Excessive deviation

Zhong Shitian couldn't understand what Zhao Shuyao was saying, but he could see that his figure kneeling on the ground was thin and fragile. At this time, he was not that tall and indifferent young man, but more like a child who had done something wrong, begging his mother forgiveness.

For some reason, Zhong Shitian felt his nose sour, and he said, "Shuyao."

Zhao Shuyao was startled, and slowly turned around.

Under the bright starlight and the bright moonlight, the helplessness and brokenness in Zhao Shuyao's eyes was like a painting by a famous artist, with the theme of beauty and despair.

Zhong Shitian stumbled towards him and didn't feel at ease until he touched Zhao Shuyao.Zhao Shuyao's body was blown cold by the mountain wind, Zhong Shitian hugged him indiscriminately, and said tremblingly, "I found you... you scared me to death, you know?"

"...Shi Tian?" Zhao Shuyao asked in confusion, surrounded by warmth, he was suddenly fished out from endless crimes.

"Zhao Shuyao, are you crazy?" Zhong Shitian almost wanted to bite him, "Do you know what time it is? You want to see Aunt Masako and I will accompany you in the morning, but it's midnight now! You know how dangerous it will be Do you know how worried and scared I am?"

Zhong Shitian condemned him aggrievedly, and hugged him even tighter in fear.

"I can't sleep." Zhao Shuyao's voice was very soft, "I did something wrong, I have to admit it and apologize..."

"What did you do wrong?" Zhong Shitian asked.

"My birth was a mistake."

Zhong Shitian thought he heard it wrong, he pushed Zhao Shuyao away, looked at his face and asked, "What are you talking about?"

Zhao Shuyao's lips trembled, his expression seemed to be crying, but it was more sad than crying, "I shouldn't have been born, if it wasn't for me, if it wasn't for me..."

Zhong Shitian raised his hand to press his mouth, "I'm going to be angry if you say that."

Zhao Shuyao took his hand with a wry smile, and held it tightly in his hand, "This is the truth, I just figured it out now. I have been blaming other people for my mother's death, thinking that Zhao Mingkai didn't keep his promise, and that it was Feng Yuxiu killed everything, and even thought that it was you, that you forced me to leave, and made my mother lose her last support..."

Zhong Shitian was stunned, is that so?Because he bullied Zhao Shuyao when he was a child, forcing him to leave Nanshi, which not only pushed Zhao Shuyao to a life of exclusion and confinement, but also indirectly caused Aunt Masako's death?

He never knew that a single act of a person would have serious consequences like the flapping of a butterfly's wings, and he could not afford such consequences.

No wonder Zhao Shuyao said before that you will never be able to pay back what you owe me in this lifetime.

Zhao Shuyao is still saying: "But without me, my mother would live a better life. She might go home, find a real lover, and live a free life instead of being nailed to the pillar of shame because of me... I It would have been better if... hadn't been born."

"No, you can't think like this." Zhong Shitian shook his head, "Auntie Masako loves you so much, she feels so sad when you tell her this."

"She can't hear it!" Zhao Shuyao growled, "Mom is dead, she will never hear it!"

The cool wind blows by at night, and the leaves rustle softly, which seems to be a helpless sigh.

"I'm guilty..." Zhao Shuyao choked with sobs, and lowered his head to rest on Zhong Shitian's shoulder, "I was born まれなかったらよかったののに. (It's fine if I wasn't born)"

"You didn't!" Zhong Shitian held Zhao Shuyao's shoulders and pushed him away and shouted, "You can blame everyone, but you can't blame yourself! Shuyao, people's birth is not optional, Aunt Masako chose to give birth You, you came into this world with her love for you, if you deny yourself, you are denying Aunt Masako."

"The ones who are wrong are the villains, those who ruined your life." Zhong Shitian's tears flowed down slowly, "It's me."

"I'm sorry, Shuyao." Zhong Shitian didn't even dare to touch him, "I didn't know it would turn out like this...I shouldn't have bullied you at that time, if I knew..." What's the use of regretting?What he did is irreparable.

"I'm sorry..." Zhong Shitian broke down in tears.

Zhao Shuyao looked at him dazedly, but when his mind was unable to react, he stretched out his hand and pulled Zhong Shitian into his arms.

When the morning light appeared on the horizon, they went down the mountain.Zhong Shitian's eyes were swollen from crying, and he couldn't stop crying. He was led away by Zhao Shuyao while crying.

After returning to the old house, the two parents hadn't gotten up yet. They went back to the room lightly. Zhong Shitian looked very bad. He cried too much, his lips were dry, and his face was pale.

Zhao Shuyao poured him a glass of water, but Zhong Shitian's hands trembled and he spilled half of the water.

Zhao Shuyao had no choice but to hold Zhong Shitian's shoulders and let him lean against him, then feed him with his own hands.He looked at Zhong Shitian with lowered eyes, drinking water in small sips, and there were still teardrops hanging on his curly eyelashes, it was so pitiful that it made people feel distressed.

After drinking a glass of water, Zhong Shitian felt better. He looked into Zhao Shuyao's eyes timidly, wanting to get close but not daring.

Zhao Shuyao wiped his face with a wet towel, and then whispered, "Go to sleep."

"I'm sorry." Zhong Shitian said hoarsely.

"Stop talking." Zhao Shuyao pressed him down, "Sleep."

Zhong Shitian was still uneasy, until Zhao Shuyao also lay down, he carefully tugged at the hem of Zhao Shuyao's clothes, hiccupping from time to time, and finally sleepiness prevailed, and he fell asleep.

What he didn't know was that Zhao Shuyao opened his eyes, looked at his red eye sockets intently, sighed after a long time, leaned over and kissed him lightly.

Zhong Shitian slept until the sun was shining in the sky before waking up. The first thing he felt when he opened his eyes was that his eyes were sore and swollen.

He cried for a long time in the middle of the night last night, and it was good to be able to open his eyes. When he looked in the mirror, his eyes were really swollen.

Zhao Shuyao was no longer in the room, Zhong Shitian felt a little disappointed, but also a little lucky.

He didn't know how to face Zhao Shuyao.

After walking out of the room, Jiang Ru and Zhong Pingbei set up a small table in the yard, with a lot of food on it, both meat and vegetables, very rich.

"Little lazy pig has finally woken up." Jiang Ru said with a smile, "Go wash your mouth and come over for breakfast, we've already eaten."

Zhong Shitian looked around but didn't see Zhao Shuyao, so he nodded numbly and walked to the sink.

"Oh, Shuyao is back!" Jiang Ru exclaimed, "Quickly put it down, why are you carrying the rice alone?"

Zhong Shixia looked consciously, Zhao Shuyao walked into the yard, with a bag of rice on one shoulder, supported by both hands, his thin shoulders contrasted with the heavy rice bag, but there was no expression of overwhelm on his face.

Behind him was a petite girl nervously holding on to the rice bag, calling out, "Let me help you!"

It's Ah Yue.

The vinegar bottle in Zhong Shitian's heart was overturned, but he also knew that now was not the time to be jealous, so he could only wash up in a cowardly manner.

Zhao Shuyao neatly put the rice bag on the ground, A Yue chirped behind him without looking back, his eyes followed Zhong Shitian all the time.

Zhong Shitian's eyes couldn't be hidden, and Jiang Ru was taken aback. Zhong Pingbei said heartlessly, "Could it be a bee sting?"

Zhong Shitian bit the bun and nodded listlessly.

"Are you kidding me?" Jiang Ru didn't believe it, "I don't know what a bee sting looks like?"

"It's mosquitoes." Zhong Shitian said vaguely, "There are a lot of mosquitoes at night."

This reason is reasonable, but Jiang Ru was still dubious, and turned to Zhao Shuyao: "Shuyao, is that so?"

Zhao Shuyao glanced at Zhong Shitian and said, "Yes."

Only then did Jiang Ru believe it, holding Zhong Shitian's face in distress and said, "How did you bite your eyes? How do you apply medicine?"

"It's okay, it will disappear in a while." Zhong Shitian said, he hadn't finished eating a steamed stuffed bun, A Yue came again, holding a big bag of fresh vegetables in his hand, blushing and said: "My dad never It was just picked from the vegetable field, let me give you a taste."

Zhong Pingbei smiled and said, "A Yue, your house will be emptied by you."

Ah Yue just peeked at Zhao Shuyao, then lowered her head shyly.

Zhong Shitian was about to die of sourness, but the two adults kept teasing her, saying "Which brother do you like?" "Come and sit down and talk to brother", Zhong Shitian was about to get green.

Zhao Shuyao glanced at her, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and he casually stuffed him with a steamed bun.

Zhong Shitian looked at him flattered, holding the steamed head in his hands like a treasure.

After breakfast, they went up the mountain again, and Jiang Ru brought a picnic cloth, and they sat beside Masako's stele, with trees and flowers, mountains and sky, tea and snacks, just like a leisurely trip tea party.

Jiang Ru talked about the past with Masako, and told her recent interesting stories, as if Masako had never left.

But Zhong Shitian swept away yesterday's joy, his head seemed to be drooping heavily, and the chocolate in his hand was not even opened, it was about to melt in my palm.

Zhao Shuyao also looked at the sky silently.

There was something wrong with the two children at first sight, Jiang Ru Zhong Pingbei looked at each other and asked worriedly, "Why don't you talk?"

Zhong Shitian was dull for a while, and then said: "Just listen to what you say."

Zhao Shuyao nodded.

Jiang Ru frowned, "You two have a problem."

Zhong Shitian shuddered, he and Zhao Shuyao had too many and messy problems.

"Did you quarrel?" Zhong Pingbei asked.

Zhao Shuyao shook his head.

Jiang Ru said seriously: "When you encounter a problem and cannot solve it, you should tell your parents. You must understand this basic truth?"

Zhong Shitian's heart beat violently, he desperately needed a breakthrough, even if it was a reprimand.

"We will not criticize you." Zhong Pingbei said gently.

"I..." Zhong Shitian raised his head, looking at his parents as if asking for help, "I did something wrong, I hurt Shuyao, and I made Aunt Masako...I..."

Zhao Shuyao clenched his fists and looked at Zhong Shitian with complicated eyes.

"Shitian, baby, what happened?" Jiang Ru asked gently with her arms around his shoulder.

Zhong Shitian took a deep breath, and in a trembling voice he told what he did to Zhao Shuyao when he was a child, and the result.

He lowered his head as he spoke, and he was afraid of facing their eyes. These were his dearest people, but he did such an excessive thing.

"Baby, I really didn't expect that you once bullied Shuyao." Jiang Ru said, "I never underestimate any kind of violence, even when I was a child, it can still leave a shadow on people, no wonder Shuyao When I first came back, I was so indifferent to you, I thought it was because you hadn't seen each other for a long time and you were unfamiliar."

Zhong Pingbei also sighed, "We adults think we know children best, but we still ignore them."

"But Masako's death is not what you think." Jiang Ru said, "Shuyao, do you think Masako asked Zhao Mingkai to pick you up because you asked to leave?"

"Actually, Masako wanted you to go to Zhao Mingkai's place a long time ago, because Zhao Mingkai said that he could accept you, and Masako wanted you to live a better life. But whoever wants to get that original spouse to give birth to a son, they will turn their backs on you."

"This is one of them. There is another point, which is also the most important point. At that time, Masako had already been diagnosed with severe depression. She couldn't always look healthy and beautiful in front of you."

"She told me more than once that she was afraid that one day she would lose control and become your nightmare, and this kind of pressure would also make her condition worse."

"So you asked to leave, she was very sad, but also relieved."

"Masako didn't die because of someone, she just didn't overcome depression and died of illness."

Zhao Shuyao opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.is that so?So he thought everything wrong?

Jiang Ru said to Zhong Shitian: "But you did do something wrong, you are such a bad boy. Have you apologized to Shuyao?"

Zhong Shitian hurriedly looked at Zhao Shuyao, and stammered, "Shuyao, I'm sorry, I know I was wrong."

Zhao Shu looked at Masako's gentle and gentle smile on the tombstone, and heard the long chirping of cicadas and the brisk sound of the wind.

After a long time, he said softly, "Well, I forgive you."