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Qin Ge took out a cigarette.

Smoking was not allowed in the inpatient department, so Qin Ge just held the cigarette between his teeth and did not light it up. He pursed his lips and inhaled the faint smell of tobacco, which was somewhat comforting.

He was still leaning against the wall in a tired posture, Lu Chong asked him to go to the window at the end of the corridor, but he shook his head, still unable to move.

Qin Ge asked, "Why did you choose?"

Lu Chong said, "You can't be too greedy."

Qin Ge smiled bleakly, feeling very headache.His mother was still lying on the hospital bed depressed and in a trance, and those who kept saying they loved her couldn't wait to ask questions for her, asking Qin Ge to make a choice between love and family affection.

Lu Chong did not avoid Qin Ge's gaze.The young man in front of him is nineteen years old and is in the best years of his youth, but he is no longer as vigorous as before, as if he has experienced growth but has not yet fully grown up.

Lu Chong's attitude was not as tough as before. He held Qin Ge's shoulder and said, "You are still too young..."

You are only eighteen or nineteen years old, and you don't know what love is at all.

Lu Chong was quite gentle, and Qin Ge could completely imagine how grandpa would be furious tomorrow, and the words of reprimand were exactly the same as what Lu Chong kept in his heart.

"You adults are so arrogant." Qin Ge saw it through.Even if he lives to be eight or ninety years old, these grown-ups will still say that he doesn't know what love is because he is no longer young.

Regardless of whether he or his mother is the protagonist of this story, the right of interpretation and autonomy are not in their hands from the beginning to the end, and his grandfather, Qi Miaomiao's father, does not even need to be named.

It wasn't until this moment that he finally felt what his mother felt.In the past, he couldn't understand why Qi Miaomiao couldn't forget Qin Siyuan, but now he understands that his mother was once as brave as Nora, and ran away from her original family after awakening. What she wanted to find afterward was not necessarily the trace that Qin Siyuan loved her, but the trace of Qin Siyuan's love for her. Explore whether Qin Siyuan is another siege, treating himself as a doll and a puppet.

Qin Ge raised his shoulders, shook off Lu Chong's hand on his shoulder, then took out his wallet and opened it, took out all the savings cards that were not in his name, and returned them to Lu Chong together with the Longines watch on his wrist and the car keys. They want to make a choice, even though the choice does not get them what they want.

Qin Ge came to Beijing again on a weekend in mid-to-late September.Chen Qiye was waiting at the exit early in the morning. When he saw Qin Ge coming out, he jumped up and waved his hands so that he could notice him more quickly.

But Qin Ge almost didn't recognize him, because the last time Chen Qiye sent him to the airport, he was still shy and restrained with red eyes. He hadn't seen him for twenty days, but Chen Qiye was much more lively, and his body was filled with a never-before-seen When he smiled, the dimples on his cheeks were obvious. As soon as Qin Ge approached, he raised his hands and pinched his cheeks, pressing his thumbs against the depressions of the dimples.

"I thought you'd get a tan." Qin Ge seemed to be most concerned about this, and then asked, "What's so happy about it?"

There are many things that make Chen Qiye happy.In addition to the hundred-regiment battle after the military training, there is also a new selection notice from the college student union.But he is still not very familiar with the classmates in the class, and many friends he met during the military training are just nodding acquaintances, but Qiao Yin and Chen Qiye have dinner appointments every day, and people with big brains see them walking around the campus , Maybe it will make up for Sister Gao Lengyu and her herbivorous boyfriend.

Chen Qiye really wanted to introduce Qiao Yin to Qin Ge.Just like Qin Ge invited Chen Qiye to join "Pigeons, Ducks, Horses, Chickens and Rabbits in the Same Cage", Chen Xiye also hopes that he can make more friends and recommend them to Qin Ge, so that everyone can eat, chat and play together, instead of just the two of them nesting together I don’t get out of bed in the apartment, and I even rely on takeaway for meals.

The new environment gave Chen Qiye a positive motivation, but Qin Ge lacked interest. He was not interested in Chen Qiye's plans for going out today and tomorrow, so he said, "Let's take a taxi and go back to sleep."

Chen Qiye wanted to fight again, but because of Qin Ge's tired face, he swallowed all his words.As soon as Qin Ge returned to the apartment, he threw himself on the bed, as tired as if he needed to catch jet lag after going through a cross-country flight.He was used to falling asleep with something in his arms, and waved to Chen Xiye. Chen Qiye didn't have the habit of taking a nap, but he still lay on his side cooperatively, and was hugged by Qin Ge from behind, with his hands on his waist.

Chen Qiye tried to accompany Qin Ge to sleep.But when the breathing of the people behind him became more and more stable, he felt that the passage of time was getting slower and slower, and keeping his posture still became more and more tormented, and he had to do something to pass the time in order to distract his attention.

Chen Qiye slowly picked up the mobile phone next to the bed to read the news and various news, but he didn't know who was the first to find who, and soon chatted with Qiao Yin.He had mentioned to Qiao Yin that his boyfriend would come to Beijing to visit him this weekend, so Qiao Yin asked where they were hanging out now.

Ye Zi: [No, I went straight from the airport to the apartment and slept. 】

Xiao Qiao: [Your boyfriend is not good, you can reply to my message in seconds even if you are sleeping with him. 】

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Chen Qiye was speechless.Ever since she found out about her sexual orientation and had a boyfriend, Qiao Yin, who was previously aloof and unapproachable, made no secret of her curiosity about the intimate relationship between the two in front of Chen Qiye.Chen Qiye was embarrassed at first, but considering Qin Ge's attitude all the time, Qiao Yin's reaction was actually quite normal.Children from families above the middle class are generally influenced by too much Western thinking. They don't think desire is shameful, but can be talked about.

Ye Zi: [It's not what you think.He was tired after the flight and was taking a nap. 】

Xiao Qiao: [It takes only three hours from Hangzhou to the capital.He was tired after three hours.Well, that still doesn't quite work. 】

Chen Qiye entered six dots again to express his silence.He was amused by Qiao Yin's unrestrained teasing, and when he chuckled, his shoulders almost shrugged twice.Qiao Yin asked him if he had a chance to meet the real Qin Ge in the next two days. Chen Qiye said that it was unlikely. Qin Ge didn't seem in the mood to go out and play, and he would fly back to Hangzhou tomorrow afternoon.

Xiao Qiao: [Ah...he only stayed for one night, and he was suddenly moved. 】

Chen Qiye's heart was also warm, but Qiao Yin's next sentence revealed her true colors: [Then hurry up and don't waste Brother Qin sending him away*]

The last word Qiao Yin sent was too straightforward, making Chen Qiye dizzy.But people are such wonderful creatures, and Chen Qiye is reluctant to reveal some things to Qin Ge. He and Qiao Yin have only known each other for only a month, so he can speak his mind without any burden.

Ye Zi: [I haven't reached the end with him yet. 】

Xiao Qiao: [Afraid of pain?Don't worry, it must be very comfortable, otherwise why so many gays are 0, 1 can be counted on the fingers. 】

[It doesn't matter if it hurts or not, it's just...] Chen Xiye didn't continue typing, his heart that was originally filled with warmth gradually became cold and blocked by something.He was evading something faintly in fear.When other people's definition of sex is only about physical pleasure, the spiritual worlds of him and Qin Ge collide in repeated tastes.

Chen Qiye is extremely sensitive and contradictory at this level. His family of origin and school education are absent in shaping his personality. On the contrary, it is Qin Ge who follows his guidance and helps him in dealing with others.

Their relationship was unequal from the beginning, and it became more and more prominent after the college entrance examination.Qin Ge was like a creator to Chen Xiye, so Qin Ge's dominance and strength violated independence and at the same time gave Chen Qiye a distorted psychological satisfaction.But this Creator is an impatient novice, fledgling and inexperienced. Chen Xiye is the first little clay figurine he fabricated. He loves and cares so carefully that Chen Qiye will still have a subtle anxiety when he is safe, as if his own. The value was all given by Qin Ge, and he would be useless without Qin Ge.

Chen Qiye's fingers rested on the touch-screen keyboard, typed some words, deleted and deleted, and finally nothing came out.After dawdling for a few minutes, he thought that Qiao Yin was not online, and was about to put the phone back when Qiao Yin asked him a little abruptly: [Or... the comfort you want is not something he can give. 】

Chen Qiye felt depressed that he knew every word but didn't know each word together. A voice came from behind: "Is this your new friend?"

Chen Qiye gasped in fright, and quickly turned around and lay down on his side. Qin Ge, who was facing him, still looked tired, but he didn't feel sleepy. Obviously he hadn't just woken up, and he might have witnessed him chatting with Qiao Yin the whole process.

Chen Qiye's Adam's apple twitched, and his body under the quilt was stiff.He didn't feel that he had done anything wrong, but when he and Qin Ge looked at each other so closely, he somehow felt that Qin Ge was a little strange today, with a different aura.

Qin Ge asked: "Since it has nothing to do with pain and the three-month window has passed, if I want it today, do you have any new excuses to refuse me?"

"I didn't make excuses. I was really afraid before, it's better to wait six months..." Chen Qiye hesitated, blinking frequently.He's not good at lying or defending himself.Fortunately, Qin Ge didn't make things difficult for him, but just hugged him tightly, put his chest against his heart, closed his eyes, took a deep breath and said without vibrating his voice: "Let me hug him for a while."

Chen Qiye became quiet, and slowly wrapped his arms around Qin Ge's back.

He knew how Qin Ge was different today. No matter what happened, Qin Ge would always be optimistic, standing at the forefront and unstoppable. A trace of fragility, like a wounded hedgehog exposing the soft and tender chest under the hard shell to Chen Xiye.

Chen Qiye couldn't remember Qin Ge's act of acting like a spoiled child to make himself soft, he planted a kiss on the small scar between Qin Ge's eyebrows, and he would never forget Qin Ge's miserable real appearance at this moment.

He used to be flamboyant and domineering, with the appearance of a chaotic world who was not afraid of anything.

He threw his helmet and unarmor in Chen Xiye's arms, turning into a soft spot that hurts when he touches it.

Qin Ge just fell asleep again.After all, he was a young man, who woke up unexpectedly after lying down in a daze until the early morning, and was also hungry.Chen Xiye rubbed his sleepy eyes and boiled instant noodles for him, fried eggs and boiled vegetables to supplement nutrition and vitamins.

After eating, Qin Ge was still in good spirits, and his mood improved a lot. He sat in front of the big-screen TV in the living room and played a role-playing stand-alone game on ps4.He sat cross-legged in the middle, with Chen Xiye hugging his calf and leaning against his side. At the beginning, he would ask questions very strangely to understand the plot and character settings, but it didn't take long because of the first-person perspective. Feeling slightly dizzy as a result of substituting, rubbing his eyes again.

He yawned, and the physical tears in his eyes gradually blurred his vision.He asked Qin Ge: "Why do you like playing computer games so much?"

"Because I'm bored...I'm bored and have nothing to do, so I can only play games." Qin Ge looked straight at the screen in front of him. The characters were fighting fiercely under his control, but his hand controlling the game console was very calm, which was precisely the reason Being calm kept him from making any operational mistakes, and the plot continued smoothly.

"But you obviously have a lot of friends, how could you be bored..." Chen Qiye yawned again.He was very sleepy, squinting his eyes and didn't see Qin Ge's moving position. When his head was resting on Qin Ge's shoulder, he was about to fall asleep in a daze. Watch the explosion.

Then Chen Qiye suddenly said, "I see."

"I understand," Chen Qiye said softly.He closed his eyes, talking to himself as if in sleep: "It's like...you have many friends...but you...just want me to be your boyfriend."

Chen Qiye suddenly shook his head, and then tilted his body and fell on Qin Ge's lap.He suddenly opened his eyes that had adapted to the darkness. The explosion effects on the big screen were particularly bright in color. After he blinked a few more times to regain clarity, he watched Qin Ge's character motionless and engulfed by the fireworks.

Chen Qiye raised his head and said to Qin Ge, "Why are you dying!"

"Because I'm going to play with you next." Qin Ge imitated Chen Qiye's tone and added modal particles, "How can games be fun with a boyfriend!"

Qin Ge preemptively scratched Chen Qiye's itchy flesh. Chen Qiye laughed until he was discouraged. He shrunk his neck and shoulders and fell to the floor, unable to fight back. With Qin Ge's previous temperament, he should have made a fuss and begged for mercy. Now Qin Ge is laughing with him , smiling, the corners of his eyes were red.

"What's the matter?" Chen Xiye panicked again, pinched Qin Ge's face, and asked with concern, "Why - ah, ha, don't bother me, please..."

"You've been cheated." Qin Ge sniffed, pressed Chen Qiye on the ground to scratch again, and used another round of hilarity to cover up his momentary loss of control.In the end, Chen Qiye was exhausted and couldn't move. He didn't even have the strength to get up, so he fell asleep on the floor. Qin Ge carried him back to the bed. Even though he was very awake, he still used his shoulders as a pillow for Chen Qiye. And he stared at the ceiling in a daze until dawn.

When Chen Qiye woke up, it was already lunch time. Qin Ge didn't sleep beside him, but was already fully dressed.He urged Chen Xiye to pack up quickly, and he asked Qiao Yin for lunch at noon.

Chen Qiye was stunned, he couldn't remember when he told Qin Ge Qiao Yin's contact information.But Qin Ge, who is good at making arrangements, did come back. Qiao Yin temporarily brought two seniors who were also lovers to meet them. After the five of them had dinner, they decided to charter a car for the [-]th National Day, and asked Lin Ji next door to drive in the Northwest. tour.

Qin Ge paid for that meal.Qiao Yin and the other two seniors made it clear that they wanted aa, but Qin Ge still insisted on treating them.Chen Qiye didn't help Qiao Yin, because the price of a meal was really nothing to Qin Ge, but he noticed that Qin Ge rarely used cash instead of credit card. After sending people to the airport, Qin Ge only ordered Normal economy class.

"How is Auntie?" Chen Qiye finally asked.Qi Miaomiao must have suffered from a serious illness, otherwise it would be impossible to postpone the wedding, so that Qin Ge would have time to come out to play during the Golden Week.

Qin Ge said: "I have been discharged from the hospital, and now I am recuperating at home."

"That's good...then, can I send a text message to my aunt, or go to see her?" Chen Xiye didn't heave a sigh of relief.His status is too special, and he hasn't contacted Qi Miaomiao since he went to college. Qi Miaomiao's attitude towards him is also ambiguous. When the two met for the last time, Qi Miaomiao said that she would leave everything to time. She has nothing to say now. But if Qin Ge was still around him seven or eight years later, she would have nothing to say.

Chen Qiye told Qin Ge everything, including this conversation. Qin Ge joked at the time that if they were separated for eight years and then reunited after eight years, this situation would not count.

Chen Qiye straightened his back: "I can help you too, I..."

I also want you to trust me, tell me everything, and discuss with me.

I hope you can listen to my thoughts instead of blindly helping me make decisions.

"I have nothing for you to worry about. Don't make up your own mind, but..." Qin Ge passed through Chen Xiye's hair between his fingers, and pushed back his bangs that grew beyond his eyebrows, leading the originally serious topic to the minutiae.

"It's time to cut your hair. You look good with short hair."

He kissed Chen Qiye's smooth forehead, and the movement was quick without causing him to look sideways.The two met again and arrived in Lanzhou. Before departure, Qin Ge specially transferred the money for the plane to Chen Qiye, but Chen Qiye found two part-time tutoring jobs and insisted on using the money he earned to buy a green leather train that was three times cheaper ticket.