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Chen Qiye got his wish and stayed at Qin Ge's place for more than one night.

Most of the time, Chen Qiye stayed behind closed doors.Like the snail girl Qin Ge raised at home, Chen Qiye had only been in and out of the large supermarkets near the neighborhood at the farthest. Qin Ge went to school during the day to take exams, and he ate lunch casually and read books and movies in his room. , Playing with the computer to kill time, then seriously prepare the meals, and wait for Qin Ge to come back to have dinner together.

Chen Qiye came in a hurry, didn't bring any luggage, and had been wearing Qin Ge's clothes for the first few days.The high-end residential area is equipped with underfloor heating, which is like a hidden spring compared to the cold and damp outside.Chen Qiye was even less willing to go out, and he was also less willing to wear the new clothes Qin Ge bought for him.Those fit well, but they didn't smell like Qin Ge.

Qin Ge didn't know what kind of smell he had. He only remembered that one day he forgot to bring the documents back to the apartment, and opened the door without knocking. Chen Qiye didn't sit on the lazy sofa in front of the large French window in the living room, but was wrapped in bed He went back to sleep again, holding in his arms the sweater he had changed yesterday.

Qin Ge pretended that he didn't turn back halfway, and when he came back at night, the sweater had been washed by Chen Qiye's hands, dried and neatly folded in the closet.Chen Qiye wore a ginger-yellow high collar, which made his porcelain-white complexion even more radiant. When he smiled, he had two dimples on his face, and he was healthier than ever.

Today's dinner was also richer than ever. Chen Qiye took the initiative to raise his glass to congratulate Qin Ge for finishing the last exam. When Qin Ge clinked glasses with him, he consciously lowered his cup. Under Qin Ge's gaze He held the cup stem respectfully with both hands the whole time, even though Qin Ge's own posture was very casual.

Qin Ge also took a sip. The lack of taste was not because the wine was bad, but because he was absent-minded.Chen Qiye's Western-style meal, no matter the layout or the dishes, is very delicate. It takes at least two hours to eat in a western restaurant. The focus is not on evaluating the delicious food, but on the conversation during the period—

Qin Ge looked at Chen Qiye.Chen Qiye lowered his head, and when he ate broccoli, he had to cut it into eight or ten pieces with a knife and fork. Qin Ge was so dazed by his silent and well-behaved appearance that he didn't know what to say when he wanted to speak.

Qin Ge gently put down the fork in his right hand, supported his forehead, and pressed one temple with his thumb, looking very tired.University is not like high school that only studies. After today's last exam, Qin Ge was invited by his classmates to relax. The minimum amount that a group of college students recharged when swiping their ID cards could be used until the early morning of the next day.

Qin Ge also planned to play all night at first.He has a special liking for rpg games. Some friends who are hesitant to spend money to buy a certain role-playing game will come to ask Qin Ge, because Qin Ge is likely to be an internal beta player invited by the developer. The money spent online is no less than buying basketball shoes, and you can always find a lot of plot easter eggs that are ignored by other players.

But today, when Qin Ge touched the mouse and keyboard for a long time and selected a certain character as his identity in the virtual world, he found himself very calm. brings freshness.

Qin Ge straightened his back and moved his gaze from the computer screen to the row of players facing him.

He didn't know what games those people were playing, but he could clearly see that those people were wearing the same noise-canceling headphones, touching the same mouse and keyboard, immersed in the joy of the virtual world.

That world is different from reality, carrying the sustenance of people of different genders, ages, and identities, just like the utopia of Qin Ge and Chen Qiye when they were alone.

But reality is reality after all.

——People can only escape for a while in the virtual dimension, and sooner or later they have to face the inescapable reality.

The broccoli on Chen Qiye's plate had already been cut into smaller pieces, so he asked confidently, "Is today's dish not to your liking?"

Qin Ge put down his hand and held the knife and fork again: "No."

Chen Qiye breathed a sigh of relief.Qin Ge just held the knife and fork without moving.

Qin Ge asked, "When do you plan to return to Beijing?"

Chen Qiye's throat tightened, and he looked at Qin Ge extremely uneasily.When Qin Ge and Chen Qiye looked at each other, their eyes were very calm. He said that he could find the announcement of the Foundation Committee on the Internet. Chen Qiye was on the list of the first batch of students, and the date of going abroad was close at hand.

Chen Qiye let go of his hands, and the sound of the stainless steel knife and fork colliding with the porcelain plate was particularly obvious in the silent restaurant.He took a deep breath, breathing heavily, and trembling several times.He covered his eyes with his hands, and his arms trembled a little.

"...I don't have to go, I won't go." After calming down for a minute or two, Chen Qiye said that he would give up the quota.This project does not require applicants to spend a penny. The loss of Chen Qiye's breaking the contract is just that he cannot apply for the project of the Foundation Committee within five years, and has no other impact.

He also repeated all the words Qin Ge had used to persuade him to quit, as if all the preliminary preparations for going abroad were just a whim, and now he is the most rational, and the current life is what he wants most.

"Is it because of your mother? Are you worried and don't know how to explain our relationship to your family. No, it's okay, you don't need to let them know, and you don't have to run around the capital Hangzhou in the future. I will come to you in the future I don't need you to spend money on me, I can earn a lot as a tutor!" Chen Xiye said more and more, leaning closer to Qin Ge's side, but his tone became more and more humble, "I will come to you in the future, secretly Yes, secret, don't let anyone find out... They won't doubt you, and I won't be greedy, as long as I can be with you, as long as I can be together, see you, as long as..."

Chen Qiye's eyes flickered, fearing that he hadn't backed down enough, he said in a hurry: "If they push you hard in the future and want you to fall in love with a woman, get married and get a wife, I will also—"

Chen Qiye was sweating coldly on his back, held his breath, and suddenly couldn't continue.Qin Ge wasn't angry, and asked jokingly, "You too...?"

Chen Qiye bit his lower lip, his cheeks were so red that they could bleed, and then turned pale in the next instant.

Qin Ge stood up, walked over to Chen Qiye, held his face in his hands, and their noses touched.

"No." Qin Ge said to Chen Qiye, "I'm not Qin Siyuan."

They looked at each other very close.Qin Ge's voice was gentle and convincing.Chen Qiye is not Chen Wang either, they should not repeat the mistakes of their parents.Once Chen Wang made Qin Siyuan perfect and became his intimate lover who could not see the light, now it was Qin Siyuan's son's turn to make Chen Qiye perfect and cut off his only worries.

"I hope you go, sincerely." Qin Ge poked Chen Xiye's dimple.Chen Qiye suddenly couldn't hold back anymore, buried himself in Qin Ge's arms and hugged him tightly, not daring to let go, his crying was sticky, but no real tears fell.

"I thought you let me stay because you wanted to get back together with me...don't want me...please don't want me, it's my fault, it's all my fault, you obviously love me so much and treat me so Okay, but I always want to run away... being coy and making you unhappy... It's all because I didn't do well enough, I'm so stupid..."

Chen Qiye spoke incoherently, how could Qin Ge not soften his heart, he was so painful that he couldn't straighten his lumbar spine.He braced himself up, patted Chen Xiye's swaying back, and encouraged him: "So you should go even more. You can't spoil me with everything, only think about me."

"Then let's go together!" Chen Xiye raised his head from Qin Ge's arms, his eyes glistening with water.As long as Qin Ge is willing, he can go to study in any country, change his favorite subject, and live a new life.

"I'm going to change my major next semester." Qin Ge refused gently and cruelly.He has a clear plan for the future, and wants to transfer from pharmacy to clinical practice, and learn a practical "skill" instead of relying on the resources and wealth accumulated by his parents.He wants to stay in Hangzhou, the place where he grew up.

"But you clearly said that Hangcheng is no longer the Hangcheng we are familiar with!" Chen Qiye suddenly raised his voice, pushed Qin Ge away, stood up and paced restlessly, as if the docile, pitiful and fragile people before were all gone. It's a disguise.

"I don't understand! I don't understand! I have become what you like! I don't want any bullshit dignity and freedom, I will hand it all in! I hand it over to you! Why do you still want to drive me away! I listen to you so much , Why are you still not satisfied! What do you want! " In a fit of anger, Chen Qiye grabbed Qin Ge's sweater collar tightly with both hands and pulled him up from the chair.Qin Ge did not resist. During the stalemate, Chen Qiye was surprised by his impulsiveness, but the ruthlessness in his eyes did not make Qin Ge feel strange.

Qin Ge said: "I want you to see the world and come back to me."

Chen Qiye slowly let go of his hands, not forgetting to help Qin Ge straighten the crumpled shirt inside the collar.

It was meaningless to continue seeing and communicating, Chen Qiye had no choice but to accept Qin Ge's arrangement.The two left Hangzhou on the first flight the next day, and returned to the small apartment that had not been rented for a long time.

The apartment was full of traces of their lives.When tidying up, they put pairs of slippers, towels, toothbrushes, and tableware into large cardboard boxes for moving.Chen Qiye's luggage allowance is limited, and these daily consumables can be bought after going to Russia. The suitcase gives priority to storing clothes for the four seasons and Chinese seasoning sauces that can be brought across the border.Qin Ge had the experience of going abroad, so he stuffed a few packs of hot pot ingredients into the gaps in his clothes, and said meaningfully: "I suggest you carry a rice cooker with you, you will thank me."

Chen Qiye smiled and went to the kitchen to take out the few bottles of mineral water left in the refrigerator.This apartment is very compact, with one bedroom, one living room, one kitchen and one bathroom. Chen Qiye used to think that this place is very small. Indeed, a large open suitcase and dozens of large and small cardboard boxes are enough to occupy most of the space in the living room. Chen Qiye wanted to return from the kitchen the same way, every step had to be high and big to avoid stepping on the cardboard boxes.

In order to walk past the empty stove, through the clean dining room, there is only one bed left in the only bedroom next to you, and the green potted plants in front of the bay window embracing the orange-red sunset are all withered and turned brown. Longer and longer shadows fell on the floor of the empty and large apartment.

Chen Qiye leaned against the cardboard box, bathed in the sunset, drinking water in a lazy posture as if drinking.Qin Ge sat next to him, and he handed over the water he drank a few sips. Qin Ge didn't meet him, and took it to drink without wiping the mouth of the bottle deliberately. Eyes, softly: "Take a break."

Chen Xiye's head rested on his shoulder.The sunset light that enveloped them was warm and soft. When he looked up, he could see the fine hairs on Qin Ge's face.

Qin Ge also looked sideways at him.

They just erased the traces of living together, and now they only have each other in their eyes.

Kissing comes naturally.Lips were about to touch, and they were brought back to reality by the ringing of the phone.

Qin Ge touched the sweater several times before he remembered that the phone was in his trouser pocket. After seeing the caller ID, he did not avoid Chen Qiye and connected directly.

Qin Ge said "Hello", and Lu Chong over there asked, "Where are you?"

Qin Ge lied and didn't write drafts: "I just finished the exam, and I'm going out to play for a few days."

Lu Chong paused for two or three seconds, but he didn't ask where Qin Ge went or who was around him.

"You don't need to go back to Tanzhou after you've had enough fun. What your grandfather means is to spend the New Year outside this year." Lu Chong reported the name of a small town in the southwest, saying that Qi Miaomiao was living there with his family.She went out during the day to find a cafe to sit all day, and at night returned to the small villa facing the lake with spring flowers to rest, had dinner with her parents, and then showed her father the manuscript she had written all day.

This seems to be a new way for Qi Miaomiao to communicate with her father.They once did not understand each other, but through fictional stories, they regained their blood-linked kinship.Mr. Qi is also willing to let go of his figure, hand over the business to others, and give his only daughter more belated company.Qi Miaomiao was also surprised that the two generations lived in peace in this unfamiliar small town. When she was young, it was her father who she longed to escape the most. In the end, the man she relied on the most turned out to be her father.

Qin Ge said, "Okay."

Lu Chong asked, "When do you plan to come back?"

Qin Ge looked at Chen Qiye.Chen Qiye opened his mouth, and told him with his lips the date of the air tickets that the Foundation will buy for international students.

Qin Ge said, "The day after tomorrow."

"...Well." Lu Chong said with deep meaning, "It's fun, just don't forget to go home."

Qin Ge's voice was very soft: "Okay."

call ended.

The red sun hides in the tall buildings.

When the lights come on, there is a lot of traffic.

The night scene outside the window was gorgeous, and the inside of the unlit window was brighter than the day, but their eyes were dim.

The city is full of vitality, and the lovers in the city are dead, wasting the last time that will eventually pass away.

"Let's run away."

"Let's do it."