My baby tame dyed bandages to become semen

"This is the only world he lived to write."*

Dazai felt like a bird, accelerating towards the direction in his heart.

The wind in my ears is loud, and it hurts to cut my face.The past life is like a revolving lantern, passing quickly in his mind.

His life was abruptly divided in two.

Everything starts with getting the "book".

That "book", that "book" that can rewrite reality and realize wishes, is the source of lust and the beginning of evil.

People chase it like hyenas chase their prey.

As a result, Yokohama was raging with war and restless.

If there is only this problem, the young man named Dazai must have a more perfect solution.

but……

Dazai gained "self" memory.

The world is a false lie.

The world Dazai lives in is the world in the "book".

Once someone uses the "book" in this world, it is very likely that the world will be destroyed.

It stands to reason that Dazai doesn't care about the survival of the world.

In other words, if the world collapsed, he would applaud instead.

but……

The sound of clinking glasses is so crisp, and the days of talking and laughing with friends in the bar are so vivid.

The smile on the face is rare and real, and the relaxed mood remains in the bottom of my heart.

Dazai Osamu, Oda Saku, Ango.

The small chat of the three people is a beautiful moment that "I" cherishes very much.

Dazai is stuck in the memory of another self.

but……

Odasaku died.

While "I" was still alive, Odasaku died.

Before leaving, he stepped into the lonely world belonging to "me", pointing out a way to the future for "me".

How could it be forgotten?

"My" best friend, his name is Oda Sakunosuke.Once a hitman, he's now a lower-level mafia who rescues orphans and dreams of making a home.

Later, he turned into a lump of loess.

Dazai who got this memory received a severe shock.

At that time, he was only 14 years old. After leaving home, he was picked up by Mr. Mori who was a doctor, and he followed Mr. Mori to join the port mafia.

At that time, whether he was concerned about his future life or his own pursuit, he was completely in the fog.

For example, if a person eats half-cooked, bland porridge and side dishes for 14 years, and suddenly eats delicious food at the level of a world chef, wouldn't he be obsessed with it?

That memory is the same for 14-year-old Dazai.

The emotions in the memory are strong and vivid.

Happy, relaxed, hated, depressed, regretful, bewildered, nostalgic...

These feelings make Dazai's pale and boring life suddenly interesting.

Dazai was immersed in the memory and couldn't extricate himself.

Besides Odasaku, there was another person in that life that Dazai had never met.

Xiyuexiao.

The childhood of "I" in memory.

The delicate-looking child with golden eyes has been by "me" since he was six years old.

He and "I" will go to school together, go home together, share each other's bento together, and pass the free time together.

He is responsive to "I" and always looks at "I" with focus and enthusiasm.

"I dislike him.

No.

Dazai thought.

From the age of six to 14, if such a person appeared beside me...

While obsessed with that memory, Dazai almost took those pasts as part of himself.

Then he suddenly woke up, if Oda Saku belongs to the future that has not yet met, then what about Yuzuki Akatsuki?

There has never been a trace of Xiyue Xiao in my life.

"Evening Moon" has never appeared in Qingjin County.

The purple-haired, golden-eyed child never knocked on the door of Tsushima House.

Dazai's tablemate was nothing special.

Naturally, no one would hide from the servant, bring him the "contraband" in the house, and spend countless long nights with him.

Even the matter of going to school was Dazai's own argument.

In memory, those gazes that made another self feel puzzled, angry and disgusted, and those things that were done based on "I".

Instead, it became the spark that Dazai chased after.

But in the past that has happened, Dazai and Yuzuki Akatsuki never met.

Naturally, they will not meet again at the age of 22.

The future that belonged to the two no longer exists.

After Dazai calmed down, the first thing he did was to look for Yahara.

Then he found nowhere.

Dazai began to investigate everything about Yuzuki Akatsuki in his memory.

This is a world without a king, Shinto is almost extinct here, and there is no family in Tokyo...

Everything related to Xiyue Xiao disappeared without a trace.

Dazai went to Kumamoto.

After comparison, Yahara in memory is located in Kumamoto.

Dazai didn't want to give up.

That was the only other half he had that belonged to him.

That is the only hope in a desperate situation.

That was his eve.

however……

Dazai looked at the dry riverbed in front of him, not the colorful river full of splendor in his memory.

"Why?"

Dazai sat on the embankment and talked to himself.

"Why does the other self have everything?"

"Odasaku's friendship, Yuzuki's attention and love, companions who move forward together..."

The red scarf was gently blown by the breeze, the young man in black was pale, with a mocking smile, his iris eyes were full of darkness.

At the age of 14, Dazai found the river of time in his memory.

Unable to touch the mysteries, he couldn't be sure if the river was inhabited by the gods in his memory.

In a world where Shinto is extinct, there is no one else to ask.

Dazai returned to Yokohama in a daze.

"I still have Odasaku." Dazai muttered to himself, "No, Odasaku wants to be a family."

Once he joins Hong Kong and Heilongjiang, it is impossible for Oda Saku to realize his dream.

Dazai clearly understood this fact.

The man named Mori Ogai is a ruthless character who can put himself on the balance as a weight in order to realize the three-quarter vision and maintain the stability of Yokohama.

Once he joins Gang Hei, Odasaku's supernatural powers doomed him to be unable to disappear from everyone.

If he doesn't want to be Mr. Mori's sharp blade, he will become Mr. Mori's pawn for profit.

Like Oda Saku from another world, he will sleep in the ground forever.

Dazai decided to protect the world where Oda was still alive.

In order to achieve this goal, Dazai is far more patient than his other self, and has won the trust of Mr. Mori.

In the end, he killed with one blow and became the youngest leader of Hong Kong gangsters.

"Xiyue, in order to protect this world, I am going to do a big thing."

Dazai looked at the riverbed.

"If Xiyue could speak, would she stop me?"

The sneer on his lips turned into a real smile.

"I don't know if I can see you. Although it's true that I really want to meet Xiyue, if possible, I'd better not meet again."

The young man closed his eyes.

"Please let me sleep well when the time comes, and it is best to have a dream that I will never wake up from."

Suddenly, a burst of insects sounded in the forest.

Dazai picked up the phone.

"Boss, it's time."

The subordinate's reminder interrupted Dazai's narration.

Dazai jumped up, and the hem of his black clothes flew in the air.

"Xiyue, goodbye."

The thin and slender figure of the young man is like a piece of paper or a wisp of smoke.

The breeze blew, and the figure was hidden in the forest.

Since finding the River of Time, Dazai has been spending a day in Kumamoto every autumn.

Even if he becomes the leader is no exception.

The senior officials in Hong Kong and black know the habits of the newly appointed leader.

As a cadre, Nakahara Chuya repeatedly reminded Dazai that as a leader, he should not fix his schedule every year to prevent the enemy from catching loopholes.

Dazai still appeared in Kumamoto this year unshakably.

"If you don't replenish Yuzuki's energy, I will break down immediately."

Facing Nakahara Chuya's cursing persuasion, Dazai replied like this.

Dazai facilitated the encounter between Odasaku and the Armed Detective Agency, and he personally pushed his best friend to help others.

There, Odasaku can adopt orphans and write with a pen. He will never worry about losing his qualifications for writing.

For the realization of the plan.

Dazai took away Gin Akutagawa in front of Ryunosuke Akutagawa, he brought Atsushi Nakajima to Gang Hei, and put Izumi Kyoka next to Atsushi Nakajima.

As he thought, Akutagawa Ryunosuke was brought into the Armed Detective Agency by Oda Saku.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa is in the light, and Atsushi Nakajima is in the darkness full of killings.

Watching this pair of doomed opponents and partners, watching their fate reversed.

Dazai felt compassionate.

There is no way, only in this way can I protect this world.

That mercy was not directed at Akutagawa and Atsushi, but at Dazai himself.

"so tired."

Dazai once sat on the edge of the river embankment and sighed.

Without Oda, it would be tiring to solve the Mimic invasion.In order to maintain the underground order in Yokohama, it was exhausting not to close my eyes for four years.I have been thinking hard all the time, and I am tired of constantly calculating for the future of Yokohama.

22 years old.

Dazai hears that Oda Saku is going to publish a book.

The plan has reached the final stage, and he couldn't hold back the excitement in his heart.

Make up your mind to meet him.

In that familiar but unfamiliar Lupine bar, Odasaku pointed a gun at Dazai with a vigilant face.

Dazai rambled about the things he regretted in his memory.

He knows it.

I personally cut off the possibility of getting acquainted with Oda Saku.

His unwillingness, his struggle, his pain.

All feelings stolen from another self.

It's completely expected that Odasaku would treat himself like this.

Because of this Oda Tsukuru, he didn't know himself as the leader of Hong Kong gangsters at all.

Dazai is not a friend of Sakunosuke Oda.

The same reason.

His longing, his heartbeat, his hope.

It is also something stolen from another self.

This is a world without Xiyuexiao.

Dazai will never be able to meet him again, never be able to hold hands with him, and never be able to walk into the palace of marriage with him.

No one has always endured his demands, no one has always satisfied his demands, no one will carry him to a new day after every time he cheats.

Dazai is not Yuzuki Akatsuki's partner.

Dazai is sober and calm, he knows that he has nothing but memories that do not belong to him.

Fortunately, it's all over.

Dazai tells Akutagawa and Atsushi the truth.

He could finally close his eyes in peace.

At the same time, a certain existence woke up from a deep sleep.

The author has something to say: *Quoted from the original dialogue.

This Zai didn't know that another Oda Saku survived and was blocked by the world line. The leader Zai was talking about the reunion with Yuzuki at the age of 22, which proved that he didn't know about the meeting.

Miserable or the leader Zai Mian.

As for where Xiyue is, see you tomorrow!

感谢在2020-07-0718:04:23~2020-07-0817:59:41期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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