Stop loss

When Chen Qiye saw Zhao Yunhe, his subconscious reaction was to run.

The door was right behind him, and he could open it as fast as he could.With Zhao Yunhe's physical strength, he will never be able to catch up with him. He will be safe when he sees Lou's mother after he jumps down the steps.

But Zhao Yunhe kept a certain distance from him very restrainedly, and even raised his hands slightly by his sides, trying to convince Chen Qiye that his existence was not a threat.

Zhao Yunhe said: "I told Lou's mother that I am your father, and I will help you tidy up your clothes."

Zhao Yunhe wears a pair of black-rimmed glasses. His years of coaching have given him not a stern face, but a kindness from the inside out.This kind of tenderness and considerateness was very confusing. Chen Qiye had no defense against him before, and he never thought of reporting him afterwards.

Firstly, there is no evidence, and secondly, even if the report is made, the other people who are questioned will definitely think that Chen Qiye is lying, and Teacher Zhao will never do such things as molesting students.

Chen Qiye had no doubt that he would be reviled as an ungrateful person.If Zhao Yunhe didn't attack him, and the police came to question and understand the situation, he would definitely stand by Mr. Zhao's side and categorically guarantee Zhao Yunhe's character.After all, Zhao Yunhe treats him more like a father than Chen Wang, and he can't imagine Zhao Yunhe has an evil side, just like that day in the study, he didn't realize that Zhao Yunhe really had desires for him other than teachers and students until the last moment.

Zhao Yunhe's sexual orientation is hidden too deeply.

Also suppressed for too long.

It had been so long that he found the club with the business card Chen Wang gave him, and when he saw the boy who was about the same age as Chen Qiye, he suddenly felt a spring breeze blowing.

The old tree is full of spring overnight.As Chen Wang promised, when he gallops on the boy's youthful body, he really returns to the past.To some extent, he made up for the shortcomings of many years. Finally, he no longer has to face unfeeling women, worldly prejudices and oppression, but revises his long-gone youth in the boy's youth.

He took the boy home.As a math teacher, he is good at calculations, but the appearance of this boy was unexpected. He knows the taste, and he also puts all the anguish and troubles in the study room behind him, as if he was reborn as a newcomer.Ashamed to say, he is a divorced man with children in his 40s. He treats boys as if they are in love for the first time. Go back to school and study."

"When the time comes, I will teach you math, and I will be your teacher." The flesh and blood business is not a long-term solution after all, and Zhao Yunhe sincerely wants to drag this boy ashore.The boy in his arms agreed without hesitation, as if the relationship between the two went beyond the physical relationship, and he also had feelings for this sometimes calm and sometimes gloomy uncle.

This illusion lasted until Zhao Yunhe went home one night.He bought the boy's favorite supper, his eyes behind the lenses were soft and shining, making the empty apartment even colder and more silent.

There was no trace of the boy's life in the apartment either.

Zhao Yunhe hurriedly called the boy and made several calls before the boy answered impatiently.Zhao Yunhe asked him why he left without saying goodbye, and he answered logically, "You just gave me half a month's money."

Zhao Yun and Yizhi only remembered the relationship between the two.

"But we, we all agreed, you forgot?!" Zhao Yunhe was incoherent, the boy clearly promised him to go back to school, not to do this job again"

"Uncle, these days you laugh at the poor but not at the prostitutes. The money you gave me for half a month is enough for half a year's salary." The boy sneered.In his perception, whether it is finding an ordinary job in an office building or being a duck in a club, it is essentially a betrayal, and he would rather choose the one with more money.

He has a completely different face now, without the docile and obedient attitude he had during his foster care.It was only after Zhao Yunhe hung up the phone that he suddenly realized why this boy was so expensive, and so many customers thought it was worth the money, because he was like a mirror, peeping out the needs of the customers and then performing it vividly.Zhao Yunhe longs for a young soul to give him comfort, and he is innocent in front of Zhao Yunhe; the next guest needs a container to carry his own dark desires, and he will offer a flawless body like a sacrifice.

Zhao Yunhe gave the boy deep affection, which should have been the most precious proof of being a human being, and the boy was willing to take away only money if he bought a basket for pearls.

The old tree withered again, Zhao Yun and the homeless wandering soul squandered their brilliance on others, and when he was dying, he thought of Chen Qiye again.

Before that, he experienced a long period of nothingness, and a piece of news in the newspaper drove him to end his absurd life that no one cares about.It was an announcement that the coast guard had salvaged a male body off the coast of Tanzhou. The deceased had no documents, but was carrying a damaged blood identification report.

The man had a stab wound below the collarbone, but it was not fatal, so the police preliminarily determined that the man died of suicide.And if he doesn't end his life in this way, the dormant virus will never let him go more decently.

Zhao Yunhe read this report over and over again, and he was sure that the deceased was Chen Wang.There were no photos in the newspaper, and with Chen Wang's temperament, he couldn't do such a negative thing by jumping into the sea to commit suicide, but Chen Wang did disappear.

Chen Wang also had sex with countless people, and played so wildly, he often walked by the river, how could he not get his shoes wet.

Zhao Yunhe didn't have any evidence, but he just made a preconceived conclusion and gradually had a new plan.He started following Chen Xiye again, and took some pictures of him and Qin Ge acting intimately, including Qin Ge's hand sticking into his school uniform.Then he walked into the dormitory building on the second day of the college entrance examination. Most of the students went home and did not live in school during these two days. In that dormitory were only Chen Qiye and Qin Ge who were inseparable from him.He didn't intend to dismiss the two teenagers. Chen Qiye might be able to calm down after seeing those photos, but Qin Ge would definitely have a killing intent—every time he looked at him, there were knives in Qin Ge's eyes. Give Qin Ge this chance tonight.

He told Lou's mother that he was Chen Xiye's father, Lou's mother had no doubts about her, and handed him the key to the bedroom.

It was so easy for him to enter the place that he used to think about day and night, but this time, he no longer simply wanted to possess, but pulled more people down to accompany him.

Before Chen Qiye escaped, he flew over the printed photos one by one to the people at the door.The photos fell on the ground like paper airplanes, some with the reverse side up, and more with the front side, and the smiles of Chen Qiye and Qin Ge were frozen. The two behaved so intimately that they were not gay friends, but homosexuals.

Chen Qiye closed his eyes after seeing a picture of Qin Ge's uneasy hands.Every time Qin Ge moved his hands and feet, he assured himself that no one would see them, but they still couldn't escape the eyes hidden in the darkness waiting for an opportunity.

"What if his family sees these photos?" Zhao Yunhe happened to meet Qin Ge going out with a group of people when Zhao Yunhe entered the school gate. If you dare to hang out with friends when there is an exam tomorrow, what if these photos are posted next to his name on the honor roll when the results of the college entrance examination are announced?"

Zhao Yunhe didn't say a word about the personal impact of these photos on Chen Qiye.Undoubtedly, he knew Chen Qiye well. Chen Qiye would rather be accused by thousands of people and scolded by thousands of people, than let the person he likes be hurt by the slightest bit.

Chen Qiye felt that his eyelids were heavy, and he couldn't lift them all up no matter how he opened them.He is so passive, with a thin back bent like a drooping old man, while Zhao Yunhe has a huge body, and the glow behind him is bright.

Under the sharp contrast, the colors of the clothes Zhao Yunhe wore today were all distorted, and in Chen Qiye's eyes, they looked like a black spot on the white snow.

Chen Qiye blinked again, and his back was bent a little.He wanted to negotiate with Zhao Yun, but the vibrating sound of his mobile phone in his trouser pocket was the first to break the deadlock.

Chen Xiye took it out, his eyes moved slightly on the caller ID and the caller ID, his already slender neck heaved and tightened with the movement of swallowing.

"Go ahead," Zhao Yunhe seemed to be able to guess who was calling, "If you don't answer, he will be suspicious."

Chen Qiye could only listen to Zhao Yunhe's instructions now, and pressed the answer button after Zhao Yunhe's voice fell.The screen of the Nokia mobile phone had just been attached to the ear, and Qin Ge on the other end of the phone was really worried: "Why did it take so long to answer."

"...I just went back to the dormitory." Chen Qiye's voice was dry, and his breath was like spinning.Qin Ge was perceptive, frowned and asked, "You don't sound like you're in the right state."

"No..." Chen Xiye retorted subconsciously, but his face was pale.Qin Ge couldn't feel relieved, and asked again: "Are you alone in the dormitory?"

Chen Qiye remained silent, suddenly not knowing how to answer.The desperation and sadness that spread throughout his body drove him to tell Qin Ge the current situation, so that Zhao Yun and Zhao Yun would not act rashly again regardless of their intentions.

This was undoubtedly the best solution for Chen Qiye.He opened his mouth, staring at Zhao Yunhe, who was leaning against the balcony window, who was retreating, but did not make a sound.Zhao Yunhe also put a finger on his lips, and shook his head at Chen Xiye with a look of concern for him.

"Yeah." Chen Xiye tried his best to stabilize his emotions, "I'm alone."

"Then you—" Qin Ge clicked "tsk", as if a little irritable, "Have you eaten yet?"

"I ate in the cafeteria." Chen Xiye's voice became more and more flat, he could lie quietly, and the fear and cowardice in Zhao Yunhe's eyes gradually faded away.

"That……"

"I'll hang up first." Chen Xiye interrupted, "I just finished eating and I feel a little sleepy."

"Okay." Qin Ge heard the beeping sound, and the friends who were blatantly eavesdropping around his ears and mobile phone gathered together, Lin Ji and Ma Sirui especially hated iron and steel.

"Why did you hang up without asking him to watch a movie? Didn't we all rehearse just now?" Ma Sirui patted his thigh, took another bite of the chicken leg in the bowl, and imitated Chen Qiye with a thin, slow voice, thick , impetuous representative Qin Ge.

"'I do not want to go……'

'I've already bought a ticket, just treat it as being with me. '

'But--'

'Nothing but, if you don't come, I'll throw away the ticket! '

'Okay, okay, don't waste the ticket money like this, I'll go, I'll go...'"

Ma Sirui reproduced Chen Xiye's hesitation and shyness so vividly that it amused everyone at the dinner table, but Qin Ge was preoccupied and his mind was wandering somewhere.Qin Ge was the initiator of the event, but he had been absent-minded since he left school. Others didn't know why, so Lin Ji knew that he had no energy to do anything without Chen Qiye by his side.

"Let's hit another one." Lin Ji urged, shaking Qin Ge's arm.Qin Ge looked sideways at the large sunset outside the restaurant window.Today's sunset is really red and gorgeous. In Ma Sirui's words, today's clouds are all dyed by the candidates with so many years of painstaking efforts.

"Ge Zi!" Lin Ji called Qin Ge again, and Qin Ge came back to his senses.The phone screen lights up again, and the wallpaper is a real shot of fireworks in the dark night.

Qin Ge got up without warning, and strode towards the restaurant door.Lin Ji quickly grabbed his arm, he turned around without explaining, but said: "I will send the movie ticket to your mobile phone."

Lin Ji was speechless, a little at a loss.Qin Ge patted him on the shoulder, turned and left without hesitation.

"...It's okay, he'll be back in a while." Lin Ji helped Qin Ge smooth things over, mobilizing the atmosphere at the dinner table on his behalf.The place where they ate was in the business district near the school. During the evening rush hour, there was a lot of traffic and they couldn't get a taxi. Qin Ge tried his best to run towards the school. While running, he called Chen Qiye again, but Chen Qiye didn't answer all the calls. It quickly turned into a shutdown.

This scene is so familiar.

It was desolation that rushed up to the sky with the blood. Qin Ge was afraid that he would not be able to recover, so he was late again.

Compared with his urgency, the atmosphere in the dormitory is ambiguous.Zhao Yunhe was originally here to die, but Chen Qiye was the only one who entered the house. He got greedy and absent-mindedly made another deal with Chen Qiye first.

Zhao Yunhe asked Chen Xiye, "Which bed is yours?"

Chen Qiye didn't speak and didn't move his fingers, he lay straight on his bed with his face facing inward, lifeless like a corpse wrapped in school uniform.He also wore this school uniform the day he was blackmailed by the vocational high school students. His clothes were stained with blood after being punched and kicked. He wanted to wash them and continue wearing them, but Qin Ge threw away the dirty school uniform and gave him a new one.

It's what he's wearing right now.

He lay upright and let Zhao Yunhe ask for it, but Zhao Yunhe sat on the edge of the bed in a calm manner with his back to Chen Qiye.He recalled the days in Hangcheng with a tone of infinite nostalgia. At that time, Chen Qiye was so obedient and obedient, like a little rabbit. Whoever grabbed the flesh at the back of his neck and lifted it, his limbs would twitch. Can't move.

Zhao Yunhe also said that if Zhao Zhuo hadn't accidentally pushed the door open, they wouldn't be what they are now.

"I'm still very grateful to Zhao Zhuo." Chen Qiye still turned his face sideways to avoid Zhao Yunhe, staring at the white wall in the corner, as if lost his soul.

Chen Qiye was too negative and had no relationship with Zhao Yunhe.When Zhao Yunhe climbed onto him, supported his shoulder with one hand, and slowly undid his zipper and buttons with the other hand, Chen Qiye said again, "I wish I never met you."

Zhao Yunhe's attention has been completely attracted by Chen Qiye's exposed upper body, and he only cares about touching it with his hands.Chen Qiye asked him: "You coached me to compete alone, just to be able to do this one day, right?"

Zhao Yunhe's silence was almost equivalent to acquiescence, he was really old, whether it was body or soul, his tired body made Chen Qiye suddenly think of Chen Wang.

Although Chen Wang is old and unscrupulous, his words are true. No one in this world is willing to be nice to another person.

So he couldn't let Zhao Yunhe hurt Qin Ge.he laughed.The fundus of the eyes was bent, and tears slid from the corners of the eyes into the temples.

"Then do you want to know what I have learned from you?" Chen Qiye's tearful eyes cast Zhao Yunhe's shadow, and Zhao Yunhe heard him call himself "Teacher."

That "teacher" reawakened Zhao Yunhe's conscience, and Chen Qiye stabbed at that heart again.

Chen Qiye turned over and fell off the bed, rolled and crawled to the other side. When he turned around, his back was pressed against the wall, his body slumped slowly because of his weak legs, and finally he sat down on the ground.

His clothes were still on, but the zipper buttons had all been unbuttoned, and his chest was heaving like a drowning man calling for help.

His left hand couldn't be controlled at all, and his right hand couldn't help shaking, tightly clutching a small, eyebrow-trimming knife-shaped knife.

——This is what he learned from Zhao Yunhe.He has always carried this knife with him for self-defense. He once used it to frighten off those vocational high school students who came to blackmail him, and he also used it to stab Zhao Yunhe in the heart just now.

He was dizzy with blood, shaking his body and retching several times. Zhao Yunhe, who had been lying on the bed, "resurrected from the dead" and sat back on the edge of the bed, staring at Chen Qiye, who couldn't stand up straight.

Both of them were in a state of distress, but Zhao Yunhe was a little more respectable than Chen Qiye. With his coat pulled up, he covered the bleeding wound, which was not serious, and said nicely, "You stabbed crookedly."

Chen Qiye's tears welled up uncontrollably, and he finally let go of his right hand. The blood-stained knife fell on the tiled floor, and the color of the splash was exactly the same as the passing sunset.

"I also specially prepared a handful..." Zhao Yunhe was filled with inexplicable emotions, and he was also incredibly calm.Chen Qiye was about to collapse, Qin Ge finally rushed to break open the door, and as soon as he entered the dormitory, he stared at Chen Qiye, who was trembling and disheveled.

"...I'm fucking you!" Qin Ge was so angry that he picked up the small knife on the ground and was about to stab Zhao Yunhe.Zhao Yunhe's face was unexpectedly peaceful, and he closed his eyes as if dying, but the knife did not fall.

Zhao Yunhe had to open his eyes.

He saw Chen Qiye grabbing Qin Ge's wrist and trying to grab the knife, and he cried in despair, "You can't kill, you can't kill."

"If I don't kill him, he will haunt you forever!" Qin Ge's eyes were red, irrational at all.They are so young, they will do anything for each other without hesitation, including killing people.If Zhao Yunhe was still alive, he would definitely pester him endlessly. Just like Chen Qiye didn't want Zhao Yunhe to disturb Qin Ge's life anymore, Qin Ge was willing to take his life for Chen Qiye.

Everything started because of Zhao Yunhe, but Zhao Yunhe became an outsider again.He watched from the sidelines that Chen Qiye did not hesitate to hold the blade with his five fingers in order to snatch the knife, and said hoarsely to Qin Ge: "Then I will say that I killed the person! I killed it! It has nothing to do with you!"

Qin Ge's hand holding the handle of the knife finally stopped exerting all his strength.

Chen Qiye's fingers wrapped around Dao Feng felt pain.

The knife fell to the ground again.This time, it wasn't just the blood of Zhao Yun and one person.

silence.

Under the afterglow of the setting sun, even the blood was smudged black.

After a short but long silence, Zhao Yunhe stood up and walked towards the door unhurriedly, as if he hadn't been stabbed below the collarbone, as if he didn't have a knife ready in his pocket, as if nothing had happened.

Everything was developing in an uncontrolled direction like the news reports he saw a few days ago.The time and space of cause and effect twisted in the chaotic thinking, as if the announcement on the news became his end-he didn't have the courage before.Death is too cold, and he can't find the meaning of living. He is no different from those who take revenge on society after suffering from AIDS.

But he regrets it now.

He also felt a peace he had never felt before.Suddenly realized that no matter how many people he drags into the abyss, he is still the lonely one.

That's why Chen Qiye and Qin Ge have to live well and face their parents, family, friends, classmates... Youthful feelings are always poetry, but when they finish the college entrance examination and step out of Wenzhong campus, they are no longer teenagers and they will be judged by the world. Prejudice runs, you will find that the shortcomings of the other party gradually outweigh the advantages; they will disagree, quarrel, cold war, compete on trivial matters, and finally collide with irreconcilable conflicts.

At that point they will no longer be thrilled for each other.Looking back, the romance of the past is real, and the exhaustion after exhaustion is also real.

They can't escape, Zhao Yun and Deding, the two of them certainly can't escape such an ending.

And he is the first checkpoint.

Zhao Yunhe turned around and looked at Chen Xiye, who had fallen to the ground and had Qin Ge wipe the wound on his palm, and reminded lightly, "Your blood is also dirty."