second love

Nothing in particular changed in the days after that.After returning to the company, Yue Chen returned to busy work, while Cheng Zhuojun continued to receive treatment besides work, but he became more diligent, which surprised Yue Chen.

Yue Chen still didn't tell Cheng Zhuojun about buying a house.I just silently collected some real estate information, and even found excuses to go out to look at the houses on Saturdays and Sundays.

He wanted to tell Cheng Zhuojun about it when he got better.

When they met again in City S a year ago, Cheng Zhuojun had a deep defense against Yue Chen.If Yue Chen hadn't insisted on staying with him for several days and had a lot of conversations with him, Cheng Zhuojun wouldn't have gotten close to him again.

In any case, he is also the most fundamental reason why Cheng Zhuojun became what he is now.

Yue Chen didn't blame himself.The result of this matter, going back and forth, the original reason is to be blamed on him after all.Besides, he didn't choose Cheng Zhuojun again because of some so-called self-blame or nostalgia.

Before meeting Cheng Zhuojun again, he also dated other people. He thought the same as Cheng Zhuojun back then. He is still very young. There are still many things in life that require him to fight hard, and there are still many possibilities in the future.

When he was in City S, although Cheng Zhuojun only responded to his words by nodding and shaking his head, every time he looked at Cheng Zhuojun's eyes that seemed to be unable to see to the bottom, Yue Chen knew that he was sinking again.

I'm afraid it's getting deeper.

So Yue Chen wants to live with this person, before this person completely let go of his defenses, tell him, let's live together.

Yue Chen paid attention to several favorite places, and after sorting out the information, he prepared to show it to Cheng Zhuojun in a few days.

Cheng Zhuojun has been working hard to receive treatment these days, and he has done what the doctor asked him to do seriously.Every night he worked very hard to write about things in college, and sometimes he didn't go to bed until twelve o'clock in the evening.

After finishing the work on the new house, Yue Chen noticed that Cheng Zhuojun was using too much force in the treatment.When Cheng Zhuojun was persuaded to go to sleep again but the other party refused to listen, Yue Chen put his arms around his shoulders, picked up his legs with the other, and gently put him on the bed.

"..." Cheng Zhuojun knew that it was useless for him to resist, so he turned away angrily from Yue Chen and did not look at him.

Yue Chen couldn't laugh or cry when he saw Cheng Zhuojun's actions, he thought he was already a grown-up person, and looked like a child.

Later, when he went to see a doctor, the doctor talked to Yue Chen, and he felt that Cheng Zhuojun was abnormal these days.

The doctor told him that although Cheng Zhuojun is now active in treatment, it has no effect.

"Too positive will not help the condition. Cheng Zhuojun's mood has changed a lot... Has he had any troubles lately?"

Hearing the doctor's question, Yue Chen thought about it in his mind, but he didn't think about whether there was any unhappiness when the two of them got along recently, except that Yue Chen kept forcing Cheng Zhuojun to rest early at night?

After returning home, Cheng Zhuojun immediately went back to his room and continued to write about his college memories.Yue Chen walked to his side, and saw that Cheng Zhuojun had written the original clean notebook to the end.

Cheng Zhuojun wrote in a hurry, and his handwriting was a bit scribbled.Compared with having to pause for a long time every time he wrote a sentence at the beginning, Cheng Zhuojun's attitude towards this matter has really changed a lot.

After standing aside and watching for a long time, Yue Chen couldn't help but ask Cheng Zhuojun.

"Zhuo Jun, you seem to be very active about this matter recently?"

Cheng Zhuojun stopped writing and clenched his hands unconsciously.

"...I want to get better soon."

He stared at what he wrote, but didn't read a single word.

In the past few days, he has written down everything he can recall, and he can recall all trivial things, even how he was made like this by Min Xinhong.But about how I met Yue Chen, and some details about when I fell in love with him in college, I can't remember at all.

He only remembered that the ending of that relationship was not good, and he felt guilty towards Yue Chen in his heart, but he didn't remember where the feeling of guilt came from.

"I want to change back to my previous self." Cheng Zhuojun said again.

Yue Chen rubbed his hair and said, "It will get better."

The voice was gentle and firm, but Cheng Zhuojun didn't feel at ease because of it.

After that, Cheng Zhuojun's condition showed no signs of improvement.Yue Chen also couldn't figure out what caused it.

Yue Chen asked the doctor, and the doctor said that when he was talking to Cheng Zhuojun, he kept saying that he hoped that he would get better soon, no matter what treatment or medicine he took, he would obey.

"The hope of recovery is too eager, which has affected the condition. You have to talk to him more, let him not worry, take his time, and the disease will be cured."

Yue Chen hung up the phone, stood in the living room and looked at Cheng Zhuojun who was standing on the balcony.

It has been raining recently, and the sky outside is gray, but this does not affect Cheng Zhuojun standing on the balcony and looking outside in a daze.On the contrary, Cheng Zhuojun has been in a daze more often these days.

I don't know if the coming of the rainy season will affect his mood more, but Yue Chen found that Cheng Zhuojun's angle of seeing things while standing on the balcony has changed.

He used to look at buildings and courtyards.Now he would look at the mountains in the distance, hear the birds chirping and flying over the treetops, and his eyes would follow the paths of the birds as they flew by.

Cheng Zhuojun had something on his mind, Yue Chen had guessed this way.It's just that he didn't know how to ask Cheng Zhuojun, what kind of occasion should he ask: "Is there something on your mind?"

Yue Chen brought a coat from the room and put it on Cheng Zhuojun's body.

"Don't catch a cold."

Cheng Zhuojun looked at Yue Chen and said nothing.

Originally, Yue Chen thought that he would tell Cheng Zhuojun about buying a new house in the past few days. Originally, he expected that Cheng Zhuojun's illness should be almost cured by autumn.Those sorted materials are now lying in the cabinet on the desk, waiting for Yue Chen to get them one day.

Yue Chen stood with Cheng Zhuojun for a while, feeling that he should say something.

"How are you getting along with the people in the company now?"

"..." Cheng Zhuojun thought for a while, but didn't answer right away. "They took good care of me, but they didn't get along very often."

Few people in the company don't know about Cheng Zhuojun's situation. Considering his special situation, his colleagues will not get too close to him, and only occasionally help him when he needs it.

"Then, did you take the initiative to talk to them?"

Cheng Zhuojun shook his head.

Yue Chen didn't know what to say, and the two of them fell into an awkward atmosphere without words again.

When it was time for dinner at night, Cheng Zhuojun just picked up the rice silently, but Yue Chen looked at his face for a long time, but still didn't know how to ask Cheng Zhuojun.

After the meal, Cheng Zhuojun cleaned up his bowl and was about to go into the kitchen, did Yue Chen stop him, pull him to the edge of the sofa, and let him sit down.

Yue Chen squatted halfway, pulling Cheng Zhuojun's hand and rubbing it over and over again.

"What's the matter?" Cheng Zhuojun tilted his head and felt a little puzzled when Yue Chen didn't speak for a long time.

"Zhuo Jun." Yue Chen raised his head and looked at the person in front of him, "Is there something on your mind?"

"..."

Yue Chen was still stroking Cheng Zhuojun's hands, seeing that the other party didn't reply, he continued: "I haven't noticed before, you seem to suddenly become very active in the treatment."

Cheng Zhuojun wanted to withdraw his hand, but Yue Chen grabbed it tightly.

"Did you encounter something?"

"...No, wouldn't it be nice to get well sooner?" After saying this, Cheng Zhuojun subconsciously bit his lower lip.

Noticing Cheng Zhuojun's little action, Yue Chen sighed inwardly, knowing that he would not tell him the truth immediately.

"Did I say something before that made you feel a little pimple?"

"..."

"Or are you unhappy that I wasn't at home with you on Saturdays and Sundays?"

"..." The corners of Cheng Zhuojun's mouth twitched, and he looked up at Yue Chen with a depressed expression, "I'm not a teenage girl."

"I was wrong, I was wrong!" Yue Chen squeezed his earlobe with his hands, and begged Cheng Zhuojun for mercy with an exaggerated appearance of "obedience to teaching".

Cheng Zhuojun hooked the corners of his mouth and smiled softly.

"It's been a long time since I saw you smile." Yue Chen moved closer and raised his hand to touch Cheng Zhuojun's cheek. "I used to laugh a lot, and the corners of my mouth almost went behind my ears."

Who knew that after hearing these words, Cheng Zhuojun suppressed his smile, and a trace of sadness climbed up his face again.

"The old Cheng Zhuojun was better, right?"

"what?"

"In the past, Cheng Zhuojun was very cheerful and outgoing, and he could get along with everyone. Unlike me now, I need you to take care of me everywhere, like an oil bottle..."

Cheng Zhuo Jun Yue's voice became softer, but every word fell into Yue Chen's ears.

"Why do you think so?"

"..."

"Why do you think so?"

why?Cheng Zhuojun looked at the top of Yue Chen's head, and pinched out a handful of hair with his fingers.

"Has a white hair."

"Ah, it was there before, don't worry about it."

"Pull it out."

"No need, more and more will be pulled out." Yue Chen grabbed Cheng Zhuo Jun's hand, and held it tightly in the original posture.

You are only in your 20s... Cheng Zhuojun couldn't bear it.

If you want to say why, it's probably because Yue Chen has always been a very powerful image in Cheng Zhuojun's heart.

Yue Chen's character of being accustomed to a free life stems from his family education and his later thinking and exploration of the road of life.In Cheng Zhuojun's understanding, Yue Chen is always a strong existence, no matter how big the difficulty is in front of him, he can overcome it.At the very least, it won't end up in such an ugly end.

But the current self can't give Yue Chen too much support in any aspect.Such a self, what else is it if it's not an oil bottle?In some matters of his own, Yue Chen did not know how many times he had run into a wall, especially when facing Min Xinhong, every time he saw Yue Chen, he would not give him a good face, and Yue Chen had tolerated it countless times for himself. .

"If I get well sooner, you don't have to work so hard."

"But there's no rush."

"……I know."

After Cheng Zhuojun finished speaking, he fell silent.

"Don't think that you are a burden." Yue Chen said, "I don't think so."

Yue Chen got up and walked into the study, and when he came out, he had an extra file bag in his hand.

Cheng Zhuojun looked at the file bag Yue Chen put in his hand, and looked up at Yue Chen with some doubts.

"I've always wanted to tell you when you're better." Yue Chen smiled and took Cheng Zhuojun's hand. "Let's move."

Cheng Zhuojun stared at Yue Chen with wide eyes, his face full of surprise.

"The document bag contains information about some real estate projects. I have calculated that with my savings and the money from my parents, we can move to a place with more convenient transportation.

“We could buy a bigger house than this one. If we don’t have enough money, we’ll sell it.

"I've thought about it. We can decorate the bay window in the new house, and it must be exposed to the sun in winter. You can sit on it and read a book, and bask in the sun when you're tired."

Yue Chen took out a floor plan of a house in the file bag, and pointed to a certain place to show Cheng Zhuojun.

"I also thought about leaving a vacant room in the new home for our adopted children in the future. If you don't want sex, we will raise a dog. This way the family will be more lively. Sometimes I am busy with work, and you will not be so lonely at home ..."

In this life, he has identified Cheng Zhuojun.No matter how hard life is, as long as Cheng Zhuojun is willing to stay by his side, he will do everything within his power for Cheng Zhuojun.

With a slap, the tears that fell fell on the back of Yue Chen's hand.Cheng Zhuojun's tears flowed wantonly on his face like this.

Yue Chen raised his hand and wiped away the tears on Cheng Zhuojun's face with his thumb.

"Zhuo Jun, in fact, you have never changed, you believe me. I am not coaxing you, judging people is not just based on appearance, your heart has never changed.

"I want to live with you because I like you."

Cheng Zhuojun couldn't stop his tears, so Yue Chen had no choice but to turn around and take a tissue to wipe his face.

"You don't know, it took me a year to let you go after I graduated. But if we met again three years ago, or two years ago or earlier, I would still fall in love with you again."

Hearing Yue Chen's last words, Cheng Zhuojun burst out laughing.Laughed and laughed and cried again.He wiped the tears from his face.Said to Yue Chen with a crying voice: "You are so nasty."

If that reunion by chance was an opportunity for Yue Chen to fall in love with him again, then for Cheng Zhuojun, that reunion was his salvation.

In Cheng Zhuojun's already torn apart world, Yue Chen appeared in front of him and was trapped here with him.Accompany him to repair this broken world bit by bit.

In the past five years, Cheng Zhuojun has only such a person who can be completely relied on by his side.

When Yue Chen held his hand and said to him: "Come to G City, I will accompany you." Cheng Zhuojun knew that his life-saving straw had appeared.

Cheng Zhuojun cried and choked a few times, clenched his fist and beat the shoulder of the person in front of him with some complaints.

"I've just finished eating and I'm so sick right now. It's all your fault..."

Yue Chen smiled and hugged him into his arms.

It is better to be silent than to say anything at this time.

The author has something to say: Suddenly a name flashed into my mind!I don't know what to change the name to, but this is it!It's better than the word "again" that flashed in my mind before... _(:зゝ∠)_.Two more chapters, trying to revise orz.