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The day after the module exam, Qi Miaomiao and Qin Ge went to Beijing together.

It was a sudden decision.Qi Miaomiao was very reassured about her son, and had not planned to accompany him to participate in THU's Trinity before, but when she learned that Chen Qiye was among the students who were qualified to be recommended by Senior High School Wen, she immediately booked the same flight ticket with a nearby THU The hotel and accommodation were several grades higher than what Chen Qiye and Qin Ge had settled on before.

Qin Ge just started to be awkward and didn't want to live with Qi Miaomiao for a while.After talking too much, he revealed his secrets. He and Chen Qiye booked a double room in advance instead of a standard room.

Qi Miaomiao's already unattractive face turned even paler. No matter how irritable Qin Ge was, he knew he shouldn't provoke his mother at this time, so he had to share a standard room with Qi Miaomiao.Early the next morning, Qi Miaomiao accompanied Qin Ge to the Trinity examination room.She waited outside the building with a parasol. After meeting her, other parents of Wenzhong students could talk about a lot of their children's situation. In the college entrance examination, only Qi Miaomiao's mind was blank. She only knew that her son had good grades and loved to play basketball, but she couldn't recognize his favorite football star. If she wanted to buy a pair of sneakers for him, she had to call her aunt at home to have a look at the shoes before placing the order. code.

Compared with those parents whose children sat and listened together during make-up lessons, Qi Miaomiao was undoubtedly an unqualified mother, but Qin Ge never complained.But when Qi Miaomiao was at Qin Ge's age, she would complain that she wanted love and hoped that her parents would spend more time and energy on herself instead of making money. Her parents followed the previous generation's definition of love and asked: " Isn’t love just food and shelter for you, if we don’t make money, what are you eating and living in now?”

The gap between the two generations is getting deeper and deeper.Her parents didn't let her do what she wanted to do. After entering university, her new boyfriend was from a wrong family, so she wanted to get pregnant out of wedlock amidst the objections, and firmly believed that she was married to love.

She was too young at that time, a naive and uneducated literary young woman, a pretty little fool in the eyes of men.After Qin Siyuan's death, she was taken back to Tanzhou by her parents, and she gradually realized that what Qin Siyuan saw was her identity as the daughter of the Tanzhou Chamber of Commerce, not her self-proclaimed unique inner soul.But Zhen had suffered a major setback, and only her biological parents would accept her when she was devastated.It is the high-quality material life given to her by the original family she longs to escape, so that she can devote herself to the spiritual world and pursue pure love.

She thought that the emotion that Qin Siyuan bestowed on her was selfless and unique, but she didn't know that she was the one who clearly and truly valued her from the very beginning.The truth is so cruel that after accepting this fact, Qi Miaomiao was able to recover with the help of her parents, but failed to find a new way to get along with her son.

Qin Ge used to be the crystallization of love between the two, but now it has become the perjury of love. Every time Qi Miaomiao sees the face that looks more and more similar to Qin Siyuan, she has mixed feelings. Her motherhood is no longer as full as it used to be, replaced by alienated.

This also made Qin Ge more noisy and independent than his peers since childhood.Qi Miaomiao originally comforted herself that this was not a bad thing, but when she heard other parents talk about it, she felt a little guilty.

Standing under a banyan tree, she watched Qin Ge and Chen Qiye come out of the building together.Chen Qiye's complexion was not very good, his footsteps were frivolous, his eyes were almost out of focus when he glanced elsewhere, and when they fell on Qin Ge, they shone instantly, as if Qin Ge was a god and Buddha he worshiped devoutly.Qin Ge was very useful to this kind of eyes full of trust mixed with admiration, and he should protect the faithful believers under the altar.

Qin Ge stretched out his finger to poke the dimple on Chen Qiye's cheek to spread some blessings. Chen Qiye caught a glimpse of Qi Miaomiao not far away, his already simple smile froze, and he quickly and consciously took a step back to the side. Open the distance between the two.

Qin Ge didn't know why, and Qi Miaomiao's figure slowly approached from the corner of his eye.He had to take his hands back and put them down to answer Qi Miaomiao's question: "How did you do in the exam?"

"The written test is supposed to be cold, it's too difficult." Qin Ge complained incessantly, but he was still in a good mood. "However, the interview in the afternoon went smoothly, and I think I'm very attractive."

Qi Miaomiao smiled, tried her best to be calm and not intentional, and asked slightly sideways: "Where's Xiaoye? How did you do in the exam?"

Chen Qiye didn't expect Qi Miaomiao to pay attention to him, his pupils shrank when he looked up, and his cautious appearance evokes a memory of Qi Miaomiao's childhood.At that time, her parents had just made a fortune, and the family was still living in a village where a large number of migrant workers rented. She had a good relationship with a little girl of the same age and often went to her family's rented house to play.Once, she snatched a girl's toy and ran back to her home. She went up to the second floor and leaned against the window and poked her head out to invite the girl to come up. The girl who chased her door just looked up at her and never entered her home. house.

Chen Qiye's eyes were exactly the same as that girl's at the moment, it was not so much timidity as it was surprise that he could enter such a big house to play.

"The written test is okay, but the interview is not so good." Chen Qiye intertwined his fingers subconsciously with his hands behind his back. From the way he spoke, one could guess that he was definitely not as calm as Qin Ge when facing the teachers of THU. and self-confidence.

"...Let's eat first, and then chat slowly." Qi Miaomiao motioned for Chen Qiye to come along.After Qi Miaomiao turned around, Qin Ge jumped three feet high, pushing the dazed Chen Qiye's back to follow Qi Miaomiao's footsteps.The three of them ordered a lot of dishes in a restaurant, and both Qi Miaomiao and Qin Ge ate. Chen Qiye still put his hands under the table without moving his chopsticks.

Qin Ge couldn't help worrying: "Why don't you eat, you don't feel well?"

Chen Xiye's panting was obvious, as if he was very nervous, and his voice was dry: "I, am still taking that medicine."

He felt it hard to gnash his teeth, and he was embarrassed to mention the full name of the blocking medicine.Qi Miaomiao comforted uncomfortably: "Don't worry, this virus will not spread through saliva, this is common sense."

"Yeah, don't scare yourself." Qin Ge answered, pinching Chen Xiye's arm to express his indifference.

Chen Qiye then picked up the chopsticks to grill the rice, and then consciously used the pair of chopsticks as serving chopsticks.Qi Miaomiao was no longer polite to him. After the whole meal, it was Qin Ge who was mobilizing the atmosphere. When he returned to the hotel after eating, Qin Ge asked Qi Miaomiao excitedly what he thought of Chen Qiye.

Qi Miaomiao didn't answer, but asked, "Why did he get exposed to HIV?"

Qin Ge twitched the corners of his mouth, losing his good mood: "He was bitten by a mad dog."

"Gezi," Qi Miaomiao whispered slowly, "you talk to your mother well, mother is not your enemy."

Qin Ge breathed a sigh of relief, and after a long time started talking to Qi Miaomiao again: "He met a competition teacher when he was studying in Hangzhou..."

When traveling the next day, Qi Miaomiao asked Qin Ge to call Chen Qiye tomorrow.Their return tickets are booked in five days. If Chen Qiye is not injured, the two will definitely take this opportunity to hang out in Beijing like a honeymoon. But now that Qi Miaomiao is also here, this graduation trip has become a tourist group. The classic route, Qi Miaomiao and Qin Ge meet up with Chen Qiye every morning, stroll around until evening and return to their respective places of residence.

This way of getting along is very subtle, Qin Ge still can't figure out what kind of medicine Qi Miaomiao sells in the gourd, and Chen Qiye is also trembling. After five days, the three of them seem to get along together every day, but they each have their own plans and are not on the same channel.During the period, THU's trinity and self-enrollment admission list was announced, and Qin Ge's interview scores helped him get the Trinity quota. According to THU's score line calculation last year, as long as Qin Ge's college entrance examination score is not less than 700 points, he can get it. Notice to THU.

This was good news for Qin Ge, and then bad news for Chen Qiye.He participated in both projects, but he didn't get a place because of the interview.Through this disastrous defeat, his flaws in language expression were fully exposed. He was determined to join the debate team with the cheek no matter which university he entered, but Qin Ge felt that it was completely unnecessary. There is no need to make any further changes.

Chen Qiye did not refute, nor did he mention this matter during the subsequent journey.He followed Qin Ge very much, and Qin Ge followed Qi Miaomiao.Compared with the old-fashioned and traditional grandparents and the powerful Lu Chong, Qi Miaomiao's attitude is not clear, but he is obviously someone who can win over his own camp. Qi Miaomiao asked Qin Ge to participate in the independent enrollment of the University of Hong Kong. Qin Ge was not happy at first. Not only agreed without hesitation, but also came to Hong Kong a week in advance as Qi Miaomiao's companion.

Different from the trip to Beijing, this week in Hong Kong is exclusively for their mother and son.Qi Miaomiao hasn't traveled alone with Qin Ge for a long time, and it was a bit awkward at first, but they are mother and child after all, blood is thicker than water, and they soon regained their old intimacy, which made Qin Ge feel confident and relaxed After participating in the written test and pure English interview, I became one of the candidates for the 1+1 joint training program of the University of Hong Kong with the No.3 score.As long as he signs, no matter what his score in the college entrance examination is, he can enter the mechanical engineering major of the University of Hong Kong. After studying for one year, he can go to Oxford, England to study for three years. After graduation, he will obtain a double degree certificate from the University of Hong Kong and the University of Cambridge.

This is a rare opportunity.In recent years, many college entrance examination champions gave up the olive branch voted by top2 to accept offers from Hong Kong universities, but Qin Ge felt that the opportunity was too hot and did not sign the contract on the spot, saying that he would discuss it with his family and give an answer tomorrow.

The hotel where Qin Ge and Qi Miaomiao stayed was near Victoria Harbour.That night, the mother and son took the Star Ferry to watch the bright and charming night.The prosperity and bustle of the whole city can be seen all over the place. Qi Miaomiao stared at the beautiful harbor as bright as day, and asked her son: "Is Hong Kong not good?"

Qin Ge lowered his eyes, he had no nostalgia and sense of belonging to the big city, and he was more willing to hook the red silk on his right wrist with his left index finger and play with it.The texture of the satin was rough, and after wearing it for a few months, the edges became frayed, and the color became darker, making it look even cheaper.

But Qin Ge never took it off.He fiddled with the knotted part of the red silk, saying that he still wanted to study in the interior.

Qi Miaomiao remained silent, the words stuck in her throat were of course an advice from someone who had experienced it, and hoped that Qin Ge would have a long-term vision.He wanted to give up this opportunity because he wanted to shorten the geographical distance with Chen Qiye, but he should have unlimited possibilities instead of sticking to the day and night that may not last forever.

Qi Miaomiao asked again: "Have you talked with Chen Qiye?"

Qin Ge curled his lips into a smile, and he didn't need to guess that Chen Qiye definitely wanted to sign the contract.All along, Chen Xiye was not like a lover. He seldom asked for anything from Qin Ge, but when Qin Ge asked him what he wanted, as long as he had it, he would give it without hesitation.

Chen Qiye was more like a generous relative. As long as Qin Ge was doing well, he would be happy too.If Chen Qiye were a girl, Qi Miaomiao would never object to this relationship, but when both of them were of the same sex, Qi Miaomiao couldn't help but consider whether it was worth it for her son.

This thought made Qi Miaomiao shiver in the hot summer.

At this moment, she is only one step away from the appearance she once hated the most. As long as she evaluates young people's love from the perspective of worldly utilitarianism like her parents, his son will most likely become the past self, and the first love plan in high school Elopement, conceived with a college partner before marriage... She was so rebellious back then, not so much because she believed in love, but because she was seeking revenge.She was fed up with her parents manipulating her life in the name of her own good, so she went into self-imposed exile as a way to punish parents who didn't respect her independence.

Qi Miaomiao sighed lightly, and what she couldn't see was Shenzhen, where the same high-rise buildings stood on the other side.

She couldn't help being surprised.It has been almost 40 years since the country was opened to the outside world, and the land of Kyushu is changing with each passing day. The struggle between individual freedom and collective stability is still going on in Qin Ge's generation.She remembered that a scholar who studied parent-child relationships once suggested that if parents want to establish a good view of mate selection for their children, it is best to tell their children why they wanted to find their father to start a family and what advantages their mother has.Qi Miaomiao couldn't mention Qin Siyuan in a bad manner at this juncture, so she asked her son for advice: "Why do you like Chen Qiye?"

The first thing Qin Ge said without thinking was: "He looks good."

Qi Miaomiao should be serious, but she couldn't hold back and smiled.

She would think that Chen Qiye was handsome, gentle and student-like, but she would definitely not use words such as good-looking and beautiful to describe her.Chen Qiye was pretty in Qin Ge's eyes.Regardless of aesthetics, Qin Ge was able to find Chen Qiye in the crowd at a glance.

Qi Miaomiao sighed: "Sure enough, men are all visual things."

Qin Ge almost confessed to his mother that visual animals are considered elegant, but he is just a vulgar lower body animal.The more he likes Chen Xiye, the more he wants to possess it completely, and if he can't eat it, he has to touch it twice to satisfy his addiction.Although Chen Qiye dodges subconsciously, he never disappoints him every time, and if Chen Qiye's liking and trust in him are shaken, he will post on the Internet, "My boyfriend always likes to touch my breasts in the middle of the night, may I ask?" Should I refuse?", nine out of ten of the comments below are debating the boundaries between flirting and sexual harassment, and trying to persuade them not to make peace: Is this boyfriend handsome?Are you rich?Do you want to keep it for the New Year?

"No matter what I say or do, he will always give me feedback. He... He has always tolerated and accepted me." Qin Ge's second point is vague, but that's what it means.

From another perspective, it was Qi Miaomiao who pushed his son towards Chen Qiye.She had intentionally neglected her son's growth in the past ten years, and did not provide him with the belonging of the family as a mother, so that he could frankly and frankly shed his social identity and labels in front of Chen Qiye.

Qin Ge also gained a sense of security from Chen Qiye.He is no longer someone's son, someone's grandson, someone's friend, someone's student... It's just himself—himself with animal desires and biological instincts.

"...I don't seem to be able to list the third point." Qin Ge shrugged, talking about this topic was as easy as talking about what to eat tonight.At his age, he is more yearning for the unknown and adventure, rather than taking the path most people have taken, so there is no reason for the crazy moves, and there is no reason for many emotions that are so hot that they will burn the people who are engulfed in ashes.

Many years later, when he recalls his youth, he will definitely use "secondary two" and "childish" to describe himself.But this does not mean that if he can travel through time and space, he will take back his words and change his choices.Youth is to be experienced on your own, and only those who have experienced it know that no matter how ridiculous those years are, it is also a midsummer time that will never go back.

"He gets nervous before every mock exam and asks me what to do if I fail the exam. I get tired of hearing it, so I ask him what to do if I fail the college entrance examination in Waterloo."

Qin Ge smiled, recalling those conversations that Chen Qiye had long forgotten, but which he himself still remembered.Chen Qiye was not a confident person, but he was always confident in Qin Ge, and he would always say no, it was impossible.

Chen Qiye would still look at Qin Ge with shining adoring eyes, as if Qin Ge was omnipotent in his eyes, fearlessly like a god.

"Every time he looks at me... well, I'm always touched and moved." Qin Ge's smile slowly faded, and he said seriously: "With him here, I don't have a headache .”

The colorful lights in the distance were all blurred into spots of light, and Qin Ge turned his head to meet Qi Miaomiao's eyes amidst the flickering neon lights.

Qi Miaomiao fiddled with the cross necklace on her wrist like Qin Ge was playing with the red silk.

She wasn't entirely convinced.She glanced at the dark sky, and said after a long time, "This is your own life after all."

She doesn't interfere.That's Qin Ge's own path, so let him go.

Qin Ge did not sign a contract with HKU in the end.

In late June, the Zhejiang college entrance examination results were released. Qin Ge's total score was 678, ranking 62nd in Wenlin Middle School.Chen Qiye received a call from the UCAS Admissions Office the day before the results were released.