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The life after being with Xu Chen is almost the same as before.

The two go to class and go to work separately every day, have dinner with their friends at noon, and work overtime in their respective laboratories at night.

When everyone in the laboratory was almost gone, Lin Jingfan would take the computer to Xu Chen's office, order a midnight snack at Ele.me, sit at the desk and eat together, and then continue to work overtime.

Xu Chen is a super super workaholic, and he is indeed very busy. Lin Jingfan roughly calculated that he can spend at least fourteen hours a day in the laboratory.

Sometimes Lin Jingfan would finish work early and would help him with some simple tasks. When he couldn't help, he would sit aside with earphones on and watch "Kangxi Is Coming" while waiting for him to finish work.

They usually talk very little at work, but when they look at each other occasionally, there is a warm taste in their eyes.

After working overtime, usually the lights in the whole building have been turned off, so the two of them sat on Xu Chen's small electric stove one after the other, and went back to their respective dormitories to wash and sleep.

Winter in City C is here, and every time I sit on a small electric donkey, the biting wind can still penetrate through the thick cotton coat.Lin Jingfan's whole body was stiff from the cold, his teeth chattered uncontrollably, but he was obsessed with the warmth from the place where their bodies touched.

On a cold winter night, there is no star in the sky, and the white moon hangs bleakly on the branches, emitting bursts of cold light.

At this moment, only the lover's body temperature is the warm home. Lin Jingfan hugged Xu Chen's waist, and the two walked through the cold and silent campus, feeling like they were the only ones in the world.

Lin Jingfan sometimes wondered why Xu Chen didn't "that" with him, the two of them dated for almost a month, but the most intimate gestures were just kissing, not even a tongue kiss.

Occasionally going out together on weekends until it was too late, Lin Jingfan wanted to propose to open a room and forget it, but every time Xu Chen would take a taxi first and go back to the dormitory after the gate control.

Doesn't he like doing that and just wants to talk about platonic love?

Lin Jingfan couldn't help but start brainstorming again.

Xu Chen is not young anymore, this age is when there is a need, everyone is an adult, it is normal to open a room or something.

Is he embarrassed?He doesn't have experience in this area!

Lin Jingfan felt that this possibility was too great, but he really couldn't explain why Xu Chen didn't want to "that" with him, and he began to wonder if he was dissatisfied with his desires, it was like a head and two big.

Forget it, forget it, he threw the mouse back on the table, made an appointment with Zhuang Mengyuan and Xiang Tian for dinner at night, then packed his things and went to the dining hall.

After the three of them left the singles, they spent much less time eating together.However, Xiang Tian and Zhuang Mengyuan are very loyal, thinking about his loneliness, they will ask him out every once in a while.

When Lin Jingfan arrived, Zhuang Mengyuan was following Xiangtian and biting his ear.

Zhuang didn't know what he said, and Xiang Tian showed a shocked expression on his face.

"I don't believe it." Xiang Tian's face was full of disbelief, "Where did you hear this news, it's a lie."

"What are you two talking about?" Lin Jingfan smiled and sat across from them, "Any gossip? Share it quickly."

"Super big gossip", Zhuang Mengyuan looked excited, put one hand on his lips, and said mysteriously, "Do you know Senior Brother Xu Chen from our school?"

As soon as Lin Jingfan heard the word "Xu Chen", his heart skipped a beat, and his first reaction was that Xu Chen would not be lying to him for anything.

"It's the brother who preached in the new campus last year, do you remember?" Seeing that he didn't respond, Xiang Tian thought he forgot, "You were the host that time."

"He", Lin Jingfan breathed out quietly, trying to make his expression look like a gossiping outsider, "What's wrong?"

Zhuang Mengyuan looked around, and said in a voice as low as possible: "Brother Chao told me that this brother is gay."

Lin Jingfan: "!!!"

"Where did Brother Chao hear it? Did the senior brother admit it himself?" Lin Jingfan said, "How can you be sure that he is gay?"

"Why are you so excited?" Xiang Tian gave him a strange look, then turned to look at Zhuang Mengyuan gossipingly after speaking, "But I really want to know, Senior Brother Xu Chen is the idol of our entire dormitory, and I would give me ten heads." I dare not think that he is actually gay."

"I didn't believe it at first," Zhuang Mengyuan said, "but brother Chao said that his roommate once saw him go out with a boy, and the two held hands."

"This is too explosive," Xiang Tian said, "What about the other boy? Did you see who it was?"

"Yeah." Lin Jingfan pulled out a smile, feeling his whole body tense up, "Did you see...another boy...uh, who is it?"

"That doesn't seem to be the case," Zhuang Mengyuan shrugged.

Lin Jingfan heaved a sigh of relief, feeling his back covered in cold sweat.

"However," Zhuang Mengyuan said, Lin Jingfan's heart suddenly rose again, "I heard that he is not tall, and his back looks familiar, so he should be from our hospital."

"Brother Chao's roommate really didn't see who that person was?" Lin Jingfan asked.

"Isn't it?" Zhuang Mengyuan said, "If there is, it's not just explosive, why are you so concerned about this?"

"No," Lin Jingfan hurriedly said, "Senior Brother Xu Chen is next to our laboratory, I always thought he was a straight man of steel."

Without changing his face, Lin Jingfan gave Xu Chen a straight man's hat.

Xiang Tian nodded in agreement, "I also think that he really doesn't look gay at all, hey, my male god is actually gay, I can't accept it."

"Do you guys hate gays?" Lin Jingfan's heart broke instantly.

"It's not that I hate it, it's just the first time I've seen it in real life," Zhuang Mengyuan said, "There should be a lot of really gay people in C University, but I really didn't expect to be so close to me."

Xiang Tian: "That's right, and Senior Brother Xu Chen really doesn't look gay at all."

Zhuang Mengyuan: "I think Fan Zai is more like him."

Xiang Tian: "I think so too."

Lin Jingfan: "..."

Lin Jingfan was originally worried that the two sisters would be endless if they thought about it, and would drag himself into the water.

However, the topic about Xu Chen passed away quickly, and the three of them quickly chatted about other things. He breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that this was finally over.

"You and Brother Chao are going to Harbin during the winter vacation?" Xiang Tian said, "Don't do it, will you be frozen to death?"

"It's only interesting to see ice sculptures in winter," Zhuang Mengyuan said with a smile, "What about you, are you going to Germany to find a husband?"

Xiangtian's boyfriend finally chose to go abroad and is now studying for a master's degree at the University of Munich.

"I can't afford to go," Xiang Tian lazily said, "I don't even want him anymore."

"Just say what you mean, right?" Lin Jingfan teased, "When the time comes, you'll be gone."

"Remember to bring a letter to us," Zhuang Mengyuan leaned on her shoulder and smiled.

The topic of the three of them went off track very quickly, and after these two reminded Lin Jingfan, it occurred to him that the winter vacation was about to begin.

Do you want to go out to play with Xu Chen?

He was obsessed with studying this semester, except for going out with Xu Chen on weekends, he basically had nothing to spend.

In addition to the money earned in educational institutions during the summer vacation, it is enough to save enough to travel abroad.

Forget it, don't think too far, first think about what to do with the problem in front of you.

Someone saw them hanging out together and recognized Xu Chen.

Lin Jingfan suddenly felt a little scared, they were still too low-key, he worried that not only his roommate Xie Chao saw it.

What to do, are you going to be forced out of the closet?

Lin Jingfan knew that there should be a lot of boys and boys together in school, but he never knew much about these things. He thought it would make him appear normal, but he didn't expect that there was not even a reference case this time.

He tried to think about the consequences of coming out of the closet. He was not afraid of strange eyes from strangers, but the most important thing was the people around him.

What will happen next, will the whole academy know? After all, no matter whether he or Xu Chen is in the academy, they are all names that can be called.

Teachers and instructors will also know what they think of him, and will friends avoid him like a snake?

Will he be looked at strangely by everyone, pointing at the back, and used as a conversation piece after dinner?

Can I still live a normal life?Lin Jingfan's lips turned pale, and he didn't dare to think about it.

The imaginary coming out is like a raging flood. Once the fragile defense is breached, it will burst the embankment in an instant and get out of control.

Distraught, Lin Jingfan returned to the laboratory to work overtime, but he was always absent-minded when writing codes. Zhang Zhao called him several times, but he was always distracted.

He thought about it, and he didn't even wait to meet Xu Chen at night, so he told Xu Chen what he heard from Zhuang Mengyuan on WeChat.

The other party didn't reply after sending it. Lin Jingfan knew that he didn't look at his phone much when he was working, so he put the phone aside and continued to write codes.

He glanced at his phone after writing code for 2 minutes, and glanced at his phone after writing for 2 minutes. When he heard the phone vibrate, his whole body tensed up.

He took a deep breath and decided that if Xu Chen was really forced to come out, then he would accompany him, but Xu Chen's answer was far beyond his expectation.

"Turing": It's okay, many friends around me know about it.

"Invisible sail":! ! !

"Actually, I used to be the same as you." When the two of them had a "tryst" at night, Xu Chen patted his head, "But in the past two years, I gradually feel that keeping this secret is not an option."

"We are not isolated islands, we all live in a group, and our emotional life cannot be completely opaque. Our friends all care about us. We can hide it from them for a while, but we can't hide it from them forever," Xu Chen said, "What's more, we won't be able to hide it from them in the future. If you get married, your parents will have to pass it."

This was the first time that Lin Jingfan heard about future considerations from Xu Chen.It has to be said that Xu Chen is much more mature than him and thinks more deeply.

More importantly, his attitude towards the future is positive and confident, which somehow coincides with Lin Jingfan's expectations for the future, but he has been avoiding it all the time.

"Actually, admitting your own sexuality is not as scary as you think. Sometimes what you think is very important to others may not be a big deal to others. Most people of our generation are very open-minded..."

Lin Jingfan admitted that he was a little moved by Xu Chen's words, telling a lie is a very painful thing, sticking to a lie for a long time is even more painful.

Xu Chen's words seemed to have magical powers, and he was relieved of his anxiety throughout the night.

"You...do you know what I want to do now?" He stared blankly at Xu Chen, feeling as if his whole body was glowing.

"I know", Xu Chen's lips curled up in a handsome arc, and his eyes fell on Lin Jingfan's slightly parted lips ambiguously.

Without waiting for him to start moving, Lin Jingfan suddenly hooked his neck, and pressed his lips on it.

Xu Chen was taken aback for a moment, and then he became short of breath. He raised his hand and pressed it on the back of Lin Jingfan's head, deepening the kiss.

This time the kiss was not like the previous ones, the tip of Lin Jingfan's tongue teased for a moment between Xu Chen's lips, and then he was attracted by a strong force.

"Well," the ergonomic chair in the laboratory kept sliding under the movements of the two, and the sound of panting filled the entire room.

"So enthusiastic." After parting his lips, Xu Chen leaned on Lin Jingfan's shoulder and couldn't stop panting, all the hot air sprayed on his neck and behind his ears, he muffled a laugh, "Aren't you afraid of being discovered?"

"I can't control it anymore," Lin Jingfan closed his eyes, and leaned on his shoulder to adjust his breathing, "If I'm found out, I can only say that I'm playing truth or dare."

"Pfft, you can think of all of this." Xu Chen couldn't breathe from his laughter, and whispered in his ear after a while, "Then there is a more exciting adventure, do you want to play?"

"What?" Lin Jingfan opened his eyes blankly.

"There is no one in my dormitory tonight."

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