Stop loss

Qi Miaomiao sighed, tears almost fell from her moist eyes, anyone who saw her pitiful and fragile appearance would feel pity in her heart.No, Chen Wang hurriedly stood up from where he was sitting, and walked towards Qi Miaomiao, his hands gently wrapped around Qi Miaomiao's shoulders and the back of his head against his abdomen.

"It's a good death, men don't have a good thing." Chen Wang stood, Qi Miaomiao, who seemed to be sitting upright, was even more slender and compact.

Qi Miaomiao was so teased that she burst into laughter, and looked up at Chen Wang: "You are also a man."

Chen Wang didn't have double standards, and blinked at Qi Miaomiao: "So I'm not a good person either."

Qi Miaomiao gradually calmed down, Chen Wang sat beside her, took out some tissues and handed them to her.Qi Miaomiao took it, and when she stretched out her hand, the suit jacket shrunk up to reveal the bracelet on her wrist, on which hung nine crosses inlaid with gemstones of various colors, the chain was slender and looked light and low-key, but anyone who didn't know the goods would know its value when they saw it It must be expensive.

Chen Wang also liked this kind of beautiful things, so he asked Qi Miaomiao, "Are you religious?"

Qi Miaomiao was stunned for a moment, seeing Chen Wang's gaze on her wrist, she quickly explained that it was a gift from Lu Chong auctioned off and had no religious meaning.After Qin Siyuan's death, Qi Miaomiao, who was taken back to Tanzhou by her parents, fell into depression, and she couldn't smile all the year round. Lu Chong was by her side, and even found her a job, and arranged her into the Youth Palace through his relationship.

"Men don't have a good thing except Mr. Lu." Chen Wang expressed envy.

Qi Miaomiao smiled, looking down at the cross bracelet on her wrist.This is not the most expensive gift Lu Chong gave her, but it is her most cherished, because this bracelet once belonged to the Duchess of Windsor in the last century. Her husband was once the King of England, but this Edward VIII loves beauty. Love Jiangshan, and gave up the throne in order to be with her.

The love between these two people is really a love for the whole country. When Lu Chonghao spent a lot of money to take this bracelet and put it on for himself, he also recounted Edward VIII's abdication speech: No matter how much I am willing to fulfill the responsibility of the king, unless I get my I would not be able to carry this burden without the help and support of the woman I adore.

Lu Chong used the past to describe the present, expressing his unchanging love and loyalty to Qi Miaomiao for more than ten years.Chen Wang clapped his hands and applauded Lu Chong's persistence: "I believe in love again."

Qi Miaomiao said: "You and your wife are also married couples. She has such a serious illness, but you still will never leave her."

Chen Wang's face remained unchanged, as if he and Chen Yue had really had a relationship for many years: "After all, they both have children."

Speaking of children, another topic was brought up again.Qi Miaomiao didn't want to have another child, but Lu Chong didn't care. He really regarded Qin Ge as his own. Lu Chong's parents wanted to have a grandson. Although they had some objections at the beginning, the other party was the only daughter of the president of the Tanzhou Chamber of Commerce. The reason why the Lu family's business scale has expanded year after year is all due to the help of the future father-in-law.

But this well-matched marriage was delayed again and again until Qin Ge was about to take the college entrance examination, and when Qin Ge went to university, Qi Miaomiao could no longer find a reason not to be Mrs. Lu.

"Isn't it good to be Mrs. Lu?" Chen Wang didn't quite understand, stroked Qi Miaomiao's hand, and said sincerely in a convincing tone, "Mr. Lu really loves you."

"Everyone says that, but, but..." The smile on Qi Miaomiao's face faded away, and turned into bewilderment and panic.She couldn't say it, she didn't expect Chen Wang to help her say it:

"You may not love him, but you are not ready yet."

Qi Miaomiao stroked the cross bracelet on her wrist, then got up and led Chen Wang to another place in the villa.They had met two or three times before, but this was the first time she invited Chen Wang into the study, which was Qi Miaomiao's private space, and even Lu Chong and Qin Ge rarely set foot there.

"When I was still in Hangcheng, my family occasionally sent some Russian postcards, and the recipient was Qin Siyuan." Qi Miaomiao took out an iron box from the bookcase, opened it, and dumped all the contents on the desk.This is not something shameful, but her actions can be said to be panic-stricken, as if she mustered up a lot of courage to expose these things to Chen Wang.

Chen Wang lowered his eyes and turned the postcards he had sent to the back one by one.He has lived in Russia for six years, so he is naturally familiar with the Russian language, so he discerned: "They are all love poems."

"Pushkin's love poems." Qi Miaomiao added, and handed Chen Wang an old Russian poetry collection, with a library label on the spine.It was one of the few items she brought back from Hangcheng. She used to think that Qin Siyuan put this book in the suitcase to Russia for academic purposes. There is nothing wrong with it.

The paper of that book was yellowed, the paper was rough and not soft, and there was a loud rustling sound when flipping through it, and it was extremely easy to stay between the two pages with the paper sandwiched.It was a thin piece of letter paper, with the full name of the university where Qin Siyuan once taught was printed on the header, and the pen characters in his handwriting were written on the bottom.

"You are the cutest..." Qin Siyuan copied the original in Russian, and Chen Wang read it directly, "...I didn't have time to think about it when I said it, but after thinking about it, I still said it like this."

"This may be what he wanted to write to you." Chen Wang smiled, looking at Qi Miaomiao, who was still as beautiful as before, but Qi Miaomiao pursed her lips, spread the letter paper, and showed Chen Wang the one that was full of the rest of the paper. Half a page of names - Саша.

"Sasha, that woman's name is Sasha." Qi Miaomiao said while turning to the poem "I Loved You Once", which was still in Qin Siyuan's handwriting. He changed all the past tenses in this poem to the present tense , cross out all Вас and change to Саша.

Вас is "you" in Russian, Qin Siyuan made such a change, "I used to love you" became "I have always loved Sasha".

Qi Miaomiao scratched her hair, and told Chen Wang her guess not very smoothly.

She was sure that Qin Siyuan didn't know Russian, and Chen Wang nodded accordingly, saying that Qin Siyuan's Russian was indeed a three-legged cat. Although the present tense was corrected, it did not change Саша, which is a complement, into a second case.

Of course, this detail is not the point. The point is, this book is probably a gift that Qin Siyuan didn't send out. Qin Siyuan was going to fly to meet Sasha that day, or just be at the airport with Sasha.But Sasha's love was not as strong as Qin Siyuan's, or Sasha had too many worries, so she sent postcards one after another, making changes one by one, and did not express her heart until the sixth year.

"That's the year you returned from Russia."

Qi Miaomiao bit her finger, her expression was still intermittent, obviously she hadn't practiced it and never told others.She said that most of the postmarks on those postcards came from St. Petersburg and Moscow. Chen Wang had lived in these two cities for a long time, and he must have had contact with the local Chinese. She wanted to ask Chen Wang to recall whether there was such a woman named Sasha in Russian. Zeng and Qin Siyuan went to the same school, about the same age and education as Chen Wang, went abroad with a government scholarship at about the same time, and returned to China at about the same time.

The more Qi Miaomiao spoke, the more excited she became, her chest gradually rose and fell.Chen Wang put down the book and rubbed her shoulder comfortingly, then shook his head and said, "Sasha is the most common Russian name, and at least half of the Chinese in Russia are called Саша."

There are tens of thousands of Саша in this world, just relying on this one clue is tantamount to finding a needle in a haystack, otherwise Qi Miaomiao would not have found nothing after thinking about it for so many years.

"And it's a gender-neutral name. A girl can be called Sasha, and a boy can also be called Sasha." Chen Wang said softly, hoping that she would not be troubled by the past, "I don't know what happened between Mr. Qin and this Sasha. What, but if your guess is right, the collection of poems used to express love was returned to Qin Siyuan in the end, which means that the person rejected Qin Siyuan's love in the end, or... when he found out that Qin Siyuan was still He chose you, chose to return to you instead of going to Russia with him, and he didn’t want to waste any more time, so he returned this book.”

Qi Miaomiao blinked, then muttered, "Then Qin Siyuan got into a car accident on the way back to find me..."

Chen Wang sighed helplessly: "I'm just guessing."

But this guess hit Qi Miaomiao, she felt that her phone call had hurt Qin Siyuan, and she covered her face with her hands to hide her sudden out-of-control emotions.If she could confront Qin Siyuan and tear apart the beautiful illusion that Qin Siyuan had woven for many years, she might not be so obsessed with it now, but Qin Siyuan died in a car accident on the way back, leaving her only the beautiful illusion that had been woven for many years The appearance made her unable to even hate him for so many years.

Chen Wang quickly helped her to sit down, he was still so patient and gentle, he moved away Qi Miaomiao's hand, stared into her eyes and said, "It's not your fault."

"The wrong person is Qin Siyuan who cheated on you, and that Sasha." Chen Wang is so sure, "You are the most innocent, and Qin Siyuan deserves to die, you don't need to cry for him, it's not worth it Always keep his stuff."

With pity for the beauty in Chen Wang's eyes, he brushed away Qi Miaomiao's hair that fell to his forehead, and sincerely persuaded: "Forget about that person, forget about his good and his bad. . to live a new life of your own.”

Qi Miaomiao's curled eyelashes fluttered like butterfly wings, and she shed a tear. Chen Wang wiped it off for her, and encouraged her by holding her wrist wearing a cross bracelet: "Embrace love again."

Qi Miaomiao sniffed, as if she was moved by Chen Wang's persuasion, and laughed through tears as if relieved.

Chen Wang also pursed his lips and smiled, this was the last time he saw Qi Miaomiao, she was no longer a pretty little fool, but she still believed in love.

This kind of innocence is innocent and precious.Looking back, her life was generally smooth and happy. Qin Siyuan died on the eve of her love being shattered, and Lu Chong appeared in time to continue her longing for love.

This is a rare kind of luck. It needs a carefree material foundation as the soil, and someone who loves her to water it every day. Chen Yue does not have these conditions. She is not a rich lady, but from the countryside. She is a deaf-mute woman, but when Qi Miaomiao alienated her child because of her failed marriage, Chen Yue has been happy these years, because she has fulfilled the biggest wish in her life, she has a child.

If you ask her why she wants to have children, she will tell you that women want to have children. If you ask her why women have children, she can't tell, but she just believes that women want to have children.

You find it difficult to communicate with her, totally unable to instill logic and rationality, because she is not highly educated like you, and her unintelligent thinking is old and simple.

You are not willing to blame such a woman for being bound by traditional thinking, and you don’t need to feel sorry for such a woman, because she already has happiness, although her definition of happiness is completely different from yours.

This is Chen Yue in front of you.At this moment in the story, she is the person closest to death, but she is also the person who is least afraid of death, because she already has the continuation of life, and when she dies when she is old, the young Chen Qiye will live well.

"I gave Qi Miaomiao your social security certificate and number, and she promised to add your information to the system of the Children's Palace, so that it will be cheaper for you to buy medicine in the future." When Chen Wang said this to Chen Yue, he still stretched out playfully. He made Chen Yue, who could not speak at all, hiss, which meant that this kind of operation was against the rules, and anyone who knew it should keep it a secret.

Chen Yue smiled shyly.Chen Qiye always thought that his mother would have complicated feelings for Chen Wang just like himself, and tried to keep a distance from him. Chen Yue would not take the initiative to contact Chen Wang over the years, but without Chen Wang, there would be no Chen Qiye.

Chen Wang didn't have many things of his own in this old street that was about to be demolished, so he didn't need to pack up, so he was about to leave. Chen Yue tugged at his sleeves, and typed on his mobile phone and asked: [Would you like to go next? where? 】

Chen Wang didn't speak, and when he looked sideways at the phone, the inside of his neck was exposed from his collar, and there were a few red spots on his smooth skin, like hickey marks, or rashes at the initial stage of some diseases.

So Chen Yue asked again: [Will you come back? 】

Chen Wang smiled lightly, and turned his gaze to the mirror in the cramped space.He approached and stood in front of the mirror to check his posture, staring at the mirror as if staring at a wall, behind which there was an audience that never existed and was everywhere.

"Come on," he said to the audience, stepping over the non-existent fourth wall, "I know you don't want to see me again."

Chen Wang just left, lightly, just like he came casually at the beginning.