." Gang San suddenly had a flash of inspiration when Lin Feng was shopping in the market before he came here. Guess This donkey thing doesn't know why he can't get along with him recently, and he's broken up in a serious relationship!In addition, Lin Feng's fast and edible noodles, instant noodles, seaweed soup... etc. are all brought back by Jia Zhipeng when he bought snacks. Eight or nine are going to run out of food.

"You can pinch and count." Lin Feng rolled his eyes at Gang San, "Why don't you become a great immortal?"

"Oh, fuck, I can't be a magic stick, so I know what kind of bear you are, and I know what you can do without poking your butt." Gang San smiled disdainfully.How long have you two known each other?How long have you been friends?It's been ten years, and the two of them have never given birth to love. This buddy loyalty is more reliable than fucking love.The two boyfriends have changed a few times, but this buddy is still so determined.

Lin Feng didn't treat himself badly, he got a few spinach stalks from the vegetables bought by Gangsan, took an egg out of the refrigerator, ordered a pot of spinach egg noodles, and ate two big bowls of it hot.After eating and drinking enough, Gang Sanwo chatted with Jia Zhipeng on the sofa.

Lin Feng checked that it was about the same time, went to the kitchen to find a rolling pin and threw it to Gang San, and he was talking about his and Jia Zhipeng's affairs, "Actually," Gang San understood, took it and put it next to the panel, while making the dough quickly Cheng Zizi listened to Lin Feng continue, "I knew he might leave a long time ago, and I didn't worry about it for a day or two, but when it came time for him to leave, my mind was in a mess and I just didn't know what to do...how to say it ?” Lin Feng let out another breath.

Gang San was ready to roll the skin, and asked, "I knew that earlier? How early?"

"It's been half a year, and you know that he was sent by their company. Half a year ago, he said that their company's representatives in various places would have a big rotation, and he didn't know where he would be transferred. I'm not afraid of you laughing, I was very special at that time. Afraid that he would leave, he also said that he would try his best to stay in the three eastern provinces. Although he said, I am still worried, and my heart is still hanging like that." Lin Feng said with a wry smile, it was just a prelude to the real separation, it can be regarded as God favored it?Let him make mental preparations in advance before everything really comes; or is God deliberately prolonging the worry of parting for longer, to torture him?Sometimes Lin Feng didn't understand how the hell he had offended the gods, and if he beat Lin Feng one by one, was he trying to punish him to death?

"Later, when he was still out of town, he called me specifically, saying that the first few places where the rotation started, the handover between personnel was not smooth, and it almost stopped, and I breathed a long sigh of relief. Unexpectedly, it was only half a year , Suddenly his parents quit, they insisted on letting him go back, if he couldn’t be transferred back, he had to go back even if he resigned, even if he had to go back, there was no room for negotiation.” Lin Feng looked at Gang San and thought about his own affairs, his eyes straightened.

"What's going on at home? It won't be discovered, right?" Gang San didn't want to understand what happened to Jia Zhipeng's house, so he made random guesses.

"Probably not," Lin Feng shook his head, watched Gang San roll out a few skins, and reached out to take one, "Didn't Dapeng go back earlier this year? His father was ill, I guess the old man was not in good health I really miss my son." Lin Feng put the stuffing on the skin with chopsticks, and started to wrap the dumplings.

Gang San raised his eyebrows, didn't speak, just continued to listen and roll the skin.

"Jia Zhipeng's wife, he went to the hospital with him when he went back, and never went to the hospital with him, so I can't count on it at all." Lin Feng shook his head, and he wanted to say: 〖It doesn't matter if she is a good woman, just For such a woman, Jia Zhipeng felt that he owed her all the time. 〗But he didn’t say the words to Gang San.

Gang San suddenly smiled wryly, "Fortunately, I found out in time." Back then, Gang San bought his wedding house and paid for it in full. After buying the second-hand house, he didn't have enough money to renovate it. Sometimes when a wife is about to get married, she will use the rent to install the house and it will be a new house.The plan was pretty good, I bought a house and started collecting rent, I had a boyfriend before I found my girlfriend...

"What?" Lin Feng was still thinking about what Jia Zhipeng hadn't heard Qing Gangsan said.

"Let me tell you, it's a good thing I found out that I'm gay before I got married, or else I have to be like him—" Gang San drooped his head remembering that time.

"Fuck!" Lin Feng scolded without anger, and kept making dumplings in his hands.

"I'm convinced, it's fine if you say your stuffing is delicious, how come the dumplings you made look better than mine?!" Gang San looked at Lin Feng's small dumplings with big belly and wrinkled edges, just looking cute.

"That hand grows on your body, blind!" Lin Feng is right, Gang San's hands are very good, the joints are not clear, round and slender, women would envy them, but the size is bigger than women's hands minimum two sizes.When Lei Zi first met Gang San, he couldn't move his eyes from looking at those hands.

"Fengzi, have you ever thought about it, maybe—it wasn't intentional, he's used to being abused by you." Gang San said with a smile, a bit bitter.

"Why didn't Dapeng let me on purpose?" Lin Feng didn't quite understand Gang San's meaning.

"Well, I'm used to it." Looking at Lin Feng's blank eyes, Gang San had the urge to punch him, "Damn, don't you understand? He doesn't need to be patient, because he has you in his heart." Damn it!What am I here for?Gang San wanted to sew his mouth shut again.Gang San can understand this kind of feeling, and do nothing, just want to be nice to a person, as long as you get well, my heart will blossom, and I won’t see the other party feel uncomfortable——Gang San has also had such feelings, including now Lei Zi.

"He has me in his heart! And he has always had me." Lin Feng's tears rolled in his eyes, but he couldn't help but still fell down.

Gang San lowered his head, but Lin Feng saw something strange on the panel, and when there was another drop of water, Lin Feng realized that it was Gang San's tears.We have known each other for ten years, and Gang San has experienced many things. He can yell at people like a shrew, and he can shed tears when a small animal is injured.He didn't need to ask to know that he was worried about the matter of Lin Feng and Jia Zhipeng again, and he might have thought of his heart-wrenching relationship.

"Ah!" Lin Feng sighed, he also wanted to cry, he always felt better when he cried, but he couldn't cry, except for the first line of tears, he had no more tears, that feeling of wanting to cry but not being able to cry , more uncomfortable than pain, a feeling that cannot be described in words and cannot be accurately described in words.Thinking of a person like that makes your mind dizzy, half asleep, half awake, and suddenly you open your eyes, and a fast falcon runs through the sky in front of your eyes, and you feel that what is cut is not the image of the retina but yours. chest cavity.The boundless but not extremely sharp pain is the suffocation that devours one wave after another and makes you unable to breathe.

So that night, after eating the dumplings, Lei Zi said they were delicious even the dumplings that had been reheated for the second time when they came back the next day, but Lin Feng and Gang San tasted the same when they ate them, and they even forgot to discuss the taste of the dumplings.

Such a bitter feeling, two people, talk and stop, Gangsan has more tears than Lin Feng, stop crying, stop talking, cry after talking too much, men's tears are not so precious, just divided by individual predecessors In the end, most of them are just a bitch!