Become official CP with ex-boyfriend

"On the day of the college entrance examination," Xie Shi unconsciously leaned towards Xu Chuyan as he walked, "For some reason, I didn't take the exam."

Hearing this, Xu Chuyan nodded and listened to him quietly.

The two walked on the bridge not far from the hospital, Xie Shi supported the railing beside him, he calmed down a little after the wind blew up, but his face was still a little pale when recalling the past.

He will be 30 years old in a few years, and he has experienced a lot of things. It stands to reason that he will be able to afford and let go of everything.He can afford it and let it go, he knows what he deserves and what he will lose in the end, so he can't be truly honest when facing Xu Chuyan.

But now, when he thinks back to the past, his heart still hurts. He wants to grasp the straw and try to relieve his pain in this way.

He stopped and leaned against the railing next to him, "I was just about to rush from home to the examination room that day when I heard a call from the hospital saying that my dad... passed away."

Xu Chuyan's expression froze, and he looked at Xie Shi.He had a faint feeling that Xie Shi's change had something to do with his father's death, but he didn't expect this accident to come so early.

"When I rushed to the hospital, the door of the operating room was full of blood. The hallway was full of blood." Xie Shi took a deep breath, watched the vehicles speeding past in front of him, and continued, "My dad died because of a medical accident." , At that time, my mother's patient died on the operating table. Those people came towards my mother, and my father blocked her. She was stabbed several times. She was obviously in the hospital, and she didn't even have time to push into the operating room for rescue. "

As he spoke, he lost his strength, holding himself up from sliding down the guardrail.In fact, after such a long time, when thinking about these things again, Xie Shi felt that he would be very calm, even if he didn't think about it deliberately, some things might fade away due to the years.

It's just that after Xu Chuyan was stabbed in the back today, the familiar feeling of fear immediately flooded his chest, and the pain of losing a loved one reappeared like the old and the new.

The night wind was bleak and chilly, Xu Chuyan had only met Xie Shi's father a few times, in his impression he was a gentle man, his smile was like a spring breeze, even if the problem of Xie Shi's puppy love was known to the whole school After that, he also maintained a calm attitude.Such a person who loves his wife and educates him properly is worthy of respect.

He suddenly thought of Fei Fang's trembling hand as if he had been injured, and said, "Your mother..."

"Not only did my father pass away that day, but my mother's hand was also injured, and she couldn't be on the operating table for the rest of her life." After saying this, Xie Shi calmed down a lot.

The tragedy of these past events was completely beyond Xu Chuyan's imagination. In less than a few minutes of conversation, it seemed that he had absorbed extremely heavy information.He took a deep breath, grabbed Xie Shi's shoulders, and said nothing.

Xie Shi, who had just given birth at that time, experienced the nightmare of his biological father's death and his mother's serious injury. He couldn't help but let him let go of the shadows that had been in his mind for several years with a light "it's okay".

Xie Shi turned his head to look at him, and said with a smile, "It's okay."

"So later, you repeated it." Xu Chuyan thought of the man who said he knew Xie Shi at the dinner table today, and guessed.

Xie Shi responded, and he briefly mentioned all his experiences, and briefly talked about his past after repeating his studies for a year to be admitted to university, and finally going abroad as an exchange student.

Just a few words summed it all up, but Xu Chuyan felt a little out of breath.Xie Shi, whom he met eight years ago, was an idle young master who even walked lazily.

But when they reunited later, he saw Xie Shi backstage bowing his waist towards the big star, dripping wet without changing his clothes, standing alone outside the venue blowing the cold wind, his whole body was shivering from the cold.

He felt a little annoyed, if he hadn't let go of this relationship because Xie Shi left without saying goodbye, then he should have been by his side when Xie Shi was at the lowest point in his life.

After saying all this, Xie Shi seemed to have let go of the burden that had been in his heart for many years. He hadn't talked about these things with anyone for a long time. everything.

He turned around and put his arms on the railing, leaned down and leaned his chin on his arms, the river was sparkling, and the city on the opposite side was full of strange lights.He closed his eyes slightly and did not speak again.

Xu Chuyan stood with his back to the side, and a few high school students in blue and white school uniforms walked by the bridge from time to time.They rang the bell on their bicycles, and laughed when they talked about some happy topic. When a few students passed by, they all gave curious eyes to the two leaning on the railing.

Two male classmates walked by, one bright and the other dark, just like the two teenagers who walked side by side under the umbrella back then.

"Let's go," Xie Shi said after blowing the wind for a while.After all, the two have special identities, and it would be bad if they were recognized.

Xu Chuyan didn't move, a group of students walked over, and the bridge became quiet again.He turned his face to look at Xie Shi, wanted to say something but didn't know where to start, he was afraid that he would poke Xie Shi's sad things.

Seeing his tangled look, Xie Shi felt a little funny, "You can say whatever you want."

In fact, at this time, Xu Chuyan clearly understood the whole picture of the matter, but felt that something was hidden in this line.He connected these things together and asked in a low voice: "Then you went to college later, which school did you go to?"

Because of the sudden situation today, Xie Shi expressed all the boredom that he hadn't talked about for a long time, but when he heard Xu Chuyan's question, he obviously hesitated.

Back then, he and Xu Chuyan made an appointment to go to A University together, but in the end they broke the appointment because of an accident. After he repeated his studies for a year, he was clearly enough to get into A University, but he was admitted to B University, which was far worse than A University.

Not only because of the preferential treatment of the scholarship, but also because I don't know how to face Xu Chuyan.

He thought for a while, and finally answered truthfully: "University B, later went to study in the United States."

As if to verify something, Xu Chuyan nodded. At that moment, he felt a sense of dust settled in his heart.

Eight years ago, he waited until late at night at the school gate but did not find this person. He has been disappointed with Xie Shi all this time.He thought that the relationship that was not recognized by everyone at that time was finally brought to an end by Xie Shi's compromise.

But he never thought that Xie Shi had endured so much pain during that period of time, he felt a little regretful, if he could have appeared a few years earlier, Xie Shi would have suffered a few years less.

Xie Shi looked ahead, of course he didn't notice the emotional changes of the people next to him, "You say I'm like this now, will my dad in heaven think I'm useless?"

In the past, he was a top student, a person with a bright future in the eyes of his teachers and classmates. He was cheerful and sunny, and he clearly had a bright future, but now he has become sensitive and weak, and his career has also suffered a complete failure.

When he finished speaking, Xu Chuyan was surprised.After experiencing so many natural and man-made disasters, this fool still feels that he is weak and incompetent.

"I don't know what your father will think in heaven, but no matter what, he won't think you are useless." Xu Chuyan thought for a while and said, "And in my opinion, you are very brave. You don't have to be in any To prove your value, because in the eyes of many people, you are a value in itself.”

The knot buried in his heart for so many years was finally broken by Xu Chuyan, Xie Shi turned his head and looked at Xu Chuyan.For such a long time, he didn't know what he wanted to pursue. At the beginning, he entered the circle because of the rich income of actors, but he was messed up and failed.

He knew that he shouldn't care about other people's eyes, but he knew it was one thing, and it was another thing for someone to look at him and tell him that he was valuable.

Xie Shi nodded, the time was getting later and later, there were only a few cars passing by on the bridge, he was a little cold from the wind, so he tightened his coat and said, "Let's go, it's getting late."

"Wait a minute." Xu Chuyan grabbed his arm and said hesitantly.

When Xie Shi wanted to leave before, Xu Chuyan held him back, as if he had a lot to say.Hearing this, Xie Shi leaned back on the railing again in doubt, and looked at Xu Chuyan.

"I still have questions to ask you," Xu Chuyan felt wrong after finishing speaking, "I have something to tell you."

Xie Shi nodded, he had said a lot of his heart today, even if Xu Chuyan wanted to know more, he seemed to be in the mood to answer them one by one.

"Forget it," Xu Chuyan shook his head, looked at Xie Shi: "I won't ask, and I won't tell."

He looked at Xie Shi, at the sparkling river behind him, and at the bustling city on the other side of the river.After a long time, Xu Chuyan slowly opened his mouth: "Over the years, I have experienced a lot. I have experienced everything from being a film star with nothing to what others in this circle can see and not see."

After hearing this, Xie Shi slowly realized that what Xu Chuyan wanted to say was not as simple as he imagined.Silently, he looked at Xu Chuyan, as if hearing some hints from his words.

"If you want to continue to develop in the entertainment industry, I can help you, at least I can save you some detours." When Xu Chuyan said this, he felt like he was speaking from an agent. He paused for a while, solemnly Said: "I mean, if you want, we can keep our marriage license until we are old."

Xie Shi opened his eyes slightly, and his hands leaning against the railing trembled for a moment. He had never seen anyone who confessed that he would spend his whole life on the line.

However, this is not the first time they have experienced this with each other. As early as eight years ago, they had been together vigorously regardless of other people's opinions.If it were placed in ancient times, it would be regarded as a private life.

Xu Chuyan later realized that what he said was a bit abrupt, and explained: "We can keep the documents. If you want a divorce, I will respect your idea."

The film king who is usually calm in front of the spotlight, now looks like a seventeen/eighteen-year-old boy in front of the person he likes.

Xie Shi suddenly thought of the self who looked at the graduation photos at night after repeating his third year of high school eight years ago.And in Xu Chuyan's mobile phone, he has unilaterally sent him messages over the years.

Now that I think about it, they all made the same mistake.In each other's lives, they can stand alone and face pain bravely, but in love, they are both timid and cowardly, so they have missed each other for so many years.

Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, Xu Chuyan said softly: "Is it okay? Let's...try again?"