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I have never regretted my impulsive behavior that day, even though Sui Yuan's subsequent reaction made me a little embarrassed-after he sent me to the hospital, he left without saying anything, and he never came again during the half month I was hospitalized glanced at me...

Even though my heart was full of doubts about him, I couldn't find a way to vent it at all—he disappeared.

The teacher said that he had transferred, and that was the day I was discharged from the hospital.His parents were transferred at work, so he didn't even have time to say hello, so he followed them to another city...

It made me feel even more hopeless, or rather expected - since then, I have never received a pink love letter...

No, specifically, the day after I was discharged from the hospital I received the last one—it was on gray letterhead with one sentence—

"Wang Ye, maybe you misunderstood something."

I know, I'm out of love...even though we've never started before...

Since Sui Yuan left, my life seemed to quickly return to the way it was a long time ago.

Going to class and leaving get out of class all day long, the spirit is muddled, but the desire has nowhere to hide - as the saying goes, it is difficult to go from extravagance to frugality.

The only difference is that I can't help thinking about him.When I brush my teeth in the morning, during recess, during self-study in the afternoon, when I go to bed at night...

I have a notebook full of Sui Yuan's name - I wrote it down when I missed him.I told myself to write his name every time I think of him—and now I'm almost done writing that notebook...

Sometimes, the so-called youth sounds like a joke.

I never thought that there would be a day in my life where I would meet Sui Yuan again.

It was an informal dinner for the company to welcome new colleagues when I just changed my second job.Because it was near the end of the year, many old colleagues also volunteered to participate, so the organizers simply regarded it as a year-end party.A group of people arrived at the restaurant in a mighty manner, and sat around six tables full.

Since I just joined the job, I seemed a little reserved, I didn't pay much attention to others, I just kept my head down and binge-eating, and I raised my glass to respond when someone made a toast... Then, Sui Yuan appeared in front of me so unexpectedly.

"I'm Sui Yuan from the technical department, I wish everyone a happy new year in advance..."

He stood behind the colleague who was seated directly opposite me, and raised a glass to invite everyone to drink.Soon he saw me.My heart was beating wildly, and with the end of half a high school and a whole college career, I was indulging in his inadvertent glance without hesitation...

And he was just a little dazed, and then quickly recovered his calm.

"Long time no see, Wang Ye." He nodded to me and smiled - just like any old classmate he hasn't seen for a long time, looking polite and alienated.

Ever since I saw Sui Yuan at the party that day, I haven't met him again for a long time.

It would be a lie to say that I have no expectations for him in my heart. The thick stack of pink letter paper is still carefully stored in a big iron box by me, just like storing my fragile and stubborn paper. Feelings, stay with me, alone against the erosion of the torrent of time...

Although I already know that Sui Yuan doesn't love me, I still have to admit that I can't forget him...

It doesn't matter if we don't see each other, even if we do meet, it will only increase troubles in vain.

I work in the logistics department, and the logistics work is related to various departments. The work is complicated and trivial, and requires great patience.My boss is impatient, and the only requirement for his subordinates is a quick solution.His catchphrase: "The logistics are never done, so we need to hurry up and hurry up."

When the job of printing the promotional materials of the exhibition was handed over to me, there were less than 8 hours left before the opening of the exhibition... The boss was so anxious that he would call me almost every half hour to ask me to print the materials Condition.

Stimulated by his life-threatening serial calls, I finally printed all the materials and sent them to the venue with less than 4 hours left.

"What the hell are you printing?" The boss casually flipped through a copy, then threw it on my head, "Didn't you see the new copy I sent you yesterday? Huh? Don't you know that the technical department has changed the plan?!"

My heart skipped a beat, and my mind suddenly went blank.I haven't been online for a whole day, new plans or something, I really don't know anything...

"I'm sorry, I'll reprint it right away..." I ran away with the pile of scrapped materials, but I didn't know anything about it - the logistics department was in charge of the venue layout, and everyone was busy now, so it was impossible at this juncture Deploy people to do such unskilled things.However, the situation is urgent, and I can't finish it alone.

"Let me help you... I just finished my work."

Sui Yuan appeared out of nowhere, and naturally took more than half of the documents in my arms, ignoring me who was a little dazed, and walked towards the printing room on his own.

"What are you still doing in a daze?" He turned his head and found me in a daze: "There are less than three hours left..."

The new product presentation was a great success.At the celebration banquet, the big boss stood on the stage and raised a glass to invite everyone to drink together, looking a little drunk...

I was picking food on the buffet table with a big plate, but I didn't notice that Sui Yuan came to me.

"This crab is not bad, the crab paste is quite plump..." he suggested aloud.

Only then did I discover his, and I picked one up on my plate.

"Thank you!", I said - not only for this crab, but also for the generous help last time.

"Why are you being polite? They're all buddies."

There was no trace of strangeness on his face, as if he had no nostalgia for the past—or never cared?

"Sui Yuan, have you ever liked me before?", I suddenly couldn't help asking him.

I don't think it's awkward to ask this question in this situation.

I don't have time to play ambiguous and chasing games with him anymore, and I'm not in the mood to worry about following his ups and downs -- at worst, I'll tear my skin apart.

He owed me an answer for far too long.

I struggled and struggled for him for seven whole years. During these seven years, I wondered almost every day, did he ever have a good impression of me, even a little bit?

If all the love letters he wrote to me were teasing me, what about his eyes?

I don't believe I did what he said - misunderstood.

I don't believe that he doesn't have love, and I don't believe that everything is my own imagination.What's more, it was written in black and white in the letter, he let me understand him, let me wait for him, he told me that he wanted to hug me and kiss me-I couldn't believe that all these feelings were fake.

I stared into his eyes, and even regretted that my aggressiveness came too late...

"Wang Ye...you...", his eyes flickered a little: "...this is a company party, let's wait until..."

"Answer me!", I said loudly, "What about the aura of you writing a love letter to me? What about your determination to say that you like me and want to be with me forever? The letter is so swearing, but in reality you can only love me." Is it like this? How do you..."

"Wait!" Sui Yuan interrupted me before I finished speaking: "Wang Ye... have you misunderstood something? I have never written you a love letter..."

I thought about countless reasons for being rejected by Sui Yuan, but I never expected him to choose this one.

I can't help but despise myself, look, the person you've been thinking about for so many years is such a scumbag.He didn't even dare to deny it directly, but chose such a clumsy method in an attempt to cover it up...

How ridiculous!

After I got home that day, I laughed for a long time in the room, the laughter was painful and hoarse, and I couldn't breathe from the laughter...

And then no surprises.The next day, I fell ill.

The high fever reached almost 40 degrees, making me dizzy as if being boiled in boiling water...

The illness came and went quickly, and I lay in the hospital in a daze for a few days, feeling as if I had been skinned and cramped, as if I was saying goodbye to the past in an extremely tragic way.

After the fever subsided, I dug out everything related to Sui Yuan—those pink letterheads, those notebooks filled with his name, those diaries related to him, those secretly hidden photos of him...

I threw them in an iron bucket and set them on fire.

"Goodbye!", I said to the flame: "Goodbye, Sui Yuan..."

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