a quarter of his

- Fanzi, are you studying by yourself?

In the small group of three, Xiang Tian Ait him.

Lin Jingfan sat in the stands outside the playground and stared blankly for a long time, his mood gradually calmed down.

-go.

He closed the phone, and saw the last sentence he sent to Ying Zhe one second before the screen went black.

After he finished the long series of messages, Ying Zhe didn't reply to him, and made several calls in a row.Lin Jingfan was upset, and after pinching them all off, he sent a note on WeChat.

- i want to calm down

Ying Zhe was silent for a long time, and replied: Good.

There was no call after that.

Lin Jingfan came to the library with his schoolbag on his back. After swiping his card to enter, he realized that he hadn't studied by himself for a long time.

Not to mention self-study, ever since he was with Ying Zhe, he has been distracted even in class, and he has already forgotten when was the last time he paid full attention to class.

I'm afraid I'm not a love brain, Lin Jingfan thought somewhat self-deprecatingly.

Just finished physical education class, he didn't have anything in his schoolbag except his mobile phone keys, so he borrowed "Computer Composition Principles" on the second floor, and went to the place Xiang Tian told him about.

It's not over yet, and there aren't many people in the library during the week. Xiang Tian is wearing a white sweater, denim wide-leg pants, and her long hair is tied into a ball head. She looks very beautiful, but her complexion is not very good.

"Yuanyuan didn't come?" Lin Jingfan put a cup of yogurt on the table next to her, and saw a small note when he lowered his eyes.

"Yo", Lin Jingfan raised his eyebrows and picked up the note.

"Hello classmate, I have been sitting near you all afternoon. You are really beautiful. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen with a ball head. Can you exchange contact information? My penguin is: XXXXXXXX, mobile phone (WeChat) is: XXXXXXXXXX"

"Sure enough, spring is here." Lin Jingfan put the bag aside and sat opposite her, "Let's go peach blossom now."

Xiang Tian naturally opened the yogurt and shrugged indifferently.

"Handsome?" Lin Jingfan looked at her maliciously.

"I don't know," Xiang Tian said, "I saw this when I got back from the water."

"Count", Lin Jingfan clicked his tongue twice, "Don't even dare to show your face, this person can't do it."

Xiang Tianxin nodded absently, and gave him a surprised look: "You didn't even bring any books?"

"I came here directly after the physical education class," Lin Jingfan casually spread out the book in front of him.

"Ah, I heard Yuanyuan say...", Xiang Tian thought of something and seemed to be phrasing.

"The 1000-meter pass is over." Lin Jingfan's mood has calmed down a lot at this moment, and he said directly, "I have to make up the exam next week, huh."

"Oh, I understand you too well." Xiang Tian nodded, "This is the main thing, the re-examination is the second, and it is psychological fear."

"Yes!" Lin Jingfan nodded sharply.

The two chatted for a while about the nightmare experience of running [-], Xiang Tian smiled and said: "It's okay, just treat it as an experience, what do you say, a college career without failing a course is incomplete , won't this let you experience it?"

"Is there someone like you to comfort people?" Lin Jingfan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Then don't mention sports, I'd rather hang on to others......"

Before the word "de" came out of his mouth, Xiang Tian immediately interrupted him: "Hurry up, bah bah bah, city C is evil."

Lin Jingfan: "..."

The two read books separately.

The library of University C has a huge floor-to-ceiling window, which is very comfortable in the evening when the setting sun shines down.

The book that Lin Jingfan picked up at random was only a sophomore, and he didn't bring a pen and notebook, so he couldn't read it after just a few glances.

Just as he was about to take out his phone to swipe twice, he looked up and saw Xiang Tian put down his pen irritably.

"Jiang Tao is going abroad." Xiang Tian said sullenly, lying on the table.

Lin Jingfan was a little surprised: "Didn't Senior Brother Jiang always plan to protect the graduate school?"

"Who knows?" Xiang Tian said with a self-deprecating tone, "Even I was told just now."

Lin Jingfan frowned: "What's going on?"

"Fan Zi", Xiang Tian seemed confused, "Sometimes I even wonder if he really cares about me."

"He doesn't seem to discuss anything with me, just like this time, if he didn't hear his roommate casually mentioning it when we were having dinner together, I'm afraid I will be kept in the dark when he goes abroad next year. I don't understand, Am I not his dearest person? Is there anything you can't tell me? "

"That's right," Lin Jingfan said empathetically, "He didn't say anything, he didn't plan you into his life at all."

"Sometimes I wonder," Xiang Tian said, her eyes turning red, "Has he really thought about our future? Is he really planning to split up after graduation?"

"Yes," Lin Jingfan nodded emphatically, and his eyes were red, "Disappointed, I can't see the future, I feel that all my efforts are wishful thinking, and my hot face sticks to my cold ass."

Xiang Tian nodded thoughtfully, and suddenly looked at him suspiciously: "Why do I feel like you are talking about yourself?"

Lin Jingfan froze for a moment, and the moment he looked at Xiang Tian, ​​he suddenly had a strong urge to confess to her.

However, in the end, he just blinked his eyes and said with a dry smile: "What does it have to do with me? I'm not from your perspective, I'm too deep into the drama."

Nodding to the dessert, Lin Jingfan asked again, "Did you listen to Brother Jiang Tao's explanation?"

"Explain, explain again," Xiang Tian said impatiently, "Why do I have to listen to his explanation afterwards every time, am I not qualified to participate in the discussion of his affairs? Do I have to wait for him to make a decision before notifying me?" ?”

"Hey, I think so." Lin Jingfan thought for a while and said, "Brother Jiang Tao, well, he is a very mature person, and he also knows what he wants."

"Actually, we are very similar. We are too invested in our relationship, and we feel a little in love. Sometimes we only care about ourselves and don't know whether the other party wants to do it. Instead, we mess ourselves up..."

Xiang Tian frowned, seemingly lost in thought.

Lin Jingfan suddenly felt that these words were spoken to himself rather than to Xiang Tian.

Ever since he was with Ying Zhe, he has devoted almost all of his body and mind to this love affair with him.

The failure of 1000 meters was like a pot of cold water poured down his head, which extinguished his mental fever and forced him to calm down.

"You see, ever since you were with Senior Brother Jiang Tao, all your plans for yourself have revolved around him." What is it? Blindly sacrificing for feelings is not the answer, you must first think clearly about your own future, and then your common future."

"Even if we are in a relationship, two people are still two people, we haven't become one person." Xiang Tian raised his head, "I probably understand what you mean, Fanzi."

"Yes, sometimes when you are in a relationship, it is easy to subconsciously bind yourself too much with the other party, thinking that everything about him is everything about you."

"But in fact, one's own independence and excellence are also very important." Xiang Tian tilted her head to look at him, "I didn't expect you to understand it quite well, and you still said that you are not in a relationship?"

Lin Jingfan let out a sharp "cough", and said in embarrassment: "No, no, I don't have nothing to do and I like to study the relationship between the sexes."

"You are a single dog, what kind of relationship between the sexes are you studying?" Xiang Tian laughed "poof", "Oh, to be honest, I think it would be interesting to fall in love with you. Yuanyuan and I were still thinking about it two days ago. Shall I introduce you to one?"

"Farewell." Lin Jingfan waved his hands dumbfounded, "I haven't passed the 1000 meters yet, which girl would like me."

Xiang Tian said "ah", "Fanzi, why do you think our lives are so hard..."

Lin Jingfan said: "What are you going to do next? Talk to Brother Jiang?"

"I'm still angry about this, let him hang out for a while." Xiang Tian pouted, "What about you?"

"Me?" Lin Jingfan sighed, "I'll go to practice and run at night."

Night, small playground.

There is no moon tonight, and the stars are spreading silently like jewels in the purple-black sky.

There were very few people in the small playground, Lin Jingfan had earphones in his ears, and he was steaming from running.

He originally wanted to go directly to Ying Zhe, since the quarrel during the day was not anyone's fault.

But thinking of his messy current situation, he felt that it would be good for the two of them to separate and calm down.

At least in the future, I can't fall in love with brains like now, and I want to be a rational person, Lin Jingfan told himself.

"run ahead

In the face of indifference and ridicule

How can you feel the vastness of life without going through hardships"

Gala's hoarse voice echoed in my ears. After listening to the song "Dream Pursuit", I just ran 1000 meters.

Five minutes and 20 seconds.

Lin Jingfan sighed in annoyance, as expected, he couldn't do without the atmosphere of the exam, so he plugged in his earphones and started running again.

This is his fourth 1000m tonight.

In addition to the time I didn't finish the run in the afternoon, I ran nearly five kilometers today, and now I'm a bit exhausted.

It was late at night, and the breeze brought a little bit of coolness.

One after another gym students passed by his side, Lin Jingfan gasped for breath, his legs alternated slower and slower, slower and slower.

The rapid breathing made his consciousness a little fuzzy, and when he was about to give up, Hengli suddenly stretched out a hand and held his tightly.

Before he could react, he was pulled forward by a strong force and ran forward at top speed.

The breeze brought the familiar scent of the people around him, Lin Jingfan glanced sideways, Ying Zhe was wearing a black sportswear, and led him to run forward without looking sideways.

The heartbeat suddenly beat in the chest at an incredible frequency, and a pleasure that broke through the limits of the body surged.

Lin Jingfan's mind went blank, and Ying Zhe led him to run around and around until he finished 1000 meters before the song in his earphones was put on "Continue to run with the pride of a child".

"Why did you come here?"

Lin Jingfan leaned on the horizontal bar, gasping for breath, while Ying Zhe watched him quietly.

After a while, he still couldn't help but speak first.

Ying Zhe ran 1000 meters, but he just panted slightly, pursed his lower lip and said, "I guessed you would be here, so I came here."

Lin Jingfan didn't speak.

Ying Zhe's expression was a little nervous: "Honey, I... I've been thinking about what you said today all afternoon."

"The matter of digital modeling is indeed because I have already formed a team with others," Ying Zhe said, "I was playing games at the time, and the tone of the reply may not be very good. I don't know about your 1000 meters... .Well, I'm in a bad mood."

"You didn't guess that I was here, how did you know that I was in a bad mood at that time?"

Ying Zhe turned his head and let out a "cough", with an unnatural expression on his face.

"I met your roommate downstairs in the dormitory."

"Oh", Lin Jingfan squinted at him, "Don't you dislike being in touch with my friends?"

"It's not that I don't like it," Ying Zhe said seriously, "It's just that I always thought that falling in love is a matter between two people. I didn't expect you to think so...Well, you can ask me anything you want to know in the future, It’s okay if you don’t want to go to Ximen…”

Lin Jingfan let out a "poof" laugh: "I don't do that with Plato."

Seeing him smiling, Ying Zhe finally breathed a sigh of relief.

"I also have something wrong," Lin Jingfan said, "I shouldn't lose my temper with you when I'm in a bad mood, and I should talk about everything. But I think it's okay to have a meal together. He's a class committee member, so he won't be suspected if he knows anything well."

"You're right," Ying Zhe said, "but I'm used to eating alone, and I'm really...afraid of being found out."

"It's okay to have dinner together once or twice. If you eat every day, others will think that you have a good relationship. If you go to self-study together and watch movies together, it is inevitable that others will not think of other things... Well, maybe I am more pessimistic. .”

Lin Jingfan didn't think that he thought this way, but Ying Zhe's pessimistic attitude not only didn't disappoint him at all, but because he understood him, he felt that he loved him even more.

"It's okay, so let's just pretend not to be familiar with it," Lin Jingfan said, "Anyway, it's quite exciting to secretly engage in underground affairs."

The two reconciled so inexplicably, Ying Zhe pinched his face, and took out a bottle of drink from behind as if conjuring: "Drink pulse?"

Lin Jingfan's eyes lit up, and he took it: "Where did it come from?"

"I bought it on the way to find you," Ying Zhe rubbed his forehead with the tip of his nose, "It's still cold, drink it quickly."

"Well, do you want to drink?" Lin Jingfan took a sip, then handed him the water bottle, and Ying Zhe also took a sip from the place where he drank.

It was late at night and the playground was empty.

In the darkness that only belonged to them, the two held hands and shared a glass of pulse.

"I love you," Ying Zhe finally said.

"Well, I love you too." Lin Jingfan said softly.

He felt Ying Zhe's kiss on his brow without any lust, and all the confusion and anxiety disappeared at this moment.

I remembered a question I asked Xiang Tian in the library in the afternoon:

"So what exactly do you like about Senior Brother Jiang?"

The setting sun melted into gold, coating her face with a layer of soft light, Xiang Tian held her chin and fell into the memory.

"What do I like about him... Once when I was scolded by the minister in the student union, crying and squatting on the playground, he handed me a cup of iced black tea. At that time, I thought he was really gentle... ..”

People in love, the mood goes from hell to heaven, but holding hands once, or a cheap drink.

The author has something to say: I still love you today~