Gu Ling

The next day I woke up very late, with a fever as expected, I struggled to get up and poured a cup of hot water to drink, and after I felt a little better, I called Xiao Yang to ask for leave, covered me with a quilt and continued to sleep.As for Gu Lang, I don't care, he must have already left.

Sleeping drowsily, I was awakened by the doorbell, and I directly connected the phone by the bedside.

Hello, Gu Ling?I'm Xiao Yang, please open the door for me.On the other end of the phone was Xiao Yang's anxious voice.

In less than a minute, Xiao Yang pushed me away from my bedroom. He said in a anxious tone, you said you were unwell in the morning and asked for leave, and then I haven’t heard from you all day, and no one answered the phone or text message. , Where do you feel uncomfortable, have you seen a doctor and taken medicine?

I blocked the light with my hand, what time is it now?As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I realized that my hoarseness was outrageous.

Xiao Yang glanced at his watch, it's eight o'clock, what's the matter with you?

I coughed twice, half-supported up, I was fine, I just had a little fever, just drink some water and it will be fine.

Hearing this, Xiao Yang reached out and touched my forehead, it was so hot, he hurried to the hospital.Talking about dragging me up.

Seeing this, I hurriedly struggled with my hands and feet, I really don't need it, I'm fine, just drink some water and sleep.

Xiao Yang got angry when he heard that, just drink some water and sleep, you drank water in the morning and slept now, okay?

"Gulu", just as I was about to speak, I heard my stomach growl uncomfortably, and I looked at Xiao Yang in embarrassment.

Fuck you wait.Xiao Yang said a little annoyed.

About half an hour later, he came in with a bowl of hot porridge.

Smelling the aroma of food, my stomach became even hungrier. I leaned my head over and glanced at it, yo, I still have meat porridge. I didn't expect you to make things.

What do you call it, what do you mean I can make things, I know too many things.Xiao Yang raised his head awkwardly, with a somewhat smug expression.

After a while, he saw that I was almost finished eating before he spoke, you really don't want to go to the hospital?

I'm not going, I'm fine, really.You see, I'm not active now, so I promise I can play basketball with you guys tomorrow!When it comes to playing basketball, we are all silent, and we can't help but think of the boy who used to run wildly in the sun, thinking that his pride and his beauty will never be again.

A quarter of an hour later, Xiao Yang said, wait for me.Turn around, pick up the key and go out.

I stared blankly at the ceiling, and the surrounding area was a little quiet. Since Gu Lang and Gu's father moved away, this house seemed particularly quiet. Later, I simply resigned my aunt at home. I am the only one in the big family. At this moment It touches to feel the indescribable loneliness and depression.

Xiao Yang came back and bought a bunch of antipyretics and anti-inflammatory drugs. When I saw the anti-inflammatory drugs, I was a little stunned. I looked up at Xiao Yang, but I couldn't see any expression on his face. I was a little uncertain about his thoughts, but what did I see him? Without saying anything, I obediently ate two slices and lay down.

Maybe it was because of the medicine that I fell asleep very quickly. I didn't even know when Xiao Yang left. When I woke up again, there was no sign of him.

Gu Lang disappeared.

The next day, Father Gu called me to ask me about Gu Lang's whereabouts. He had escaped from Gu Zhidong for five days, and there was still no news. He asked me if Gu Lang had looked for me.

I thought of the helpless and desperate crying teenager that night, and shook my head and said, no, he never looked for me.

Gu Zhidong said, Gu Ling, don't play tricks, the Gu family can support you and keep you alive, but they can also kill you and leave you with nothing.

I said, I know, I have nothing in the first place, Gu Lang has never come to look for me, nor has he been to City Z, you can look elsewhere.

After a month, Gu Zhidong called me every day to ask me, but Gu Lang still had no news.

The tone of his question became more and more anxious every day. After all, he cared about Gu Lang. He was born to the woman he loved the most. He was his blood. He was the only thing in this world that was connected to her. Ruthless still loves him.

After another month, Gu Zhidong stopped calling me to ask me, and the team looking for Gu Lang was also withdrawn.The world is so big, if a person wants to hide, he will never be able to find it.And we seem to have slowly accepted the fact that Gu Lang disappeared, and gradually got used to the fact that Gu Lang disappeared.

Later, some people said that they saw Gu Lang begging on the side of the road in City A, and others said that Gu Lang went crazy, fell into the river while being chased, and drowned.

I laughed off these rumors.

The days slowly returned to normal, but I often think of him fighting with me on the sofa, grabbing food from me at the dining table, squeezing me on the bed, morning reading in the classroom, and the playground He looks like he is running around in the club. When he answers the teacher's questions, the corners of his mouth are always raised slightly, with inherent superiority and confidence. When he dribbles and shoots, his movements are smooth and smooth, and he is indescribably chic and handsome. , when he was in school, he was upright and beautiful, and when he encountered people and things that didn't go his way, he would drag me down to the playground, talking about those people and things with a contemptuous tone and a proud expression.Occasionally, I would also think of the time when he was fighting. At that time, I had to follow him in the streets, extinguish his cigarette in the toilet, pick up the empty wine bottles that rolled down on the ground and throw them into the trash can, and prepare all kinds of things. The same kind of traumatic medicine and anti-inflammatory drugs, running between the major hospitals and clinics, at that time, he was always covered with injuries, the old blood coagulated and the new blood burst out again, so he still had broken pride in his eyes, It hurts.

After the final exam of the second year of high school, I was promoted directly to the third grade. During the winter vacation and Chinese New Year, Dad Gu called back and asked me about the gang, and then asked me to go out for a good meal.

Xiao Yang asked me to go to his house to celebrate the New Year together, but I refused.

After the New Year’s Eve dinner, I sat on the sofa and watched the Spring Festival Gala with nothing to do. In previous years, when I watched the Spring Festival Gala, Gu Lang always liked to squeeze together with me. Father Gu sat at the main seat, and younger sister Gu leaned against Mother Gu’s feet. The show is boring but we can often hear our laughter from time to time.

When it was almost twelve o’clock, I turned off the TV and was about to go to bed. When I went upstairs, I was heard by a sudden doorbell. I thought, who is so bored during the Chinese New Year? .

The doorbell kept ringing, so I had no choice but to turn around and open the door. As soon as the door opened, a figure hurried in.

Why is it so slow, there is almost no time.Xiao Yang complained to me holding a bunch of firecrackers.

I stood there blankly watching Xiao Yang unpack the firecrackers in a hurry, but I didn't realize what was going on for a while, Xiao Yang, you...

Why are you still standing there, hurry up and help, it will be twelve o'clock soon, it's too late.Xiao Yang urged me easily, obviously dissatisfied with my dullness.

oh.I went over to unpack the beautifully packaged firecrackers with Xiao Yang, and put them in the yard before twelve o'clock.

"Boom, boom, boom..." The firecrackers sounded on time at twelve o'clock, and colorful fireworks bloomed in midair, turning half of the sky red.

How about it, isn't it beautiful? I snatched it from my cousin after all the hard work.Xiao Yang smiled triumphantly and pushed my shoulder with his shoulder.

Xiao Yang, thank you!I raised my head and said to him, something similar to emotion flashed in my eyes.

Ouch, little Lingzi, you are so easily moved, don't look like you're about to cry, come on, give me a smile, my brother left his family and came here not just to watch you cry.Xiao Yang was in a good mood and let out a big smile.

I looked at Xiao Yang under the light of the fireworks, his smile was getting bigger and bigger at the moment, and the fireworks reflected his facial features so softly that a certain part of my heart also softened, thank you Xiao Yang , on this special day you make this wall cut with ice cold warm.

After setting off the firecrackers, Xiao Yang was about to leave. While changing his shoes, he said, "Xiao Lingzi, I'm going back. I'm going to take the little ones to visit the New Year tomorrow morning. I'll come back to you in two days."

Okay, I'll stand at the door and watch him, be careful on the road.

It's okay, you go to bed early, call me if you are bored, and leave.Xiao Yang took two steps, then turned around as if remembering something, oh, by the way, this is for you, happy new year!

I took the exquisitely packaged box he handed over in a daze, and thanked me after a long time.

Thank you silly boy, I really have to leave this time, you...

I'm fine, fine, happy new year Xiao Yang.I adjusted my mood and showed him my first smile of the night.

After sending Xiao Yang away, I opened the box, and inside was a silver bracelet decorated with leaves.

Lying on the bed and suddenly unable to fall asleep, what is Gu Lang doing? Is he also alone in the cold house watching the fireworks outside the window? Is he also feeling the happiness of others and thinking about his former self?

It was many years later that I realized that Gu Lang at that time was not what I thought. He didn't have the time or spare emotion to be as sad as I was.

Just when I was sad for spring and autumn, he was struggling on the verge of life and death. He killed the first person that day. He killed that person to protect Tang Hui's boss and gain her trust.

We were called back to school before the end of the winter vacation after the Chinese New Year, and started the endless make-up classes for the third year of high school, which was busy and fulfilling.

Xiao Yang started going in and out with me since the beginning of school, inseparable, which made Li Rong very dissatisfied, but fortunately he has a little girlfriend to coax, this dissatisfaction did not last for too long, instead it was Xiao Yang and I Yang laughed at him for his lack of loyalty.

Xiao Yang tells me every day when to eat, when to sleep, and when to exercise.After the whole third year of high school, my situation was not too bad, and I was very fortunate to see my deskmate who was hanging on to the drip to take the mock exam.

But this frightened Xiao Yang, he stared at me even more closely, and simply moved to live with me in my house one month before the college entrance examination.

After drinking the nutritious soup Xiao Yang made for me, he asked me, Gu Ling, where do you want to apply for the university?

Of course it is z big.I do not hesitate to name a local university.

Xiao Yang froze for a moment.I went on to say that we had agreed at that time.

When Gu Lang was still there, the four of us made an agreement, although many of us wanted to escape from the control of our parents after college.But we just want to stay local and run rampant in this familiar and lovely city.

At that time, Li Rong also said, if I fail the exam, my dad will let me go through the back door, and we will walk sideways in Z University, and then the whole Z city will be ours.

Xiao Yang hit him on the head with that book, so aren't you a crab?

Gu Lang added a sentence, still a crab that limped back.

At that time, Li Rong was riding a bicycle empty-handed in order to play cool in front of his little girlfriend Chen Jiao, but he fell like a dog.

When we were young, we spoke boldly and never gave up.But then Gu Lang disappeared, and Li Rong went to Beijing with his girlfriend.

Hearing this, Xiao Yang's face was a little ugly, I know, but you see Li Rong went to Beijing with Chen Jiao, and Gu Lang said, why don't we go to other places too, maybe your mood will be better, I think You are not happy this year.

No, I'm fine, I'll wait for Gu Lang to come back.I said firmly.

Xiao Yang was silent for a long time after hearing this, and finally he got up to pack the dishes and said, it's late, go to bed early, the college entrance examination will be in a week, don't be tired.

I hummed, regretting the aggressive tone just now, I knew Xiao Yang cared about me.

During the college entrance examination, Xiao Yang and I were not in the same examination room, but he still insisted on sending me to the examination room first for each exam, which made me very embarrassed, especially after seeing Xiao Yang's normal expression, taking it for granted. up.

What's the matter, the college entrance examination is a very important event in life, just like your first wet dream, it is very important, I don't worry if you are alone, I will send you off.Xiao Yang said seriously.

I was choked by his words, and I couldn't say that, it was too obscene.

How wretched, do you never have a wet dream or think the college entrance examination is not important.Xiao Yang said unwillingly.

I coughed twice, no, it's nothing, it's what you say.

Sorry, Xiao Yang, I like you very much, but not that kind, you know?Besides, we are all boys, so we can't.

you can!As soon as I finished speaking, Xiao Yang said in a hurry.

I can not!

you can!Xiao Yang said firmly.

I can not!My tone was a little rushed.

Then why can Gu Lang do it!Xiao Yanghong focused her eyes and lowered her voice deliberately, as if she was holding back something.

What nonsense do you say, Gu Lang can't do it either!I jumped up like a puppy whose tail was stepped on.

You think I don't know anything, you like Gu Lang, your eyes are always on him, no matter how good I am to you, you can't see me, there are only you and him in your world, what do others mean to you No, you keep saying that we are your good friends, think about it for yourself, do you really regard us as good friends? Think about it, you did to me and Li Rong what good friends should do What should I say, you don't have it, only Gu Lang, everything you do is for Gu Lang, you take classes seriously for Gu Lang, you play with us for Gu Lang, you mess with us for Gu Lang, you Even framed Feitian Dabao for Gu Lang, yes, yes, since Gu Lang was gang-beaten for a week, it was rumored that Feitian Dabao was arrested for drug-related, and you put the drugs on him. No matter, you think this matter is so easy to settle, I took advantage of the police to set fire to the house so that the police could not find out the source of the drugs, do you know how worried I am!Xiao Yang said a lot of surprising things that I didn't know in one breath.but.

Xiao Yang, I don't like Gu Lang!I spoke slowly, every word clearly and firmly.

Xiao Yang ignored what I said, and continued, I know, I know you like Gu Lang, but Gu Lang is straight, he has a girlfriend, he likes Ye Ling, he rebelled against his father for Ye Ling, he fought for Ye Ling Ling disappeared, went crazy because of Ye Ling, no matter how nice you are to him, he only regards you as the best brother, even if you are for him... so what, he left before dawn the next day, you are sick and you have a fever , He never came to see you, he doesn't like you, he is straight!

My heart suddenly stabbed, I stood up trembling, and my voice trembled, so Xiao Yang, let me tell you now, I am also straight!

I turned around and went upstairs, and said to him weakly, let's go, thank you for taking care of me this year, I am very happy to have you as a friend, even though you never think that I regard you as a friend.I endured the tears in my eyes and continued, thank you very much, goodbye.

After speaking, I closed the door and slowly slid down.