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On December 2015, 12, Thursday, Christmas Eve, Chen Qiye received a safe fruit from Qin Ge.

Class (1) deserves to be a good brother of class (2). Some time ago, he ate several big baskets of persimmons, and on Christmas Eve, they brought apples.During the evening self-study class, Qin Ge and Lin Ji, who were carrying large cardboard boxes, entered class (2) as if they were in no one's land, and quickly distributed small gift boxes containing apples from the row near the corridor.

The uproar in the class did not stop, especially when Qin Ge sent it to the table of the girl with bangs who wrote him a love letter before, the noise in the classroom boiled to a peak.

Qin Ge put the gift box on the girl's table, and the other party pursed his lips and smiled without speaking. After Qin Ge left, he blushed and whispered to his deskmate.

She was so excited that she stomped her feet. Chen Qiye saw it. It was winter, but she was as happy as a spring breeze.

Then she used both hands to protect the gift box in front of her chest, her eyes followed Qin Ge, and Qin Ge had already walked to the row where Chen Qiye was sitting, and distributed the last few gift boxes to the people in that circle.

"Why are you here to send warmth again?" Zuo Zewen took the gift box with a strange expression on his mouth, and his body was very honest.Lin Ji also walked nearby, and explained loudly: "If you want to thank you, you can thank your class monitor Du Xinyi. She is the one who contacted the merchants who packaged the apples and gift boxes. Qin Ge and I are just two porters without feelings."

(2) All the students in the class focused their attention on Du Xinyi, who had hidden her achievements and fame. After opening the gift box, Du Xinyi smiled and looked at Qin Ge: "What's the matter with the chocolate in there, who put it?"

Qin Ge just passed the last gift box to Chen Qiye.He didn't put it directly on the table like before, but waited for Chen Qiye to reach out to take it. When Chen Qiye heard that there was still chocolate in it, he quickly retracted his slowly extended hand, but Qin Ge remained motionless and remained in the original posture.

The overall atmosphere in the class was harmonious and cheerful. Zuo Zewen saw that the two were at a stalemate, so he kindly wanted to help Chen Xiye get it. Qin Ge quickly raised the gift box and said, "It's not for you."

His volume was not loud, and his tone was casual, but the discussion of the whole class immediately quieted down with his voice.

Chen Qiye quickly stood up, hurriedly took the gift box and opened it, took out the Ferrero inside and started to eat, and opened the other before swallowing the one in his mouth, as if eating it specially for Qin Ge to see.

Qin Ge twitched the corners of his mouth, as if a plan that had been prepared for a long time was unfinished. He left with an empty cardboard box, leaving Lin Ji alone to laugh and liven up the atmosphere for a while.After a while, the class bell rang, and Zuo Zewen poked Chen Xiye's arm with his elbow. Chen Qiye looked at him, but Zuo Zewen was staring at the box full of chocolates that he hadn't finished eating yet.

"Why is your box so solid?" Zuo Zewen muttered while turning his head around.Chen Qiye also looked at other people's gift boxes, only to realize that his own box really contained the most.He had already eaten several apples between classes, but there were still enough Ferrero apples to drown them. If it wasn't that Qin Ge accidentally stuffed too many apples, or Qin Ge took this opportunity to deliberately stuff too many apples.

"Give me some." Zuo Zewen is really thick-skinned. He was slapped by Qin Ge in class, and now he asks Chen Qiye for food with a playful smile, but Chen Qiye is no longer as good-natured as before. After stepping up, he categorically refused: "No."

Before evening self-study, Zuo Zewen wanted to ask Chen Qiye to borrow the math test paper and was rejected for the answer: "..."

Zuo Zewen smacked his mouth, and said "stingy" unwillingly.Chen Qiye ignored him, and carefully flattened the aluminum foil candy wrappers that were torn apart during class, not letting go of the creases at the corners, and then stared at the candy wrappers in a daze with the precious time that could be used to write a finale fill-in-the-blank question , before carefully pressing the candy wrappers into a textbook.

After the evening self-study, Chen Qiye did not go back to the dormitory building immediately as usual. Instead, he wrote his homework in the classroom for a while before going out with his schoolbag on his back. Outside the door, Qin Ge, who was leaning on the railing of the corridor with his shoulders crooked, stood up straight.

Chen Qiye closed the door gently, hesitated for a moment and turned sideways, not pretending not to see Qin Ge.

Qin Ge also walked towards Chen Xiye. He was tall with broad shoulders, broad legs and long legs. His posture was a little twitchy, and the shyness that didn't fit his temperament would be particularly obvious.

Qin Ge scratched his hair casually, coughed and asked, "Can I accompany you back to the dormitory?"

Chen Qiye originally lowered his head, looked up at him, nodded and did not refuse: "Yes."

The two went downstairs together, and it took about 5 minutes to go all the way from the teaching building to the dormitory building. The only conversation between the two during these 5 minutes was as follows:

Qin Ge asked, "Is the chocolate delicious?"

Chen Qiye nodded: "It's delicious."

Qin Ge asked again: "Is chocolate sweet?"

Chen Xiye nodded again: "Sweet."

Qin Ge couldn't find any other topics to talk about, so he kept silent and didn't make any moves like before.In order to re-establish a good image, he even kept a certain distance with restraint. Unless Chen Qiye took the initiative, he would never approach.

But Chen Qiye didn't say anything, and the two finally started talking because of a big physics problem.That afternoon, the three classes of Mathematics, Physics and Chemistry came together for a formal simulation test of comprehensive science. Chen Qiye listened to the students in the class answering the answers, and all other questions agreed. Only this question derived two types of force analysis. Either solution 1 or solution 2 makes sense, but the last number is just different.

Chen Qiye wrote solution 1 on the answer sheet. He thought that solution 2 was caused by not enough restrictions given in the question stem. At night, he casually asked Qin Ge which solution he used, and Qin Ge said categorically that this There are only 2 solutions to the problem.

Chen Qiye didn't believe it. No matter how Qin Ge explained it verbally, he would always refute it.Qin Ge simply asked Chen Xiye for paper and a pen, and pressed the draft paper on the square stone pillar in front of the dormitory building.

"The difference between Solution 1 and Solution 2 is that F=ma or F=dv/dt, that is, whether the object is accelerating uniformly..."

With a swipe of his pen, Qin Ge restored the force analysis diagram and explained it. Chen Qiye had a plan in mind. He listened to Qin Ge's detailed analysis without skipping any steps, and even drew a function diagram that is not a straight line. Only then did he realize the solution 1 There are indeed loopholes.

"...To sum up, this object is not accelerating uniformly, so we can only use F=dv/dt when calculating." Qin Ge finally finished speaking, returned the pen and paper to Chen Qiye, put his hands on his hips, and ran 800 Mi Du is still tired.Chen Qiye had a sad face, and said bitterly, "This question is worth 15 points."

All gone.

Chen Qiye's heart ached, and Qin Ge was not much better.His physics scores are among the best in the whole school, but he has always been impatient and dislikes teaching others to do problems. This is the first time he has put so much effort into it.

In addition to explaining the topic, he also provided after-sales service to comfort Chen Qiye, but how to make people happy is his blind spot in knowledge. Finally, he sighed and leaned against the square stone pillar with a width of two people to force a smile. You know, just a month ago In this position, Chen Qiye let himself be touched.

Qin Ge raised his head and sighed, "It's so hard to chase people."

Chen Qiye hadn't recovered from the regret of losing 15 points: "What?"

"I said—" In order to make himself look serious, Qin Ge stopped laughing, raised his head and chest and said solemnly, "I'm chasing you."

Chen Qiye blinked once, then again, his breathing became a little rapid along with his heartbeat.

"Otherwise, why would I go to such lengths to send you Ferrero, and ask your permission before accompanying you back to the dormitory." Qin Ge felt Chen Qiye's uneasiness, his brows and eyes stretched, and his smile was a bit naughty, deep in his bones Decent again.

But Chen Qiye was not moved, and without warning, he rushed to the door of the dormitory building. Qin Ge quickly grabbed his arm and dragged him back.

"What's the matter?" Qin Ge still smiled. He didn't feel that he said anything wrong, but Chen Qiye's chest heaved, and there was a kind of...offended and humiliated cowardice in his eyes.

Qin Ge gave an irritable "tsk", and wanted to lament that Chen Xiye was too hard to chase, but Chen Qiye was a little annoyed, and asked, "You're afraid of delaying that girl's college entrance examination, why aren't you afraid of delaying me?"

Qin Ge was taken aback for a moment, and it took five or six seconds before he remembered who Chen Qiye was referring to, and emphasized, "That's different."

Chen Qiye looked directly at Qin Ge and waited for his explanation, his eyes were piercing, as if he wanted to force him to say what was different, Qin Ge stuck his back to the square pillar again, and surrendered in front of Chen Qiye. Look into the eyes of others.

Chen Qiye didn't say another word, and went straight into the door of the dormitory building, and left without saying "goodbye" to Qin Ge.

According to this situation, Qin Ge didn't need to wait for Chen Qiye to leave class the next day, and he didn't plan to wait, because that night happened to be the New Year's Eve party of the senior three group, and all the students would break up after watching the show instead of going back In the classroom, Qin Ge still didn't know what Chen Qiyexin's cell phone number was. If the two didn't agree on where to meet in advance, they would be looking for a needle in a haystack if they wanted to find each other after the performance.

So Qin Ge was very irritable and had a headache.He didn't want to admit that Chen Qiye was the cause of his irritability and headache, but the closer he got to the stage, the more irritated and headache he got. He sat silently in the backstage lounge and ignored no one. To fight and beat people.

Du Xinyi, the chairman of the student union, has not yet resigned. Of course, she is also present in cultural activities such as the New Year's Day performance. Other staff and classmates dare not approach Qin Ge. She does not forget to sit next to Qin Ge while she is busy, and her eyes are on him. He wandered around with a gloomy face and the guitar in his hand, and reminded: "It's your turn for the next group."

Lin Ji also leaned over to touch Qin Ge's hand. Qin Ge felt that he was gay, so he threw it away impatiently. I beg you, this is not a dress rehearsal, it is really about to fight the bayonet, so please don't miss it again."

"Hmm." Qin Ge exhaled from his nostrils, which sounded perfunctory, but the way he frowned and rubbed his temples with his hands really gave him a headache, and he couldn't hear others bothering him during the final resting moment.

This discomfort did not get better with the passage of time. On the contrary, the surrounding sounds gradually became blurred to him, and became more and more concentrated and sharp, and finally turned into a straight buzzing "line". He stood in the middle of the stage and was illuminated by spotlights. He could only see the boundary of the light circle and the endless darkness beyond the boundary in the floating dust.

Cold sweat broke out on Qin Ge's forehead.

There is something lingering in his heart, like a dense haze that blinds his eyes, binds his hands and chokes his throat, forcing him to face up to the unfreedom of his soul.

Qin Ge's condition was not right.

He should have stopped the show in time, and he saw Chen Xiye sitting on the steps in the aisle.

——Chen Qiye was also watching him.

He knew that everyone present was paying attention to the stage at the moment, and he could still be sure that Chen Qiye had only him in his eyes.Chen Qiye is really a nerd. He always brings homework when he comes to the cultural performances. The interior decoration of this art museum is similar to the Great Hall of the People. The biggest difference lies in the number of seats and the sign on the roof. The great hall uses red stars. The Wenzhong Art Museum used the same red word "Wen". After taking his seat, Chen Qiye looked up and stared at it for a long time. Also younger brother.

Then he lost interest in art museums and performances. What attracted his attention was not the singing and dancing on the stage but the host's announcement. He only said, "Please ask Class 1 ([-]) of Senior High School to bring us a band performance." Then he raised his head and watched Qin Ge, who was holding the guitar, walk to the spotlight in the middle of the stage.

Chen Qiye straightened his back and stretched his neck involuntarily.His position is close to the aisle, and several girls who were originally taking pictures at the back ran along the aisle to the stage to take a close-up shot of Qin Ge, but Qin Ge uncooperatively raised his chin and stared ahead, not making eye contact with anyone touch.

At first, Chen Qiye thought that Qin Ge was pretending to be cool.He is really cool. For the stage effect, all the people on stage have put on makeup. The makeup artist in the backstage helped Qin Ge modify his eyebrows, and strengthened the small detail of broken eyebrows. With the already sharp and three-dimensional facial features, he was especially rebellious.

Chen Qiye had to admit that Qin Ge was handsome and had his own aura, and he was dazzling enough to stand on the stage without the need for a spotlight.

He liked Qin Ge who flaunted his personality. Those who brought their cameras and squatted under the stage paid attention to Qin Ge, and there were countless people in the dark auditorium who silently admired Qin Ge.

And he is also one of the thousands of people in the auditorium.

There was a desire in his heart for Qin Ge to see him too, but it was far from desire/desire. The catalyst that made this impulse into action in a single thought was nothing more than Qin Ge's aimless glance.

Only Chen Xiye would feel familiar with that look, thus capturing his silent pleading for help.With just one glance, Chen Qiye left his safe zone without hesitation, squatted on the steps of the aisle, and waited at the place closest to Qin Ge.

They looked at each other as if they had passed away, and brought them back to the afternoon when the whole Wenlin Middle School took a nap together.

At this time, the logistics staff finally placed the drum kit and radio equipment.Another spotlight came on behind Qin Ge and hit Lin Ji. Lin Ji raised his hands and crossed his drumsticks and made regular beating sounds. The other musicians played their instruments after the drumsticks were struck three times. Ge opened his voice after four eight beats, and sang the lyrics of "High School Students Only Care About Grades":

"I only care about whether the phonetic notation of the dotted words is all correct

I only care about choosing A or C for the last math question

I only care about whether Li Hua has received my letter

I only care about whether the force-bearing area of ​​the object will produce friction or be clean enough..."

When Qin Ge sang the first line, laughter erupted in the auditorium, but when a section ended, the uproar disappeared, followed by a very contrasting silence.

All the audience present were high school seniors. In the eyes of their parents and teachers, their ideal state might be to live as if they only cared about studying in the sprint stage of the college entrance examination, so they were all laughing at first, thinking this song was very nonsensical.

But the melody of this song is very typical rock music.The lyrics are as serious as a commandment, and the style of music is lively and rebellious. Some power is accumulating and waiting for an opportunity to resist. Qin Ge's voice is getting higher and higher in each "I only care about..." one after another, as if trying to break through the shackles and go upstream.

But in the end, Qin Ge just opened his hands and stopped strumming the guitar, and the melody began to repeat instead of ushering in another climax.Anyone who has watched the rehearsal knows that the song selected by the homeroom teacher Jiang Zhishu could have hidden secrets. Qin Ge really just sang an ordinary song, and the spirit of rebellion only exists in those who want to rebel. in people's imagination.

And Chen Qiye stared at the singers on the stage with his chin resting on his shoulders, without guessing, thinking, fearing, or thinking, and never took his eyes off from the beginning to the end.It was enough to have Qin Ge in his eyes, and only Qin Ge.

Then Wenlin Middle School, who was dozing off, was about to wake up.

The lights wake up; the people who listen to the music wake up; the people who sing also wake up.The whole world outside the art museum never stops running. In the reality that lasts all night, studies, family, future and future are the most important. Everyone should be a high school student who only cares about grades, but——

"But—" Qin Ge held Mai again, and looked at Chen Qiye who was sitting alone on the steps.

Rather than saying that he looked at Chen Qiye, it was better to say that he responded to Chen Qiye who had been staring at him.Whether he was five years old or young, Chen Qiye was always the one who silently provided emotional value.

Chen Qiye was undoubtedly brave.He was the one who confessed first, and he was the one who didn't get entangled after the breakup. He would rather bury his feelings deep in his heart than Qin Ge to bear the entanglements of the previous generation, but even if the two of them couldn't go back, as long as Qin Ge needed, Chen Qiye would It will appear to accompany you in the nearest place.

Then go forward, Qin Ge thought.Tell Chen Xiye what is different in front of thousands of people, Chen Qiye said that to himself many times, but he cowardly never revealed it once.

Until this moment—

He was fully exposed under the lights, and he finally dared to put all his eggs in one basket and challenge reality:

"Fuck it, I like you!"

The scene of thousands of people was extremely silent, and then there was an extremely thunderous applause, which flooded the last melody of the band.Jiang Zhishu, who was sitting in the judges' seat, remained calm, as if all this was expected.

The teacher next to him saw more and more students standing up from their seats and cheering for the band. He was afraid that the scene would be out of control, but Jiang Zhishu reassured him not to panic. It’s too big, it’s good to release it today.”

The band on the stage continued to complete the final ensemble. Off the stage, Chen Qiye, who was sitting on the steps, was probably the only one who didn't get up.He was originally at the place closest to Qin Ge, but now he is blocked by the students who are swaying with the melody. .

A speck of dust settled in Qin Ge's palm.